: Decisionslhs.

⋆·: ̗̀➛ decisions┊lhs.

pairing: idol!heeseung x hair stylist!reader

genres: fluff to angst (sorray 😣) word count: 2.7k+

warnings: hand holding. there’s like one kiss. slight forbidden love. crying. arguing. reader has second thoughts about the relationship. reader forgets anniversary. break up. let me know if i’m missing any!

mentions: enhypen members specifically jungwon, jake, and sunoo. bang pd. heeseung’s cover of ‘off my face’.

author’s note: a little something to keep your waiting interesting 🥹 this is something i’ve written a long awhile ago; i changed a few things but nonetheless, i hope you enjoy! i apologize in advance but i promise (no promises) it isn’t that… bad 🫂 this was proofread like one time only!!!

“ (now all becomes clear) one in a billion… “ his voice smoothly carries out the final performance of enhypen’s comeback show. there’s a stupid smile on his face as he sees jake make his way to him.

“ dude! that was amazing! " he snickered at the compliment, rushing out back after thanking jake. his members shared a few confused glances at how quick he left but to him, there was only one reason why and it was for you.

as soon as the door separating the stage and backroom opened, your eyes light up when you saw his slightly sweaty silver hair and the genuine smile plastered on his face. your heart raced and you almost run into his arms but you realize the setting you both were in, better to not risk it.

you mentally sigh to yourself before calling out to him “ heeseung! let’s get you all cooled down “ you say, flashing him a small smile as he makes his way to you. he gathers himself up, thanking you as he sits in the chair in front of you. he takes hold of your hand, his thumb making small circular motions on your palm.

he opens his mouth to finally speak but the sound of the door creaking meant the members and staff were nearby. immediately he let go of your hand and the lingering excitement he had; a sulking expression now on his face because he so badly wanted your opinion on his improvised high note.

loud chatter filled the room and the small moment that could’ve been something, disappeared.

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this became a new routine for you. what is it that makes having an idol boyfriend so hard? well for one, you’re his hair stylist.

it’s been about a few months since you landed the job and the idea of almost getting caught and sneaking around with him makes it even more worthwhile. you get to sneak small pecks on his forehead, hold his hand time to time, and sometimes even feed him a few snacks when no one’s looking. yeah, definitely worthwhile.

the boys had finished another round of rehearsals for tomorrow, it’s been a busy month since their comeback. you slowly make your way to heeseung, bringing along the small electric fan to help him.

“ here, this will probably be better than the thin paper you just folded. “ you glanced over at him when you realize his hand was already on yours, eyes stuck on each other.

his eyes sparkled and you didn’t know if you could ever look away. however, he takes the fan out of your hands and acts like nothing happened. you two share a small moment before snapping back to reality, taking a deep breath.

you turn back around to the corner desk, practically ignoring everyone’s stares in the room. you couldn’t believe how obvious that interaction was. thank god, your shift just ended. your cheeks flushed with embarrassment as you picked up your bags and left.

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once you’re home, you place your things down and lean against the countertop. you really need to make some mental notes so this doesn’t happen again. this is the first job you’ve been able to land in so long and you really need it. despite all your talk about it being worthwhile because of him, you can’t get caught under these circumstances at the moment.

you make your way to the bedroom, taking in how your room smells like his cologne. it distracts you from any negative thoughts you might have, which then reminds you that you two have reservations tonight.

you take a quick shower before getting yourself all dolled up. you contemplated on what to wear but you always knew you were going go with the short purple dress. his favorite color besides ivory. you wanted to blow his mind tonight… for all the good reasons of course.

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after about 15 minutes, you heard the doorbell ring and you happily open the door to see your handsome boyfriend. he definitely cleans up well, as if he knew you were going to wear his favorite color… he was also wearing a purple shirt and a pair of black slacks.

he grabbed your hand almost instantly, intertwining your fingers with his after you locked the front door.

“ i missed you love, you left so quick earlier “ there was a small pout evident on his lips. you gave him a gentle smile, pecking it away as he opens the car door for you.

“ i know i know but if i didn’t, i would not look the way i do right now “ you replied, hints of sarcasm in your voice. he raised his brow towards you as he made his way into the driver’s seat, casually placing his hand on your thigh like it was a regular thing.

“ whether you left early or not, you always look beautiful to me “ he said softly, stealing a couple glances of you while trying to focus on the road. he still couldn’t believe that you were his; it seemed almost impossible for the two of you to be together due to the company rules but hey, rules are made to be broken and knowing him, he would do anything for you even if it costed his career and maybe… that’s where the two of you are really different.

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heeseung actually lied about the reservations. he had planned a whole candlelight dinner at the beach right off this cliff with the view of the dark blue ocean waves and he went all out for decorations.

he pulled out the chair for you as you sat down, making his way across from you. there was a huge smile plastered on his face and you could tell just how happy he was in this moment.

