Fuck School - Tumblr Posts
Have you ever had one of those days when the slightest minor inconvenience makes you slowly wish you flat out stayed in bed
Like your auto correct not correcting to the right word
Like your fucking Tumblr fyp taking forever to load
Like your calculator dropping into the floor and you having to pick it up after getting comfy
Like accidentally shutting off your phone instead of taking a screenshot
Like having to leave Tumblr to find a phot only to come back and find your entire post gone
Like knowing you have a history test tmrw and you can't study since you don't have a damn study guide or know how to take notes
Like your binder being in the wash and yet you have to go to school without it
Like running out of time on chrome in the middle of a c.ai session because your parents are helicopters and only give you an hour on chrome
Like accidentally closing out of your music app and the wonderful bliss of music being abruptly cut off
Like wanting to write but never finding enough time during the day and being unable to write at home because of the helicopter parents
Like having to sit through a lecture and bible reading about how your gender is either male or female and fuck what you think it is you aren't valid if you think differently so fuck you
...it's been a day
Goodnight chat
Tomorrow I have to go back to school
I have to go back to hell...
...
HELL IS FOREVER-
fuck fucking school
It’s 1 in the morning on a Friday night and I’m pretty sure everyone’s awake without the other three knowing. What the f*ck is my sleep schedule.
The feminine urge to stop giving fucks and go batshit insane.
Nvm I do this daily
Last Hour New That Nobody Cares About! I got sick - thanks to the school and being trapped in a classroom with other 27 people -, and may as well die and set the world free of my annoying existence, while that happens... I had to do a chemistry exam while being like this so yeah, figure it goes awful <3
Sorry I rarely post drawings. School is so tiring that I don't feel like drawing digital drawings😭😭😭
Anyway, if you're reading this, have a nice day!
So, I'm currently experiencing art block, and it's so ughhh😔. And what a coincidence that I have an art project that's due in 13 days😃🖕.
School kills artists. Because tell me why the second school opened back in the beginning of July I don't even have time to pick up a damn pencil.
Anyways, gn pookies and pookettes
You know when you’re like, exhausted and just really lazy but you also have to leave the house to go to school of all places. But you still need to look presentable even though your hair’s against you and your fringe refuses to stay put, so you have to do a more time consuming hairstyle (that you really couldn’t be bothered to do) just so that you won’t look like a feral possum that’s on it’s way to burn its cheating ex’s house down. Only for the slightest breeze to absolutely ruin all your hard work in less than a second.
I hate math so much.
pre calc was a year of random stuff that only showed up again if I was bad at it.
ab calc at least fit together (it was still hard though)
now I'm taking bc calc and struggling to do my summer work cause everything they think i did last year (most people are coming from pre calc) had NOTHING to do with what i did last year and I've forgotten everything ;-;
ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE SCHOOL
My best friend is a dumbass for not doing any of her school work for tge year and im a even bigger dumbass for agreeing to help her crawl out of the hole she dug herself in.
i just wanna take a lil snooze with a pal
Sucks that "sleeping together" refers to sex. Sometimes a fella just wants to snooze with a pal.
I hate whenever my parents act like they care about my mental health then get all pissy at me when I tell them that I don't want to do school anymore even if I explain why, and I'm genuinely fucking tired of it.
I don't know about you motherfuckers, but when you are mistreated by the people around you CONSTANTLY for your entire life, without any breaks, and when that's done you're then blamed for it all, it really does take a toll on your mental health, and trust me when I say that it royally screwed my entire life over, I MEAN IT.
I had to face constant stigma and ableism for over 13 years, and the harder I tried to fix myself, the more people had pushed me away.
So, I'm gonna be BRUTALLY honest when I say this:
I've given up on wanting to go to college because it's way to expensive, I gave up on wanting a career because there's nothing out there worth doing, I gave up on even trying to find a job in the first place because nobody wants to hire a mentally unstable retard with no work experience, and overall I've just abandoned all of my passions and ambitions. All because people have kicked me when times got rough, and when I tried my best to make things right, it was never enough, they still kept pushing me down, and I just can't do it anymore.
And it doesn't help that my basic human rights are slowly being stripped away from me because I happen to be a disabled queer trans AFAB kid with a mental illness, basically meaning that by the time I make it to my 20's (if I don't kill myself before I make it to 18), I'll be living in a constant hellhole where I'll die in the worst ways possible to humankind.
All I'm ever going to be in life is this sad, mentally unstable, egotistical virgin who makes other people's life worse, and there is nothing I can do to change that, let alone anyone else.
I was doomed to be like this since the day I was born. And that's probably one of the hardest things I had to accept as a borderline auDHD person.
And that's the entire reason why I want to drop out of school, it's making my mental health worse anyway, and what's the point of being in school if I'm not gonna have a good life regardless??
And instead of actually listening to me, my bitch ass parents told me to suck it up and that my feelings were invalid and that I deserve to suffer, and honestly, fuck them.
"I was like you two when i was your age, and I regretted it, so you should stay in school" good for you i guess, but that won't change shit.
Stop pretending like I have a future, you're only making it worse.
good thing I'm suspended for 3 days so that I won't have to put up with school for the rest of the week...
Anyway I'm supposed to be working on homework rn, but I'm not going to because there is no reason to.
Never though my mom would be able to simultaneously agree with me on something, but damn.
I vented on an online assignment about my hopelessness for the future (cause technically it was kind of related to what the assignment prompt was supposed to be, so fuck it), and in it I mentioned how it's highly likely that I'm probably gonna die via a school shooting because of how many there have been in the past while. By pure coincidence, another school shooting was talked about on the news right before I did that assignment.
Yesterday while I was getting evaluated to see if I could come back to school next week, the assignment was brought up, and they specifically mentioned the part about the school shootings, and idk what went through my mom's mind, but let's just say I'm pretty sure it opened her eyes up to what I as experiencing (partially).
I say this because she was talking to my dad about it, and she mentioned how she understood where I was coming from and that it wasn't a huge surprise I was feeling this hopeless, and honestly I wholeheartedly agree with her.
It disturbs me so much how there's millions of kids out there that have been killed, yet for some stupid reason, not only does the government actively refuse to pass gun restrictions that could save lives while still keeping the 2nd amendment intact, they are instead blaming every problem that this country has on the the LGBTQ, POC, people in 3rd world countries, the disabled, the mentally ill, trans people, the homeless--LITERALLY EVERYHTING AND EVERYONE BUT THE ACTUAL ISSUE, AND HONESTLY IT'S NO SURPRISE AT ALL WHY EVERYONE WANTS TO KILL THEMSELVES, THERE IS NO FUTURE FOR US AND WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE BECUASE SOME RICH FUCKS WOULD RATHER SHOVE MONEY UP THEIR ASS THAN ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE FUCKING SHOOTING CRISIS WE GOT!!!
Honestly, fuck the school system, fuck the constitution, fuck America, fuck everyone, I can't take it anymore, and I wish there was something worth living for.
Oh well, let's just go back to school next week and pretend like everything's okay for the next fucking several months until I can finally drop out and live the rest of my life as a NEET living in my parent's house at 30 something years old i guess..
It's actually kinda funny how one minute I could be casually scrolling through Tumblr and next thing I know it's like 8pm and I have to do a suicide threat assessment because I have to do a manifestation hearing for the homicide threat I made against my teacher on Thursday and there's a high chance I'm gonna get expelled and it's making me feel like everyone's gonna hate me and that my dad's gonna kick me out of the house for it.
Fuck you American school system. :3
Anyway I'm starting Intensive outpatient therapy next week and I get the rest of the semester off of school (if they decide not to expel me), so ye :p