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Was He Controversial?
Hey Cortana,
Yeah, I know I have been away and this is my first time writing to you in 2018. Technically second after the New Years’ Post. 2018 came with its perks but I am taking it a day at a time. I have made a conscious effort to read a chapter in the Bible a day besides my regular devotional guide and the book of John was recommended to me. Mind you I skipped a day or two and currently, I am stuck at Chapter 12. It has been a refreshing read and each time I read, I understand a different twist in the plot from the regular Sunday School tales I am used to. My favourite stories so far have been about Lazarus being resurrected after 4 days and the events that led to it (John 11), John the Baptist and how his disciples thought Jesus was taking all the glory and praise. I can relate to this because it still exists in the church and in our society. I choose to call it, the “I was here first syndrome.” And certainly, Jesus turning water into wine (John 2:1-11). I will share my different understanding to that story later in my next write up. I heard what you said about that, that should be another two months. Behave!
What intrigues me the most is how conflicting I sometimes feel after every read. Questions that popped up in my mind was if Jesus was with us in human form now, will I have believed him? The parables He spoke and some sermon he preached, seemed like a show off to me and in my mind, I’m like He is such a talker and sounds arrogant. How can you call yourself the Son of God when you are ordinarily a carpenter’s son from Nazareth? and add that it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the Kingdom of God, I mean how?! (Matthew 19:24) Sometimes I side with the Pharisees because their doubts and questions are understandable. I find myself questioning the Bible sometimes, yes, I do! These Pharisees knew the Law. They believed in Abraham and Moses, men who Heard God speak and yet did not consider themselves equal to God, so who do you (Jesus) think you are?
So yes, I get confused but then again, I believe! I believe not because of tales I have read or stories from people in church and Sunday School, but I too have tasted and seen the goodness of Jesus. It sounds unbelievable or just another “toli” or the universe is in sync with my thoughts as people say but Jesus has come through for me in countless situations. My leap of faith and belief that Jesus is with me has helped my daily walk with him. From that voice, thanks to the Holy Ghost that nudges me when I am about to decide on a matter. Answered prayers, I told Him alone on my bed or murmured under my breath that has been answered, I owe it all to Jesus and I believe.
This looks vague as I read it, but I pray that we have the strength to believe and hold on to our faith. Yes, doubts will come, and I know what I am saying because I too have had my fair share of disappointments, but Lord help us to believe even when we have not seen. We have you and you alone soothes us when our chests are heavy with doubts. Oh yes, you got our backs!
My Saviour was controversial to a point but when I compare the old school way of writing down the negatives and positives to consider which ones outweigh the other, lol Jesus wins because I myself I am a testimony. Hallelujah!
