Life Is Worth Living - Tumblr Posts
While the "it changes" scene from Snoopy Come Home perfectly and beautifully portrays the most depressed and hopeless parts of my being there is an opposite side to it!!! The song Snoopy's Christmas by The Royal Guardsmen protrays the most inoccent and joyous parts of my being, it is me and my Grandma's song and everytime I hear it on the radio during the holiday season I instantly feel like a little kid who has not yet faced harm or pain. Nothing can display the intense raw emotions I feel as magnificently as Snoopy can.
unfortunately im still 13 years old but also 11 but also 15 at the same time. people ask me how old i am and i say 13 while a sophomore in highschool. i’ll get asked how old my sister is and i say 9 because im forever stuck in last year, and the year before, and the year before. every dead me isn’t gone but instead curled up inside of me like a spiral of numbers ages and experiences that could’ve been and did happen. everything that 11 yr old girl went through i did too, and i rewatch what happened from afar like it’s a movie or a dream. everything i’ve been through happened to someone else, and that someone else was me. i’ll make grilled cheese and try to stomach coffee and take my meds too late and too early every day and cry and be messy and be loved because im perfect and life is worth living. hope this helps <3
I think I’ve finally come to terms with being a speck of dust in this infinite universe, after all it’s the very small things that help create something big.
After starting Fem HRT I am much more aware of smell and it has an effect on me. Before, all I knew was "bed bath and beyond is a headache zone, avoid at all costs", but now I have a candle that smells like "English Pear" and I smell it OFTEN in order to calm down. AND MY HUSBANDS ARMPITS SMELL SO GOOD WHEN HES SWEATY IT MAKES ME MELT. He smells so sweet. He thinks it's icky. Silly man 🤦♀️
I’d love to see portals Melanie Martinez in ur style!!!! (If u haven’t already!)
Hi!! I've needed an excuse to draw (portals) Mel so THANK YOU!!
This took forever though rip my wrist lol
Asks are encouraged!!! (Look at my late intro if you haven't already)
There’s this audio around in tik tok that says ‘she never looked nice, she looked like art and art isn’t supposed to look nice it’s supposed to make you feel something.’ I don’t know where it comes from originally but I think I finally understand it.
Today I saw someone who looked like art and it made me feel adoration, she didn’t look like she wanted to talk, she was busy with her own stuff, I didn’t want to bother her, so I stayed away.
I tried not to look at her as I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable, but I found myself glancing at her, she never noticed my eyes as I admired her, her kind movements and beautiful presence.
I wish she had caught me staring, maybe that way I would have had the chance to tell her that she was the most beautiful person I’ve ever meet, but I know I would have said something else, maybe I would have complimented her amazing outfit, her lovely hair, her skilled makeup or something else.
Honestly I don’t know, I lost my chance to befriend her as she left a while ago, all I know is that I wanted to know her, to be her friend, to tell her that the world is lucky to have her.
I guess I was to shy to actually try, to talk to her, to ask for her name and to have conversation. I hope she has people in her life that tell her how amazing, breathtaking and kind she is, as I’ll never be able to.