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I just want someone to look at me and say “damn, my life would be so shitty without her”

Me:*watching tiktok pecefully*

Also me: *remembers that has hw*

Me: * watching Tiktok anxiously *

Me: *has online hw due today 6:00 PM*

Me: I’ll send it at 7 so she won’t think I’m desperate

The most painful thing someone can do to you is making you feel loved and wanted one day and then the next day they leave you with a thousand questions ab what you did wrong

I’m so dumb thinking that someone really loves and needs me around them

How the fuck we don’t have enough money for saving the planet and the environment but we have enough money for a 3rd world war?!

So today I had this family gathering and it was H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E. First my anxietyattack kicked in so I was just siting in there trying to breathe normally and shut my mouth and second everyone thoungh that I was mean. Lmfao no. I’m just trying to do not loose my shit over here and the fact that you are talking so fucking fast while I have to translate bc I can’t talk like you bc I don’t live here anymore is kind of a challenge. I shut up bc I don’t feel like talking shit. I just wanna go to my room,watch some netflix, talk w my friends who know and understand me and go to SLEEP bc that shit is the only thing that I’m good at. Periodt.

Him: Shut up, you are in your home country so I guess you are happy😂

I would’ve been happier in your arms watching Netflix at your/my place

IF YOU KNOW THAT SOMEONE HAS A CRUSH ON YOU DON’T AND WHEN I SAY DON’T, DO NOT TRY TO BE CLOSER TO THAT PERSON IF YOU DON’T FEEL THE SAME. REFUSE THEM IN A NICE WAY AND BE AS CLOSE TO THEM AS YOU ARE TO THE REST. PERIODT.

Get away from me! I don’t want to share any memories from my childhood with you anymore, I don’t want to love you anymore and I don’t want to be such a fool for you

How amazing is

How amazing is when you love someone with all your heart and then they make you think that they do the same but in the end is just a big fat lie

Dude I swear that every person that I have ever loved and trusted I either  lost them or I scared them when I showed them that I’m a fragile person when it comes to emotional shit and that I’m not more then 50% an extrovert and they left

Time

I knew that when the time will come you won’t be there anymore but everytime I was with you it felt like the time stopped

All I want to do is sleep with you.

Not sexually

I want to rest my head on your bare chest

And fall asleep listening to your heartbeat

And the rising and falling of your chest

You know what I wanna do?

I want to love you. To hold you and your hand tight,to get forthead kisses from you,to grab your face and  you to make that baby face with those puppy eyes,to watch christmas movies with you in april.In one phrase: I want to be yours and you to be mine

“I have never loved anyone the way that I love you.”

— Nicole Haught

😔💔

You know that they really broke your heart when you look at old texts and pictures while listening to sad music and crying in silence so no one will notice

I let you go

When you said that you became colder bc I started acting weird and that the spark of happiness that I used to have in my eyes disappeared I bursted into tears. Right there. Right in front of my phone screen thinking that I might have hurted you when my no. 1 goal of each day is making you happy bc my happiness depends on yours. Yeah, that spark is not there anymore bc I’m drained of happiness from the moment I saw that someone else makes you happier then me,that you don’t need me like I need you and that you will never get as attached to me as I’ve goten to you. You were curious into knowing why I was like that,why was I sad and I told you about the cold that killed every last breath of my spark but what I couldn’t tell you was how it all started: how when I was a child and I started crying over our dog and bunny that died in the same week and my parents told me to never put anything so close to my heart bc in the end they all leave,even if they want to or not. I started doing what they told me. I was never suffering from breakups, from moving. Not as bad as I suffer now from being one step away from losing you. Not even when I moved 600km away from my best friend I didn’t cry as much as I cried when I finally understood that nothing will be the same.That you will only give me hugs just quick and like I’m ordinary not warm and thight hugs like they used to be. Now I hope that you will be happy, I wish you the best and I hope that she will make you happier, and won’t become so annoying bc of her feelings like me. I let you go. And I hope that one day, I will look back and smile knowing that I was strong enough to do that. I don’t hate you. I hate myself for ruining everything and caring like crazy. I wish you would’ve met the old me. The one that used to smile a lot and give hope but she was less touchy. But at least she could’ve done better than me into keeping you happy and unworried.

“Excuse me,Rose. Have I given you any indication that I care?”

-Sophia

Facts

“It hurts when you have someone in your heart but you can’t have them in your arms.”

—

“When will I get it through my head that you are not mine. You never have been and most importantly you never will be.”

–4:23 AM

Why is this shit blurry when I’m reading it?

“You think you’re doing fine. You go along with your life as if it didn’t matter. As if it didn’t hurt. Then suddenly, out of the blue, it hits you like tsunami waves, crashing mercilessly. Over and over again. Your eyes are dry but your heart is in pain. It’s crushing and breaking and tearing all at the same time. You miss that person. You miss that person for how they made you feel. For all memories, good and bad, they gave you. For the worry and the anger and the love and the care. You ponder for a second. You wonder if you truly miss that person, or if it’s just the loneliness speaking. Is it because you’re doing nothing now, talking to nobody that you miss that person? Or have you been missing them all along, it’s just taken you this long to acknowledge that? You’d like to think that it’s the latter but, really, it’s both. You’re constantly missing that person subconsciously. The loneliness only magnifies the longing. Everyday you’re fighting that loneliness. You try to overcome the sorrow it brings, but today just isn’t one of those days. Instead of wallowing, you look on the bright side. You remember the good that that person gave you. You realise that, although that person hurt you, you’re still grateful. That person made you realise things you didn’t know about yourself. How, when you love, you become a pushover. You’d do anything so as not to compromise what you both have. And you shouldn’t be like that. Not all the time. It’s alright to give in sometimes, but don’t make it a habit. You’re making yourself vulnerable. You learn that putting what you want first, isn’t always a bad thing. That if that person truly loved you, they wouldn’t put themselves in a position to lose you. Then, after all the thinking and wondering, your heart is kind of at peace…for now. Being able to release all this emotion, will greatly lift the burden in your heart. You’ll feel lighter. But it would be foolish for you to believe that it won’t come back. The heart is a fickle and finicky thing. But when it does come back, you’ll know how to handle it. You’ve done this before. Just remember what you’ve given and remember that loving yourself first is more important. Value yourself in the way that that person wasn’t able to do. Take a deep breath. Smile. You’re good to go. You got this.”

— dext-erous 

“And if he can’t learn to love you, you should leave him”

Tupac

When you said your last goodbye

I died a little bit inside

I lay in tears in bed all night

Alone without you by my side