“ can you believe our one year anniversary is in a few days? it’s kept me up the past few nights, i mean it already feels like it’s been more than 5 years with you so it’s still a bit unbelievable “ he initiates the conversation, reaching for your hand. handing hold was definitely a must in your guy’s relationship; it’s a comforting, yet intimate thing you two agreed on.

you return the huge smile, gazing into his brown eyes “ you’re so silly hee! one year has definitely come quicker than we expected but i’m happy either way with you “ you send a flying kiss in his direction and he pretends to catch it.

light laughter erupts the beginning of the evening and as you sit across from the man you just expressed your feelings to, you question just how much this relationship really means to you and the lengths you’re willing to go.

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there were various dishes placed on the table and you couldn’t believe just how much food heeseung ordered for the both of you. you even realized that it was all your favorite foods.

“ no you did not! “ you exclaim happily, a feeling of disbelief evident in your expression. besides heeseung, there was nothing else that made you happier than food. heeseung has always been one of the people in your life who encourages you to eat, he wants you to be healthy and of course, happy in your own body.

“ all for you my y/n, thank you for being so patient in this relationship. i know keeping us a secret and sneaking around can get tiring but you have never given up on us and i am forever grateful. “

there’s a weird unsettling feeling in the pit of your stomach at his words but even so, your eyes water and you choose to ignore it as you reach to cup his cheeks and kissing his delicate lips. it was definitely worth the wait this week.

he kissed you back almost immediately, a grin forming on his lips between the kiss. “ i guess someone really did miss me huh? “ he teased you a bit as you playfully roll your eyes.

you two pull away, locking your hands together at both ends of the tables.

“ i love you, lee heeseung. “

“ i love you more, kim y/n. “

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it’s been a few days since the dinner date with heeseung and his words still haven’t left your mind. if a stranger were to tell you that someone could actually love you as much as heeseung does, you’d probably laugh in their face but you’re so thankful that this love was real.

it was about 7:30 am when you woke up, you slowly got out of bed and did your morning routine. you weren’t a morning person and heeseung has constantly nagged you about it but who was he to judge you for wanting to sleep in?

you got ready for the day and grabbed your essentials before running out your door, it was already 8:15 am and enhypen’s performance starts in an hour, you worried if you’d make it in time. you’re usually very punctual so maybe bang pd would ignore this first late warning.

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as you made your way into hype, you instantly felt intense stares from individuals in the lobby. you started feeling anxious, what the heck was going on? you brushed them off and made your way up to the back room, enhypen was already waiting there for you but heeseung was missing. worry started to fill your head but you had no time to waste so, you continued on with your regular schedule like your heart wasn’t beating out of your chest.

the clock stroke 9 am when you finished the boys’ hair and still no sight of heeseung. you started picking at your finger tips for awhile before you heard a voice speak up as if they could read your mind.

“ if you’re looking for heeseung hyung, bang pd asked to speak to him earlier this morning.. “

pause.

“ there were photos of the two of you a few nights ago, are you two really dating? “

you look up to see jungwon, concern shown all on his face. you were so taken back that all you could muster up was a small “ yes “, which caused him to furrow his brows.

“ you both know the rules, risks like this is not good for the both of you. “ hints of frustration could be heard in his voice, clear signs that he was not happy about the situation.

“ we can’t risk losing heeseung hyung so… please leave him be. ”

and with a guilty expression, jungwon walked off.

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bang pd had just left the backroom after he spoke to you. he was willing to give you one more chance to show him that you deserved this job and a part of you broke inside. how were you suppose to leave the only person who’s ever loved you more than life itself?

the music from the boy’s performances were blasting from the tvs in the back room but that was the least of your worries. even then, jungwon’s words wouldn’t leave your mind. it seemed like you had no choice but to not interact with heeseung.

and just like every time, enhypen’s performance ended and the normal loud voices eroded into the back room but this time, you couldn’t bring yourself to look up from the floor.

you fought tears that threatened to cascade down your face; you could clearly hear his voice and catch his cologne out of everyone in the room. the scent of him so comforting to you.

you took a deep breath and nervously made your way to the members, trying to make it seem like nothing bothered you. you walked past him, handing the small electric fan that you usually give him to sunoo. you couldn’t help but feel his eyes on you; the fact that you two haven’t got to talk to each other all day made the tension feel ten times worse. you felt your heart ache as you turned around, making eye contact with him for a small second and that was the only thing shared between you both.

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a few long minutes passed and everyone had left for a lunch break. you sat in the room, trying to collect yourself but the world stopped when you heard his voice call out for you “ my love… please look at me. “

his words tugged at your heart strings and automatically, you brought your gaze up to him. he made his way in front of you, towering over you with his 6 foot figure.

“ i promise you, this doesn’t have to change anythi- “ you stood up abruptly and cut him off.

“ yes it does hee, you know it does. we always feared that this would happen… it was inevitable. “ your voice softly lingered on, seeing the agony slowly build up on his face.

“ don’t do this y/n, it’s not what you want. “

“ i will not live with the guilt of being the reason why your career ends hee! “

“ i’m not asking you to be! “

“ then what are you asking me, hee?! huh? “ your chest heaves up and down at how the conversation went from 0 to 100 in the span of a few seconds. you shifted your gaze to the side, almost defeated.

