Dont Fear The Big Words.

don’t fear the big words.

say them to me and say them often: “always.” “forever.” “i love you.” “i promise.”

don’t hold back when you speak to me. even if in the future it isn’t exactly as you say, that’s okay—i know, things change. but i’ll know—in that moment, when you spoke those words, when they rolled off the tip of your tongue so easily, yet with so much weight and power—i’ll know, with full, wholehearted certainty:

you meant it. with every single space and inch of your heart.

can’t wait for my husband to come 🥹💖 one day, soon 🤞

i miss him :(

sometimes i forget that I'M the one who broke up with HIM.

if i was the initiator, it means that there was something in me that truly, absolutely, could no longer take it anymore. it means that in that moment, i'd expanded far past what i thought my original breaking point was--stretched beyond belief of belief.

where i falter at follow through, he makes up for with rationale and conviction. "if you can't trust yourself, then trust me," he says.

in an ironic way, it's the perfect balance: the initiator and the enactor.

sometimes i falter. it's not easy setting yourself ablaze and not burning out right away. sometimes that flame--it flickers wildly, dangerously, close to catching onto something else, just so so close to snuffing out.

but it's okay. because when i do, i know can safely right myself and oh-so gently be on my way. and i know.

i know it's not always easy, but it gets easier and easier every day.

🥰🥰🥰