Losing My Mind Over If I Can Help Ease This Burden For Them Why Would I Not Do That? Because Bucks Constantly

Losing my mind over “If I can help ease this burden for them why would I not do that?” because Buck’s constantly questioning his worth and his purpose, because he thinks he’s never been good enough—so to justify his existence he thinks he has to be the best—he has to save everyone even at the expense of his own safety—he has to be uSEFUL.

But despite all of that he’s mulling it over with one of his best friends while they’re both three sheets to the wind because deep down he knows he can’t go through with it adjsksks

No cause seriously there isn’t a single song on the Atlas albums by sleeping at last that isn’t beautiful. Like each one lights up the soul and brings me to tears in its ability to capture and illustrate the wonder and beauty of the world around us.

the difference between the kitchen scene in 3x09 and the kitchen scene in 6x01 is that buck and eddie know each other inside and out. before it was attraction. there was some heated flirting but there was too much still weighing them down. neither of them were in the right place for more than a cheeky “wanna go for the title?”. for more than a half-lidded glance and a hand on the belt. for more than a smirk and a chuckle and a sip from their beers. there was the lawsuit and the street fighting and they all had so much trauma they hadn’t worked through yet. but then christmas. and the skateboard. and the well. and a pandemic. and active coparenting. and the shooting and the will. and eddie’s panic attack. breaking up with ana. buck dating taylor. lucy. eddie’s breakdown. therapy. buck there every single day. when they flirt when they talk about new couches it’s not attraction, it’s love. when they finally get to a place where they’re ready to be together it’ll be real. they’re it for each other. they’re each other’s last loves. it’s not about going for something as temporary and competitive as a title. it’s about a couch. it’s about family video game championships and nights spent in recovery. it’s long term, it’s lasting, it’s part of a home, and it’ll be theirs soon.

IT IS ACE WEEK!

So let's talk about asexuality! This is an introduction trying to cover as much as possible in a little format, so its mostly surface level stuff. You're gonna have to dig on your own :P

For more information, I recommend checking out aceweek.org or acesandaros.org ! You can also read up on ace history through the Asexual Manifesto by Lisa Orlando !

Actual links and Image description coming in a reblog ;)

Prompt - “use your words, baby”

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hello! Using this prompt for my royal trans buck au that should be out in Nov (praying that the days I've lost don't fuck me up)

Eddie ducks his head down, kissing up his neck and then along his jaw. He lets out a shaky breath, hands still glued to the wall. 

“Everyone talked about what a charmer you were, how you had all these people falling over you from just a glance in their direction. So what is about me that makes you so nervous?” Eddie makes eye contact with him again and he tries to chuckle a bit, playing off his nervousness, but it comes out as more of a whimper than anything. Eddie leans back into his neck, teeth lightly scraping there. 

“Use your words, baby.” And Buck lets out a ragged moan he’s never heard from himself before. He wants to clasp a hand over his mouth and prevent something like that from happening again, but Eddie is smiling into his neck so he assumes something is going right. 

“Not sure you really want me to answer,” Buck tries to save face and play it cool. 

“What’s that supposed to mean?” 

“The way you’re touching me… right in the hallways where anyone can see…” Buck tsks, “it’s indecent, even for a king, my lord.” His heart hammers as Eddie grinds forward, hips probably searching for a bulge they won’t find and so Buck turns around. It’s not the smoothest transition because Eddie is so close to him, but he allows Buck the space to move once he realizes what’s happening. 

“Well I could also say the way you look has filled me with indecent thoughts for days. And I would love for the chance to act on them. 

- AIRBNB BY AIMEE VANT