“ you’re the only one keeping me going y/n, i can’t lose you. “

“ i need this job hee... i can’t. you know how hard it was for me to find a job, i’m- “ there was a tight grasp on your wrist as he cut you off, your back up against the wall.

“ i’m begging you y/n… you’re the only one i need, i’ll provide for the both of us. “ you could hear the crumbling desperation in his voice and the constant deep breaths he took as he looked down at you.

“ how can i do life without you? “ he barely managed to utter.

you could feel the immense emotions ready to burst out as you two locked eyes once you gathered the strength to look up at him again. you and heeseung didn’t even have to speak to know how each other felt. he already knew you made up your mind and it hurt to know that you could make a decision so easily.

“ i’m so sorry hee… “ your voice cracked as you saw the tears form in his eyes. you longed for his embrace but you know you’re the last person to deserve to be in his arms.

“ do you even know what day it is, y/n? “ his voice trembled. his question caught you off guard. he tried to look for any remembrance in your eyes but he couldn’t. he was in disbelief.

“ it’s may 30th y/n.. our one year anniversary. do you really not remember? “

the realization finally hit you. you couldn’t believe the words that just escaped his lips, how could you have forgotten? even through his chaotic schedule, he still remembered. it was this moment, you couldn’t stop the flow of tears that left your eyes.

“ that cover, don’t you remember it? the smiles that we shared, that day alone will always be my favorite… “ he swallowed down his sobs, his posture straightening as the pain he felt intensified.

“ i know you already made a decision love... i just wish you talked to me before you did. “ he brought his thumbs up to gently wipe away your tears.

“ hee, if i could go back just a few hours, i would’ve done this all differently. i’m so sorry…“ despite everything that just unfolded, you embraced him one last time.

you felt the warmth of his arms around you and the warm teardrops on your shirt. “ i will never stop loving you, lee heeseung. “

finally, he let his sobs through the moment he wrapped you up in his arms. maybe if he held you a bit longer, this would all of a sudden be a dream. that’s what he hoped for, at least.

“ i love you kim y/n… with everything i have. you are undoubtedly, the best decision i have ever made. “ he mumbled through his sobs as he finally let you go.

reading fanfics isn’t enough i need to fuck the man

loved it!!

ೀ 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝

˚ featuring situationship!hee x fem!reader

˚ genre fluff, angst, comfort

˚ highschool au

˚ warnings !! kissing, one curse word, heeseung becomes a douche in the middle but no need to fear!! (character development if you will ;) the SLIGHTEST hint of suggestiveness in the beginning, arguing, crying, reader is shorter than hee !! pet names (baby, princess) and err.. if im forgetting anything pls lmk !!

˚ mentions of enhypen members, the SLIGHTEST pinch of karina from aespa (this was written before her dating announcement), and ej from &team.

˚ this SHOULD be proofread but if not IM SAUR SORRAY, i read this all the time but i just get too lazy to fix it

˚ wc 4,120

laying peacefully with her eyes closed, the faint sound of a door clicking slowly stirred y/n awake. denying the fact a small sound almost awoke her, y/n kept her eyes closed, not wanting to wake up from her afterschool nap. if she hadn’t tried to drown out any other noises, y/n wouldn’t have yelped at the sudden weight that fell onto her.

her tired eyes shot open to a giddy smile in her face. slim yet muscular arms wrapped around her torso, slightly reaching beneath her shirt. the boy she had been in a 6 month friends-with-benefits relationship with, heeseung.

“jesus hee, how many times do i have to tell you? at least let me know when you want to come over.” the poor frightened girl sighed whilst rubbing her tired eyes.

“i did.” heeseung quickly looked up to y/n with a grin. “but you didn’t answer, so i figured you were asleep.” he laid his head back down onto the girl’s chest, taking in the scent of her.

“oh. i knocked out right as i got home, sorry.” y/n ruffled through heeseung’s hair until she felt his sneaky fingers making their way up her shirt. “AH! stop.” her tongue clicked the roof of her mouth as she quickly stopped heeseung’s hand with her own.

hearing a chuckle erupt from the black haired male laying atop of her, y/n used all her weight to push heeseung to the empty side of her bed. “sorry!” he faked pouted as y/n rolled her eyes toward him.

turning her back towards him, y/n felt a strong arm wrap around her stomach, slowly pulling her backwards.

“can i sleep over?” heeseung whispered into y/n’s left ear. “please baby…” he begged, tracing small circles on her tummy.

y/n quickly turned around to face her situationship in the eyes, “i told you, you can only call me that when you actually ask me to be your girlfriend.” she created a ‘hmph’ sound turning back around.

“so is that a yes?” y/n knew a wide smile grew on heeseung’s face just by the tone of his voice.

“i guess…” the fakely irritated voice mumbled.

“what was that? i couldn’t quite hear you, princess.” heeseung propped himself up on his elbow to look at the girl from above.

“i guess!” y/n laid onto her back, heeseung looking directly down towards her from above. heeseung couldn’t help it but to smile at how red her cheeks grew.

“i knew you’d say yes.” heeseung leaned down, kissing the girl’s red hot cheek.

