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ᯓ★ ENHYPEN AS YOUR BF
pairing: ot7!enhypen x reader, genre: fluff
— heeseung
gaming dates, late night phone calls, songs written about you, flirty 24/7, lets you keep his hoodies, basketball matches, “this shot’s for you” *misses*, pet cafes, making shared playlists, forehead kisses
— jay
surprise flowers, fancy dinner dates, blushing whenever he hears your name, back hugs, museums, teaching you how to play guitar, keeps a back up lip balm in case you forget yours, supermarket runs
— jake
good morning texts, building legos together, sends endless pics of layla, secret handshakes, “my girl”, staring contests, laughing at videos together, arcades, can’t control his smile around you, boops your nose too much
— sunghoon
playing with your hands, ice skating dates, candid photos of you, dad jokes, couple outfits, “just because it’s you”, always makes sure you’re on the inside of the sidewalk, squishing your cheeks, hiding behind you when he gets startled
— sunoo
doing face packs together, photo booths, “you’re cuter” “no you’re cuter!”, cheek kisses, filming tiktok challenges, weekend getaways, watching horror movies, always knows what you’re feeling, gives the best gifts
— jungwon
camping date, silly poses, chasing each other at the park, can always spot you in a crowd, falling asleep in each other’s arms, watching romcom movies, always opens water bottles for you, holding hands under the table
— ni-ki
head pats, playing roblox together, tickling each other, workout dates, one on one dance lessons, drawings of you, sharing headphones, constant text updates throughout the day, going to concerts together
. ☘︎ ݁˖ ༺ ENTHRALLED 𓍢ִ໋ ⛫💨⋅ ˚₊ 🫧༺ ━━ "your scent, so captiving. Drawing me in, closer and closer like a siren call."
𝒩ow playing ━━ ♫ ໂSolo by Jay Park
pairing ۪ ࣪ ִ ٫ ٫ ◌ ۪stranger!hoshi x stranger!fem reader 세븐틴 호시,, genre ✄۫ ָ֢ ⬫๑⠀ﾟ⠀`fluff, sfw, romance, blind date, strangers to lovers, love at first sight . ⠀ﾟ ᶻ𝘇𐰁 ! warnings ꒰ ⑅๑ none!! ೀ⍵᷼𝗍𝗍᷼ ✽ ۪ ⊹ wc ⍵᷼ 𝗍 ~ 1.7k
𝓚𝓲𝓶'𝓼 𝓝𝓸𝓽𝓮𝔃 ; Hello dearest!! >< Thanks for showing love and support to my first soonie fic!! I'm gonna cry with tears full of happiness T v T because of you, I became more confident to make my second fic!! Hope you'll enjoy this too. muahh~💗💕
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"Ughhhhhhhhhh…" Soonyoung sighed for what felt like the hundredth time. "Stupid blind date," he muttered under his breath, his thumb swiping aimlessly on his phone screen. Just hours before, he was peacefully asleep in his cozy bed, cuddled up with his beloved tiger plushie, when his mother suddenly barged into his room, violently awakening him from his tranquil slumber.
"I didn't even sign up for this," he exhaled. Soonyoung couldn't help but feel annoyed as he remembered the events leading up to this moment. His mother had been pestering him to go on a blind date, set up by her best friend. He had tried to resist, but his mother, being as stubborn as always, insisted that it would be good for him to meet new people.
Feeling both frustrated and bored, he plugged in his earphones and started listening to Solo by Jay Park. As he immersed himself, the café bell rang, signaling the arrival of someone. Caught off guard, Soonyoung turned towards the sound instinctively, his gaze meeting yours.
Soonyoung couldn't help but be captured by you as you approached him. It wasn't your appearance that had him mesmerized, but rather the sweet and enticing scent of the fragrance you wore. There was something about your scent—a sweet, enticing vanilla fragrance—that seemed to pull him in. He discreetly took a deep breath, savoring the aroma that seemed to wrap around him with every step you took.
"Hi," you said. Greeting him with a smile. "You must be Soonyoung, right? It's nice to meet you. I'm Y/N."
You noticed that Soonyoung seemed lost in thought and unresponsive. Wanting to get his attention, you jokingly waved your hand in front of him. "Hello? Earth to Hoshi!" you teased.
Caught off guard, Hoshi blinked twice, shaking himself out of his reverie.
"S-sorry about that, and yes, I'm Soonyoung, but who are you?" He asked, still dazed and unaware that you were his blind date.
You chuckled slightly, somewhat surprised that he hadn't recognized you yet. It was as if he had completely forgotten about the arrangements for your blind date. Deciding to clarify the situation, you replied, "I'm your date."
A few seconds of realization passed before his eyes widened slightly, and he repeated, "You're my date?" With a smile, you nodded in affirmation, "Yes, the one who you were supposed to meet for this date." You explained it gently.
