You Did My Concept So Much Justice Girl I LOVE It
you did my concept so much justice girl I LOVE it
omg you just made my day after my long distance bf went home yesterday and i been like lowkey depressed since đ
anyways!! i have 2 ideas!
first: (set during stanford era with reader also going to stanford) ong distance idea - you and art are on ft with patrick as heâs away competing and it starts off as just you all catching up as you do every night but then art starts feeling needy after a moment where he felt left out of the conversation cuz his adhd ass zoned out and got lost (very me coded tbh haha) and so he starts nuzzling and licking your neck. you donât pay it any mind at first and just choose to ignore him knowing how your bf can be but then he moves behind you and starts grinding into your ass causing you to start moaning and whimpering. patrick on the other hand is just grinning at his two horny puppies as he encourages but also degrades the both of you as he jerks himself off whilst watching.
second: (set more in 2011 era with you all living together + a lil bit more hardcore so ignore if not comfy with it) tw lil bit of somno. it starts off innocent enough with both you and art deep in a calm puppy space napping together completely naked after going at it all afternoon with only your collars on as you wait for patrick to get home. when patrick gets home, he notices his puppies donât greet him kneeling at the door as they usually do. he walks further inside and finds you and art on the couch in the living room covered in cum, he smiles at first but then smirks as he specifically told the two of you not do anything without him around but you just couldnât help yourselves cuz youâre just horny little puppies. he walks over to the two of you, grazes his hand over your pussy making you flinch from how sensitive it is, he smirks again pushing 2 fingers inside of you teasing you awake. you whimper and then moan loudly causing art to wake up and then idk icb assed writing anymore but basically patrick teases the both of you for touching each other whilst heâs gone and then he fucks the both of you without letting either of you cum cuz youâve cum enough today in his opinion
PUPPY!READER ANDDDD PUPPY!ARTâŠ. We won <3
Second concept literally has me salivating shivering shaking and quaking
Because the sight is so cute, Patrick just grins when he sees the two of you. You passed out on top of Artâs body, your hair in his mouth. Your chests and tummies and thighs smeared with dried cum :(( you just got so needy and had to play, neither of you could help it.
And yeah, youâre so sensitiveâ still wet and slick from Art cumming inside of you. Patrick rubs over your pussy, makes you squirm and sigh beneath him. You slowly wake up as he slips two fingers inside your sticky, used little pussy. It takes a minute as you blink yourself awake, but soon youâre whining and moaning as he thrusts his fingers inside, slow and deep.
Art wakes up, his cheeks pink and flushed as he listens to your moans, as he watches Patrick above you.
âThere he is,â Patrick coos, a smirk playing at his lips. âDid you get so sleepy after playing?â Art nods, and Patrick pulls his fingers from your cunt and pressed them between Artâs open mouth. The blond moans, licking them clean.
âPoor little puppies.â Patrick grins, looking at how pathetic you two looked beneath him. âToo needy, hm? Couldnât wait until I got home? You had to fuck like animals, get all messy and dirty.â
And sighhhh :((( Patrick making his puppies suck his cock together, make them make him cum while he doesnât even touch them because they already had all their fun today :(( and youâre both whining and eager to please him, but you want his affection and attention so bad :(((
And if he makes you both curl up by his feet instead of sitting with him on the couch, thatâs because itâs a privilege for good puppies only :((
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summary: you reconnect with an unexpected guest at the creator of your scholarshipâs dinner party.
pairing: patrick zweig x reader
warnings: stanford era, sassy reader, situationship, a touch of family drama, mentions of putting an etsy love spell on someone, arguing, emotional immaturity, maybe not the best decisions from our lovely characters, kindaaaa open ending
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âThis is my son, Patrick.â
Your stomach dropped the second the womanâs son turned around, familiar light eyes and scruffy appearance immediately taking you back to your tumultuous third semester of college.Â
You remembered it like it was yesterdayâthe extended periods without contact followed by a surprise appearance at your dorm room, or the drawn out arguments on the phone that left every passerby giving youâthe angry woman on the phone in her pajamas on the sidewalkâa strange look, and even the few good times you had with him.Â
You blinked once to make sure your eyes werenât deceiving you, then felt an onslaught of realization hit you at once. Despite your several month on-and-off situationship with Patrick, you never learned much identifying information about him, including his last name. In fact, that had been something youâd argued about multiple times. The two of you barely knew each other, save for each othersâ bodies, which you unfortunately both knew very well.
