Friendly Reminder

Friendly reminder

“Doing your best” does not mean working yourself to the point of a mental breakdown.

Oh, this definitely belongs on Tumblr.

the autism thing of having to learn to preface every question you ask with Holy Shit I'm Just Curious Please Dont Yell At Me because it turns out a lot of questions seem to Mean Something and people will get mad if you ask them

reblogging again in lieu of my most recent post

origins odasaku + other doodles

(it was then the day fukuzawa became a single mother of two)

i think people gloss over lady nagant's hurt and actual emotions too often and just skip straight to "she wanted to be a hero, she was just disillusioned". like yes, that's her core feeling, that at the end of the day she was good and virtuous. but there was also heaps of guilt and resentment and disillusionment piled on top of that. saying "oh but she's a good person at heart" invalidates all of her hurt. this was never about whether she was truly good or evil, it was always, at its core, that she had reached a breaking point, and she was done being a martyr for the perfect, idealized hero society that everyone took for granted.

i'm not trying to say "therefore she was actually bad", i just think that a major part of what makes lady nagant interesting is the conflict between the altruism at her core and the desire for her own self-respect which was at war with her role as a hero.

at the end of the day, she shot the president because her personal feeling was that she didn't want to kill anymore. and i don't think that, at the time, she was thinking about the general corruption of society and how that was linked to the hits she carried out. like yes, obviously, having government sanctioned black ops assassins is a bad thing, so therefore, putting a stop to it would be "for the greater good" "to achieve a less corrupt society". but in that moment, she was not killing "for the greater good of society". that single bullet was different from every other bullet she's shot, because it wasn't shot with the belief that it was for the greater good, but she shot the president for her own sake alone.

in an ironic twist, you could say that the shot she fired in a moment of "selfishness" was "good", whereas the shots she fired out of her sense of heroism were "evil", and that's a far more fascinating aspect of lady nagant to think about, rather than just boiling her down to "she's good and altruistic at heart and she saw the corruption of hero society and got fed up with it". this is a true statement but also an oversimplification of her backstory.