Hoshi's cheeks flushed with embarrassment as he apologized for not realizing who you were earlier. "Oh my god, sorry," he stuttered. "Oh, don't worry about it," you reassure him with a comforting smile.
"Everyone makes mistakes." In truth, you find his endless apologies adorable, and his genuine remorse only adds to his charm. "Let me buy you something," he offers, determined to show you how genuinely sorry he is.
"Sure." you replied, accepting his offer without hesitation. "What would you like?" he asked, a hint of nervousness in his voice, as if afraid you might not like what he picked out.
"Anything would be fine." you reassured him, sensing his uncertainty.
He then said, "Okay. I'll be back in afew minutes." and turned to leave.
Minutes passed by as you waited for his return. You couldn't help but feel a little lonely without Soonyoung. It was as if Soonyoung had an innate ability to make others feel comfortable and at ease in his presence. You found yourself strangely drawn to him, unable to put your finger on why he had this effect on you.
Suddenly, you sensed a presence behind you, and as you turned around you find out the person is Soonyoung. A smile tugged at your lips as he approached you with a drink and cake in his hands. "Took you so long there." you teased him with a playful tone, your hand resting casually on your chin as you looked up at him. Soonyoung rolled his eyes at you, but you could see the hint of a smile on his face, betraying his feigned irritation.
"Can't cut the line though," he replied.
"Oh, and what's that?" you asked curiously, gesturing towards the drinks he held in his hand.
"For you," he answered, still unsure if you would like what he had chosen. "I don't know what to get you, so I just ordered like how I usually get." he explained as he handed you the cup, which you assumed as coffee.
"Thank you," you said, taking the cup from him and bringing it to your lips. Soonyoung watched anxiously as you took the first sip, praying silently that it was to your liking.
"Latte?" you asked, your eyebrows slightly furrowing as you considered the taste. Soonyoung held his breath, waiting for your verdict.
"Does it…taste good?" he inquired, his eyes searching your face for any indication of approval. You took a moment to fully appreciate the flavor, the rich aroma of the coffee filling your senses. To his relief, your face brightened as you finally answered.
"It actually tastes better than I expected!" you exclaimed, your eyes still locked on the cup as you continued to relish the drink. Soonyoung let out a sigh of relief, his shoulders visibly relaxing at your positive reaction.
"Latte is my favorite." you added, your eyes meeting his for a brief moment. Soonyoung's heart skipped a beat as his expression softened at your words. "Really?" he asked, unable to hide the surprise in his voice. He hadn't expected you to reveal such a personal preference, and the revelation took him off guard.
"Yes. How about you?" you questioned, looking at him with curiosity. "Actually… Latte is my favorite too…" he admitted, a hint of shyness in his voice. Your eyes widened with excitement upon hearing his answer. "Really?!" you exclaimed, not expecting him to share the same interest.
Soonyoung nodded, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Yeah…" he affirmed. You suddenly had an idea. "Let's play a game," you suggested, an impish gleam in your eyes.
Soonyoung raised an eyebrow. "What game?" he asked curiously, leaning closer to you as he waited for your explanation. "We need to say our favorite thing at the same time," you explained, the excitement in your voice evident. "Sounds fun," Hoshi agreed, his expression lighting up. "So..are you ready to join in Mr.Kwon?" you asked, a hint of playfulness in your tone.
Soonyoung chuckled at your sudden formalities, "Mr.Kwon,' huh? You're being quite formal." He leaned closer to you, a smirk playing on his lips. But he quickly composed himself and declared, "But yes, I'm ready to play."
"Okay so..1..2..3! Movie!" you shouted.
"Pirates of the carribbean!" The two of you shared a quick glance, finding further familiarity in each other's answers.
"Colour!"
"Black and white!"
"Favourite singer?!" you asked eagerly, anticipating his answer.
"Beyonce!" Soonyoung answered without hesitation.
"Oh my god we're the same!!" you exclaimed, your eyes widening in disbelief. Soonyoung chuckled at your reaction, a soft smile playing on his lips. "Seems like we have more in common than we thought," he remarked, his gaze holding yours warmly
"I can't believe this, we really do like the same things." you replied, your heart racing slightly at the sheer coincidence of your similar taste.
A few minutes passed in comfortable silence, filled with the knowledge that you had more in common than expected. However, a sudden awkwardness settled in the air, and Soonyoung, feeling responsible for the change in atmosphere, tried to break the tension by asking about your perfume.
"By the way, what perfume did you use? I-I'm sorry if it's a bit sudden, I was just curious… Just… just pretend like I never asked." He trailed off, suddenly feeling embarrassed about the question. "S-sorry about that..I…"
"Kayali. The Vanilla one." you replied calmly, cutting off his rambling. "W-what?" he asked back.
