A Present For You
A Present for youâŁď¸
(A little ateez Christmas fic)

A/n: Happy Holidays to all my wonderful followers! I hope you all are enjoying your days and getting some well deserved rest! Have this fic to lighten your day!
This is a spin off of Say Goodbye!
There is slight suggestive themes in here, but that's all mostly!
Taglist: @kimroieho @mingissoggywaffles @damissub @wooyoungsbae @yungisstar1117 @goryusr @beomnoi @blessednhighlyfavoured @do-you-actually-care @soft-teddybear @sanraes @captainjoongiekissme @hijirikaww @staymiracle @gay-for-gaon

It was a cool,chilly day. You were awoken but small noises and the sound of your door swinging open.
"Go and wake mama up bun!"Â
"Ah! Otay yuyu.."
You heard the pitter-patter of feet coming to your bedside, feeling someone gently shake your shoulders. You smile softly and open your eyes to see your baby dressed adorably in a striped onesie.
"Mama it chrimmy!!" Muyoung yells excitedly and Yunho chuckles as he lifts up Muyo onto your bed. You chuckle as he playfully pats on your bed, you sit up and squeeze his cheeks. "I know! Momma's baby is excited huh?" Muyo squeals in response as you climb out of bed with him in your arms.
Yunho chuckles as he walks over to place a kiss on your lips. "Morning Pup, the others are already up, Mumu went running through the house waking everyone." You giggle as Muyo hides his face in your neck to avoid his guilt. "Well, let's go see your daddies, okay?" Muyo nods as you walk out with Yunho behind you.
The male lands a smack to your ass making you help softly, you shoot him a playfully glare. Yunho smirks as he leans to whisper in your ear.
"oh once muyo goes for nap time, mommy gets to have her gift~" you blush and sigh softly as you head down to the dining roomÂ
When you reach the room you gasp at how many gifts were under the tree. You place Muyoung down and watch as he runs over to the presents and flops into the pile, disappearing into the mix.
Yeosang goes over and scoops him up twirling him around. "There's my mini Prince!" Yeosang kisses Muyo in the forehead and dips him making the young boy giggle with joy. You walk in coming to stand beside Hongjoong who had on a Santa hat with the rest of his pajamas.Â
"Hey baby, Merry Christmas~" He says kissing your cheek and wrapping his arms around your waist giving a soft squeeze. You giggle softly and snuggle closer to him, "Please don't fight us, but I think we over did it on gifts," you roll your eyes.Â
" I already knew that joongie. That's fine, let him enjoy it" You say watching as Muyo began opening gifts.
His yell made you whip your head over to him...only to see him laying on top of a Nintendo Switch box.Â
"Mama mama! I got switchy!" You crossed your arms and looked around to see who was the culprit, your eyes falling on Seonghwa who was smiling sheepishly.
"Really Hwa?" You ask walking over to the male. "I'm sorry, Angel. But did you see how he was fawning over it?" He whined watching as the young boy bounced around happily.
"Really?"
"Well you might wanna fight Woo and San too"
"Why?"
You hear a little beep beep and see Woo holding the controls for a little mini Jeep, seeing your baby boy driving around in it. San was making small driving noises as the young boy drove around. You giggle as he pulls up beside you. "Aha...so I see your dadas got you a car?" you asked only earning giggles from himÂ
San and Wooyoung walked up to you placing kisses on either side of your cheek.
"Hehe don't be mad princess~"
"yea what's the harm in teaching him early doll?"
"Um? Because 2 is too early!"
Jongho chuckles as he walks in with a huge teddy bear placing on the floor.
"Cub is right. You couldn't have gotten a more normal gift?"
"JONGHO YOU BOUGHT HIM A BEAR THE SIZE OF YUNHO!!"
"so? It's a normal gift San."
You giggle as Muyo climbs out of the car and runs over to you with a box in his hand. "Mama! Dis fo you!" You smile and take the box from his hands. "Ahh this is from your Daddies to me?" You ask and he nods rapidly.