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carrying a ginormous stack of books in her arms, y/n struggled to make her way throughout the hallway. looking past the sides of the skyscraper of books, y/n felt a presence behind her.

y/n carefully did a 360 with the heels of her feet, making nervous eye contact with the person.

“need help?” the cute boy smirked.

“EJ?!” y/n gasped at the sight of the appearance of her friend.

y/n had known EJ since they were infants. she always referred to him as ‘ponyo,’ from one of her favorite movies. his big eyes and wide smile always lit up her days.

carefully splitting the stack of books into his own arms, EJ looked down to see y/n struggling to blow a stray hair away from her face. EJ laughed and smoothly swatted the hair away.

“you got it?” he asked, a thumbs up coming from his fist.

“yup, thank you.” the girl laughed as she followed side by side to her childhood friend.

little did the two know, the mullet haired boy, heeseung, watched the small interaction between EJ and y/n from the cafeteria.

although heeseung and y/n had their own little relationship, some things were kept secrets. heeseung knew of EJ but never knew the two were THAT close. y/n sometimes developed butterflies in her tummy from EJ but she never saw him in a romantic way. he had always just been someone she could go to and today, he just so happened to catch her struggling.

nothing more.

but heeseung didn’t know. throughout their whole relationship, heeseung thought y/n was the sweetest, most loving, and loyal girl, not some chick who’d talk to multiple guys at the same time.

“i thought wrong”, he thought. quickly standing to his feet, heeseung slammed his silverware down, loud enough for his table to hear.

“what the heck is wrong with you?” the japanese foreign exchange student side eyed, still chewing on his lunch.

“yo man, sit down.” the korean-aussie boy pulled his older friend’s arm down.

obliging to the younger boy, heeseung sat back down, steam basically coming out of his ears.

he couldn’t believe it, the girl he spent so many hours thinking of just letting another guy do that? that was his job. that was HEESEUNG’S job.

the complicated duo had gotten into arguments but nothing big. it had always been resolved the next morning with heeseung placing a little peck to y/n’s forehead before heading into school. but this time heeseung was livid. it was an understandable reason for being mad.

“is this about y/n?” the second youngest boy of the group peeked though his hair to heeseung as he continued slurping on his noodles.

“did you guys not see her?” heeseung asked with an attitude in his tone, irritating the dad of the group as the rest of the boys shook their heads.

“you guys aren’t even dating? what’s your problem?” jay sighed loudly, finding heeseung annoying.

heeseung wore a scowl on his face hearing jay’s tone. the answer seemed so obvious and heeseung was mad jay couldn’t figure it out.

he liked her. so bad. but he couldn’t seem to tell her. he was scared. scared of the commitment but always felt it was okay if it was with y/n. she did everything to prepare heeseung. that’s why he was mad.

quickly getting up from the table, heeseung made his way out of the cafeteria, too quickly for his friends to stop him.

heeseung had his body filled with regret. he knew y/n had something to do at lunch but she told him to grab a bite to eat, knowing they both hadn’t eaten in the morning before arriving to school. was it to distract him? was this all apart of her plan? shaking his angry thoughts, heeseung looked up to see EJ walking towards him alone. an awkward stare was held between the two as they walked by one another. as if they both knew of each other. (which they did)

barging into the room, heeseung found the girl staring out the window whilst stacking the books onto the shelves. she hadn’t noticed heeseung yet and heeseung wasn’t too sure if he did want her to notice.

the afternoon sun hit her face perfectly. in heeseung’s eyes she looked so beautiful. she swayed with the tune she hummed and the serenity took over her body.

remembering what he was there for, heeseung shook himself out of his lovesick trance and slowly shut the door behind him, causing y/n to look up from the sudden noise.

“hee! you scared me!” the wide eyed girl placed her hand onto her chest, feeling the rapid thumps of her heart.

“sorry bae-“ heeseung cut himself off before continuing. “sorry y/n”

y/n tilted her head, sensing the awkward vibe from the older boy. “what’s wrong?” her voice was calm and quiet.

heeseung stood frozen watching the girl and the sun’s aura approaching him. he couldn’t say anything, hating the way he felt.

feeling a hand on his arm, heeseung backed away, worrying his girl.

“are you okay? did you eat?”

jesus. heeseung hated this.

he hated that she cared for him knowing she probably cared for EJ the same way.

“don’t touch me.” heeseung spat.

“w-what?” y/n looked up to see anger in heeseung’s eyes that she hadn’t noticed before.

“do you just go and let other guys treat you like that?” heeseung’s eyebrows furrowed looking down to a speechless y/n. “what? are you going to have him come over tonight while i’m at work?”

“no? what are you talking about..?” y/n found herself fidgeting with her fingers.

her movements didn’t go unnoticed by heeseung. not one bit.

“don’t lie to me y/n.” heeseung heart tightened seeing y/n’s face turn sad.

“but i’m not.” she tried reaching out for heeseung’s arm, just for him to pull away even further. “why are you mad?”

heeseung grew more impatient and frustrated, “stop asking me dumb questions.” y/n’s round eyes squinted at the dampened feeling. “you’re cheating on me with EJ?”

y/n laughed in disbelief, thinking heeseung was joking. “PFT, you’re funny, hee. come help me.” she turned around to tend back to the books, noticing heeseung hadn’t moved from his spot. “hee? you’re not being serious are you?” thanks to y/n’s blindness, she squinted her eyes to get a better look at him from afar.

