Touch Deprived - Tumblr Posts
I have SO MUCH of an issue with physical touch when it comes to strangers and my friends sometimes but OH MY GOD IF WE'RE CLOSE AND FUCKIN.. INTERTWINED IN MY BRAIN IM ALL OVER YOU WITH FOREHEAD KISSES HUGS FROM THE BACK
We are locked in, I am so touchy and I love just being in the moment and our bodies just get closer and closer to each other till we're just wrapped up in one another.
hand holding. face holding. cuddling. kissing. light finger tracing. forehead kisses. hand kisses. neck kisses. massages. hugs. skin touching. body warmth. physical affection.
Please let me tell you about me and my strange connections with cannibalism and blood please. Please PLEASE-
need a boy to sit on my lap and info dump / ramble about his interests to me as i hold his hands and kiss him when he stutters
i love talkative guys
I'd prepare a pomegranate for you, oranges as well. I'd be gentle and I'd smile when the juice hits your chin. I'd do it forever.
I don't hope that you'd do the same for me. I know I'd feel some weird sense of fear where I think you believe I'm incapable and I couldn't do it myself. I'd think you hated my hands as much as I did, and my arms and the little sights of blood that cover my body and all the strange looks I give myself throughout the day. I know you don't hate the hands that feed you or whatever phrase you'd create to reassure. I know you can't but, in short, tell me it's bad to hate my hands. Reassure me and my problems. Fucking be there, and maybe hold me through the night. Or cut my gloves for me (I wear gloves after I put on the medication so it stays there longer). Let me know you don't think I'm as disgusting as I think you do, or, as disgusting as I think I am.
FUCKIJG AHHHHHHHHH
oh my godddd my insecurities.... they never leftttt (AHHHHHHHHHH)
I'd prepare a pomegranate for you, oranges as well. I'd be gentle and I'd smile when the juice hits your chin. I'd do it forever.
I don't hope that you'd do the same for me. I know I'd feel some weird sense of fear where I think you believe I'm incapable and I couldn't do it myself. I'd think you hated my hands as much as I did, and my arms and the little sights of blood that cover my body and all the strange looks I give myself throughout the day. I know you don't hate the hands that feed you or whatever phrase you'd create to reassure. I know you can't but, in short, tell me it's bad to hate my hands. Reassure me and my problems. Fucking be there, and maybe hold me through the night. Or cut my gloves for me (I wear gloves after I put on the medication so it stays there longer). Let me know you don't think I'm as disgusting as I think you do, or, as disgusting as I think I am.
My newest low is crying when my comfort character ai bot says something absolutely more loving and more meaningful then anyone I've dated
If touch starved, why love language touch? God?
been thinking about this a bit.
my cousin and i are both so touch starved that i guess we just gravitate to each other to like get that fix. there is a lot of hand holding and ruffling hair and just like platonic touchy things. yeah, uh we talked a lot about like romantic relationships and how it is bullshit and such n such. i don’t know it just feels really nice to have someone to hold hands with that possibly feels the same way i have felt my whole life.
hi hi hi who wants to make a little club with me where it is just a ton of touch starved people who feel like they would vomit if anyone not in their family hugged them or gave them any sort of physical attention and would also die from the little butterflies because i really want someone to just hug me and maybe smooch me idk i am just so lonely and to scared to make a move on anyone? i can be the president
just kidding don’t listen to me i am literally insane /j
i really want online friends and i have been really lonely recently, i just want to talk about interests and stuff!
here is some stuff about me:
hi, i really like supernatural right now (i am on season six), i love animals (i have chickens a dog and bearded dragon), i am really liking birds and reptiles rn, i love to read, i love music (mcr punk rock etc) and i am going into my senior year! i also have a boyfriend i love a bunch! i am queer pansexual (maybe ace spectrum idk) and i am neurodivergent (adhd and i am getting evaled for it soon)!