Book Log 3

Book log 3

Our heroine met Jesus. And what a gorgeous meet-cute it was. Along with him she also met a longing she’d never had before. One of a different kind of love. Of it she says, “I loved others but not in this way, not with ache and sweetness and flame. Not more than I loved words. Jesus had put his hand to the latch and I was flung open.”

Uffff.

This book is a heroine’s journey and our beautiful heroine, Ana, right now, is akin more to a fangirl than the usual heroine, the superheroine or the Disney princess. It just got me thinking about fangirls (this Ted video about how amazing they (we) are). More fangirl appreciation coming soon.

Beautiful sentences are still abound and beautiful questions too - “How can we know the ways of god?” I’m afraid of finishing this book too quickly. I don’t want to reveal the plot here but let me know if you’d like some description of the story as I read ahead.

Please go buy this book - The Book of Longings - & read the story of a girl not unlike all of us, who want to be free and love and most of all raise their voice.

The only way to become a writer is to write. You need to write and find your own voice... I always get incredibly uncomfortable helping writers because the truth is I can be doing more harm than good. There's no right or wrong way to write stories.... Everyone's voice is different and readers have different tastes. I have a very minimalistic style. I use fewer words to convey more emotions . Short sentences with more punch is what I prefer. I don't go into a lot of detail because I want the reader to engage with me, to use their own imagination and fill in the gaps ....that way the story becomes personal for them.... They have a part in creating it.....

Now if your writing style is incredibly detailed , I may tell you to cut down on the words.... Because that's my style.

But the truth is... plenty of people enjoy detailed story telling. Its a Very beautiful form of writing as well.

So, make sure you find your own voice. People can sometimes mislead you.

Book Log 2: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

This is a sentence I just read from this gorgeous book: I formed each letter in Greek with slow, reverential movements, as if my hands were building little ink temples for God to inhabit.

I MEAN?!

When I read a great, beautifully constructed sentence, I marvel with a little envy for not having written it. But this? This is taking me beyond envy because it’s what I’m going to be thinking of each time I write myself. It makes me think I WANT TO BUILD LITTLE INK TEMPLES FOR GOD TO INHABIT.

It’s overwhelming and heartwarming to read something that’s written so beautifully. I’m reading and rereading constantly, excited by the volume of carefully crafted sentences I hold in my hand. If this is not magic, I don’t know what is.

The prayer that’s in this book should be on my wall, on the walls of all the girls to whom our useless patriarchal culture says - not enough.

The chutzpah of this beautiful character is contagious. Thank you, Madame SMK.

@moonlit-sunflower-writes THANK YOU FOR THIS I NEED IT FRAMED IN MY HOME.

writing should be fun.

make oc playlists. spend hours on moodboards that have no purpose. write self-indulgent fluff that’s never going to be published. scribble three lines of poetry in the back of your history notebook. draw fanart of your own characters. write stupid dialogue that your publishers might hate. start new wips that you might never finish but write those three chapters that make you happy because if you don’t write them, who else will?

writing shouldn’t always be about “will publishers like this” or “i have to reach this word count” or “how do i get the most likes”.

have fun with your writing.

Fangirl Manifesto

Just because it’s in my mind why does that make it not real?

What does it matter what's real? I feel this ache in my heart. I know it comes from a love so deep it makes me cry. The lines, ‘ab toh hai tumse hai har khushi apni, Tum pe marna hai zindagi apni’ echo in my heart as the truth. Does it really matter, then, that this love, this pain comes from a relationship that doesn't exist? This pain comes from tales I spin, to tell myself in relation to him who is little more than the glimpse of an idea through smoke & mirrors. I will this pain into inflection - isn’t, then, this pain more exquisite? The joys that my mind seems to manufacture come from the happy notes in this tale of my mind. These joys are felt, truly, despite the knowledge that the person I think about has no knowledge of me. Are these joys fake, then? I’m so consumed with this, with him - who is clueless of me - it feels less of a smitten school-girl daydreaming and more like the death of me, my ego, in love.

I know this world won’t let me go on like this. Only Meera is allowed to have miracles in this kind of samarpan, surrender of self. She’s called a saint & she’s in a temple somewhere far away & in a few books. I suppose, then, it’s acceptable. She’s not a model to be followed, is she? It won’t really be okay if I quit everything else & sit by myself thinking, surrendering, being pained by this love that isn’t. Would it?

That’s a rhetorical question.

This love is. And is a beautiful part of me that makes me magical, wonderful & capable, just like Meera.

Tag game.

check in tag

tagged by @sunshyngal

1. why did you choose your url?

I love the weird girl trope in movies & books. It's not about how weird girls are "not like all girls" ugh its about loving the weird in each of us. Um weird girls for eve (r) - because eve was wronged and the r because I just cannot resist wordplay (even when it's really bad I'm sorry everyone)

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them

Yep just recently started a new blog to write fanfiction. It's @yournameyn

3. how long have you’ve been on tumblr?

Just got on tumblr. Two months ago!

4. do you have a queue tag?

Nope.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

Just wanted to see how Tumblr is; Needed a place to be.

6. why did you choose your icon?

That's me smushed on to myself, rolling my eyes at me. There isn't a better expression of who I am. :P

7. why did you choose your header?

It's something I made when I was really sad thinking about a time I won't be sad anymore.

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

Masterlist?

I hope it's my masterlist on the new blog like full of fanfiction that I will write.

9. how many mutuals do you have?

Some! I just discovered. But I'm too shy - I should talk to them, no?

10. how many followers do you have?

A few. TBH I'm not posting alot on either blog because I'm shy (and lazy) so I'm really thankful to have the followers I have. Shoutout to @loucraxx for like reading all my posts!

11. how many people do you follow?

Loads!

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

Ofcourse! Literally I made a post about how I want to be a witch.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

ALOT. ALOT. Scouring for fanfics to read. And mostly to see what my favourite writer is up to. (@sunshyngal it you.)

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

No.

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I feel like they're like those email threads that say you have to forward this to like 700 people or you'll have 700 years of bad sex? Not into it.

16. do you like tag games?

Yes! Can I tag people here - okay imma tag the crazy talented funny af @psycho-mocha, and the really cool writer @xjoonchildx.

17. do you like ask games?

Yes! I'll try one, one of these days!

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@sunshyngal is definitely famous & veeeeeery deservingly so!

19. do i have a crush on a mutual?

Yes. The hurricane writer. I love the way she writes. Whip smart, really cool, genuine, honest, kind and polite. Complete package. I hope she knows I’m talking about her (feels weird to like tag her here).