“i’m serious. what’s your relationship with him?” heeseung stood his ground in the corner of the room while y/n stood hers in the other corner.

“why does that matter to you?” the disbelief in y/n’s voice evident.

“just tell me.” heeseung’s voice grew a tad louder, staggering the younger girl.

“if you tell me your relationship with kari-“

“she doesn’t matter!” heeseung hated hearing that name just as much as y/n did, so he had no idea as to why she would bring her up.

y/n sighed, she hated arguing with heeseung. “he’s my childhood friend.”

“bullshit.”

“i don’t know what to tell you then cause he is!” y/n raised her voice at the false accusation.

“don’t you like him?” the insecure side of heeseung had finally made its debut in front of y/n.

“no! i-i like you!” she hesitated on the second part of that sentence, causing heeseung’s heart to shred to pieces. he couldn’t understand what was going on in that little mind of hers.

“i don’t believe you.” heeseung watched y/n wipe the tears from her face with her sleeves. “i have nothing to say if you won’t believe me then.”

the room grew quiet as the two stayed silent for a while. both of heeseung’s hands balled up inside of his pant pockets while y/n continued to pretend to pick at the skin around her fingers. the wind just ever so slightly brought a breeze into the empty class through a small crack in the window, causing y/n to shiver. once again, going unnoticed by heeseung’s scan. but y/n couldn’t help to stay quiet with the boy in front of her who wore a pensive face. she had to say something.

“i was struggling and he helped me, i would’ve asked you but i knew you didn’t eat this morning, so i’d rather you eat.”

“and you didn’t either. we left together this morning. so why couldn’t you just eat with me?” heeseung rolled his eyes slightly. “did you do it to distract me from you and him?”

“what?” y/n couldn’t believe a thing she was hearing from heeseung. his words left the sad girl speechless. “why don’t you believe me?”

“is this the end of us?” y/n’s voice trembled along with her lips. immediate tears filled her eyes as she looked at the frustrated male across from her. “i’m not going to keep going back and fourth with you. i’m tired of you leading me on.”

now it was heeseung’s turn to fall speechless, he couldn’t believe the words falling from y/n’s mouth.

“i really like you heeseung. i just don’t think you like me back.” the girl’s speech fell short as her mouth visibly frowned and her cries escaped from her lips.

the poor girl stood there while wiping her tears quickly. it was his first time seeing her cry actual painful tears. all heeseung wanted to do was grab ahold of the girl and apologize but he knew it was too late. his accusations hurt her and he knew it.

“no, y/n baby-“ his voice calmed down before it was cut off by y/n.

“never call me that. ever. i told you too many times and you never did it. so i don’t want to hear it from you!!” y/n swallowed down the lump in her throat as she let the salty tears fall from her sad eyes knowing that she was talking about heeseung never asking her out.

heeseung was dumb. he was an idiot. he regretted everything he had just done. all he wanted to do was wipe away y/n’s tears for her. knowing her glistening painful look was all because of him, killed him.

“i don’t want to see you, ever. don’t call me or don’t try to come by to my house. i hope you graduate and i never see you again!” the cons of a younger girl in a small relationship with an older boy. one will leave, leaving the other one behind unless they stayed together.

heeseung watched the sobbing girl push past him. wanting to grab her wrist, heeseung froze, his entire body froze. maybe he really should of believed her, for she was the one who finally understood heeseung and loved him for who he was. she was and would always be that sweetest, most loving, and loyal girl to heeseung, always.

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“so you and heeseung are officially done?” dae basically spat out his food while y/n threw her head down on the table.

“i think so…” her voice trembled, breaking the hearts of her friends.

ji-woo and hari looked at each other and returned their vision back to the girl sitting next to hari, whilst dae cooled down his mouth after eating something a little TOO spicy in his lunch.

“i was really rooting for you two.” ji-woo hesitantly said with a frown on her face as the heart broken girl looked up.

“i was too…” y/n returned her head back down in her arms, letting out quiet but obvious cries.

“hey hey… it’ll be okay…” hari placed a hand onto her friend’s back, gently trying to rub the pain away.

—————— 💌

y/n thanked god she was younger than heeseung, therefore she wouldn’t have to see him during class or even school. in the beginning it was hard, the two were so used to seeing each other that when lunchtime came and heeseung found himself walking to their meetup spot with no y/n in sight, his heart ached a little extra. he missed the smile that was always waiting for him, the voice that was always there for him, and the second home who’s door and arms were always open.

but as days progressed, the broken hearted two grew used to the nonexistent presence they yearned for. no matter how hard it broke their hearts.

y/n found herself seeing EJ more and more rather than heeseung, she got used to EJ and though he wasn’t a rebound because she never saw him in that way, y/n felt guilty for hanging out with him.

