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I'll wait longer, want it so bad
▪︎Summary: You make a plan to save Hyuck's reputation from the frat boys and to help the future girls who could be with him.
It's your goal before the year ends to be another one on Donghyuck's long list of girls he has kissed, and maybe to do something more than that, to finally stop hearing all those rumors about his virginity.
▪︎Pairing: Lee Donghyuck x reader
▪︎Genres: College au, angst and fluff, slow burn, suggestive (I mean nothing actually happens but yeah.)
▪︎Word count: 8.1k
▪︎Warnings: Rejection, sexual innuendos, making out, mentions of loss of virginity, alcohol consumption, not being able to remember the night before, Hyuck is actually really sweet and caring.
It was the last big college party of the academic year, and you had convinced yourself that, in order to be brave and shoot your shot, you needed to get completely wasted that night.
One of your friends, Lee Donghyuck, had been the one stealing all your glances and your thoughts for quite a while now. You were so down bad for him that you started to find it annoying, so you thought you had to do something about it. Maybe that way you could finally get him out of your mind?
It's not like Donghyuck wasn't popular amongst the girls of your college and other colleges. In fact, he had almost every person in that room thinking he was extremely good looking, and probably half the girls as well had exchanged at least one kiss with him. Sadly, that last one wasn't your case.
However, there was the rumor or popular belief between the girls, and brought to you by your very best friend Yangyang –who also happened to be good friends with Donghyuck, and who was in charge of making your crush even more obvious to him against your will–, that he was a virgin. And maybe, just maybe, the thought of you being the one who took that v card from him suited you too well. That night, you were convinced you wanted to be the one.
In the past, you never found the courage to actively start anything solid. Flirting constantly when you were together and not being able to get him out of your sight wasn't enough. It felt like it wasnt enough for him to realize. At that point, almost all your friends knew about your crush on him, and some of them even tried helping you get to what you wanted with Donghyuck.
In that order, you were kind of out of resources, and you found yourself thinking you had no other choice than to get extremely drunk and straightly confess your intentions to him; with the hope of him being as wasted as you that night, for your whole confession and plan to actually end the way you intended to.
Your best friend's house was busy enough before going to the actual party. It was Yangyang's birthday and he invited all your friends to start drinking, thinking that, later that night, you could get all together to the club you'd rented to have the last college gathering of the year.
"Dude." Yangyand said with his hands on your shoulders and looking right into your eyes, "It's happening tonight."
You knew what he meant, but your insecurity when it came to Donghyuck was always there. You were different around him. "I know. But I'm kind of nervous. I become dumb when I'm in front of him." You sighed.
"Don't worry, it's not him. You're always dumb." You took his hands off your shoulders and tried hitting him, followed by his laugh at your weak attempt. "I was joking! Well… not really but –Ouch! Stop hitting me!"
You sent him a glare in a deadpan manner. "Then stop trying to be funny."
"Listen," He continued. "I know what you mean. I myself would have a crush on Donghyuck if I didn't have a girlfriend."
"You do have a crush on him despite you having a girlfriend." You stated crossing your arms.
"I mean! He's one of the most good looking dudes I know, would you blame me?"
You hit his arm again and headed off to the living room to meet all your friends, leaving a laughing Yangyang in the kitchen, ready to make more drinks.
As soon as you entered the room and came into his sight, you heard him.
"Hey babyyyyy!" His usual self full of energy hit you, and you really couldn't do much more than smile like a fool when you were in front of him and he was calling you baby.
It was a natural thing for Donghyuck to call you 'baby'. On the other hand, you felt like throwing up all the butterflies that formed in your stomach every time you heard him, despite knowing you were not the only one he called that. Yet, it made you feel special.
He didn't know what his words and his actions caused to you –or maybe he knew, because while sometimes you would get embarrassed after realizing you were staring at him too much and being too obvious from across the class, there were also other times when you two would directly flirt with each other. You knew you weren't being just friendly, but him? You tried to be clear enough those times, and hoped he noticed he was the only one who you were trying to get, and that he was indeed special.
"What are you drinking tonight?" He asked after greeting you and giving you a big hug.
You sat on the sofa while he kept standing in front of you. He was wearing that white shirt with little embroidered flowers you liked way too much on him, and his typical smile that had all the girls lined up after him. You were one of these.
"Anne and I are sharing a tequila. We might drink it with soda." You answered.
"Why are you drinking tequila as if it were vodka? Are we going hard tonight?" Donghyuck questioned with a laugh.
"It's cheaper, you know these are hard times… The end of the year always comes with all those parties after classes end," you started explaining to him. "If you wanna get wasted in every single one, you gotta find the cheapest alcohol. Plus, these work faster."
He nodded, silently agreeing with your words. "You wanna drink beer?" Donghyuck offered to you, extending his cup to your hands.
You denied with a frown. "I don't like beer. I only enjoy white drinks." It was your usual excuse.
"Ah, baby..." He came closer to sit beside you on the couch, and with his arm around your shoulders he offered his beer one more time. "It's because you haven't tried this with me. I'm telling you."
You accepted his offer and put the cup of beer in your hands, to take a few sips right after. Pleasing him was anyway your favorite thing to do, even when he was being not so kind to you or directly mean –you would always find your way back to doing what he wanted. And you didn't seem to want to fight it too much.
Then, it came your turn to ask, hoping his answer would match the perfect plan you made in your head. "Are you going hard tonight?"
"Nah, it's gonna be a chill night for me. Someone sober enough has to take care of the doors, who's entering the party and who's not, you know?"