"Ahh thank you- Mingi don't think I don't see you with that little mini plane either"
"Baby! Focus on your gift!" Mingi cried out as the other laughed at his antics.
"Right, I wanna see princesses reaction!"
"Same!"
You sigh at them and start unwrapping the box, you tilt your head as it looks like a jewelry box. You open in and a small gasp leaves you, your eyes flicking up to look at the eight males smiling around you. Yeosang walks up and places another kiss on your lips.
"So we couldn't decide who was going to propose to you...Soo.."
"Wooyoung had the bright idea to just get eight-"
"HEY! DONT FULLY BLAME ME!! SAN TOO!"
"I SAID TWO NOT EIGHT WOO!"
"But I actually like it.."
"Of course you would Hwa. Yours is the biggest."
"Nah he's right! It's ok like cub gets to wear a different one each day."
"Jonghos right! Pup gets a choice."
Muyo hugs your leg and smiles up at you. "Mama mawwi dadas! I get more sibwing!" You blush and chuckle at your baby, "well..I guess your right. You can't be by yourself for too long~" you say squeezing his cheeks.
San walks up and slips his arms around your waist. "I wanna be next~ Yeosang already has a mini him." He says kissing along your neck. Wooyoung stands with his arms crossed, "Hmph very funny San. It's all up to princess to decide."
"Actually my body decides guys-"
"Well that means mommy has alot of work cut out for you~" Seonghwa says taking your chin in his hand.
"Planning a wedding, giving Muyo another brother or sister. Being the most amazing mother and wife, my my Angel you have your work cut out." You smile as all the boys come around to join into the hug pile.
Muyo giggles as Yeosang holds him in his arms.
"Mama! I want a sissy!"
"Well- I Mumu, mommy still has to raise you first, wait till you get a little older."
"I think that this is the perfect age for him to get a sibling~"Â
"Hongjoong!!"
The group laughs as they move you over to the dining table, getting ready to eat and enjoy the rest of the day as a happy family.
"Mama! Merry Chrimmy!"
"Merry Christmas baby bun."
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You exclaimed as the bulge massaged itself between your thighs' soft fat. "Ah! Woo,"
He's smitten for you. As he devoured your lips, his inky black hair tickled your cheeks. "Mmm..mwah" The menace teased you by releasing your swollen lips. "Nurse, You look hot in distress."
You helplessly moaned as he smothered you with his lips leaving sandwiched between him and old worn mattress.
"AhâĄ!" You cried out as he helped himself.
Ungodly Hour

That time you - a broke college student - were willing to do just about anything for a hulu account after your brother kicks you off of his - (and Jungkook would do anything to have you).
Word count: 1.687
Warning: idk yall, i was bored, smut, college au, jungkook is thirsty, reader is somewhat slutty but with good reasons, dirty talking, swallowing, oral (m receiving), unprotected sex, riding, cumming,

Your mouth wrapped around the tip of Jungkookâs cock, twirling the head in your mouth. You only slightly (maybe more than you want to admit) the way the salty pre-cum drips into your mouth as you suck. Even better were his moans - so soft and velvety; melodic.Â
if anyone was to blame it had to be your brother - he was the nuisance in your life. It was as if he intended on making your life a complete mess.
You were a good person, daughter and sister. You did what you had to do - attend classes everyday. You went to work and then home without a care. You worked at a grocery store part time and made enough to pay your half of the rent. Sure, with the price of groceries now you couldnât be bothered to buy any. But thatâs where your parents came in. You craved independence from them but only for privacy. You made sure you were there every night for dinner and sometimes if you had time, breakfast in the mornings.Â
Your brother was just upset that you accidentally bought an add-on on his hulu account - but how else were you supposed to watch what you wanted if he was too cheap to pay for anything further? It was bad enough you had to sit through 2 minute ads - it was the least he could do.
