Soul Dancer

Soul Dancer

“This is the right form of closure For something so beautiful And wild. A fiery dance That ignited my life. For a season I have worshiped One more being. Watched you soar, Rising into your own. Transforming before my eyes I have witnessed your ascension. Every day bringing you closer To becoming the Goddess I have loved. Now we have come To the closing of one tumultuous chapter, Only to find the beginning Of another more refined. We have both discovered much; About ourselves Each other And the human species as a whole, And we each have been evolving From the information we have gleaned. Where we are going We cannot predict. It hides behind the shrouds Of dark mystery, Ever calling us home. A future we are still creating; Radiant lives we long to achieve. We are doing it with adventures And volumes of poetry, Good and bad choices, Sorrow and joy. Infinite dances Through our eternities.

Goodnight my love, My sybling of the soul. Our journey It has been everything that I needed.”

- Andrew

Downswing

"I have good days But I also have bad ones. My thoughts begin to run Until they have become An avalanche. I am steadily buried underneath, Unable to resist the onslaught. I start off ok But soon the weight of it all Is crushing me, And what strength I have Is quickly subdued. There isn't any logic to it. It happens. These thoughts I have I know they are not mine, Yet here they are Taring me down. When I was young I didn't know any better. Hating myself Always felt right When these times came. That temptation is still here But I know that it will pass. I have done nothing wrong. Everything is ok. Trying to not listen To the thoughts. Waiting on the upswing To carry me back to bliss." - Andrew

Undecided

“I want to be free of you And I never want to let you go. I never want to have sex with you again But I long to make love without ceasing. I hate and I love you. I want to scream at you And I wish to whisper how beautiful you are. You are driving me insane And I enjoy it Sometimes.

Is it possible That you will ever love me? More than you do; In a way that resembles my own? Every fiber of my body Is ripping itself apart. I am torn Being constantly pulled in two directions. I can’t seem to stay true To either course, Causing me to leave a terrible wake As I destroy everything. One moment I want nothing more Than to honor you. Put you first in everything As I soar on wings of hope. Then there is the next moment The one in which I want to break free. Declare my own worth And how much I have loved. Fueling my departure with fiery doubt That you will ever Chase after me.”

- Andrew

Why I Laugh

"Because I get the joke. I see this pattern In everything. I read it in a book That no one understands. From there I see it in the world, Existence, And now my life. Patterns that are infinitely displayed. I see what is happening. It has happened before. My heart is shutting down. My body is going back on auto pilot. My mind is once again caught up In the constructs; Living themes. Programed responses. Tired. Waiting to wake up again From my philosopher's sleep. To walk the world once more With the hope that then It will be different. That then will be the time And they will understand. Unobserved I walk half-consciously. No one ever understanding Who is walking by." - Andrew

My argument is that civilization does not matter. All that matters is the position that rules, which may not be the "highest" position. Life is primitive. Humans are still monkies at basis . all that matters to humans is the perpetuation of the norm, even if this norm is negative. The continuation of what exist.

"Who is seducing who In this dance? Kiss kiss kiss! Deeper... Lower... Softer... Kiss, Kiss, Kiss... Your body in my hands Your taste on my lips Who was seducing who?" - Andrew