And that totally turned you off. You believed Donghyuck wasn't going to accept being with you, not just dancing, if he wasn't as drunk as you were. You knew the reason why he only kissed that many girls was because he only behaved like that under the influence of alcohol, as he liked to have fun a little too much as long as he was able to. You couldn't help but make it obvious with your entire body expressions that you were disappointed at what he said. Seeing you drop your shoulders, your smile and hearing your exasperated sigh had him laughing again.
You thought even if you wouldn't get into his pants that night, you could still drink lots and have fun with the rest of your friends. Life looked like it wasn't only about Lee Donghyuck afterall, right? You had passed all your final exams and, after a rough week, you decided that you deserved to have a good time anyway, whether it meant making it about him or not.
By the time you arrived at the club, alcohol had been running in your system for a couple hours. You were feeling the effects of it, some of them being randomly talking in other languages with your friends, moving from one place to another at extra speed, and getting extra clingy.
You were truly sorry to Donghyuck for that last one.
He was the one in charge of the door, as he had said earlier; sitting on an unstable tall chair behind a counter, he asked for the names of the people waiting to enter and made sure they were on the list for this super exclusive party no one could miss.
"Why can't I help you?" You moved your head on his shoulder, to change your vision from the list to his eyes.
"You drank a lot." He said without moving his focus off his duty. "You should go inside, what if the police come and see you like this?"
That thought scared you. You knew you weren't that drunk for the police to come and get you. Why lie, Donghyuck? You were still standing stable, you could hold a conversation, and you remembered your name and your address in case something happened. You were perfectly fine! Was it that he didn't want you there with him? Was he suddenly afraid of other people seeing you two together? That never was a problem before. Never. Donghyuck always confused you. One moment he was the one coming to you, and then he was pushing you away.
"I promise, when I finish this here, I'll go inside with you." His voice interrupted your thoughts. "Can you go inside now?" Donghyuck asked, now softly looking at your face.
The bar inside the club was over-occupied the moment you arrived there, happily following Donghyuck like you were his puppy. You had said you were getting thirsty, so he offered to get you a drink. Donghyuck needed to make sure he was the one making it for you; lime soda and ice was all he was getting you. He was afraid someone else could actually keep giving you alcohol when –in his eyes– you definitely didn't need any more of that running through your veins.
You never were a light drinker. Even though you spent years without drinking during high school, and while all your friends would insist you join them every night you were out, when you actually started drinking you easily got used to it. That was at the beginning of University life, at the same time you became closer with Donghyuck. He used to drink and go out a lot since before you started being friends, unlike you. Nonetheless, you adapted quickly to the students' ways of going through college. Big parties once a month in a big club like the one from that night, and small parties in the guys' houses more than often.
You were always amazed at how Donghyuck could be one of the most popular and responsible guys at his fraternity, which meant he often was the one in charge of the parties and other 'frat stuff'. All that while still managing to get drunk and have a good time with multiple girls –even when you knew that, in reality, he was a lucky dumbass with just well developed flirting skills and the most gorgeous face and body.
Well, in fact, it's like he really had everything for people to like him. You seriously couldn't wrap your head around his ways, and it only frustrated you even more knowing you couldn't be one of those girls. You were his friend. You hang out at his dorm and he often was at yours. He always let you put your head on his shoulder and try different hairstyles on his hair when he would let it grow out. You loved it when he kept his long hair. He even picked you up to have a homemade tacos night one time, just the two of you. Then you watched Spider-Man and cuddled on his couch. And he still couldn't let you be one of the girls?
But what was the most incredible aspect of Donghyuck's college life, is that not only girls and boys loved him, but professors also had him on a pedestal. He not only managed to be a lovable dumbass, organize parties and hook up with girls, but also to have the perfect grades while having the profs loving him. You and him were always the ones giving Yangyang extra classes for free (sometimes you would get him to bring you food from his parents' restaurant in exchange.)
No, actually, that wasn't Donghyuck's most amazing aspect about him. Your friend was characterized by being dense, that becoming his most incredible attribute. Not a very good one if you were allowed to give your opinion. How he still didn't get it, when you would literally call him your 'favorite forever' (mainly to get Yangyang jealous over your frienship, but you meant it), you couldn't explain. Perhaps he was playing dumb, and he didn't like you like that afterall, just liked to be friendly with every girl around there.
"Here." The fresh cup of lime soda was presented in front of you by a smiley Donghyuck behind the bar. You had to recognize he looked extremely handsome that night, and the colorful lights of the club only accentuated his beautiful facial features. Honey eyes going carefully through your face, most of the time you looked at him like he was an angel –when in reality he was more of a playful devil.
"Hyuck…"
You didn't know what came to you in that moment, but you felt it had to be the one. That was going to be it. Once you confessed to Donghyuck, your friendship with him could make a three thousand and sixty degree turn and change things forever, for good, or for bad.
He looked at you expectantly, waiting for you to start talking again.
"I have a secret to tell you." Was the best outcome you could think of in your drunk state. You placed your hand on the side of his head to make him come closer to you, then, with your lips in his ear you finally said it. It seriously was now or never. "I really want to give you a kiss."
And you let him go after that, but he remained close to your face, for too long avoiding your eyes. That alone started to hurt like an actual rejection.
"I can't."
Right, you were going too fast inside your head. This was the actual rejection. You grabbed his cheek one more time to make him look at you, but he was still making everything possible to not look into your eyes. "Why can't you?" You had to ask, you needed a real explanation or you were going to get crazy.
"Baby, I'm sorry, but I really can't." His face was expressionless, and while you were still trying to find his eyes into yours, he moved away and proceeded to make more drinks for the rest of the people that were waiting on the other side of the bar counter.
