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I'm in need of a few funds to make up for having to pay about $300 for setting up our utilities in our new apartment. So I'm offering every commission type I have ❤️

Full Render Half Body: 1️⃣2️⃣5️⃣

Sketchy Half Body: 7️⃣5️⃣

Headshot: 5️⃣0️⃣

Symmetrical Heashot: 3️⃣5️⃣

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Over here in the depths of extra rural Montana, I don't feel I really belong anywhere if I showed who I really am. People here who claim they're loving and accepting would gladly burn me at the stake for even thinking of being trans, or simply just bullying. It's an echo chamber over here that makes it clear that if you don't fit in, you're not welcome. Going outside is only a reminder that I'm only surviving, not living.

no one really thinks about or remembers queer people that live in rural areas whenever they make posts giving advice on being more social and making friends, nor do a lot of people realize how isolating it can be living in these parts, especially when you don't have a car. you can't walk anywhere because the closest thing worth going to is 7 hours away on foot unless you consider going to walmart a social function. you can't take the bus anywhere because public transit doesn't exist in any capacity, and neither does uber. i have to make peace with the empty cornfields and the aging conservation population that i'm forced to hide my real self from for my own safety. i feel a world away from any sense of a "queer community" it's no wonder i don't feel like a real living person most of the time

huh okay i mean i know i like art but jeez

There is the scalie (mostly built of dragons) subcommunity of the furry fandom, which saying it lightly is sketchy at best, so I mostly go by a furry that like reptiles mostly, I just don't wanna be lumped in with that subcommunity, I have the intense desire to run away

if mammal sonas are furries, and reptile sonas are scalies, what are bug sonas 🤔

all 3 are furries

Autistic dragonesss myself, it really is a disability for me and I never was diagnosed, never thought about it but in a way, knew I was in the back of my head at least, impaired compared to my peers, I had to be in speech therapy. After browsing nothing short of 20-50 videos and other tests ya often need to getting diagnosed, the answer was literally in front of me and I eventually accepted it, and now I realize how disabled I was at least mentally compared to all my other peers, yet lucky enough to not get special ed, which sadly a lot of autistics can't say the same and paid dreadfully for it.

I still get "autism isn't a disability" motherfuckers in my comments, and like, if it isn't a disability for you then what is there even to advocate for? you not feeling left out in group chats with yr friends? what is it if not a disability

trust me, no one knows why or how, dawg, it's literally a thing that exists and the universe didn't allow it to implode upon itself when by all means it should have

im really sorry to say im still rubbernecking at the colleen ballinger ukulele apology. like its old news at this point, but like,, how does it exist? how did this happen? ive seen it so many times, it hasn't started making sense. it seems like its improvised, but theres still moments of wordplay that had to have been rehearsed. The 2nd chorus has a variation on the lyrics but the third doesn't, i swear there's a point where she just starts making it up as she goes, somewhere around the halfway point. The fake ending where she pretends she's gonna turn off the camera but instead just sits down and says the same fucking thing again, awful, horrifying.

This needs more attention, I really love this art, you did good!

Gila's ready for some trick or treating!

# Plans for LFS video thingy

So 1 month before LFS-12.1 releases, the day glibc-2.39 drops, I plan to rebuild LFS, probably live, on actual hardware. I have found a capture card online and will snag it in the future.

I will do multilib, get X11 working, then Firefox, Steam, and OBS. I am unsure about Wine at the moment but I could make a separate video about that, using my current system as a sort of test to see how to do it.

So, February basically

this is my autism 100%

TRANS RIGHS 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

So...

I wanted to talk about my recent attempt of installing LFS 12.0 in QEMU...

I couldn't get it to start in the terminal, at least I think, I have no way of the knowing. The first problem is that the framebuffer couldn't be displayed, and I don't know which options I had to turn on to get it to show while running QEMU because I believe it has its own drivers and stuff which makes things difficult and I couldn't find any info on this. Another likely thing is i tried typing "root","[password]","poweroff", which should have turned off the vm, but i continued to have a black window, so I'm assuming that not only did the framebuffer not work, possibly because of a missing driver, it also could have ran into a kernel panic which is par for the course, I assume a fs issue.

This all to say, I deleted the disk image cuz I didn't wanna stream me trouble shooting it. When 12.1 rolls around, maybe I'll stream myself installing it on actual hardware but I'm unsure, that's 6 months away for the time being.

