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Sudden TWST OC lore in the morning

Cirmu at a young age was actually nearly this close to suffering very deep existential crisis and shattering of her morality. She knows about her past lives and how some of them lived and ended, as well as the true nature of her existence and how it makes her different from others, but as a result it made her felt severely alienated from other people even including her own parents (of this lifetime). She is [Cirnu] but can she really even be considered as her own self due to only being given "life" because of the whims of an ancient god that decided to "dream"? What does it matter if she even lives or dies early, or even if she commits any heinous actions in this current life when it will not in any way affect the next generation of her "life"? Mentally speaking, she was not a child in any sense of the word, but technically speaking, at least in this lifetime, she is still a child, so it would do no wonders to her young and developing mind to think about the meaning of existence, life, death, and morality in regards to reincarnation and cycles. It was only thanks to Sybil, one of her previous lives, and her current parents that she fortunately didn't fall into a "Villain's" mindset.

Lala actually has a sense of inferiority complex in regards to using magic despite having overwhelming pride in her physical capabilities. The reason lies in her unique and rare condition, which is also the cause of her appearance-- most of her magic reserves is practically almost 24/7 being used and spent on making sure that she DOESN'T die from her affliction nor to let her body suffer by constantly pulling and fixing together her insides. As I think I have stated in the past, her early childhood was spent in near-constant excruciating pain and agony, more often than not accompanied by bouts of severe dry coughing (often accompanied by blood) and being too weak to even move a single foot, thus having to be carried by either her mother or Shir. As a result of being almost considered (if not outright) a cripple and liability at a young age along with still being affected by her condition albeit in a tiny bit more subtle way, to say that she has an issue in anyone making a comment on her being rather crap at using magic is a HUGE understatement.

Raetel actually has a rather volatile temper and some anger issues despite his seemingly collected and well-kept-together attitude, along with not really being trusting of others that aren't already in his social circle or people he already knows, is because of the fact that he spent a good portion of his childhood as a kid in the streets all alone. He never knew any parental not mentor-like figure before Hokusai, and it just so happened that where he used to "live" was rather... dangerous, shady, and a bit corrupt to say the least; if you showed any sign of weakness or couldn't adapt to doing practically anything to survive, then you'd die like a stray animal. Even from a young age, he was already a loner-type kid mostly because he was disgusted at the idea of sucking it up to anyone in order to survive like a parasite along with the fact that he KNOWS that practically no one can be really trusted-- it was use or be used back at "home". Raetel still has some of, if not all of the scars that he gained throughout his time there that he refuses to get magically healed, because to him it serves as a reminder of all what he did in order to survive and to never forget his pride for himself now that he has better access in actually and legitimately making his life better; which is another reason why he firmly HATES people who seemingly slack off for no good reason or any at all especially if they come from a well-to-do family.

Despite their quite innocent and downright friendly personality, Orchis actually often thinks about what they used to be like and would it be possible to go back to how they were like, or at the very least remember their past to some extent. They usually act like their current situation doesn't bother them in the slightest, but everytime whenever someone mentions either their family, friends, any loved ones, or even just an event from their past, Orchis sometimes ends up wondering about if they've ever experienced anything like that or if they cared/thought about someone like that. They genuinely would like to get closer to the other students, but Crowley has specifically advised the Prefect(Yuu) and Grim to make sure that Orchis doesn't do anything to maybe potentially harm the other students due to their nature as an [Undead]. It is also near impossible for them to develop/keep any long-term memories, with the longest they can keep their memories before it fades into nothingness is around an entire day; emotions on the other hand, are rather tricky. Orchis IS able to "remember" the emotions associated with something or someone, but will not be able to recall anything complex or deep in regards to that thing or person.