Had you known that Patrick was the son of Mrs. Zweig, donor to your scholarship, you wouldnât have accepted the invite to this family event.Â
Mrs. Zweig seemed to recognize the shock and confusion on both of your faces. While you didnât think your mouth was agape, there was certainly a high chance that it was. âYou two already know each other?â she asked, looking amused.Â
âNo,â you quickly replied.
âYeah,â Patrick said, his words coming out at the same time as yours.Â
âYes,â you tried again, trying to get your story straight.Â
âNo,â he said this time, your voices overlapping once more.Â
She glanced between the two of you skeptically before humming aloud. âHmm. Well, Iâll let you two chat and connect, or reconnect, whatever it is youâre doing.â
She was off without much more fanfare, leaving you very flustered in her wake.Â
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â Patrick asked you, getting right in your face like he always did when the two of you argued. It was almost slightly nostalgia-inducing.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â It was a stupid question, given that he had been introduced as the son of your beneficiary. Of course he would be at a family function. This was his family, after all. But you were flustered, as anyone else in your shoes would be, and words were currently failing you.Â
âZweig doesnât ring a bell?â he asked. When you responded with a wordless shake of your head, he chuckled in annoyance and disbelief. It all felt very familiar. âWhat was it that you always used to say to me? âYou donât even know what my middle name is?ââ
You crossed your arms over your chest and rolled your eyes, not knowing where the discussion was going, but not liking it regardless.Â
In response to your non-verbal response, he leaned in close to your ear, clearly not trying to let on to the rest of the attendees the level of drama that was currently occurring in their midst.Â
âYou hypocrite.â
The words he spat were simple, but effectiveâleaving you simultaneously filled with rage and oddly, a little aroused.
He walked off after that, using self restraint that you werenât actually sure that he had. Knowing Patrick, he would be back and spewing vitriol in your face or in your ear whenever he next had the opportunity.Â
You were taking a very different approach to the situation. Now that you knew Patrick was at the event, you were determined to do everything humanly possible to avoid bumping into him.Â
You talked to any and everyone you could find, trying to ignore the fact that you could feel Patrickâs eyes searing into you, no matter what part of the room you were in. He was clearly waiting for the moment he could pounce on you once again, evidenced by the way he seemed to start going on the move whenever you stopped talking to someone.Â
Somehow, you were still one step quicker than him, quickly maneuvering yourself into new conversations or inserting yourself into the conversations of others.Â
You werenât sure what Patrick so badly wanted to tell you anyway. Maybe taunt you about some new conquest he was with, or to beg you to come home with him after dinner. Unfortunately, the latter proposition didnât sound all that bad.Â
Other than your issue of avoiding conversation with Patrick, you were also facing another challenge: People trying to introduce the two of you to each other. You werenât sure what it was that made people think that the two of you needed to meet so badlyâfrom Patrickâs mom, who had been insisting for weeks that you meet her son, to a random cousin who happened to think that youâd like each other. You wished you could tell them that youâd already met each other, and that youâd magnificently crashed and burned.Â
Briefly wanting to get away from the repetitive small talk and questions about if youâve met the person you were in a messy situationship with, you found your way to a bathroomâbut not without being followed in.Â
âWhat the fuck?â you said immediately as the door behind you shut.Â
âWe need to talk,â Patrick said plainly, locking the door behind him.Â
âUnlock that,â you demanded, not because you were all that afraid of your safety, but because you wanted a quick exit plan if he started to really piss you off.Â
âFine,â he conceded, unlocking the door. âBut donât act weird if someone walks in on us.â
âWalks in on us?â you laughed, parroting his words. âThere wonât be anything to walk in on. I mean, you canât seriously think Iâm going to fuck you at a family dinner.â
You were about 95% sure of your words, but that other 5% was thinking about the logistics of getting your tight dress off in that small bathroom.
âI didnât come in here to fuck you,â he explained.