Saying no to you and watching your hopeful eyes lose their sparks felt too bad on Donghyuck's chest. It's not like he didn't think you were pretty or whatever. When he saw you at Yangyang's house that night, he noticed you were wearing a new lipstick color he had never seen before, a dark red one that made your lips look really cute and kissable. Neither was like he couldn't have kissed you that night, since he had absolutely no problem with casually kissing friends.
The actual problem was that Donghyuck thought you were asking him for a kiss only because of your drunken state, and that you would regret it the morning after. He felt like you considered him a friend as close as Yangyang, and that you were confused. He would never take advantage of that situation just because you wanted a drunken kiss. Donghyuck didn't want to be selfish because he cared about you too much.
Outside the club the air was fresher, and the after-rain-wind that was flowing did little to nothing to help your condition. A serious talk with Anne was trying to get into your mind, presenting to you the option that you couldn't get sad because of Donghyuck's rejection, and you kind of knew that, because she was sure everything would be the exact same after this night. You could forget about it for a minute, thanks to the alcohol still present and making its effects on your body.
You had fun dancing with Anne and Yangyang for a while, until you saw Donghyuck coming to the patio. You tried grabbing him by the end of his shirt to bring him to you and talk, but he didn't even care to turn around to you.
"Girl! You can't do that, you have to leave him alone for now!" Anne tried bringing you back to your senses, or at least half of your senses' efficiency.
"But he owes me an explanation! And a water!" You whined, forming a pout with your lips and starting to get too annoying about the situation for your friends to handle it.
"Listen." Anne tried to unglue your eyes from Donghyuck's back. When you finally looked at her, she started talking. "He's with his other friends now. You've already been with him a lot through the night, you gotta give him some space." She carefully explained. "And it's not like he was being mean to you before, he was very polite." Her hands on your shoulders and her sympathetic look were trying to calm you down a little.
"I just wanted a kiss." You said crossing your arms on your chest and empathizing your sulkiness with a shrug.
You should have known things weren't going to work out since the moment Donghyuck told you he wasn't going to drink too much that night. Your confessing-and-saving-my-friends-reputation plan was a total fiasco and you had only gotten to make shame of yourself in front of your biggest crush.
Sitting on an old counter in the club's patio, you couldn't find yourself to have fun anymore. You actually started to believe your night was completely wasted. Not in terms of the alcohol, but because your alcoholic ass decided to fuck up your friendship with Donghyuck, make everything weird with your stupid "secret", and then, he had to ruin it even more rejecting you in the most polite way ever.
You were mad, so the moment Jeno Lee was in front of you asking why you were sitting so lonely and looking so upset, you didn't think much before grabbing his shirt and slamming his lips with yours.
Lee Donghyuck wasn't the only guy you could kiss. There were plenty of fish in the water who actually didn't mind being caught.
Except Donghyuck wanted to be caught by you, but suddenly seeing you with Jeno from afar only confirmed his suspicions: You were just looking for a guy to meaninglessly make out that night, and he had been the first option in front of your eyes back then. It looked like a confusion to him.
Jeno's lips were soft against yours, thin but skilled, moving carefully in sync with you. You were hot from anger, pulling Jeno's hair before he separated from you, but without moving his position from between your legs. The cutest eye smile and his hands caressing your thighs around him intended to put you at peace. And it kind of worked, you knew Jeno had that in him; that was why you didn't hesitate on pulling him to you in the first place.
"Do you wanna get out of here? My dorm is pretty close."
And in that moment, you really couldn't say no to his puppy eyes. You nodded quickly and, with his hands on your hips, he put you down the chair and headed out the heated party with you.
The both of you remained glued together, arms around each other's waist until you made it to Jeno's dorm. The moment you made it past through the doors, his lips were on you again.
You wondered what Donghyuck was doing at the party, or if he was still there. The last time you talked to him, you asked for a cup of water but got lost following him through the crowd inside the club. The last time you saw him, he was offering your cup of water to another girl who was quick to approach him when she found him alone.
You found yourself walking back to Jeno's room without being able to separate from him. Kisses travelled from your mouth to your jawline, to your neck, to have your hands playing with the hair of his nape. Suddenly, you felt the back of your knees hit the bed, and then you were falling with him. After his hands explored your body for a while, you realized it wasn't feeling as good as always that night. Not because Jeno was doing bad, but because you couldn't get to empty your mind from all that happened at the party. You thought you wouldn't be able to be good to him that night since you weren't feeling the best.
"Jeno," You broke the kiss by putting both hands on his chest. "I swear you are so damn good to me, but…"
Those big puppy eyes were already looking at you, probably knowing what you were going to say.
"Not today. I'm so sorry, I should have told you earlier. I can go now if you want." You immediately started apologizing.
Jeno threw his head back growning, to quickly bring his eyes back on you with a little smile on his face. He grabbed you from behind and put you in a chokehold, one arm around your neck and legs entangling with yours, playfully. "What am I gonna do with you?" He asked followed by a sigh. "You're lucky I like cuddling the most." Jeno relaxed his arm around your neck to pull you closer by the waist, but without untangling your legs.
You were drawing paths on his arm with your fingers, trying to distract yourself a little. Things with Jeno were often like this, comfortable and distressed. You both knew it wasn't anything serious, so you could not feel bad about being with him from time to time. You two were good friends having fun, comforting each other. "Thank you for letting me stay."
"Mhm."
"You shouldn't let Jaemin know I'm here again though, or he will get jealous." You said with a more serious tone that brought back Jeno's eye smile accompanied with a laugh.
