Writing An Outline For A New Work And I Have The Characters, The Settings, The Concepts, The Back Stories,

Writing an outline for a new work and I have the characters, the settings, the concepts, the back stories, the playlists, the rough art work-- everything other than the plot. I have no plot.

Me, writing something at 1 am: Omg I'm literally a genius this words sound amazing I ate totally whith this one omfg

The writing:

reasons to write fanfiction (I'll start):

share a cool scene that popped into your head

evoke a particular emotion the canon makes you feel

song made you think of a character or idea from canon

make people feel the same way about a character you do

make dolls kiss for fun

explore ideas the canon hints at but doesn't do anything with

traumatize characters and make them suffer

coddle characters and let them rest

had an insane idea for a crack ship and now everyone needs to know

the author of the canon was wrong and must be fixed

use familiar characters to explore your own ideas and plotlines

canon is too short and you need to wallow in the universe of the story

So there's this person I cannot meet. I mean, they're in the same social circles as me. They're only 4-5 years younger than me. We have mutual friends. We've been invited to the same parties. But I refuse to meet them for one simple reason.

I fucked their parents when I was 21. I met them both at a sex club and hooked up with both their mom and dad, twice my age at the time. Now this means this person I've never met, I avoid. Because I figure if I meet them one of two things will happen.

1. I will tell them about fucking their parents. This seems uncouth to me. Like, why would they want to know that??

2. I DON'T tell them I fucked their parents. This seems disingenuous to me. Like, I'd be withholding information they should have before getting to know me.

So, I keep slight tabs on their online life and try to make sure never to be at the same place as them.

I've told a few people this who are completely unattached to the situation and mostly they tell me I should try and sleep with this person, but that sounds like it could be a huge big deal and I just don't want to have that much awkwardness in my life.

oh my god

"Some days, writing feels like unlocking the universe's secrets; other days, it's more like forgetting how to spell 'the.'"

I swear, once I get over my crippling writing anxiety, impossible expectations, and the baggage surrounding my idea of what a “writer” is…it’s over for you bitches.