"Kayali." you repeated as you take a bite of the cake that he bought earlier. "Why?" you asked.
"Nothing..It, smells good."
~~~~
Your date with Soonyoung had gone incredibly well, but unfortunately, time flew by really quickly and it was time to part ways. "Let me take you home," Soonyoung offered, rummaging through his pockets for his car keys.
"No, no. It's okay. I'll just take a taxi," you reassured him. “Are you sure?” he asked, still concerned.
“Yes, I’ll be fine. I can take care of myself,” you affirmed, giving him a confident smile. "Alright then," he said, but he still wanted to make sure you got home safely.
"But let me at least accompany you until the taxi arrives." he offered, his tone leaving no room for argument.
"Okay," you agreed, appreciating his concern. Together, you both walked together to the taxi stand, the sound of your's and Soonyoung's footsteps echoing through the quiet street. As you both arrived at the taxi stand, Soonyoung finally broke the silence.
"Before you go, I was wondering…can I have your phone number?" he asked, his eyes locking yours. You were startled by the sudden request, but a small smile tugged at the corners of your lips. "Sure," you replied, feeling a flutter of excitement in your chest.
"Great," Soonyoung breathed, his shoulders visibly relaxing.
He quickly entered your phone number into his own phone, his fingers moving nimbly across the screen.
"There," he said, showing you his phone screen with your contact information listed. "Now I have your number. Thanks." he said, his voice is soft and sincere. Just then, a taxi pulled up to the stand. You turned to look at the waiting vehicle, then back at him.
"I guess that's my ride," you said, a hint of reluctance in your tone.
Soonyoung nodded, taking a step back to give you space. "Yeah, I guess so.." he replied, his expression mirroring your own feelings.
Thanks for today," you said, feeling grateful for the wonderful time you had together. "Your welcome." he replied.
As you were reaching to open the taxi door, you felt a gentle but firm grip around your wrist, stopping you in your tracks. As you turned around, you were suprised to see Soonyoung.
"Wait…" he said, his voice soft but insistent. You looked back at him, curious about what he had to say.
"Tell me if you're free next time. I would love to know you more."
"Oh, and," he added, his tone casual. "Don't forget to wear that perfume you wore today. It smells good."
A/N : sorry for my cramp ending TT...I was in a rush...but honestly, I have a lot of fun in writing this ^^
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𝓕𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐊𝐒 ୨୧ 𝐍𝐑𝐊
(𝓹airing) ── nrk x fmr ꣑୧ 𝓮stablished relationship ; fluff (𝔀ordcount) five-hundred 𝓹eng's note. america core for my bf 🦅 𝓫ookshelf
𝓼ynopsis. spending the fourth of july with your boyfriend at the beach
you walk beside your boyfriend from the parking lot to the beach.
clad in his one of his hoodies due to the breeze and coolness being near the ocean gives off. your hair blowing in the wind slightly at riki grabs your hand.
the soft sand touching your feet as you maneuver through the crowds of families in the sand. sprawled out on mats, picnic blankets, towels, and beach chairs.
“i don’t think we’ll find a spot here,” riki squeezed your hand, “we can watch from the car.”
“no! i have a spot for us,” you dismissed him, “just follow me!”
you drag riki along amongst the crowd for a bit when you finally step feet off the sand and onto a grassier area. he quickly hands you your sandals and slides on his before continuing on your path.
walking uphill until you get to the top of the hill where there’s a couple of beach chairs and benches. the only two people there being you and riki as everyone else opted to watch the show from the sand.
you tug on your boyfriend’s hand a little harder as you climb to sit on the ledge of the stone wall looking down on the ocean and the beach. not to high up but enough to make you feel like you and riki were the only people on earth.
“look,” you tap riki’s shoulder, “they’re staring!”
as the noises register in his brain, he looks up at the sky over the ocean. sparking shots of red, white, blue, and other colors illuminating the sky.
though his vision quickly shifts to the girl next to him. the colors from the fireworks shining against your face that is grinning softly mixed with subtle light from the moonlight.
riki thinks he’s never seen anyone prettier.
your eyes brightening not just from the sky but the pure joy your body emits from sharing such an intimate moment with your boyfriend.
your lips curled into a soft smile as you gaze into the chilly summer night.
riki thinks how could there have ever been a time where he wasn’t in love with you.
in love with you.
riki finally feels that it’s the right time to utter the three words he has spent weeks stuck on.
was it too early in your relationship? did your other partners wait or say it immediately? did you love him back?
“ki, you’re not looking at the fireworks,” you interrupt his whirlwind of thoughts, your head tilted to the side in confusion.
