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Valid I feel like doesn’t mean what I thought it meant anymore? Can someone please explain the word to me as it’s usually used especially in mental health?

Does it mean like morally acceptable? Allowed? Cherished/desired? I’m genuinely so confused help a girl out plz

if DID wasn't caused by trauma, we would know by now -_-

Psyches have been trying and failing to prove that trauma isn't a necessary factor for as long as they've known DID to exist

Working through the traumas my family keeps trying to erase by drawing them UwU

yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

Holy Trinity of traumatized autism

Sometimes my trauma makes me feel like I’m just staring into a television playing static

My goal in every creative writing assessment is to make the markers sob and wish they never set the damn thing.

I think I've reached half of that goal.

Considering, my teacher mentioned in passing that he teared up reading it and that he wanted to make sure I had spoken to a professional about the subject of the poetry submitted.

I reminded him it was all imaginative (a lie), to which he pulled me aside to say that no one writes about those kinds of things with that amount of emotion without personal experience.

Reading the body keeps the score and highlighting every second sentence. 🥴

i am losing my mind for it shall never be quieted.

dear daddy the adulterer, how could you do that to her? how could you do that to me? for years, you abandoned us for that woman. you let my classmate, her son, know of the affair, but not me. you lied to us of what it means to love and be loved. you ruined our lives and everyone knows it, yet you get away with it nonetheless. there is no justice in the world for you still live in it. with no love at all, a daughter scorned

i am sick of these dreams of sexual assault and rape.

the worst part is that it is always someone that i know.

I don't know who wrote this. That's the whole point of the unsent project but I resonate with it so much. The person that changed my views on life, on love, on myself, her name starts with a G. The thing is I could lay here in my bed and keep typing and typing about her but I am not gonna do that.

There is a saying, where attention goes, energy flows. This person doesn't deserve my energy anymore. I genuinely wish her the best now but I will not allow myself to be consumed by someone who isn't mine anymore. I would like to think that some part of her is still mine, that maybe in the future we'll make it right and love again but truth is that is just my delusions talking.

To whoever is reading this right now, if you are hung up on someone, please know that at the end of the day all they are is a person, an individual, a human. We have 8 billons of those on this earth. I know that when we love someone, they become everything. They are everything to us but please remember that without your attention, that person isn't actually special. The only thing making them special is your fixation on them. If you wanna heal. Let that fixation go. Let those day dreams go. It sucks. But it works and it's worth it.

I don't believe that God has a physical form.

As a Muslim, we know that God doesn't have a physical form that we can see or touch yet. But while I lay here with a dull ache in my heart, I tried imagining being held in someone's arms. Something to soothe that ache. But then I got this image in my head. A warm blanket of light, of noor, being wrapped around me. I felt a warm feeling spread inside of my body.

That's the same feeling that I used to have whenever I prayed Tahajjud.

God will find a way back into your life and no matter what, you will always end up appreciating it.

It kinda bothers me when people are confronted for really negative and harmful behavior and their only response is, "well I have this disorder, so I'm the victim, everyone else I hurt is just ableist" and it's like....

You're not incapable of being responsible for your own actions just because you're neurodivergent.

There's no diagnosis that excuses being a horrible person to people who didn't do anything to you.

If you're old enough to gaslight people in media or online by going "I'm allowed to be mean/hurtful because I have this disorder", you're old enough to seek out help for your behaviors.

Some statistics show that up to 60% of people are neurodivergent or mentally ill in some way. Most of those people don't act like an asshole and then go, "oh it's not my fault because of this diagnosis." They take responsibility for their actions.

This is kinda directed at something vaguely political (I love election season!) but also just generally as someone who's kinda sick of hearing "it's not my fault, I'm bipolar!" When I also have bipolar disorder, or "it's not my fault, I'm autistic!" When I'm also autistic, or "it's not my fault, I have a traumagenic disorder!" When I also have a traumagenic disorder....

Idk being mentally ill doesn't excuse being a dick to people.