For now ill just be autistic as hell and girlboss and hug my blahaj

100% me

You like drawing dragon tummies don't you squidward

I don't know what you're talking about anon

I first heard the phrase from Nemo and had trouble understanding why water in a glass and deciding which words to use was so important. Why water in a glass? And is it so big of a deal that it's at the point that it's at? It also insinuates that things can always reach 100% and anything over is wasted when that's not how it works, really ever. Plus, I just opt to saying halfway, if it's ever at that point, mathematically, which is rare and often must be done intentionally.

when i was a kid i used to respond to the "glass half full/half empty" question by asking how the liquid in the glass got there in the first place. nobody ever gave me a chance to explain my reasoning so i'm doing it now

if you have a glass and it has some liquid in it, up to the halfway line, whether it is empty or full depends on what happened before the question was asked. if you started with a full glass and poured half out until only half remained, the glass is half empty, because if you continued pouring it would be fully empty. however, if you started with an empty glass and poured liquid from another container into the glass up to the halfway line, the glass is half full because if you continued pouring it would be all the way full. logical, no?

i was 13 years old when somebody finally told me it was supposed to be some kind of optimism/pessimism thing. i always thought it was a riddle that nobody let me solve

Mwahahah

Downloaded all my html files I need and works as expected, GRUB-EFI files, and lastly, now downloading all the files I need for LFS!! Soon,,,,

This goes so hard. Ya'll can try me for free!!

LFS 12.0 is released! Gonna celebrate,,,,

Linux From Scratch releases on about a 6 month cycle and felt a good way to celebrate is by doing a live stream or just basic ASMR video for my YouTube channel of installing LFS 12.0, the multilib version maintained by Thomas. Right now, I got QEMU set up (I think) and I'm downloading the Gentoo livegui ISO so I can put it in QEMU and install everything,, Gonna download all the tarballs and a pdf/html of the multilib cuz I don't wanna set up a bridge, seems complicated at the moment!! No Steam or anything, just a basic LFS install, no BLFS. When 12.1 rolls around, or glibc-2.39, I will do another installation on my main system and try to do a more in-depth tutorial on how the hell I used black magic in my aid of trying to get Steam to work against all odds. Eep well, and I apologize for ramming all your feeds with my art the other day!!

very much me, this tactic does work very well to the point i can't sleep anymore without doing that twt

I'm Coming Home - June 27, 2023

Pride arrttt

Zeckma fumo moment - June 23, 2023

And here is my sona reference, it's up to date and everything, originally posted on May 25, 2023.

So stars and the moon+star, why? I really love the night, the stars, and the moon. The night sky is captivating, and I wanted to keep that aspect in my sona. As for colors, the color pallette of the album cover of Scaled and Icy is such a good one and the colors give me warmth, they don't fight with me, nor do they make me feel bad. Yellow is shown, but I don't really consider it part of the pallette. My reasoning for including it is that yellow to me does mean hope and happiness, having a way to show that my sona is happy or hopeful just by having a part of her glow with yellow is something I love. My sona is basically just me but a dragon, so everything I said about myself applies to her!

So I did a redesign after my light blue + orange sona design on March 14, 2023, and decided to try a space theme. Purple and red made sense to me. I forget why I didn't like it, I just thought these versions didn't fit me, I don't think. The second one was on March 17, 2023.

Then, this design on April 5, 2023, was the one I settled on (changed a few things since then).

I'll cover why I chose the colors I did on the post with my sona's reference.

Glec the Witch, posted on March 6th, 2023. I basically just said I wanted commission practice work, got a request, then did this. To be honest, not proud of my work here but... yea, Glec the Witch!!

Finally posting my art that has been posted on FA. This post covers art on there before Glec the Witch!!

This one - Forever Growing. From what I know, I finished this on August 03, 2020. This was the first drawing I was really proud of (and took a long time to finish).

I dunno when I did this, but oh well. It was a joke art thingy I did for a friend at the time, for a rom hack called Abridged, for Explorers of Sky.

On August 20, 2022, and 3 years before that, this used to be my sona, a male nightwing. For reasons, he is my demon, he is red.

In September, and the months before, I was thinking about my gender earnestly. To be fair, a huge part of my life, I always had done so in the back of my mind, but decided to just become a girl, the person I'm supposed to be. The month following that, October 25, 2022, I made this sona, which, is honestly a beta version of the one following this. I was still figuring out colors.

And again, still figuring out colors. Regardless, I had a solid sona here on November 12, 2022, but there was something off. :(

Next post will just cover one image, and all my other posts will follow that structure!!

So who am I?

For some reason, I feel like just explain who exactly I am besides what just my description says.

I'm a transgender mtf furry who has a dragon sona. Why a dragon? The ability to just fly away, to escape, to flee to a better place and come home, that captivates me. Plus, I just like lizards a ton, always have!

I'm also on the spectrum and hold some special interests close to my heart, such as twenty | one | pilots (my favorite songs being No Chances, Redecorate, and Isle of Flightless Birds), Linux From Scratch (yes I memorize a lot of the links), and simply being a queer furry, having people I can talk to and knowing I'm not alone in my pain.

I had a bad upbringing and I'm hoping to get my hands on estrodial. I'm wanting to leave my town and state to somewhere better. For now, I'll stay alive and post cringy art for you all to scowl at.

I'm gonna post my art I posted on FurAffinity here. This post is getting pretty long and I feel the more I talk, the more personal and vulnerable I will be. Take care!

Hello, I'm Zeckma!

I figured that most artists now are using Tumblr instead of FA and X, so I might as well do the same. I'll be posting my art too and trying to understand how this site works, maybe make a post explaining exactly who I am and explain my super duper 「ANIME LORE」!!