whereas heeseung found himself alone by the school pool every now and then. seeing how y/n’s face lit up with EJ in the halls made him feel stupid, like a fool. the crystal clear pool reflected heeseung’s face in itself, that’s why he was always there, keeping himself in check since the one person who did, wasn’t there anymore. his friends were there for him but since he was the oldest, he felt as if he couldn’t present his weaknesses to them.

but ultimately the real reason he stayed with the pool was because he and y/n were so similar, seeing his reflection filled the empty void of y/n missing from his heart.

pulling out his phone, heeseung found himself rereading the old texts the lovey dovey “couple” shared.

heestoocool: ur so beautiful y/n *

ynateallthecake: aww where is this coming from? (⁠ᗒ⩊ᗕ ྀི) *

heestoocool: i was just thinking about you *

ynateallthecake: ₍^ >ヮ<^₎ .ᐟ.ᐟ COPYCAT !! i was thinking of you too ! *

heestoocool: i guess we’re just perfect for each other? *

ynateallthecake: hmm , i suppose ur right hee !! ‹𝟹 *

any further and heeseung would jump into the pool and never come back up to the surface. trying to help himself, heeseung left the messaging app to his camera roll, hoping to find silly memes.

wrong.

heeseung was met with tons of pictures of his beautiful girl. asleep, doing homework, angry, happy, hugging him… the list could go on. but he could’ve sworn he had saved memes recently so why did it seem like he deleted them to make storage for his y/n pictures?

oh.

he did.

heeseung’s thoughts were cut short due to the approaching footsteps he heard. heeseung turned around to be met with big wide eyes paired with a calm face. EJ. there heeseung stood confused, had never said a word to this person, heeseung wondered why he stood before him.

—————— 💌

“wanna hang out afterschool?” ji-woo piped to y/n who feverishly typed away at her phone.

“umm…” y/n paused for a moment whole typing away still. “sorry, EJ said he wants me to look over his work today.” she finally looked up from her phone to her friends wearing sad faces.

“you haven’t hung out with us in FOREVERRR!!” dae exasperated while hari silently nodded in agreement.

“sorry guys, i know. we just have to find a day im not so… you know…” y/n sadly pointed at her chest, trying to point them to her broken heart.

the trio sighed and nodded at what y/n said. they knew she coped in different ways, it didn’t bother them too much.

“thank you, i don’t know what i’d do without you three.” y/n held her arms out, wanting a hug. dae and ji-woo gladly went in whereas hari hesitantly jumped in.

after the embrace, y/n pulled away and hurriedly walked to where she agreed to meet EJ.

“see you guys later!!” y/n waved.

“good luck!” the three shouted, confusing y/n. she supposed they wished her good luck on grading EJ’s papers?

—————— 💌

sliding open the classroom door, y/n met the face of nobody. she was early. of course she was. classic EJ, always late.

y/n realized she busied herself to distract her mind from thinking of heeseung. being faced with an empty and quiet classroom brought all the memories of heeseung back.

y/n placed her bag down and realized the class she was in. she walked over to the window and reminisced of the day she and heeseung had ended things. the view was the same but the leaves proceeded to start falling from their branches. had it really been a whole season without heeseung? she shook her mind off things and remembered to the day again. when she returned to the classroom after the turmoil and all the books had been put up. heeseung…put them up for her and a tray of her favorite cafeteria food sat on a desk with a note.

“eat up, you don’t have to, but i want you to. please and i’m sorry.”

heeseung’s handwriting. so unique and beautiful, she could recognize it from a mile away.

with a shattering heart, y/n ate her lunch with tears and alone for the first time in awhile. heeseung was always there with her, no matter what.

before she was able to remember the rest of that day, y/n was stopped with the sound of a male clearing his throat.

y/n jumped and turned around in a panic.

oh. heeseung.

y/n’s body completely weakened at the sight of the kid with a dumb sad smile on his face.

suddenly y/n felt her heartache heal. the two held out their broken hearts, hoping the other would take it and piece it back together like a puzzle.

ah..what was this feeling? y/n shamed herself for feeling this way but she couldn’t help it.

“y/n…” heeseung swallowed, waiting for an answer he knew he wouldn’t get.

“yes, heeseung?” her voice was soft, just like the times heeseung would sleep over and wake up to her gentle voice waking him.

“i… really miss you.” heeseung sighed out, looking at the girl’s eyes glittering due to the water which filled them.

“i know i shouldn’t, but i can’t help it. i hate being selfish but i have to be when it comes to you.” heeseung messed with his hands that sweated in his pockets. he was so nervous.

“heeseung…” y/n said, admiring the cute face of the boy she couldn’t help but fall for all over again.

“yes, y/n?” he answered quickly.

the girl nodded, holding her words back. she bit the dry bits of her lips away as heeseung looked at her with clear hurt in his eyes.

“can i keep going?” he sweetly asked to which y/n nodded. “well, i have a reason as to why i never asked you to be my girlfriend.”