"What are you saying?!" He whined and held you tighter on his chest. "Don't make me laugh, I want to sleep if you don't wanna do anything." He continued, but you knew he didn't mean to make you feel bad.
"And I'm sorry, I really hate this situation." This time you turned to face him.
Jeno made a comeback with his puppy eyes, except they were portraying an amused expression. "You hate kissing me?" He asked, already knowing the answer, which showed in his subtle smile.
"No! I hate saying no to you all of a sudden like this."
"That's okay. We can do that another time."
You knew that was going to be the end of the night when you saw Jeno close his eyes, ready to sleep. You tried hard to not think about other people when you were with Jeno, and most of the time you were able to have good times with him, without having Donghyuck cross your mind. Jeno made you smile like a happy virus whenever you were hanging out together. He never made you angry, and even when he would get upset, it would be the cutest thing watching him get sulky like a little kid.
You wondered, then, why couldn't you get him out of your head, when you could have a man like Jeno in front of you whenever you wanted.
"Jeno."
"What?" He answered without opening his eyes.
"Just one more kiss?" You asked, and saw him starting to smile, still keeping his eyes closed.
Okay was all he said before he gave his last kiss of the night.
Friday nights were always reserved for the parties or the weekly reunions at the boys' frat house. The day after the party, you stayed in bed all day, half sleeping half watching movies, getting through a small hangover, until the angry sound of your belly started demanding food so you had to get up. In the morning before returning back to your dorm from Jeno's, he didn't dare to ask what had gotten you so upset and turned off the previous night.
Jeno was understanding because he always saw the way you looked at Donghyuck like he had lowered the Moon for you, and he knew you only needed a friend to cuddle with during the night to feel better. You kept his big hoodie with you because it had a little cute angel cat and you liked it too much when you saw it on him, but you knew you would like it better on you. You didn't have intentions of returning it until he begged for you to –it was a matching gift Jaemin had gotten for him, and any of you wanted to get the boy angry over you taking their matching hoodie.
Monday came quickly after you got up extra late on Saturday and took Sunday totally off as well.
"I can't even remember hearing music playing all night." You genuinely started, heading your way to Yangyang's place to chill, since all your classes were over for the day. "Was there even music playing?"
"Do you know if Hyuck is still a virgin?" Yangyang asked, ignoring your question.
"I mean, I didn't do anything with him. How could I know about that?" You snapped at him, getting a little angry at the thought you made things insanely awkward between you and Donghyuck, totally in vain, when you were doing more than fine being friends before.
You wished you could tell him how regretful you were, but your ego wouldn't let you even talk to him if he wasn't talking to you first. Remembering your behavior and his rejection that night was too painful.
"Girl, I swear to you, when you were dancing together so close on the dance floor, I thought it was happening!" Anne interrupted you, too excited to talk. "I asked Yangyang if you and Hyuck were kissing and we thought you were because your faces were so close!" She grabbed your head to put you impossibly close to her, in demonstration of what she saw on Friday.
You could see Yangyang nodding through your peripheric vision, but you were a hundred percent sure you would have remembered such an intense moment.
"Like this!" Anne's nose was pressed to the front of your face and her eyes were deep staring into yours. You doubted if she was exaggerating a little bit, since you were convinced there was no way you had forgotten Donghyuck's skin on you.
You couldn't believe that 1) you weren't able to remember anything your friends were describing to you, 2) if what they were saying was true, you had a so-incredibly-close-moment with Donghyuck and you didn't take the opportunity to just do it. Without questions and without stupid confessions. Just carelessly kissing like Donghyuck used to do with all the girls except you.
Yangyang was still agreeing with his head on your other side. You had arrived at your designated place of reunion on campus during weekdays. Your best friend's place wasn't so far from the college building, so it was always the most accessible option. "I thought you two were gonna end up together." The boy talked after Anne.
You frowned trying to remember all the things that happened that night, yet it truly was an impossible task. The only memories left in your head being Donghyuck saying no to your kiss, him ignoring you at the patio and then you leaving with Jeno.
"But I left with Jeno." You said reflecting on the past events, more to yourself than for your friends.
"Was it good at least?" Yangyang asked.
"He's always nice to be around…" You really didn't want to recap the night.
"Ah! Don't be so polite, no need to hide anything." Anne insisted that you told them more.
"But nothing happened."
"Don't lie to me! You can't leave with Lee Jeno and just do nothing with him." The girl said as you were getting into Yangyang's dorm. Your brain was so tired from that, that you only agreed with her and let her believe whatever she wanted.
Everything was wrong about that night and you didn't want to hear anything else about it. You were done. If Donghyuck didn't want you, you weren't going to be begging for affection when he wasn't willing to offer it, if he didn't want to reciprocate.
You were weak. You knew you were so weak for him, and that was the main reason you had been respecting his space and neglecting your emotions for two weeks. That Friday, the evening turned rainy again. It accompanied all your melancholy too well. Everyone was heading to the frat house that day –and fair to say, where Donghyuck actually lived–, so you were hesitant to go. Seeing Hyuck, seeing Jeno, dealing with Jaemin's jealous ass, it was too much for only one night and it reminded you of everything you wanted to erase from your mind.
But you missed him. It took you two weeks of no interaction with him to realize he meant more than you thought. So you decided to text him.
you: dumbass
you: i miss u
As said before, you were weak. You wanted to at least try, see if there was any chance of recovering what you two had before. That friendship you already missed too much.
hyuck: :) you will see me tonight, right?