This is how you now found yourself sucking Jungkook off - the same man you had been dodging ever since the pair of you met. He gave off fuck boy vibes and the last thing you needed was that in your life - until you actually did need Jungkook. The irony.
Jungkook watches with hooded eyes at the beautiful sight of you. You had now grasped the length of his cock and began to pump him, focusing more on the tip of his head. He was glad the two of you were alone - seeing as you didnât even have the decency to take him to your room and insisted on doing this on the couch. But Jungkook wasnât a picky person - he prayed for times such as this. You were the play hard to get type and one thing he enjoyed was the chase.Â
Jungkook places a hand on the back of your head and thrusts lighty into your mouth, groaning as he does so. You allowed it. You laid your tongue flat, eyes flickering up to watch his expression. Satisfaction bubbled deep inside of you at the sight of his lust-filled expression. Dark hooded eyes, gasping lips.
âI waited, fuckâŚso long for this.â Jungkook groans, pumping inside of your mouth a little faster. His thumb caresses your cheek. âI told you that Iâd have you one day, didnât I?â he says smugly.Â
You groan a response, throat vibrating against his cock. That bastard, you thought. Jungkook did - he told you that one day your âplay hard to getâ act would crumble and when it did, heâd be there. But this couldnât count - right? You were doing this for the greater good, after all. You had shows to watch and Jungkook just so happened to be the one that had a premium account.
You feel the tip of Jungkookâs cock tickling the back of your throat, testing to see how far youâd let him go. Thereâs a trail of saliva dripping from the corner of your lips and it drips slowly down your chin. Your mouth was heavy - wet and warm and inviting. You were determined to make him cum and he was determined to do just that.Â
Jungkookâs hand grips your hair - you moan at the sensation. He pumps just a little faster, your slurps and gagging hitting his ears and he moans at just how filthy you were for him.Â
âIâm about to cum.â Jungkook groans. His free hand wipes away a lone tear that releases from your eye. âYou okay?â he asks, slowing his thrusts.
Your response was to bring him deeper into your mouth, blinking up at him. You slap his thigh harshly and that was all the permission he needed to fuck your throat. He shudders, feeling his toes curl. It didnât help that your teary eyes watched his every move - and Jungkook couldnât take his eyes off of you. Even now while he took control, you remain just as stubborn; challenging him. âF-FuckâŚâ Jungkook grunts. âW-Where do I cum?â
Jungkook wants to slap himself, forgetting that you canât exactly respond to him. But heâs unsure if cumming inside of your mouth would be too intimate - but then again, you could always spit it out and he would be fine with that.Â
You gag, feeling your throat swell with the warm, salty substance. You inhale through your nose and moan. âL-Let me find-â Jungkook watches as you swallow and lick your lips - he feels his cheeks redden and his heart thump.
You wipe your eyes of the pathetic tears and hum. âDonât get big headed.â you hiss.
Jungkook smirks and bats his eyelashes. âNever.â he says. âI already made you a profile on my hulu account.â
You watch as Jungkook takes out his phone to show you the account and like state, he did make you your own profile. You snort at the name - stargirl. âIâll text you the information to get into it.â
You place your hands onto his thighs. Your eyes lower to his cock - it wasnât completely erect, but it wasnât softening, either.Â
âI was told I would get peacock and hbo max.â you say to him. You didnât want to tell him that you were wet and wanted to ride him, his head was already big enough.Â
âI have hbo max as an add on with hulu.â Jungkook responds, eyes darkening at the thought of feeling you.Â
âHm. Thatâs too bad.â you tilt your head. âI wanted to ride you.â
âI can add disney.â Jungkook responds far too quickly, mentally cursing at how desperate he appeared.
