Violetv75 - Other Try - Tumblr Blog

being at work while your personal life is falling apart has to be among the top 3 worst human experiences. You’re at your absolute lowest and someone wants to circle back on an email…… unreal

i hate when people ask how i’m doing like.. horrible. next question

The pain is always worse at night.

I'm alone, I'm unwanted, I'm annoying, no one wants me. No one ever will.

“Healing can be so hard when your inner child wants love, your teenage self wants revenge, and your current self only wants peace” ❤️‍🩹

Sometimes killing myself doesn't feel like enough. Sometimes I think I need to be erased from history

I hate everything about myself, burn me to ashes, pour acid over my already rotted body, end my misery

i love becoming distant to everyone bc one random thursday night i noticed the people i cared about didn’t care about me the way i did haha

I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not interesting, I'm not funny, I'm not talented. What the fuck am I.

Why does no one tell you that when you have a mental illness it never really goes away after therapy. You could be doing great for a while, years even but then one day guess who’s back starts playing and it’s ya best mate *insert mental illness here* come to visit.

I was kinda hoping it’d be like a toxic friend that you know for a while but then you cut ties with. Not a toxic sibling that keeps asking for rent money every now and then.

Bruh

im this close to self harm again

I don't even know what I'm crying about anymore; it all just hurts so much

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean to be like that. I don't want to act this way.

I'm sorry I can't communicate. I'm sorry that I try and push you away. I'm sorry. I just want you with me.

I'm sorry that I can't say that to you. I'M SORRY.

I'm so fucking sorry please don't leave me?

I know I'm hard to love. I KNOW.

I don't want to be like this.

I promise I am trying to change.

I promise I can act normal.

Please?

been thinking about suicide a lot as of late

i started isolating myself and ignoring people as always, great to know I'll never get better

can someone shoot me in the head actually

real

An hour of chaos in my mind before back to nothingness 💖

why can't I just feel like everyone else; why has every single one of my emotions to feel like they take over my entire being and eventually my entire mood for the rest of the day?

I wanna smoke a cigarette. I wanna cut. I wanna kill myself. I wanna starve. Everything I want rn is self destruction.

I want someone to notice, but on the other hand, i don’t.

i am so tired of everything around me. if there's a way i could vanish without an explanation, i would.

I want to live, but I don't see the point in it. The happy moments are incredibly brief. Meanwhile, the all-consuming sadness, disappointment, emptiness, fear, seems almost constant.

you ever just want to cut even if you don't really have a reason just because you miss the feeling of the cuts or am i losing it