When you arrived at the reunion house, most of the guys part of the fraternity were already there –Yangyang and the guys he lived with, Jeno and his dorm mates. Anne and you being honorable members, able to enter the house during the daylight, since at night and especially during parties girls had free passes.
"Where is Donghyuck?" You asked Johnny, supposing he would know, the two of them being roommates.
"He's in his room." He replied with a gentle smile.
You headed upstairs to Donghyuck's room, knowing the way by memory in the big house, because of all of the times you had been there in the past years of college. You were so afraid you had ruined everything for that stupid kiss you wanted. Weeks before, you couldn't see you'd rather have Donghyuck and his presence everyday in your life, than have just one meaningless night with him.
You opened the door to a freshly showered boy, fully dressed in a white t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants that looked too cute on him for you to handle, with still wet hair. The room smelled like Donghyuck: Ace laundry detergent and a Chanel fragrance imitation he liked to put on a lot. Everything felt familiar, yet distant.
A subtle smile appeared on his face when his eyes took a look at your figure. You couldn't help but smile as well when you heard him say it again. That thing he used to call every girl, but that made you feel the only one.
"Hey, baby." He said. That was pretty much all it took of him, for you to walk in his direction with your arms already stretched open for him.
Then you declared yourself the weakest person in the world in terms of Lee Donghyuck and his stupid beautiful smile.
You wanted a hug from your friend, you wanted to feel his affection around you even if you didn't know how things were going to turn out after it. His tight hug and your head buried on his chest felt too good after weeks of not even talking to him.
"Please, don't let go for a little more, then I can leave." You asked, cheek pressed to his chest, adjusting your arms around him even more.
Donghyuck left out a chuckle and reciprocated your last action. "Okay, but won't you better stay here all night?" You could hear the playful tone in his voice.
Yes, you wished, but you knew he had a reunion waiting for him downstairs.
You separated from his chest to finally look at his face. The smirk that was planted on his lips was your ultimate weakness. His eyes on you had too much power, they filled you with the warmth you were lacking that rainy night, and made disappear all the melancholy you were feeling. Staring at his eyes for too long while ignoring all your resurgent feelings was a challenge you couldn't handle, so you buried your face in the front of his t-shirt one more time.
"Don't joke like that." A childish whine escaped from you.
Maybe you liked Donghyuck way more than you thought. Maybe you didn't want him as your friend anymore. Maybe you didn't want to be just one more girl on his list.
"I wasn't joking though." He took your face on his hands and applied pressure to squeeze both your cheeks. A big smile adorned his face looking at you, growing red under his stare. "We haven't chilled together in a while."
Your eyes opened up and you felt your face temperature rise even more at his words. Donghyuck's soft hands on your face started to burn, so you had to shake them off. "But…" You started. "What do you mean all night? Don't you have things to do down there?" You asked, referring to the official frat monthly reunion.
"I can text Johnny and tell him to take care of it." He shrugged it off, still with your arms around him.
A weak okay left your lips before Donghyuck was texting Johnny to tell him he wasn't gonna come down. Johnny had told him to talk things out with you, and –to quote– to "have fun" followed by a winking emoji. A half-stressed sigh escaped Donghyuck at the thought of all the things he wanted to say to you, always too much of a coward, masking and hiding it with his natural flirty attitude.
You were already sitting on his bed when his focus came back to you. He missed you as well. Of course he had missed you. Not talking to you the past weeks was probably the stupidest thing he could have ever thought of doing, after all you did was ask for a drunken kiss. He wanted to apologize. "Can we talk for a bit?" Donghyuck asked, coming to sit right beside you.
You let out a loud whine in protest after hearing that. You had the hope you could ignore everything that happened and start over. For a moment, you thought that was the way you two were going. "But I didn't want to do that!" You dramatically threw yourself back on the bed.
"Is that so? And what did you want to do?" He asked coming into your sight.
"I don't know, anything else." You answered with a pout on your lips.
"Anything else?" And there he was again, your flirty friend with a boosted up ego you loved way too much, Donghyuck, teasing you. "Anything like, kissing?"
"Hyuck, stop!" You cried and hit him in the arm at what he reacted minimally. Only a loud laugh came out of him as a response.
Grabbing your hands and moving them off your face to look you in the eyes, he said, "Stop crying so much, you are such a baby." His smile dissipated after a few seconds, you felt him staring, quickly scanning all your features, and that kind of got you worried.
You knew he didn't like you like that, but you could still accept him and deal with all his teasing, if that meant still having him by your side as a friend.
"I got so jealous that night Jeno got to kiss you but not me." Donghyuck said. It was your turn to get absolutely and totally confused at his words. You didn't believe what he was saying. It couldn't be true because then, it meant you both were a pair of idiots. "I know it was the alcohol talking for you, and I know you only see me as a friend…"
No, no, no, no. No?! One hundred percent wrong, Donghyuck!
Stressed, he ran a hand through his brown, still humid hair. "But I really wanted to kiss you." He added locking eyes with you. Your mouth parted in shock at his words, after weeks of thinking he didn't want to know anything about you. All Donghyuck was thinking about in that exact moment in his room was how good that dark lipstick looked on you. He thought he wouldn't get to see it that close again.
"I'm sorry for not talking to you this past couple of weeks." He concluded.
Donghyuck used to sit beside you everyday during lunch; he had his designated spot on the table, and he would start throwing weird looks if someone else –that's to say, any other of the boys except Yangyang– was occupying his place. He would be friendly and touchy every time you were alone or even reunited with your friends. He never minded other people being there to be affectionate with you. He enjoyed telling jokes that would most likely piss everyone off, except you. You always were the only one laughing at anything he would say so, in the end, he only wanted to make those comments for you to laugh. He didn't care how the others reacted to him if he was making you smile.