“i love you,” riki returns your stare with an expression full of love.
you take a minute before responding, “i love you too,” flustered face turning to look back at the sky, hoping it masks the growing heat on your cheeks.
he smiles to himself at your cute actions and scoots closer. to when your legs are lightly pressed against the other’s and wraps an arm around your shoulders. bringing you closer to him and guiding your head to rest on his shoulder.
“i love you,” riki repeats again with a proud grin on his face as a fireworks goes off simultaneously.
⌇ENHA WHEN MEETING YOUR PARENTS FOR THE FIRST TIME
꒰ ♡ ꒱ enha x fem!reader && 738wc. fluff ; small kisses, petnames, being nervous
𝐋𝐄𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆 heeseung stands at your doorstep, hands slightly trembling as he holds a bouquet of flowers. "baby, what if they don't like me?" he whispers, eyes wide with worry. you smile reassuringly, squeezing his hand. "they'll love you," you murmur, leading him inside. your parents greet him warmly, but he can't shake his nerves. during dinner, he fidgets, trying his best to make a good impression. afterward, you pull him aside, cupping his face gently. "you did great, hee," you say softly before leaning in to kiss him. he relaxes instantly, his arms wrapping around you. "thanks, angel," he whispers against your lips, a shy smile forming. "i needed that."
𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐉𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐆 jay stands at your doorstep, hands a bit sweaty as he adjusts his collar. "what's the worse that can happen?" he whispers, his voice shaky. you smile, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze. "nothing, so it'll be fine," you murmur, leading him inside. during dinner, jay sits beside you, his hand finding yours under the table, fingers entwining tightly. he engages in polite conversation, answering your parents' questions with a mix of charm and nerves. you can feel the tension in his grip. afterward, as you walk him to the door, you turn to face him, cupping his cheek. "you were perfect, jay," you whisper, leaning in to kiss him softly. he sighs in relief, resting his forehead against yours. "thanks, love," he whispers, a small smile appearing.
𝐒𝐈𝐌 𝐉𝐀𝐄𝐘𝐔𝐍 jake stands at your doorstep, his usual bright smile in place even though you know he's nervous. "ready?" you ask, and he nods confidently. as you introduce him to your parents, his charm instantly wins them over. he answers their questions with ease, laughing at their jokes and sharing stories. by the end of dinner, it feels like your parents have adopted him; they're already planning family outings with him included. later, as you both step outside, you turn to him with a grin. "they love you," you whisper, wrapping your arms around his neck. jake leans in, kissing you softly, "thanks, sweetheart,"
𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐍 sunghoon stands confidently beside you, charming your parents effortlessly with his polite manners and genuine smiles. after a few minutes of conversation, he leans in and whispers in your ear, "great, now your parents like me." you feel his lips brush your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. "time for you to get my last name, mrs. park," he teases, a mischievous glint in his eyes. you blush furiously, but before you can respond, he kisses you softly on the cheek, his hand gently cupping your face. "i'm serious, baby," he adds, his voice low and filled with affection.
𝐊𝐈𝐌 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐎𝐎 sunoo holds your hand tightly as you both walk up to your parents' house, his usual bright smile a bit nervous. "it's gonna be fine," he whispers, leaning in to kiss your forehead softly. as the door opens, he beams, his charm instantly winning them over. during dinner, he keeps sneaking glances at you, squeezing your hand under the table. when your parents leave the room, he pulls you close, pressing a quick kiss to your lips. "i told you it would be fine, my love," he murmurs, his eyes sparkling. later, as he helps clear the table, your mom pulls you aside and whispers, "he's a keeper." you can't help but smile, knowing she's right.
𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐆 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐖𝐎𝐍 jungwon squeezes your hand as you approach your parents' house, a confident smile on his face. "don't worry, i basically make every parent be in love with me," he whispers, making you giggle. the evening goes smoothly, jungwon charming your parents effortlessly with his respectful manners. as the night ends and you both step outside, he pulls you close, his eyes sparkling under the porch light. "see? told you, baby," he murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. you laugh softly, feeling warmth spread through you, and whisper back, "yeah, you're pretty amazing, my love." he grins, kissing you again.
𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐌𝐔𝐑𝐀 𝐑𝐈𝐊𝐈 you were so nervous for the day, hoping that riki wouldn't mess up. surprisingly, riki seemed nervous for the first time, holding up two ties and asking, "this tie or this one?" finally deciding, he transformed during dinner, completely cool and charming, showing a side of him you never saw. your parents were impressed, laughing at his jokes and enjoying his company. as you got into the car afterward, he leaned over and kissed your cheek, his eyes sparkling with mischief. "piece of cake, babe. now you owe me that $50 you bet," he teased, making you roll your eyes and laugh, feeling relieved and proud of him.
MAN AND WOMAN ⤿ 𝓈im 𝒿aeyun .