“i was scared. honestly. the thought of having to commit and try to please someone for the rest of my life scared me but i realized… i realized my fear went away when i was with you. every time.” heeseung stepped closer to y/n with every other word he said, ultimately ending up a foot before the girl whose eyes roamed and examined the boy’s face. “you understand me and my problems so i just can’t let someone so special like you go…”

y/n and heeseung stayed quiet for a bit as y/n processed what heeseung had just said to her. their eyes frolicked over each other’s face and panic grew within heeseung, worried to what y/n would say. but he understood, he knew y/n like the back of his hand and knew she didn’t say much when it came to situations like this.

with worry built up in him, heeseung quickly spoke. “i don’t think i can do life without you, so please y/n, would you stay with me forever?”

“is this your way of asking me out?” y/n looked up to the 6’0 boy who looked down to her, waiting for an answer.

overthinking what he had just said, heeseung started regretting what he said but he couldn’t lose her again.

“yes.”

the reunited duo said in unison as y/n wrapped her arms around the person she missed most. feeling her touch for the first time in too long, heeseung couldn’t help the tears fall from his eyes. y/n pulled away at the sound of sniffling and began to cry herself.

“why are you crying?” heeseung had the audacity to ask.

“because you’re crying!!” y/n wailed, wrapping her arms around her NOW boyfriend’s neck as heeseung tried wiping his girlfriend’s salty tears away.

“you’ll actually be my girlfriend ?”

“as long as you’ll be my boyfriend.”

“of course i will, baby.”

wow, the name felt different and better with an official title.

—————— 💌

“now who told you that i was here!!” y/n frowned at the thought.

“EJ.” heeseung smiled, his puffy red eyes curling in a crescent.

“really?” y/n gasped as heeseung nodded slowly.

“he told me you wouldn’t stop talking about me…” heeseung mischievously smirked as y/n playfully rolled her eyes.

“oh please.” y/n scoffed. “why are you back to your regular self already.” she scooted closer to him in the chair. “you couldn’t stay a little softer still?” y/n puffed out her cheeks whilst holding onto heeseung’s face.

“i’ll do whatever you want me to do.” heeseung whispered, always so attentive to her sensitive ears, especially with the close proximity.

y/n smiled and before she could say anything, she was interrupted with a pair of rough lips against hers. the two deepened the kiss, slowly pulling away after awhile.

“hee!” y/n’s face grew red, hiding it away into her palms.

“what?! its not like we never kissed before!” heeseung chuckled.

“first kiss as boyfriend and girlfriend, how was it?” classic heeseung, always asking for people’s opinion.

“i loved it. i love you.” y/n said without hesitation. because she knew. the couple stayed in a situationship for too long, she knew she loved heeseung a long time ago.

“i love you too, baby. i always will.” heeseung grabbed the girl’s hands, slowly kissing them.

the newly couple spent their first hours of being official in the room that caused so much heartbreak. but soon realized the room was a symbolization of their relationship. and though heeseung went on to graduate, leaving y/n at school without him, he made sure to never miss a day walking her to school and walking her back home.

“OH HEE, NOW I KNOW WHAT DAE, JI-WOO, AND HARI WERE TALKING ABOUT!” y/n shouted, startling heeseung.

“yeah…they were in on it.” he chuckled sweetly, kissing y/n’s cheek.

a/n: this isnt my first ever work but, it IS my first ever time posting on tumblr publicly HAHA. back in 2020 i would write anime ffs but to make room for storage, i’d post them all privately on tumblr. also, if my dearest friends find this, congratulations, you have finally found my tumblr account!! (i’ve been hiding it) anyways, i have a lot of other hee ffs in my notes but im just too insecure to post them teehee. but maybe one day i’ll find the courage to. i hope you enjoyed this read !! ♡⊹

he’s so perfect for me , it’s actually crazy 😭

boyfriend! jake.

just writing as inspo comes, all enha boys will get a bf headcannon post eventually— remember that likes, comments, and reblogs help me sm and tell me that you'd like to see more of my content!

genre: fluff. boyfriend au. established relationship.

warnings: slight mention of arguments. kissing & skinship.

❀˖° heeseung jay jake sunghoon sunoo jungwon ni-ki ..

- he's literally the dictionary's definition of "golden retriever boyfriend." you can look it up on google and he comes up fr.

- jake is so sweet and respectful when it comes to taking you out on your first dates and asking you to be his partner.

- he probably takes you on a casual date, somewhere you both feel comfortable like a picnic at the park, or riding bikes through the city, or maybe even an aquarium date.

- truly, he would wait a couple months into the relationship to admit how nervous he was first asking you out. and how he prepared himself for rejection.

- this man doesn't fall in love easily, however when he does finally realize he's in love he falls hard. he's so passionate about everything he's doing that it is only natural for him to be passionate about you.

- getting him away from you is hard, if you guys could be attached at the hip he would do it in a heartbeat he loves physical affection and is so extremely needy of your embrace. he's just so cutely clingy.

- he always remembers to text you "good morning" and "good night." and send you little cute texts throughout the day about how much he misses you.

- kinda like a real dog he would get pouty and whiny when denied your affection or feels like he's having withdrawals of your presence.

- he talks about you a lot, so much so that the enhypen members probably know more about you than you know about yourself.

- expect full princess treatment, he's opening every door for you, getting you things you show interest in, giving you his jacket regardless of his own needs and carrying you on his back if your shoes hurt your feet.