As a result, when he decided he didn't want to talk to you anymore, it felt like a torture to you. The first week after the party, Donghyuck wouldn't even spare you a glance. The second week he didn't talk to you, you were already accepting the fact that there was no turning back after that night. You couldn't even remember all the things you said to him, and the thought only made you embarrassed enough.
Donghyuck's eyes were heavy on you after his apology. You still couldn't believe he actually wanted to kiss you that night, yet, he didn't explicitly say he liked you. In consequence, you were hesitant about your confession.
Throwing yourself on him, and wrapping your arms around his neck to hide your reddened face on that same spot –that smelled so much like him, and felt like it was the only right place to be in–, was the best outcome you could think of. The action took him by surprise, but he didn't think twice before he could have you again like that.
"What does this mean?" He asked with his back pressed on the mattress, his left hand subtly brushing your hair, and his right arm securely wrapped around your waist.
"That I missed my friend, and that you don't have to be sorry." It was your turn to talk. "I am sorry for coming drunk to you. I don't remember most of it, but I know you had to deal with my annoying ass all night."
You felt his chest vibrate and his laugh from above your head. "You are so cute though, It would never bother me." His soft hand was now massaging your scalp. Being in Donghyuck's arms felt too good, and after craving his warmth and comfort for two weeks, you thought you could die happily right there in that moment. "Except when I saw you with Jeno." His tone changed to a more serious one.
You escaped his magic hands for a moment to watch his brows frown. A serious look was all you gave him before reassuring him, "You know Jeno and I didn't do anything that night, right?" You asked with hands on his chest supporting your body. Your eyes piercing through his, trying to defeat your debility to their characteristic dearness.
"Sure." Donghyuck scoffed. That habit of his, when he would poke his inside cheek with his tongue every time he was getting annoyed, started to show off. "You were just sucking on each other's faces for an hour and then left together."
"Hyuck."
"Did you have fun with him?" You could hear him get more annoyed with every word that left his mouth.
"Lee Donghyuck," You took off his body to sit beside him on the bed, arms crossed in front of your chest, "Are you perhaps jealous?" It was your turn to have a grin adorning your face. He answered like it was the most obvious question you could ask him.
"I just told you!" He got up in his place. "I got super jealous when I saw you together but I couldn't do anything!"
"You could have just kissed me when I asked you to!"
"And I wanted to," He explained, "But you were drunk."
When it came to communicating with Donghyuck, it was always too confusing; nothing clear and a lot of hesitation, never too much but never too less for you to think there wasn't anything happening between the two of you. You had come with the intention of finding a chance to rebuild a friendship, and things were going okay, but you were tired and just needed clarification.
You were going to say it even if he wasn't going to. No matter what the response would be.
"I think I like you a lot." You deeply sighed. That was it. You couldn't deny what you felt anymore, for your own good.
"I think I like you too." A grin on his face appeared while he was confessing, reciprocating your feelings, finally making some things clear for you. "I know now I care too much about you, took me two weeks to realize."
"Haechan!" You and Donghyuck jolted hearing Johnny's voice at the door. The older one growned at the sight of both of you. "Dude, you haven't even started?! We are discussing serious business for next year down there."
Hyuck excused himself to you, to talk to Johnny, but not moving from his spot sitting on the bed. "What is it?"
"Lucas wants to start charging body shots for every party." Johnny said with a too serious tone. You saw Donghyuck's habits come to surface again, getting bothered by his older brother. He really had to interrupt such a precious moment with Lucas' crazy ideas.
"Johnny…" Donghyuck started. "And I say this respectfully, get the fuck out of here."
You heard Johnny after he closed the door, talking about how important gaining some money from all the parties was, and him complaining about how Hyuck would leave all the frat obligations behind "just to get some". (In reality, Johnny was happy for his younger brother, finally growing a pair and wanting to tell you how he felt.)
The moment after you turned your head to your friend beside you, you finally felt it happening.
The long awaited moment. The thing you wished to have for the past year. That place where you desperately wanted to be. The only person you could think of lately, finally pressing his plump, always rosy and too-cute-to-be-owned-by-such-a-brat lips to yours.
Donghyuck's lips were sweet as his honey eyes, as careful and lovely as his actions around people, just the right amount of cold to contrast with your on-flames face. His wet brown locks between your fingers, the softest you had ever touched. Kissing him felt like diving right into the universe his hypnotizing eyes were, like he let you touch the sky with your hands and like he had transferred an exploding supernova to your chest. He made you feel like getting out of your belly all those butterflies you always felt around him, highly intensified.
"No wonder why you had all these girls on your list." You said separating from him, your hands caressing his cheekbones, the most delicate skin constelations could ever adorn under your fingertips, pretty much out of breath and unable to move your vision from his beautiful lips. "You are so good at kissing, it feels too good."
Hyuck smiled brightly, drunk in the taste of you; eyes drifting from your mouth to your eyes to teasingly ask, "Am I better than Jeno?"
"And you had to ruin it." You automatically rolled your eyes at his question, dropping your hands from his face. You forgot for a moment you had to boost his ego at least five times a day, or he won't function normally.
"But am I?" He insisted.
"I mean, I like you so much for a reason." You decided to emphasize, in case it wasn't clear enough yet that you only liked him. But you knew one of Donghyuck's best and most distinct attributes (was it even an attribute) was his stubbornness. He wouldn't let you be until you say what he wants to hear. And pleasing him was your favorite thing to do anyway, despite all stubbornness.