âThen what are you here for?â you asked, confused about what else he could possibly want from you.Â
âWe need to get our story straight. I canât have a repeat of that conversation with my mom.â
âWhy does it matter? Iâll just stay away from you for the rest of the night. Iâll expect you to do the same, then there wonât be any issues.â
âThat wonât work. Have you seen the seating chart for tonight?â
âSeating chart?â you scoffed. It seemed ridiculous, but it made sense. For people rich enough to create and fund scholarships, it made sense that a large dinner for friends and family members would come equipped with a seating chart. Besides, you were sure there were people with dietary restrictions in your midst. âHow would I have known there was a seating chart, let alone look at it ahead of time?â
âWell, a little spoiler: you and I are sitting next to each other.â
âWhat the hell? Who did that?âÂ
âI donât know! Stop looking at me like this is my fault.â Now that he mentioned it, you were currently glaring at Patrick. âIt mustâve been my mom. I swear sheâs been telling everyone that you and I need to get together. Everyoneâs been telling me all night that we need to meet.â
âGod, I thought it was just me. Is this a family of matchmakers or something? Or are they trying to help you out with your fear of commitment?â
âI donât have- can you just focus instead of trying to be funny? Weâre gonna be next to each other all night and people are going to be asking us questions. So what are we going to tell them?â
âYou donât want to tell them about you leading me on for months?â you asked innocently, not trying very hard to hide the contempt behind your words.Â
âNo, youâre right,â Patrick agreed with you, fake thoughtfulness in his tone. âNow that I think about it, maybe we should tell them about the love spell you paid some Etsy witch to put on me.â
You instantly felt your cheeks warm at the mention of such an embarrassing action.
âThat was a joke and you know it.â It wasnât a joke. It was a dark period of time for you. âSo what do you suggest we tell them?â
âThat weâre just friends,â he said simply.Â
âThey arenât gonna be suspicious that youâve never brought me up before?â you probed, part of you wondering the logic behind his decision, and the other part of you wondering if heâd ever brought you, his situationship, up to his friends or family.Â
âDoubt it,â he dismissed with ease.
You were only a little disappointed, but not at all surprised. âSo whatâs the story?â
âThat we met when I was visiting Stanford.â
âThatâs true, though.â
âJust leave it at that. We met once or twice through mutual friends,â he directed.Â
âOkay,â you shrugged. âAnything else I should know?â
âJust that you look really hot tonight,â he said, biting his lip and unabashedly checking you out.Â
âOkay. Goodbye,â you didnât bother humoring him, though his words did satisfy you. You left the bathroom and didnât spare a glance back, even as you heard him leave a few minutes later.Â
After the torture that was socializing with people whose sole purpose seemed to be setting you up with your ex fling, youâd all been summoned to sit down for dinner. Just as Patrick warned you, you sat down at a seat that was directly next to him. You wished you could switch seats with someone else, putting their nameplate next to him and hoping that no one would be any wiser, but you couldnât see a world where that would work out for you.
Eventually, Patrick sat down next to you, clearly trying his best not to look at you too closely, lest someone catch on to the fact that you two knew each other.Â
You did your best to be a fly on the wall in the conversation that the people around you were having. You poked around at your salad and wondered if you focused hard enough on the leaves, if youâd be able to disappear.Â
âSo, have you two had the chance to meet?â someone asked from across the table, directing the question to you and Patrick. Clearly, your plan of disappearing hadnât worked out after all.
âYeah! We actually know each other already,â you explained, directing a friendly smile towards whatever cousin or family friend you were speaking to. Clearly, Patrick didnât trust your answering abilities, as he butt into the conversation before you could finish speaking.
