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[donating blood]

yoongi: take it all

Dear life ,

For the hell you've put me thru

Thank you

For gifting me with the disability to tell anyone abt it

Sincerely , f*** you

Yours truly ,

the broken one

I am A canvas A blank canvas is me Paint me black Paint me white I'll be the same blank canvas beneath.

animalina~

Never knew i could sob like faucet while laughing like a maniac until today

yoongi: today’s my birthday so the song im gonna play is 2chainz’s birthday song

music: “ALL I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY IS A BIG BOOTY HOE”

Speak Yourself Tour - Brazil

I went to the Speak Yourself Tour yesterday, and I’m so emotionally wrecked.

All the guys tried at least one or two things in Portuguese, and Hobi gave a full ass speech all in Portuguese, so did Taehyung and Jungkook.

Jungkook and Taehyung even said a really new Brazilian meme and we were so happy.

Taehyung said in a moment “lindo” (pretty) and whenever he said something we shouted “lindo” lol he is so handsome tho’….

When Yoongi was performing Seesaw we sang so loud and he wasn’t even asking for us to sing,but we did and he showed such a cute smile as if he was trying not to and I could never get over it.

We had this really cute project of red paper hearts to show when Jin was performing Epiphany and it worked. And in the bridge when he walks until the end we kept singing, so he turns around and sees all those hearts for him after we sang his song a capella he cried and I cried so much in this song.

TTU we sang so loud that all the boys had to hold back their tears, Jin and Jungkook didn’t hold back, and poor Jimin his throat wasn’t that well and he cried a lot so we all screamed repeatedly “Park Jimin We Love You”.

Serendipity, Jimin smile soo much when he heard us singing with him it was so cute, his smile was full of joy, that’s another thing I’ll never get over.

About Peter Pan or better Jungkook’s performance of Euphoria, he gave so many bunny smiles and yes we did the anneyonghaseyo thing and workeeed.

When Hoseok was performing Just Dance everyone sang really loud, I thought that it was the loudest we would be until Seesaw lol, and he was so happy when we shouted his name he putted his hand behind his ear so we would shout even louder he was so happy.

In Namjoon’s performance we sang “I live so I Love U” and he was all smiles to us and he is so goddamn tall and handsome and thin, that all that I wanted was to take him home and make him a little bit heavier. Anyways, so talented, so pretty and yeah there was a lot of posters saying “Namjoon for president”, and all I can say is:hell yeah.

Taehyung, that ultimate bias of mine, he was terrible,Singularity is one of my favorite songs,and as Namjoon said:it’s a song that the more you listen to it the more you like. He danced perfectly,sang perfectly, and all the faces he putted up in the performance like his stare the way he would bite his lips, we all went fuckin’ crazy and he had the audacity of hold back the smile he wanted to show, and it isn’t something in my head my friend is a full time Yoongi woman and she said she almost got pregnant.

I guess thats enough, I don’t even know if anyone really wants to read it, but I was crying a lot and my friend told me to write everything that I remembered that was making me cry. Because the rest was all excitement.

Sorry.

P.s.: I’ve always known that Jung Hoseok is pretty and hot, but I’ve never thought that he was so fucking handsome, like male leader dorama handsome… fuck me

Violet

Walls over walls of steel & concrete

And in the middle sits a sad b****

No one will come , child

You're being stupid

No one will save you

You will forever wallow

In pain and self-pity

In these walls u built with hate & cruelty

Directed at no one but yourself

Walk up to the Hanging tree

In the Suicide forest

With the noose around your throat

Then yell at yourself for being too short to climb it

Walk back into your dark spiteful hole

How can you not pity yourself

When you know that everything you do

Is beacuse you're terribly scared

Of everything around you

All you say is an excuse

For your cowardice

Blame it on your depression & self-hate

And even dig up evidence

From when you were a child

Saying that your sick mind

Feeds off of your weakness and hatred

And use it as valid evidence

To sell yourself to the guillotine

Do you notice , b****?

How everything you say

Coincidentallly rhymes?

I know you don't even have the courage

To call that your talent

For fear of what ? failure?exposure?

Go on , loser , blame it on yourself again

That you hate yourself too much

To admit it and hide behind the same old

"No one's reading anyway"

Oh but you do know someone's reading

You sly cryptic b****

Go on tell them how this whole thing

Was a damn one-take

Oh right i forgot

Poor thing can't even speak

Hanging on by the same words

Holding on to the same fears

Hiding behind the same excuses

You're nothing but pathetic

Go on and complain

You can't do s*** but wallow in your sadness all day

Don't even think about living a life

Treat 'em like offerings from above

All that you have and all you are

A Bible for the sinner

Like a penny for the homeless

Nothing but mercy

For your

Godforsaken . pitiful . Self

With much love,

From self-hate♡