"Say I'm better than him or I won't give you more kisses." You watched him smirk, your mouth parted in awe at his antics. Kind of unable to accept you could like so much a person like him.
You were going to say it eventually, anyway.
"You are." You accepted. "Now I want more kisses."
"Anything my baby wants." He went to peck your pout repeatedly until you started reciprocating his kisses. Donghyuck taking control, making you feel like he had been waiting for you to come kiss him for a long time now. Feverishly anticipated events for the both of you, never knowing how to approach each other before. All the tension that had been building up for a while, now released. "...You won't be the one taking my virginity though." He broke the kiss to speak to you.
And if you thought you were feeling hot before, now you were literally burning inside out from embarrassment. Those words were meant for a drunken encounter, and even though you were drunk in his sweetness at that moment, it didn't make you feel any less ashamed.
"Who told you that?!"
"Yangyang." He said with the minimum of hesitation.
Your best friend who couldn't keep his mouth shut for nothing in the world. Not even to save you from the embarrassment you were experiencing in front of the biggest crush you've ever had. "Well, fuck Yangyang." You were mad, all traces from the hot kisses before, now gone. It only got worse when Donghyuck decided to speak again.
"I thought that was what you wanted me to do with y–"
But he was out of his mind if he thought you were gonna let him finish that sentence.
"Hyuck! Can you stop? That's embarrassing." You asked with little tears threatening to fall. All the drunk confidence you once had long gone. You felt too bad after that party, you had forgotten about your actual plan to 'save Hyuck's reputation from the frat boys and to help the future girls'.
Donghyuck, being the little shit he was, couldn't help laughing at your embarrassment. He found your intentions hilarious. "So that's how you think of me, huh?" He teased a little more. "So sorry, baby, but it won't be happening."
Why was the reason, it was what you thought. So, he liked you but not enough to be with you? You looked him in the eyes, yours watery from the embarrassment and that's when he noticed that, for the first time, you weren't enjoying the jokes as much as he was. "It's because you don't like me that way?" You managed to take courage and ask.
"No, no, no. Baby, I'm sorry." He talked between little laughs, and pressed his thumbs on your eyes to prevent the tears from falling. In the end, it was always his soft big hands taking care of you. "It's 'cuz... It's been already taken."
You big opened your eyes at that, not believing he kept the information from you all that time. "But why didn't you tell me, I wouldn't have made stupid expectations to do something special for you!" You whined, composure mildly recovered, if it wasn't for Donghyuck's usual cockiness getting to you so easily.
"My baby… You are so weird but cute." He hugged you and tucked you down to lay in bed with him. His arms securely wrapped around your torso, leaving small kisses over all your face. "But you know we can still have fun together, don't you? The offer to stay the night is still up."
You kissed him deeply one more time before taking up on his offer. Cuddling and kissing with Donghyuck all night seemed better than any other plan you could have made in your head, and it didn't involve any form of intoxication –except for Donghyuck's sweetness, but you didn't mind getting drunk on that any time.
Taglist: @rrnhyuck (couldn't get to tag I'm so sorry!)
Playing Games
You didn’t yet see my worth, so you try to play me. But I was so in love that I just got a little bit too complicated.
▪︎ Summary: A chaotic New Year’s party makes you rethink the kind of relationship you’ve been having with Donghyuck for the past few months. He is a player, but you love the game.
▪︎ Pairing: Lee Donghyuck x female reader
▪︎ Genres: friends with benefits, smut, angst
▪︎ Word count: 7.4k (I’m so sorry.)
▪︎ Warnings: explicit sexual content, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT; profanity; substance consumption; toxic behavior. (Please let me know if I missed something.)
Listen to the playlist here. | Click to see Hyuck’s moodboard.
Author’s note: This is my secret santa gift for @neochan as part of the event hosted by @neowritingsnet . Hey Sam, I was your secret santa! Happy holidays and I hope you can enjoy the fic :) Didn’t have the time to get it proof read so I’m really sorry about that.
Lolo.
1. Forget about it, forget about him
“How are you surviving the New Year’s party?”
Your question takes Rina by surprise, since you see her get a little scared when she hears your voice from behind. But, seeing that it’s only you, it doesn’t take long for that beautiful smile that characterizes her to reappear.
“It’s going really well, I think.” She answers by returning her gaze to the front, where your group of friends is preparing for the main event of the night.
It’s exactly two minutes to midnight. You know this not only because of the gigantic TV screen in the living room of the mansion—that has been broadcasting the countdown to the new year in different parts of the world since you arrived at the boys’ house— but because you can also feel it in the air.
Aeri is helping Mia bring the glasses into the living room and set them ready for the cocktail party. Donghyuck is arguing with Jaemin because he’s not helping Jisung with the Champagne bottles he’s too scared to open. Chenle’s laughter can be heard from the kitchen followed by some groans, and Mark telling him “it’s not funny at all”. You only find out what the mess is about when Jeno comes and lights up the room with his eye smile, telling the guys that Mark splashed his own eyes cutting the lime for the margaritas, and now he can’t see anything.
You and Renjun share a cigarette on the balcony, now with Rina on your side.
“You know things are about to get weird, right?” Renjun asks the girl.