âWe have some mutual friends, so weâve crossed paths once or twice,â Patrick clarified, attempting to give more context to your relationship. Technically, it was true. While you werenât necessarily friends with the man who inadvertently set you up, youâd been invited to a party being hosted by some tennis player in your accounting class who played with Patrick at some point, and met at that very event.Â
Despite the many partygoers, Patrick seemed instantly drawn to you, or at least, was instantly attracted to you, based on the way that he openly checked you out as he approached you. Normally, that kind of thing would make you roll your eyes and walk away, but youâd been intrigued by his looks and his shameless demeanor. If only you could go back in time to tell yourself to roll your eyes and walk away.Â
âBut we donât know each other very well,â you added. That, you firmly believed was true. Patrick may have known what position made you cum quickest, but he didnât know a thing that actually mattered about you. He probably couldnât even tell you what your major was.Â
âWhat a coincidence you ended up here, then,â the other man, whose name you couldnât remember, commented. âDid Patrick help you get the scholarship?â
âWhat?â you tried not to sound too offended, though you very much were. You tried to remind yourself that saying the wrong thing could cost you your entire higher education, and ended up laughing off the very rude allegation. âItâs really just a funny coincidence.â
To your surprise, Patrick jumped to your defense. âUnlike you and your seat on the board, thereâs no nepotism here. We met long after she already got the scholarship, which she earned. Sheâs one of the most dedicated students I know.â
His words surprised you. The argumentative ones calling out his relative, not so much, but you were a little impressed by the way that he stood firm on the fact that you were a good student. Sure, he witnessed you studying for midterms in your dorm room every now and thenâeven if at the time heâd been trying to distract you from your work to get some attentionâand now that you were thinking about it, he did bring you flowers after he found out youâd made it onto the Deanâs List.Â
Maybe Patrick hadnât been all that bad of a⊠you didnât even know what, after all. But that was certainly a thought you were only entertaining due to his sweet behavior he was currently exhibiting. The fact that you were a whole year out from your entanglement and still couldnât define what the hell happened between the two of you was a testament to how much of a mess your relationship was.Â
âNot that you know too many students,â his relative laughed in that stuck-up rich person's laugh they all seemed to have. You tried to ignore how you were already getting caught in family politics, getting your academic ability called into question in the crossfire of an easy insult Patrick dealt to his family member. âPatâs too busy going around the world hitting balls. Howâs that going, by the way?â
From what youâd observed in your own efforts to see what he was up to, they werenât going great. Notably, after youâd cut things off with him, his performance decreased significantly.Â
âItâs going well,â Patrick said with false confidence that you saw right through. If you could see right through it, you were sure that his family members were able to do the same. A brief glance at the woman in front of you who was clearly attempting to suppress a laugh confirmed this for you immediately.Â
It was almost a little pathetic to see, watching Patrick lie so obviously to an audience that couldnât even pretend to believe him. Seeing how he stepped in to help you out, it was only fair that you did the same for him. Even if he hadnât done so, you were starting to become embarrassed for him.
âHave you been to any of his matches recently?â you asked, interrupting their mockery of Patrick. âHe did a really great job at the French Open. I mean, even making it to the French Open is really impressive.â
Not that youâd been at any of the matches, but you occasionally Googled his name to see what he was up to. Even more occasionally, you turned on ESPN to see if you could catch any footage of him playing. But it wasnât like you even really cared.Â
Okay. You cared a little bit.Â
Most of the time, you were rooting for him to fail, as is the right of all bitter exes. But now was not the time for you to share that information. Not when Patrick was looking at you like you were crazy, and his family members were eyeing you suspiciously.Â
That was when you remembered that the two of you werenât supposed to know each other very well. You instantly tried your best to cover up your tracks. âBut I donât know a lot about tennis, thatâs just what our friend told me.â Considering that you hadnât spoken to Art since Accounting 223 ended, he did not actually share this information with you.
âHuh. Do you guys talk about Patrick a lot?â you were trying your best not to fold under the skeptical look she was giving you.Â
âOnly when heâs doing something cool. Which isnât very often,â it was a good save, which left the rest of the table laughing at your little dig at Patrick. You were starting to understand his family dynamic a little more, and it didnât exactly seem like a pleasant one.Â
You could practically feel his betrayed gaze searing into you, but you did your best to ignore it. You were already feeling guilt gnaw into you about hanging him back out to dry with a family who already liked to pick on him.Â
âYou know, that actually reminds me. You said you donât know much about tennis, but I remember seeing you play a little bit. Howâs that going?â Patrick asked you, his question obviously trying to reveal something embarrassing about you. You instantly felt the blood drain from your face at the mention of your attempt to play the sport.
