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Hi so I have some things I’d like to share.
Sometimes, throughout my life, I have felt like I have cat-like ears, a tail, angel/birdlike wings and paws. I don’t believe in reincarnation/past lives, I don’t have memories or dreams where I’m a certain animal or creature. I’m scared of the idea of astral projection, but lean towards believing it’s something people *can* do and I definitely believe in soul colors. I’m unsure on weather or not I believe on some level I am whatever this creature is, but leaning towards not believing I am.
The first time I felt these features was long ago, probably when I was around 11 or 12. Part of the reason that I’m unsure as to what this is, is because at that time, I really liked anime. I especially liked anime with animal people (you know, like cat girls and such) and would often pretend I was an animal. At the time, I assumed it was all because I have a very active imagination (which I do/did). I started questioning that when I felt the wings. The main reason I wasn’t sure, was because I have never wanted wings. I don’t want to fly (mainly because falling terrifies me) I never really liked birds much (I used to say birds were overall my least favorite kind of animal, but it’s not like I hate all birds or even dislike them, I’ve just always thought they were “meh”) and I’ve never felt kinship with angels. I do/did believe that angels are real though as I have been a Christian for years. I just always saw them as God’s servants, not like, something that I was if that makes sense. Because of how little I cared about having wings, I was surprised by feeling like I had them, especially when the feeling would come back. I don’t want to use the term phantom limb, because I’m pretty sure most people actually physically feel like they have those limbs and I didn’t. I almost felt like... like they were there but not in this plane of reality if that makes sense? Yesterday, I felt the paws. I was curled up in bed and felt my hands sort of go back and forth from feeling like hands to paws, and my feet felt like paws. I also did get a feeling that they were brown, but that might just be my brain attempting to make sense of it all. I have some animal-like tendencies, mainly regarding how I react to food, how I feel when I’m alert, my reflexes when threatened (it feels more natural to bite or claw at something than to punch it or use a weapon like a bow or something) and there’s more but this post is getting really long. I personally am still uncertain if I believe these experiences are 100% in my head or if there’s something more to it to some degree. Maybe my spirit has a form that’s being adjusted based on my life experiences?