I Have A Lit Essay Due Tuesday And I Still Havent Finished It Im Currently Procrastinating Cos Idk What

i have a lit essay due tuesday and i still haven’t finished it i’m currently procrastinating cos idk what to put well i do i just don’t know how to put it or expand

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so no one is going to talk about the time dostoyevsky said “and i seem to have such strength in me now, that i think i could stand anything, any suffering, only to be able to say and to repeat to myself every moment, ‘i exist.’ in thousands of agonies- i exist. i’m tormented on the rack- but i exist! though i sit alone in a pillar- i exist! i see the sun, and if i don’t see the sun, i know it’s there. and there’s a whole life in that, in knowing that the sun is there.” because hOly fuckkkk

Do i own a violin? Yes

Do i know how to play? No

Did i learn as a child but give it up because “it wasn’t helpful and nobody else played it”? Yes

Do i regret that everyday of my life? Also Yes

i used to think that icarus’ death was just a tragic accident—the kind so prevalent in greek mythology, where the hero survives the most dangerous part but tragedy befalls in the most unexpected/preventable way as a result of hubris/arrogance/carelessness. but icarus’ fate was no accident. tragic, yes, but also beautiful in its inevitability: a tribute to the inexorable entanglement between love and death, desire and destruction, intimacy and decay — all of which are ultimately just forms of want and loss. after all, everything has a price, an equal and opposite reaction.

desire is synonymous with fire. it’s something i think mortals are only capable of experiencing in tiny doses: little fires in our guts, live wires down our spine, warm flushes across our cheeks. like taking very small sips of too-hot tea, desire must be drawn out over a lifetime of intimacy—lest it burn us up completely. but apollo feels things with all his immortal intensity: he is pure fire and light and heat. i am not sure there exists a purer form of love than that of the sun.

this is why icarus’ fate is no accident, nor another allegory on the dangers of hubris. it was inevitable from the start. the same way achilles’ virility and vitality was paid for with his death at such a young age, the heat from apollo’s fleeting, fatal moment of desire for icarus is the same as a lifetime’s worth of slow-burning love between two mortals.

i like to believe that icarus didn’t lose his life—not exactly. he just lived it all at once in a single, blazing moment of intimacy with the sun.

Dark Academia Extended Tag 🪐

Taken from @wellyouwontknow on weheartit

1. Are you going to learn Greek, Latin or French?

2. Will you drink coffee or tea as you read trough old books?

3. Running through the dark, mysterious forests behind the school at night or early morning walks around the school?

4. Will you read Kill Your Darlings or The Picture of Dorian Gray?

5. Will you read The Secret History or Dead Poets Society?

6. All-girls school, all-boys school, or going to a school for everyone?

7. Will you tell your friends about Oscar Wilde or Edgar Allan Poe?

8. Will you tell the rough truth or the sweet lies about what happened last weekend?

9. Will you prefer the sound of the crowded library (flipping pages, pencils meeting paper, soft whispers) or your shared dormitory at night (snoring, fire crackles, rain tapping against the window?

10. Running in the rain or laying on grass during summer?

11. At night, when they ask for a scary story, will you tell of true crime or urban legends?

12. Will your old radio play classical or jazz?

13. Will you take history or English class?

14. Will you dance in the moonlight, or play the piano, softly?

15. Will you prefer an old countryside manor, or a big city house?

16. In an empty classroom, will you solve equations on the blackboard, or search for answers in an old forgotten book?

17. Will you sit on a bench, in silence, with the person that you love, or dance at a ball with the same person?

18. Will you write music or poetry?

19. Will you go to a crowded reception, or spend the night telling horror stories to your friends?

20. Will you be a student at a boarding school in the countryside, or at a prestigious university?

21. A quiet and desired solitude or a group of friends with whom to break the rules?

22. Will you play Hamlet or Othello?

23. Will you pledge allegiance to the gods of science or literature?

24. Will you be forced to abandon love for ambition or ambition for love?

25. Will you visit rainy London or gloomy Paris?

26. Will you experience a forbidden love, because homosexual, or because incompatible with the social differences?

27. Will you play the piano or the violin?

28. Will you study late at night, or from early morning?

29. Will you be crazy about old novels or old movies?

30. Will you visit an abandoned chapel, at night, or a hidden library?

31. Will you wear tweed blazer or a trench coat?

32. Corduroy or plaid pants?

33. Oxford shoes or Doc Marten's boots?

34. A beige blouse or a black turtleneck?

35. A pocket watch or metal glasses?

36. Will you prefer the sound of dead leaves crunching under the feet or the feeling of the sun on your skin on a winter day?

37. Will you smoke a cigarette on the terrace of a cafe, reading the newspaper, or drinking red wine at night, a violin in your hand?

38. Will you spend hours in a museum, starring the same piece of art, or typing an essay on a typewriter?

39. Will you wear your hair tied by a ribbon, or braided?

40. A hazy graveyard at dusk, or a wild horse running in a field?

41. Will you prefer a Gothic-style building (high windows, towers) or neoclassical (columns, sober)?

42. Will you meet your love in secret between two shelves in the library, or behind a chapel?

43. Will you read Jane Austen or Henry James?

44. Will you wear the portrait of your loved one as a medallion, or place one of their letters against your heart?

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