Smirking, you nod your head. âDeal.â
Jungkookâs eyes are wide when you lift from your knees and kick off your shorts, panties flying with them. Heâs erect once more at the sight of your slick trailing down your thighs. Your thighs trap him beneath you as you center yourself on him. âIâm not on any birth control.â
Jungkook gulps. His hands place themselves firmly on your hips. âI can pull out.â he nods. âUnless you want another streaming service as payment for me cumming inside of you.â he jokes - unlessâŚ
Jungkook smirks at you and you could only glare. You sit down on him completely and wipe the smirk from his lips. Your hands grip his shoulders as you begin to pound on him. It doesnât take time for the entire sitting room is filled with your moans mixed with Jungkooks as well as skin slapping.
âYou look like youâre enjoying yourself.â Jungkook murmurs, inching closer to capture your lips with his own. You never said anything against kissing is his defense.
You deepen the kiss, grinding against him. âSays the man who hasnât stopped moaning since we started.â
Jungkook chuckles and does just that. His hands trail from your hips, to your thighs and upwards towards your breast. He grips both of your clothed breasts into his palms. âPussy feels so good, I canât help myself.â
You swallow your own moan back. You canât let him know his words turn you on - he would never let you live it down. Itâs bad enough you were fucking him for streaming services.
You shifted yourself, your feet firmly against the couch. You looked into his eyes as you began to bounce on him once more, satisfied that the man below you was a moaning mess - and broke eye contact first. His eyes begin to roll at the new found pleasure.
You decided that you wouldnât hide your own pleasure anymore. Jungkook was big and this position only meant that his cock was hitting the right spot each time.Â
âI know it feels good, baby.â Jungkookâs voice brings you back to reality - and so does his thumb upon your clit. His thumb rubs hastily on it, enjoying the way your pussy tightens around his cock.
âIt does.â Maybe you were growing weak - but only because it did feel good. That, and the way Jungkookâs voice grows deeper and more sultry as he speaks is an added turn on.Â
âWhat happened to the playing hard to get girl I know?â Jungkookâs now thrusting upwards inside of you to meet you halfway.
You clench around him. âFuck you.â you murmur.
âI intend to.â Jungkook manages to laugh, his thumb leaving your clit to hook beneath your thighs. He continues where you left off, stamina unmatched. He pounds into you with such need - as if this was what he had been waiting for for who knows how long.
Your arms wrap around his neck and allow him the control - just this once. Jungkookâs reveling in your submission, murmuring dirty words in your ears as he fucks you. You were so wet - slick gripping out of you and onto his thighs - that he knew neither of you would last long.
You bite your lip when you feel Jungkookâs hands on your ass. He squeezes it with such need, moaning beautifully in your ears as his thrusts turn sloppy. âWhere do I cum?â he asks suddenly.
âAnywhere.â was your response.
Jungkook took your lack of direction as a sign. His fingers lean down from your ass to find your clit once more. He toys with it as he thrusts, hellbent on making sure you cum right along with him. He wasnât going to last - not with the way you were squeezing his cock right now.
âS-Shit!â you hiss, feeling yourself come undone right as Jungkook pulls out of you, cum leaking on your ass.
Jungkook leans against the couch and pants. There was no way he was going to leave you alone after this - but thatâs okay because he knows youâll close up once more and play that game youâve been playing. Jungkook loved the chase and deep down, so do you.
fate - park sunghoon [complete]
![Fate - Park Sunghoon [complete]](https://64.media.tumblr.com/9eee822d59382bc945bbd8297888f614/be4da01b9966c856-37/s500x750/3214402555b38bf83f38836f56b592350cbba502.jpg)
synopsis. managing to hide your secret for the last five years, you had gotten used to lying through your teeth about what you really were. but as you stood in your kitchen at two am, lips stained red and eyes locked with sunghoonâs, your words failed you. how were you going to get yourself out of this one?
