Genuinely, There Is No Worse Part Of The Writing Process For Me Than Revising The First Draft. (I Always

Genuinely, there is no worse part of the writing process for me than revising the first draft. (I always print my first drafts because it helps me see what's there rather than what I think should be there.)

And getting into writing novels has made it SO MUCH WORSE. This fucker is 258 pages, God help me.

Part 5 now on ao3

One of the many, many things that AI has completely fucking ruined is job hunting. It is apocalyptically terrible job hunting right now.

In 2022, I applied to 127 jobs and interviewed with 17 companies to get my previous gig - which is about a 14% interview rate.

This year (after getting laid off in April), I have applied for 83 jobs and interviewed with two companies - an interview rate of 3.6%.

And lest you think I'm doing a spray and pray, I very much am not. I'm being highly selective in what I apply to - it's just impossible to stand out when hiring processes are being flooded with AI-generated resumes. (To say nothing of the number of companies straight up posting fake jobs rn)

In the same time period I've applied to all of these jobs, I've had a higher success rate hearing back from literary agents (28%) than I have applying to jobs.

Which honestly is fucking wild. Say what you want about the accessibility of publishing, but it shouldn't be easier to find a literary agent than to get a first-round job interview.

Smooching notes~!

So the people on Twitter seemed to find my notes very useful, So I am sharing them to you guys as well

have fun!

I have an appointment next Monday about starting HRT.

My name and pronouns aren't changing. My gender identity hasn't changed. I've just gotten worn down by the impossibility of being myself in a world that only wants to see me as "Cara's mom", and which reads me as female even when I'm wearing my pronouns on my fucking face.

I'm annoyed and sad that this version of me that I've worked so hard to learn to like is going to go away. I'm particularly sad about losing my voice. But as mad as I am about the impossibility of getting read as my gender, doing nothing is still a choice, and that choice is taking a severe toll on my mental health.

I'm looking for a new middle name that starts with A, because I wanted to make Agamemnon my middle name, but my husband doesn't want to have to write it on parenting forms and shit (which honestly, fair and reasonable), so it's going to be my SECOND middle name and I need a reasonable and normal Anglo first middle name.