10 And Also 11, If It Suits You!

10 and also 11, if it suits you!

10 - Something that reminds you of your canon?

Trees. I have no idea why. Maybe my tower was surrounded by oak in Arvandor. I just know that the feeling of bark on a cool, wet day has sparked too many memories for it to be a coincidence.

11 - Was there someone you wished you had gotten to know better? If so, who?

Ollie, my creation, or in less clinical terms, my son. I had created him as a vessel but ultimately abandoned him and sent him off to go live a mortal's life. Eventually started keeping an eye on him and forged a contract with him, as his adoptive father had gained immortality and I needed to put a stop to that. After the terms of our contract were fulfilled, I made him my chosen. Our bond danced the lines between god and chosen, boss and employee, father and son, friends - Corellon had asked me once if I had taken a mortal lover "or something". That was horribly awkward.

Karlach: I hate Gortash. He's the worst person alive, and he's gonna be passing that title on to the second worst person alive soon. He doesn't even realize just how dead he's gonna be.

Dark Urge (whispering to Astarion): i'm like 98% sure I fucked that guy. don't tell her.

Gale.

Most wonderful afternoon, Labelas! 6 (perhaps pertaining to Mystryl, or any other God you happen to remember?), 9 and 14 for the ask game!

Afternoon to you as well!! This was insanely fun to write

6 - Memory with [Mystryl]

While my knowledge of my doings before the spellplague is limited, I remember Mystryl. For a specific memory, when we created the Time Conduit spell together. She was sick of time travelers, I was sick of time travelers, we got together and with my mastery (or, at that time, more like loose grasp) of the continuum and her mastery of the weave we created a spell to prevent mortals from screwing with my domain. Unfortunately this did not pertain to gods, as I would shortly find out. Fuck you Moonbow.

I remember that the time of our collaboration was one of the first that I had been respected as my own deity instead of an extension of Corellon and for that I am immensely grateful to her. As the goddess of the entire weave and then some, her opinion of me carried heavy weight that thankfully carried past that of her passing. I never got close to Mystra, unfortunately, as by the time she had rose to power I had become a bit more bitter than I would like to admit.

9 - If you could change anything you did in canon / go back and do something you didn’t do, what would it be?

Oh! I quite literally just talked about that. What a fortunate transition. One of the things I would do is try harder to reject Corellon's influence. As the father of elvenkind he had a harsh grip on all of the Seldarine and wanted to mold most of us to his image. Now - I make him out to be much more malicious than he truely was. I was naive and vulnerable and he simply rubbed off on me too much. His influence, by none of his will, turned me from a stoic yet gentle god to a bitter and somewhat harsh one.

If I had never undergone that transition, I would have probably been more acquainted with Mystra, but Corellon convinced me that I was above the doings of mortals and so for a goddess so devoted to ensuring her domain was secure to the point of collaborating with mortals - well, I wasn't a fan. Wow that was a long sentence. This sentiment goes for many gods, actually.

Even though the two are directly related and I had to go back and only change ONE action, I would never have abandoned Ollie how I did. I had originally created him as my own vessel but his resemblance to a drow made me see him as unfit. I can't blame Corellon for that one - it was my own hatefulness. I could have used him as my vessel, or I could have, at the very least, raised him to be his own god, however that would have worked. He was destined for so much greatness and the moment I sent him off to mortal parents I threw it away.

14 - What was something you loved in your canon?

Reading. I loved reading. I was an archivist, so naturally I documented the doings of both mortals and the gods. Because I was so against meddling with mortals, my only exposure to the mortal world was books written by them. I mostly read those written by elves, but I did read some academic papers from all over Toril. I quite enjoyed reading about Drizzt a few years after that ordeal had started - the idea of a 'good drow' was very novel to me. It was also one of my only pastimes. When I wasn't having an aggressive staring contest with the continuum or dealing with some mortal who time-fucked a bit too close to the sun I was reading. When I reconnected with Ollie, I swooped him into my domain for hours-long tea parties where I shared all of my favorite books with him.

Labelas, go one post without mentioning Corellon challenge. Level: Impossible.

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