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yea smut is fun and all that but i really like reading fics where both characters start developing feelings for each other, fics that actually have a story behind to tell and narrate perfectly, i pay attention to all the details, so fics where just smut starts after the third paragraph get boring at some point 😭 at least for me
so if anyone knows any jaehyun, haechan or jungkook fanfic where it’s perfectly written and not just a 10 paragraph smut pls let me know lolol
love to hate you - masterlist
“when obnoxiously rich and spoiled frat boy jeon jungkook comes up to you one day and asks you to fake date him for money, you definitely should have said no. because before you knew it, you were going on insta dates with him and having lunch with his equally obnoxiously rich and spoiled friends and having to try to not burst at all of your seams.”
this used to be called date me!
current word count : 65k
prologue : the day we first met and you asked me out
chapter i: the day we signed our fake dating contract
chapter ii : the day i met your friends
chapter iii : the day you met my friends
chapter iv : the day we went on our first fake date
chapter v : the day of the halloween party
drabble : in which jungkook reacts to oc’s costume
chapter vi : the day i told you
chapter vii : the day of the christmas party
chapter viii :
chapter ix :
(chapter x :)
extras :
— facts about oc and jungkook ; more facts about oc ; facts about the friends ; even more facts about all of the characters
— what does jungkook look like in the story? ; my characterisation of jungkook
— the official love to hate you soundtrack
— what year of college are oc and jungkook in/what is their age?
— what’s oc’s aesthetic? ; how did oc meet her friends?/who does she trust most?
— the boys’ thoughts on settling down/who is most likely to settle down? etc.
— does narae have actual feelings for jungkook?
Please be with me so it can be fuller and prettier
WHY IS JUNGKOOK SHIRTLESS HES INSANE ( ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ )
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More of my favs -> Thanks to all these incredible writers for making my day a little better :))
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(If you have any recs pls share, especially for Hobi, Jin, & Rm :))
just jungkook casually doing a live of him laying in his bed 😳💀😂
this is the best Haechan fic i’ve read, wow i have no words
HITS DIFFERENT | L.DH
TITLE: hits different
PAIRING: lee haechan x fem!reader | mc’s best friend johnny, haechan’s roommate mark (+ kinda emotional support boy when mc acts like a loser)
GENRE: non-idol au, strangers to friends with benefits to lovers, getting together, smut, angst, fluff | requested
SUMMARY: nobody ever got under your skin, not until Haechan came in your life and changed everything.
WARNINGS: smut, protected and unprotected sex (condom first and then mc is on the pill), multiple sex scenes, oral sex, fingering, car sex, riding, fingers sucking, face sitting, rimming, anal, mirror sex, a bit of exhibitionism (as a fantasy), praise, teasing (as in degradation but it’s not hard stuff), handjob, morning sex, kitchen sex, toys (vibrator), overstimulation, (no bdsm but) switchy dynamics, sa doesn’t happen but there are a few references to pushy behaviours, mentions of a past car accident and death of a barely mentioned character | I hope I didn’t forget anything but if I did, let me know! | kinda implied that both haechan and the reader are bi because in this house we only support mxf bi4bi couples (joking… unless) do whatever you want with this information.
WC: 44.804k
TAGLIST: @adorejaehyn@matchahyuck@sundhaelatte@jjhmk@ourbeautifulaffair@what-the-jams@oleoleniall @kundann @bbagu@ismileeprnc-responder@produmads@zkdlllin@yesohhsehun@aliceinwhateverland@strangevante @cas104 @hyuckdreams
A/N: finally writing hyuck as a loser male wife (kinda) my life is complete!!! It’s been months and I’m back with a request, I know it took long to write it but I hope whoever requested will like this. I’m still not sure about the present tense but idk I’m trying out new things. I would really appreciate if you could support my work in any way, feedback makes me happy and motivates me to keep writing. If you can, reblog so it can reach more people or come and chat in the ask box to let me know your opinion! Love you, enjoy!
It was Johnny’s fault. It’s always his fault when things don’t go as planned.
It’s his fault if right now you are jumping around Haechan’s bedroom trying to look for your clothes while the clock is running fast, and you are running late.
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my favorite ff ever i come back to this every time
idealizations concerning real life relations | jjk (m)
>>pairing:jungkook x reader / fuckboy!jk x hopeless romantic!oc
>>genre:s2l, fwb, smut, angst
>>word count: 40.9k besties i am so sorry
>>warnings: jk is so sweet, but also so evil lmao, oc lives in her little noggin, angsty fwb, drug and alcohol use, tattoos, multiple smut scenes that include: oral (m/f), fingering (f), light face slapping (with hand and cock??), praise, degradation, marking, dirty talk, so many creampies yum, multiple orgasms, kissing :(, cumming in pants :), probably more but i cant think of it, ok other stuff now, manipulation, infidelity, oc thinks jk is made of stars :(, jk thinks she is so pretty :(, misunderstandings, some fluff if you squint, brunette jk, blonde jk, n blue jk, 1 mentions of: howls moving castle, too many mentions of: stars, the color pink
>>notes: bruv i do not have anything to say for myself EXCPET that i worked v hard on her and i really hope u like it <3 beta: @birbdae tysm for dealing with this, she is long lmao >>> soundtrack
this is split up by seasons, so if 40k is a lot for one sitting, you can read one season at a time if that is easier :)
>>summary: jungkook loves to be loved, but he doesn’t love in return.
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aespa | the 2nd mini album ⇢ girls ♡
Animal - 01
Pairing: Jungkook | Reader Genre: boxer jungkook au | angst | future smut | lots of sarcasm Word Count: 21.3k
Warnings: mentions of violence, wounds and blood.
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Congratulations Jungkook! Jungkook graduated from the Global Cyber university and received the “President’s Award”! (trans. cr. @bts-trans and btsbaragi_jk)
I’m too stunned to speak
