Another Restless Night With No Sleep But Crying Until I Feel Like I'm Going To Throw Up, Haven't Slept

Another restless night with no sleep but crying until I feel like I'm going to throw up, haven't slept a wink and I have a full day of class ahead of me. Why do I cry? I have not the slightest idea why but the question is stuck in my head beating against my brain wondering why I cannot stop my sore eyes from trickling out tears for hours and hours without stopping. There is an ache so big in my body I cannot even call my body my own with how much this ache takes most of it up, it's in my heart, head, stomach and legs. All my limbs feel weak and numb with this emptiness that cannot be fulfilled no matter what is done. I'm trapped inside this suit of flesh until I die off like every other creature there is in existence, but until then I'll cry and cry till there is nothing left of me but bone for the dirt to embrace with its bugs and nutrients for a new life to begin, hopefully a life more meaningful than mine.

Bloody tears

Eat

A hunger so deep I no longer can sleep,

All I dream is to eat,

Eat not food but the flesh of one,

One of which is human and blood,

Devouring you whole is what I want,

To the flesh bone and blood I taunt,

The hunger for you is more than a treat,

It's the burning of this yearning I crave to repeat,

Craving you is all I do,

To the flesh bone and blood I'll miss you

Do I look like your girlfriend?