𝓈ynopsis. where your best friend is a loser good guy and tries to show how love really feels like. pairing. bestfriend!jaeyun x fem.reader genre. fluff, angst, happy ending. wc: 3,9k+
WARNINGS : curse words, mentions of excessive skin-ship, reader has confused feelings, mentions of cheating, reader tries to avoid jaeyun, reader’s parents are divorced, mentions of trust issues, mentions of therapy, lemme know if i forgot something!
NOT PROOF READ & PART TWO OF FALL IN LOVE AGAIN!
𝒸ece no𝓉ℯ𝓈 : i'm back... i think hehe
you don't know what happened last night. everything turned into a blank memory, except for the moment you woke up next to your best friend. he wasn't naked, so you took a deep breath before slowly standing up and walking to your bathroom on your tiptoes. you were constantly looking back to make sure jaeyun wouldn't wake up and ask you where you were.
too bad! jaeyun woke up after a deep groan — and a deep morning stretch — he looked at you with a frown, and you saw how his sleepy eyes were trying to find out what you were doing.
“where are you going?” he asked with a groggy voice.
“um… to the bathroom?” you muttered.
“and you’re walking away from a morning cuddle just after what we happened yesterday?” smirking, he stood up and walked at your direction. “mhm?” he hummed while hugging you, embracing your waist with his arms and placing his heavy sleepy head onto your shoulder while taking a deep breath; slightly tickling your neck, making your body react with a gentle cringe.
what happened yesterday? — that's what you wondered and pondered to ask him, but it didn’t seem a properly situation: due to jaeyun’s morning clinginess.
with a fake chuckle, you pulled his arms away from your waist and slowly walked towards the bathroom's door while facing him. "i'll be with you in a minute!" you spoke in a joyful tone, trying to sound normal as a drop of sweat began to run down from your forehead.
you quickly locked yourself in the bathroom and took a deep breath as you tried to record something from last night.
"what if i say you look super attractive and that i want to kiss you? would that sound weird?"
jaeyun looked at you with half-hearted smile, like he was unsure on how to reply. "and what if i say i want to kiss you too? would that sound weird?" you realised how close he was from you now; and how your cheeks were being cutely and softly rubbed — not trying to mean such a thing that would eventually turn into something else.
however, even though the atmosphere was the best jaeyun could ever dream about — and how he had picture before — he knew it wouldn't be respectful from him for kissing a drunk person: especially you.
okay, let's all be honest here: the fact is that jaeyun has a hidden love for you that has been a deep secret for years now. so, as that being said, he eventually was expecting that — if somehow you fell like you liked him —, your guys first kiss together was supposed to be memorable. —he wondered how your lips taste right now.
"jaeyun... are you hearing me?" you whined watching his stood up paralysed figure. "why do you look so pale?" his sun kissed skin was glowing under the dark like a lightbulb, making a chuckle come out between your numb lips. "stupid." you drunkly scoffed as you turned your back at him and murmured for him to go back home; since it was late.
fuck he was dreaming awake.
"wait... i don't remember seeing him leaving..." you murmured to yourself as you bit into your nails, wondering if there was pieces of the last night's puzzle lost inside your own mind. "it doesn't make sense..." you whispered crossing your arms, thinking if it was a good idea to consider actually asking the soberest person from yesterday what had happened: jaeyun. — especially between you two; it was all a big mystery for now. "no," you shook your head, biting onto your bottom lip. "it's not a good idea; he's going to be upse-"
knock knock
"y/n, baby," jaeyun's voice sounded concern, yet kinda groggy. "are you okay there? are you having any hangout sickness? poor baby, i'll get you some medicine-" the door was opened, and you were met with jaeyun's frown.
you weren't planning on opening the door too soon, but you weren't planning on making your best friend worried about you or even worse: mad. oh, you don't wanna see jaeyun mad. he doesn't look scary, but looks can trick you. "yeah?" you pursed your lips like nothing has ever happened, leaving the bathroom and going to the kitchen, leaving jaeyun dumbfounded and stunned by your sudden change of actions. "what would you want for breakfast?" your gentle voice sounded way too gentle for his liking, making him rub his nape.
"um... whatever you're going to eat, i don't want to bother you..." he spoke with a weird voice, almost like he was sniffing a sense of awkwardness replacing the smell of coffee being poured. you heard the noise of the dinner's table chair echo against the floor, alerting that your best friend were currently sat at one of those chairs.
turning to look at his figure — trying your best to avoid his gaze — you replied: "oh, no problem!" you placed a cup of coffee on the table close to him, nodding your head as you were giving him the confirmation it was for him.