Your brief stint with tennis was mainly born out of your desire to see Patrick more often. After your run-in at his friendâs party, you were determined to put yourself in the type of situations that would allow you to âaccidentallyâ run into Patrick.Â
You started off simple, going to the tennis matches for Stanfordâs menâs team, hoping that Patrick would eventually show up in the stands to support his friend. Despite your incessant searching of the stands, you were never able to find Patrick amongst the crowd of students, fans, and supportive family members.Â
Never one to give up easily, you decided to take matters into your own hands. Maybe if you were a little sportier, Patrick would take an interest in you, reaching out to you so you wouldnât ever have to make the first move. You spent the evening perusing sporting goods stores with your roommate, putting cute tennis outfits and equipment that you couldnât really afford on a credit card.Â
The next morning, the two of you got up bright and early to hit the tennis courts before anyone else arrived. The game seemed simple enough, but proved to be far more difficult than either of you anticipated. After half an hour of attempting to play with frankly awful technique, you decided to call it quits and do a photoshoot instead.Â
Feeling satisfied with pictures that featured your best angles and the slightest hint of breeze blowing up your skirt, you decided to post your photos on social media with a caption about how much you loved tennis. That was sure to get Patrickâs attention.
Just as youâd suspected, not long after you posted, you received a message from Patrick, casually asking about how things were going with you. Your faux interest in tennis had been promptly abandoned.Â
Surprised at the fact that Patrick was bringing up your very blatant bait of him, you were caught slightly off guard. âOh, I was never really super into it,â you attempted to dismiss.
âThatâs news to me,â he chuckled. âI swear, you told me about how you were super into tennis. Was that just a phase, orâŠ?â
He eyed you mischievously, clearly challenging you to a match of whatever mind game it was that he wanted to play with you. Unluckily for him, you were in the mood to playâand win.
âSomething like that. I guess I just figured out that tennis really wasnât for me. But you know, college is a time to try out new things. See what you like, what you donât like. And man, I really didnât like tennis.â
Obviously, you werenât talking just about tennis. You hoped that Patrick was able to catch onto the not-so-subtle subtext.Â
âI donât know, I thought you liked tennis a lot. Thought it was good for you,â Patrick commented casually, going back to his food before looking back at you.
âIt was surprisingly pretty toxic,â you replied easily.
âAre you sure you didnât share a part in that toxicity? With a sport like tennis, you really get out what you put in.â
âSure, but I didnât put in nearly as much toxicity as I was getting from it.â
âOf course youâd think that,â Patrick murmured.Â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â you asked.
âIt means that you think youâre so guiltless, but you played a bigger role in⊠tennis not working out than youâre acting like you did.â
âPlease, enlighten me on how I couldâve made tennis work out better for me.â
âI just think maybe youâre being a little too hard on tennis in comparison to what really happened.â
âJust because you have a nice racket and a little more experience than me doesnât mean youâre an expert on how bad things were for me. Seriously, Patrick. You actually donât have a clue about what I was going through.â
âAre you guys still talking about tennis?â someone asked with a forced laugh, breaking the thick tension at the table. There was a stiff, awkward chuckle from your fellow dinner companions. It was almost as if youâd forgotten that you were at his familyâs dinner, bitterly arguing with Patrick in loosely coded language. You should have the shame to feel embarrassed, but you mostly felt agitated with Patrick.Â
âObviously,â Patrick replied. âWhat else would we be talking about?â
âOh yeah. Obviously,â they said stiffly. âSo like, are you sure you two donât know each other that well?â
âWe really donât,â you quickly replied.
âWhy would we lie about that?â Patrick said, your voices overlapping.
As if arguing about something that was very obviously a metaphor for your relationship wasnât suspicious enough, this reaction certainly didnât help your case. It was ridiculous to attempt to keep up this façade when it was becoming more and more clear to anyone at the table with eyes to see and ears to hear that you two were more than casual, mutual friends.
âActually, we did lie. We were friends for a little while,â you confessed.
âFriends?â Patrick parroted with a scoff. He looked at you with disbelief before shaking his head. âExcuse me,â he announced before standing up and walking off from the table.