- you are so much to him, and regardless of the time that has past he's still so love sick and shocked that you happened to choose him out of all people to date.

- pda isnt too big of an issue with him, he likes holding your hand and maybe giving your cheeks or lips some quick pecks but he is mindful of other people as well. he knows not everyone likes to see a couple making out in public.

- his love language is definitely acts of service and quality time. he would do anything for you without question.

- with the enha boys, he takes the teases they throw at him because in his head he scored and they're just jealous.

- he obviously makes layla sniff test you, you passed it... obviously. and now he calls you her mom.

- if you didn't already know, he's extremely possessive and gets jealous easily. so, he will scream if someone comes too close to you.

- this man will pout if he hasn't heard from you all day. the second you call he's all smiles after annoying his members all day with his love sick whines.

- he thinks about you a lot, so he randomly shows up at your place with gifts and excuses the gifts as "this reminded me of you." or "this kinda looks like you."

- one thing he secretly likes is matching items, like phone cases, jewelry, or shoes. nothing too cheesy though, probably would get you something small like matching key chains or airpod cases.

- it's evident that he's a little clueless and gullible sometimes, so he believes everything you say 100%. you could probably prank him into thinking he's been showering wrong his whole life. he would literally go with it.

- unfortunately, as brave and tough as he wants to be for the love of his life (you) he's a little bit of a scardy cat so- expect to be the one protecting him from the dark, scary movies and bugs.

- he would die to take you camping and beg you every summer to let him take you out to camp until you finally agree and he gets so happy. he's finally able to show off his tent building and fishing skills.

- sometimes he might pull you into hiking dates, to explore the green landscapes and mountains. or have you ride ATV's or 4 wheelers with him for the thrill of it.

- although his life is extremely fast paced, he is so extremely patient with you. regardless of the situation he's never going to rush you or push you to make a decision.

- he makes playlist for you all the time, some of them with songs that make him think about you and others with songs he feels you might like. he takes pride in making and naming them. he hopes you listen to them all the time.

- fights are extremely rare with jake considering in his eyes you can hardly ever do wrong. he's a talker and would definitely want to talk out anything that might bother him.

- if you ever need him, regardless of the reason he would drop everything he's doing to be at your side. especially if you're out with friends and need a safe sober person to drive you home. he's the first one there for you.

- expect him to send you tiktoks of animals being cute and a text following it saying "babe this is literally us."

- saying "i love you" came naturally to him. he definitely said it first because he probably let it slip out without thinking. he probably doesnt even notice he said it until you point it out.

- "okay bye babe, i'll see you tonight. love you!— what's wrong why are you freaking out? was it something i said?... I SAID WHAT? no i didnt! ... did i? maybe i did... oh my god! damnit! i didnt want the first time to be that way!"

- he's so dramatic, he would literally pretend to pass out or die if you refuse a kiss.

- his one flaw... he's a little messy so you might have to clean up after him. however... he notices how you like to keep things and would actively work towards putting things where they go instead of just throwing things around.

- he also sometimes helps make meals with you. he's genuinely interested in cooking and thinks cooking together is a good way to spend time together. he makes the rice perfectly every time.

- of you go on his phone his photo gallery is filled with just pictures of you, and selfies you've taken of both of you together. pictures of you guys cuddling, kissing, making funny faces. it's all in there.

- probably has your contact name in his phone as "loml💗".

- he's genuinely convinced you guys will get married one day and have kids, and live in a nice house with a big yard and a dog.

- in his notes app he has saved a list of places you like eating at and your usual order for the place and randomly surpise you with food. even if he's on tour he'd order food to be delivered to you while in a different time zone.

- sometimes he worries about you eating or if you're drinking enough water. so he asks you all the time if you ate or if you've been sleeping well.

- he wears the things you get him all the time, it's so normal to him. and when he looks in the mirror and realizes he's wearing a necklace you got him he feels like he's carrying your love with him.

- jake really is just a love sick puppy boy who would drop anything and everything for you. he's so unbelievably in love it's so sweet.

hope you all enjoy! - happy to be writing again <3 !

masterlist. — requests are open!

- pls note that i have not yet made a masterlist for my enha writing. (i'm sorry engenes, it's coming soon!)

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Him and I.

the love i give, the subject is you, the love i earn is always new.

for you are a story i never failed to read, a page in poetry that i never left empty.

oh it was you holding my creed, and my heart too indeed.

if you must love, you must know,

if you must live, you must learn,

that i loved you still in present, and lived life like a crescent.

stirring behind shadows of feeling free,

from the intensity of what ur gaze seeked in me.

Will it, i hope to God. Will it, i kneel to God. if it isn't you, my fate, written for me,

then what is it, that my soul, is meant to be?

you stir me with love, you stir in me my self,

i return to you, with love, feeling above all else.

i promise you and im breaking you,

you promise to me and you're breaking me, too.

two beautiful broken glasses, fitting perfectly against each other,

stained with rather pains, but we still do not wither.

yearning to be in ur arms, forced to be in my thoughts,

born to comfort me, you say, yet we'd rather not say

what truly lies in our hearts,

for if it doesn't come true,

it'll break me and you.