"thanks." he plastered a simple smile, not showing his teeth, almost like a smiley purse spread through his lips. well, you pictured that he smiled like that because of his trembling tonne, but you weren't that sure; since you didn't glanced at him to make sure.
you finished making an omelet for him, placed an italian bread — that you bought yesterday's morning — for both of you and placed a package of butter — and jam — to make sure he knew you had a complement; to enjoy this delicious sour dough bread, and didn't forget to place the sweet pancakes you had quickly made. — even though he asked you to simply make him what you were going to have.
"so..." you started after a long five minutes of pure awkward silence after you just sat on the table. "how was last night?" you asked him, peeking at his reaction through your tea's cup rim, abandoning the hot beverage for a few seconds to tear a piece from that inviting bread and taking a bite from the teared piece.
"it was great." he shrugged, drifting his gaze to the sweetened coffee that he was drinking, taking a sip from the cup.
great? you though.
"how great?" you watched how his reaction looked like a slight frown and a confused glance at your face, before dropping his attention to the knife's tip covered with a little bit of jam. you followed his actions and took a deep breath while watching him take a bite of bread. "i mean like- did you sleep well?" you tried your best to quickly change topics, and the difference between the topics was almost impossible to tell; but jaeyun detected how nervous and anxious your tone sounded, almost like you were in a combustion state.
"yeah, i slept well." he chuckled. "why are you so weird today...?" you heard his whisper, like he was asking himself after letting out a chuckle — that echoed more like a scoff — slightly tilting his head to the side like he had already gave up on trying to find out. perhaps you woke up with the left feet?
"nothing..." you murmured, cringing yourself as you felt kind of a intimidating atmosphere. you were fighting a million of thoughts and trying to make it not show, but your 'discreet' glances at him were kinda obvious. you were also trying to find a way to ask jaeyun what happened last night,, so after a few more peeks at him, you gulped down a piece of teared bread and coughed: leading the man's attention at you. "so..." your gaze dropped as you saw his eyes laying on you in a second. "i was kinda drunk last night, you know?"
"yeah, i know." he chuckled.
"mhm... well," you paused, taking a deep breath before proceeding to finish your future question. however, jaeyun interrupted you in a blink of an eye, saying:
"if you couldn't remember about last night you could've just said, you know?" you heard a breathy laugh come out of his mouth without a single pinch of actual humour.
your eyes widened as you realised how fast he has read you. he scoffed at you surprised face, "why are you surprised? i am your best friend, i know you since we were six; i can read you like a book." and he smiled, this time letting a pinch of proudness show off. "i'm not mad if you're wondering." he looked at you, but he didn't see any movement of relief coming from you, making his eyes widen and his posture switch to a authoritarian posture; where his chest was puffed out. "i'm telling you i'm not mad!" jaeyun pouted, looking like he was kinda offended that you weren't really convinced.
you pursed your lips, leaving a half-hearted smile as you tried to recompose yourself. you shrugged, trying to brush off that awkward climax, nodding your head at him, like you were calling him out. "since you're not mad," you leaned a bit across the table. "can you tell me what actually happened last night?" you murmured, almost whispering at him.
"we just cuddled." he shrugged, and your body relaxed on the chair, leaning your back back onto the chair.
"that's it?" you scoffed. "i thought it was something more-" you paused, realising you were a bit carried away with your words. "um... you know," you let out a nervous breathy laugh.
"you thought we had sex?" jaeyun saw how your cheeks were red. "yeah, no, we didn't." shaking his head, he began to chuckle at your embarrassment.
and then, a comfortable silence was established. well, for jaeyun in particular, because you were trying to reconnect your rational thoughts to your own brain. you were feeling like a teenager boy middle his puberty when jaeyun's words were echoing in your mind. you tried as much as possible to shake off those silly thoughts and scenarios, but as much as you tried, you couldn't; specially when he was still in front of you.
feeling a bit overwhelmed, you told him you were heading to your room to get ready for the day. "are you sure? aren't you feeling ill due to yesterday's night?" his pout made you almost melt, but you replied with a shook of a head, telling him you were feeling better, and he couldn't say anything else to stop you from changing yourself and proceed to continue your daily routine.
you took a deep breath as you went upstairs back to your room, slamming the door as your heart was weirdly racing. "what is wrong with me?" you asked yourself, hoping that a mirror could tell if your eyes were shining as much as you thought jaeyun was; this morning.
"okay y/n, tell me what's wrong!" your friend — hikaru — was trying to help you, taking a long sip onto her boba as she shouted at you to spill everything.
today, after getting ready, you called your friend hikaru, who was a long date friend of you. you two met at a english school you were attending when you were just five years old, and yoona caught your eyes for being half american and half japanese. she was born and raised in japan and was trying her best to learn english: since her father was an american man. she was friendly, yet shy. hikaru is pretty and very smart, always helping you out.
