Dysphoric - Tumblr Posts
just had a drink with the cutest mini ice cubes!
i wish i was born a boy
Feeling really dysphoric so I vent a bit. I’m not the best at anatomy especially arms and hands but yeah. It kinda help to get it out and calm myself down. Idk if it’s really apparent in the drawing but my binder doesn’t always help because my chest is large and yeah.... Idk what to put here so have me screaming in text form. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Bottom dysphoria is, and has always been, my worst dysphoria. It makes me feel physically sick. Even with a prosthetic, I feel so incomplete. Can’t wait for phalloplasty.
God I hate my voice. Thankfully, there are still a few guys my age with voices as high as mine, so my voice doesn’t out me, but it still sounds wrong to me. Can’t wait for it to break.
Redraw of my first post.
I’m angry again. I hate how my voice in real life sounds nothing like what it does in my head. I feel like a ten year old boy, and look like one two. Mean while all the other guys around me look fifteen. I know that I have it much better than most other transsex/ gender people, so I should probably stop complaining. I have a supportive family who’s willing to pay for my hrt and surgeries, I have a prosthetic and can use urinals/ male bathroom safely, and I pass almost one hundred percent of the time, even if it’s as someone much younger than me. I know I sound like a whiny teenage guy lmao.
This is less about my dysphoria and more about intrusive thoughts which often end up triggering my dysphoria. They often tell me that I don't deserve junk that I need to have in order to be happy and healthy, and constantly remind me that my current dick is fake. This often triggers my already shitty bottom dysphoria. My dysphoria often makes me feel that even after surgery, my dick will still be fake compared to that of cis guys.
I wish bottom dysphoria got as much attention as top dysphoria. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to have a penis and needing to pack and/ or get surgery. The stigma around that doesn’t make much sense to me.
i know people talk a lot about top dysphoria on this website but remember that there is nothing wrong or embarrassing about having bottom dysphoria, with packing, with getting bottom surgery. your trans experiences are just as valid
Frankenstein’s Monster
I feel like I’m running out of time. The longer I wait to start my medical transition, the more dysphoric I get and the more hopeless I feel.
I’m in this photo and I don’t like it.
My biggest problem in my life right now is my bottom dysphoria. Relationship problems? Fuck it. Not where I want to be in my career? Fuck that, too. I would die happily if I could be post-op right now. I’m so fucking done with living with this.
I need testosterone.
Edit circa 2022: it’s alright guys I got my t now lol lessgo
Made a little comic. Sorry for being inactive for so long. More post coming soon.
Another comic from your boy, this one’s a little sus. It’s been a long 2021.
I’m wasting away.
Tfw I draw myself with facial hair even tho i have like 2 actual hairs on my face to speak of.
Also I’m not changing artstyles lel just trying out a new thing.
