Adhd Problems - Tumblr Posts - Page 4

Born to write my own blogs, forced to repost because my adhd ass can't write shit out 😔

"How do you have so much energy all the time ???"

I don't, I'm constantly tired but I'm also being the class clown because I have abandonment issues and adhd

[IMAGE ID: tweet from ‘freetofic’ reading:

“ADHD culture is not knowing:

-when to ask for help b/c ‘overwhelmed w/things to do’ is your normal, default state

-how to ask for help b/c you don’t even know how to describe what needs doing, so organizing the help would be more work than just doing it yourself”

Posted 9:49 AM on 1st December 2019]

how can my gift of being seen be what brings about my ruin? i work so hard yet others will resent me for it i am a person who cares more than i should yet i am deemed inadequate for i stand out too much.

once i thought of my individuality as a blessing but now i see it for what it truly is a curse that causes people to look at me with resentment and disgust simply because i am different my good fortune has turned to bad and there is nothing i can do to fix it.

heyyyyy people

so basically ive got a project due next Monday and im really struggling with even sitting down and working on it (thank you adhd.) does anyone have any tips besides just leaving it until the last minute 😭 thank youuuu

At the teacher's room hiding from everyone because im too overwhelmed to socialize.

Time to unmask for 10 minutes

Eye Contact Is..

It’s really hard. And stupid. And my brain likes to choose “oh hey you can look this person in the eye for 3 minutes straight!” for complete strangers coming through the drive thru; but when I turn to my coworker whom I’ve known for nearly a year, it’s like “ABORT MISSION! EYE CONTACT BAD!!!”

Like I look at a friend or coworker and maybe make eye contact for .01 seconds before my gaze skitters away. Resting on like... Their chest or the floor. 

anD THEN NOT 20 MINUTES LATER WE HAVE A STARING CONTEST AND I WIN. 

Also people with blue eyes are the hardest to hold contact with??? I don’t-

Point being, eye contact is hard, and my brain hates consistency. 

My mother with (probably) ADHD: Help I get focused super hard on one project or business for a few months, spend lots of money starting up said interest, then drop it before 6 months is up. Also I put all my effort into studying for a career I'm good at but has turned out to be super unfulfilling to me personally.

My sister with (probably) ADHD: Help I have difficulty experiencing empathy and get angry far too quickly. I especially can't handle scolding or reprimandation, no matter how light the issue is. Also Noises Are Bad.

Me, diagnosed as a child with ADHD: Help I experience extreme hyperfixations on fictional worlds and characters to the point of learning everything I can about the making of said media, studying the intricate lore within the world, or picking apart a character's psychology and finding headcanons where there probably aren't supposed to be any, and can channel my euphoria from said hyperfixations to help with school worl only sometimes. Also Noise Sensitivity and Sentimental Clutter Hoarding.

it's so stupid, adhd is a dozen vaguely related neuroses in a trench coat, including such popular hits as

Can't Fucking Sleep Disorder

Can't Fucking Wake Up Disorder

What Is A Focus

Oops I Did It* Again (*Spent Thirteen Hours On Youtube And Forgot To Eat Or Drink)

The World Is Too Noise Today

All My Friends Hate Me (I Deduced This From A Three Word Text)

I Forgot About [thing] Literally As Soon As I Turned Around

...and they decided to call it Trouble Sitting Still Disorder?????

Having ADHD is so weird because today I was really tired and felt terrible and did my math homework while my family carried a conversation and watched TV at the same time in the same room. I was overstimulated and my parents were talking about going to a museum of a famous writer that I wanted to go to and then my little sister goes in about a rant that she doesn’t want to miss her soccer game (she had by choice not gone to the previously four games) and that we can’t go with my parents friends and their children (that I’m friends with). This leads to me starting an argument, something I never do. After, I apologise and explain my situation, and the answer I receive is, “then don’t”. (I know that I could’ve gone to my room, but I had procrastinated nearly the whole day and didn’t think that I could continue if I changed the surroundings.)

going through the ADHD tag and feeling understood, and loved, and oh-so-comfortable in my own skin the way I haven't been for WEEKS is 🫶 i love this silly little app

the thing is that my personality has always been as too much - i was too loud, too enthusiastic, too eager. and i had teachers who made me believe that i can fit in, because they fit in even if they, too, were loud, sarcastic, overly animated, cynical. i loved teachers who were like me, and i respected ones who were nothing like me

turns out that being Miss would take me creating a whole new, acceptable personality. i don't want to live a life in which me being myself is a weakness. i deserve better.

my toxic trait is that i'd make whoever is around me (mostly my partner) look for it as soon as they wake up. i'd also probably get up in the middle of the night to look for it.

i used to do this as a child/teenager so much. so much looking through my bags/pockets/shelves to find something with a phone screen/UV pen as a light source

I was going to get some rest. Unfortunately I woke up at 4:30am absolutely certain that I had lost the weird USSR coin I found on the ground the other day and couldn't go back to sleep because I couldn't stop thinking about where I'd put it and where it might've fallen or what if I'd vacuumed it up accidentally and it was probably gone forever, such a strange little thing coming in to my life so unexpectedly just to vanish again, a mystery forever open ended.

then I got up to make coffee after my 3rd alarm went off, just as I was starting to fall back to sleep, and took a detour to check if the little coin was where I thought I'd left it on the counter. It was.

Mom:“Should i fight the troll?”

Me:“No”

Mom:“Mmh😒”

Me:“You have prioerties”

Mom:“Like riding a roller coaster👍😎”

This was me trying to get my mother back on track well playing a video game

trying so hard to fight the adhd and sleepy allegations to draw fall themed stuff for my stream ; w ;

challenge mode: impossible

There’s no point getting angry about an “I don’t know.” It’s not like yelling at a child will make them suddenly know. It’s not like I’m intentionally not knowing something. It’s not my fault that I don’t know. I just... don’t know. I don’t know everything.

Also, on the ADHD thing? YES. I don’t know why or how I managed to forget to do a chore immediately after you told me to do it. It just happened. My executive functions don’t always function executively. It doesn’t mean I’m not trying my best, it means I didn’t succeed this one time.

Anyway adults saying “I don’t know isn’t an answer” is part of the reason I learned to lie and bluff so well.

Give a person with ADHD some free time, an internet connection, and something they should probably be doing instead and Rome could ABSOLUTELY be built in a day.

The ADHD urge to engage in risk-taking behaviors 👀 smh