The rest of the table looked at you expectantly, which you took as your cue to follow Patrick to wherever he was sulking off to. âSorry. Excuse me.â
The two of you said nothing as you followed Patrick out to his back patio. The fresh, cold air felt nice after a suffocating, stressful evening. As Patrick sat down on a piece of comfortable furniture, you wordlessly sat across from him.
âJust go. Back inside, back home, I donât give a shit. I donât have anything to say to you.â
âClearly you do,â you replied, watching him dig in his pocket for a cigarette to no avail. He finally found a loose cigarette and brought it to his lips, ignoring you as he lit it up.Â
âDonât blow it in my face,â you warned him, though you wouldnât mind taking a drag or two from it.Â
âI wonât,â he replied, words muffled around the cigarette at his lips.Â
The two of you sat in silence before he spoke once more. âDo you seriously feel like we were just friends?â
âJesus,â you laughed at the question, unbelieving that Patrick would think all of your desperate acts to try to get him to commit to you could be interpreted as anything but romantic. âOf course we werenât just friends. But you try describing what we had to someone who wasnât a witness to the train wreck that was our relationship.â
âWe wereâŠâ he trailed off as he thought about how to describe your relationship. âFriends with benefits?â
âSure,â you replied, though you obviously disagreed with him. âYou know, this is exactly why things didnât work out. I wanted to be with you so badly and you refused to acknowledge that we had a connection any deeper than physical until it was convenient for you.â
âDid you expect me to spell out how I felt about you when I was showing you how I felt?â he asked as if it were the most obvious question in the world.
âActually, yes. Clearly we were not on the same page about how we felt if you thought that you were being so obvious while I was over-analyzing every single word youâd ever said to me to try to figure out how you felt about me.â
âAre you serious? You were the one who was impossible to understand. One day you wanted me to take you out on a date and hold you in your little twin sized bed afterward, and the next you didnât want to speak to me. How was I supposed to interpret that?â
âPatrick, you were doing the same thing to me! I was just so mad at you. Like, constantly. Even though I had feelings for you. My friends were always telling me Iâm an idiot for letting you treat me that way, so obviously I tried to start pushing you away. But even with everything, I still really liked you, so I couldnât fully stay away from you,â you explained, hoping that your disjointed words would make sense to him.Â
It truly was a very complicated situation. Part of you wondered if you had communicated this earlier, if things might have ended differently for you.Â
Patrick seemed to be thinking deeply about your words before he spoke again. âDo you ever still think about me?â
You had two options for approaching his question. You could lie, like you hadnât made it abundantly clear earlier that you still, at the very least, pay attention to his tennis career, or you could tell the truth and risk having your feelings hurt again.Â
âSometimes,â you confessed, going with the latter. âIâm mostly still really annoyed with the way you treated me, and the fact that I let you treat me that way. But sometimes I miss you, anyway.â
âThen letâs do things differently this time,â he proposed as if it was the best and brightest idea heâd ever had. âI miss you, too. It shouldnât have taken us breaking up for me to realize how much I need you in my life, but it did.â
âWhat are you saying, Patrick?â you asked, trying to make sure that you fully understood his proposition. Was he trying to get you back?
âI want you to be my girlfriend,â he spelled out for you. âI want to treat you better than I ever did before. Iâve thought about everything that went down between us, and I think that we can make it work this time if we just try to be honest with each other. What do you think?â
You were shocked at the offer. If someone had told you going into this dinner that you would end it with your former situationship asking you to be with him, you wouldâve laughed in their face. Yet, his proposition, and the fact that you wanted to say yes, didnât exactly feel like a laughing matter.
You paused as you stopped to consider your options. Your gut instinct was to say yesâyouâd wanted him for so long, and he clearly wasnât over you. You obviously had some things you needed to work through before you really made this relationship work, but the feelings were there. The more logical part of your brain was telling you to say noâPatrick had hurt you so many times before, that there was no telling if he would hurt you again.Â
âSure. Letâs try it,â you said, ignoring all of the logic in your head and fully following where the passion in your heart wanted to take you.Â
You couldnât be sure if this would end in another heartbreak for you, but you werenât so sure that you cared either.