"okay, you calm down hikaru!" you yelled back, making her scrunch her nose and twitch her upper lip, flashing her head away from your glance. "it's just... how can i say this...?" you sighed, avoiding her eye contact.
you felt her eyes slowly laying back on you, and from your peripheric sight you saw her concerned pout as you rubbed your forehead, attempting to ease your mind. "what is it y/nnie?" she rubbed your shoulder, trying to calm you down.
"i think- no, i don't think... i- is just-"
"wait y/n," hikaru placed her boba at the park's ground, not caring about all the lousy feet that have been stepping onto the stoned ground. "i have all day to listen to you; and i'll try my best to hear you and help you, so take your time, yeah?" her brows were giving a sense of sensibility and worry.
"karu, do you think that- like," you took another deep breath, looking at her. "when you like someone your heart rate is used to increase, right?" your friend saw how your eyes were craving for answers, so she coughed before speaking, holding your shoulders in a attempt to make you focus on her words instead of overthinking.
hikaru knew about your many broken hearts from the past, so she was kinda taken back once you asked her such an unexpected question.
"um... let's see..." she pouted and inflated her cheeks, thinking for a second before turning her head/attention back to you. "usually yes, but, anxiety doesn't affect just 'in love' people you know? it can be a plenty other facts." she shrugged, and you nodded your head as you understood her points.
"like?" your tone sounded a bit hesitating.
"like the motive, the situation, the person's current state and the person who makes someone feel like her heart will probably explode anytime soon." she chuckled, like it was kinda silly, picking up her drink back from the ground.
"yeah, i think you're right," you nodded your head, pursing your lips as hikaru's explanation began to sink into your thoughts. "jaeyun would never stir my feeling like that-"
"oh, wait, are we talking about jaeyun? that friend of yours?" hikaru cocked a brow, literally flashing her head at you once your best friend's name were spitted out from your mouth.
"yeah? what about it?" you took a sip from your latte, mocking her brows.
"oh honey, if you don't know what i'm talking about, i'm not gonna be the one to tell you." as she started to sink her front teeth into her boba's straw, a mischievous grin spread across her lips.
"no, hikaru, tell me! you started, so finish it!"
"my work is done hun'!" she mocked your desperation. "have to go back to mina," she stood up from the bench, checking the time on her watch as she checked on her daughter, who was playing with her friends at the playground. "you should get going as well, don't you have to see your therapist soon?" hikaru asked you with a bit of curiosity, turning her head to look back at the little girl's figure: who was getting closer as she began to ran.
mina is hikaru's daughter, that has just three years old, and is a very smart little girl. the japanese woman got pregnant as soon as she finished high school, and even though it seems that she was very young to be a mum — she actually was —, you were very surprised with how easy hikaru was dealing with all the hormones and the pregnancy itself; that it is a stressful process of change. what could you say? now you have a beautiful and wise nephew to call yours, and hikaru couldn't be more relieved to have her little family all together.
"alright, say bye-bye to uncle y/n, mina." hikaru waved her hands, encouraging mina to wave the same way at you. mina waved back at you with a big grin, asking her mum if she could spend more time with me. "mina, we have to get lunch now, your daddy is waiting at work for us, remember baby?" she smiled at her toddler nodding. "y/n, i would offer you a ride to whenever you have to be now but i'm kinda late..." hikaru pouted.
"oh, no problem! i can ask jaeyun if he could drive me to my therapist building."
"oh- jaeyun?" you watched how her brows went up and down, in an attempt to tease you. "remember what i said to you earlier, okay? the person matters when it comes to feelings." she smiled, messing with your hair meanwhile she began to fix her daughter's stray hair strands. "okay, have to go now hun', good luck!" hikaru sent you a flying kiss as you watched her walking away from you, and mina's teary eyes followed you until her little eyes couldn't catch you anymore.
"yeah, i can drive you babe." jaeyun's voice echoed behind the phone's speaker, and you smiled.
"alright, thank you, i'll see you soon then." and you hanged up the phone, hugging yourself as the weather began to turn into a bit more windy. "cold..." you murmured.
under a few minutes your best friend arrived, and your shoulders relaxed the moment he called your name inside the car. "come inside princess!"
"so now you're dealing with uncalled feelings?" your therapist confirmed, receiving a nod from you. "okay, but why are you so concern about those feelings?"
"because it causes me- i think- triggers? i'm not sure..." you scratched your scalp, pouting, feeling overwhelmed.
"describe them again for me, but try to be more precise; i need you to be more precise." your therapist looked at you in a firm — yet comforting — way. "take your time, i'm not here to force anything to come out of your chest, remember: i'm here to help you." Mr. Kang reassured you when he saw your eyes a bit teary.
"my heart pace increases and-and, when talking about it feels super overwhelming, and i can't explain it without feeling a sense of guiltiness and worry."
"worry about what?"
"if these feelings can grow and kill me slowly."
"feelings can't kill you, but thoughts can." he looked at you with a cocked brow, making you cringe as you got intimidated. "thoughts are consequences of feelings, and they can grow and cause serious mental problems." the sound of his pen against the paper he was writing echoed during a moment of silence. "i guess you fell in love." he murmured, and you immediately stood up from your seat.
"it can't be! i don't wanna fall in love- i-i'm not in love!" you shouted, tears running down.
"so that's what triggers you." Mr. Kang nodded his head, tearing a piece of paper and handing you. "y/n, i'm sending you back home with a new medication to help you sleep. about your feelings: love can't be helped, and i wouldn't recommend you to follow your past instead your heart." he stood up and placed a gentle hand onto your shoulder, staring deeply into your eyes. "people are different, and i know that change can scare you, but it shouldn't kill you. good luck y/n, see you next month." nodding his head at the paper he handed you, you read what he had written, reading that you were programmed to see him again next month; not like you have planned.
"so, how was today's therapy?" jaeyun asked, watching how quiet you were since both of you left the clinic.
you shrugged, following threes as they passed by behind the car's window. "normal."
"are you sure? haven't seen you act like this for a while." his eyes were switching between looking at the street and looking at you.
"yes, i'm sure." you tone seemed a bit annoyed, and you sighed once you realised. "i'm sorry." you murmured, rubbing your eyes with your thumb and index finger.
"you're fine." a gentle worried hand laid against you thigh, and a soft rub began.
"jaeyun," you called your friend in a whisper, making him hum as he heard his name drop from your mouth. "have you ever been in love?" you timidly asked him, watching how his eyes seemed to shine and his jaw tighten a bit.
"i guess so," jaeyun glanced at your face, trying to figure out if he was actually hearing this question coming out of your mouth. "why?"
"nothing..." your head turned back to the view of the streets behind the car's window. "just curious." you shrugged, cringing yourself as your thoughts began to eat you alive. "how does it feels like?" asking in a coy tone, jaeyun chuckled, like he was remembering about that sweet and pure feeling called: love.
"depends," he shrugged. "but usually, at the very beginning, it feels like you're going to pass out at any moment." his hands tightened against your thigh skin. "you feel like she's the only person that you deserve, the only person you can picture living by your side; hugging, cuddling, kissing... it's like bing under drugs influence, but every single second or every time you see that exact same person."
"can love kills you?" your best friend giggled, finding cute your curiosity.
"it can, but only when it's not mutual, understand?" jaeyun looked at you after parking his car in front of your house. "love can hurts even more when it's so real, but so far away, that your heart can deal with being far away from someone. it's like, for it ( heart ) life is unfair." he chuckled with the thought. "it's silly, but a lot of people say humans live for love." he sighed.
"how do you know all of this? love isn't something you cannot explain?" your eyes went wide, not even realising you have arrived at your house. "i mean, haven't you ever dated that girl you always wanted?" you refereed to a girl jaeyun dated a while ago.
"but we broke up, didn't we?" he looked at you with hurtful eyes. "sometimes love can hurt so much that we want to live to find a durable one. you're right, it's something we cannot explain, but once we experience sincere love, is like spreading butter on a toast." he eased the tense atmosphere with a silly analogy. "and it can be explained as a mutual love, or a silent love."
"what is a silent love?" your head dropped to the side, wanting to know more about it.
"like when you love someone from far away: like a kid wanting sweets but having a ton of motives and signs to not eat it, such as, like, cavities." you nodded your head.
"have you ever experienced silent love?" and a silence was plastered.
"it's late y/n, you should enter home." he nodded his had at your building.
"jaeyun, have you?" your frowned your brow.
he sighed, before replying: "i am experiencing."
"with who?!" you almost shouted, curiosity already killing you inside.
"y/n go inside-"
"who is it, jaeyun? tell me, please, i'm your best friend, aren't i? i want to know who is-"
"it's you y/n! fuck is you! are you satisfied? for godness sake, just go inside please..." his tone lowered once he realised he had snapped at you.
"m-me?" and jaeyun went silent, avoiding you. "okay, sorry..." you whispered, slowly holding jaeyun's hand that once were laid on your thigh, placing it back onto his lap. "have a great night, i hope we can talk about this later." you finished, opening his car's door and slowly walking away from him.
once you reached your doorstep, something hit you like a bullet, making you stop from reaching you locker. "jaeyun!" you shouted, hoping he would be listening to you, even though he was inside the car. "i want to find love with you! i-i mean! i want you to make me find out what love is like!" feeling your cheeks hot, you quickly entered inside home, taking a deep breath while leaning against the door.
you received a notification, and without hesitation you went to take a look.
jaeyun: i heard you. jaeyun: can we start to see each other as man and woman then?
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