pairing. sunghoon x female reader
genre. social media au, fluff, comedy, smut, angst a lil (not much i promise), this is going to be a silly smau lots of dumb loser nerd hoon in this one hehe
characters. enhypen, zhanghao, hanbin and jiwoong of zb1
warnings. this is a supernatural smau, depictions of vampires will be my interpretation and may be different to yours, lots of swearing, mentions of blood and death, smut eventually
start date. 26/07/23
end date. 06/09/23
taglist. CLOSED
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profiles and info.
part one - sunoo favouritism.
part two - his ass is not studying.
part three - why's he kinda...
part four - intimidating vampire talk.
part five - touch some grass.
part six - so heeseung has a chance?
part seven - playing hard to get.
part eight - you're beyond help.
part nine - I can fix her.
part ten - hey tayo.
part eleven - I just be lying sometimes.
part twelve - eat rocks.
part thirteen - wishing taerae a speedy recovery.
part fourteen - hard to love.
part fifteen - block him or whatever.
part sixteen - elon take him down.
part seventeen - bro you're kinda fine bro.
part eighteen - thirst trapping on main.
part nineteen - reassurance.
part twenty - chaconne, the national anthem.
part twenty one - that should be me.
part twenty two - meet me outside.
part twenty three - oomf's and moots.
part twenty four - one like and I'll bite him.
part twenty five - father status revoked.
part twenty six - we have space at home.
part twenty seven - proud of you.
part twenty eight - whenever you're ready.
part twenty nine - sweetheart.
part thirty - I'm yours.
part thirty one - all out of braincells.
part thirty two - I would absolutely body minjae's lines.
part thirty three - past your bed time buddy.
part thirty four - you were me once.
part thirty five - gEt OvEr It.
part thirty six - good girl.
part thirty seven - such a bad boyfriend.
part thirty eight - not now hanbin I'm mourning.
part thirty nine - let him cook.
bonus part - down bad.
part forty - ride or die.
raspberry leaves


pairing: poly!geto suguru x fem!reader x gojo satoru [jjk au]
warnings: jjk au! geto doesn't defect and everything is happy :)) cursing, periods, severe cramps, painkillers and mentions of taking more than you're supposed to (three instead of two), lots of talk of pain, mentions of vomiting, passing out, panic, mentions of death, mentions of burning yourself, probably ooc megumi but he's a kid here (probably gojo too but I can't not write him soft), family au!, megumi tsumiki and the twins are here!, probably taking liberties on how gojo's technique works but oops, this is for the girlies with severe period symptoms :'), major hurt/comfort
word count: 12.5k
a/n: drops this and yells "scatter!" and disappears back into seclusion. I did not proofread this :)

Gojo Satoru has never woken up so terrified in his life.Â
Itâs a horrifying thing; to wake up lurching from your sheets as the love of your life cries out in panic just a few hours past midnight. For a moment, Satoru thinks heâs dying â or that he should be â because as he rips his sheets away from his legs, racing to his feet with his pulse already roaring in his eardrums, he turns to find Geto Suguru crumbling to his knees. The dark-haired man is the one who shouted, his hands fumbling to grasp another figure, their body limp and hanging useless in Suguruâs arms.
Itâs your frame, clutched tight in Suguruâs big hands, that steals the breath from Satoruâs lungs. Ripping any semblance of oxygen right from his chest, the Six Eyes user is left stumbling on his feet to reach his spouses as they crumble to the floor â you limp in Suguruâs grip as you fall unconscious.Â
Suguru shouts, a desperate cry of your name as he finally sinks to the bathroom floor, urgently scrambling to cradle your weight against him and support your figure. When heâs settled on the ground, a hand carefully cradling your face, Suguru looks up at Satoru, panic in his features and his heart in his throat. For a tense second, neither man speaks, too terrified to properly ascertain the situation. Then, Satoru chokes out a desperate question as he stumbles into the doorframe, clutching the wood until he swears it could splinter beneath his hands.Â
âWhat happened?âÂ

But letâs rewind a moment, shall we?Â
It starts two hours after midnight â well, it starts long before that, but itâs that moment you finally decide to pull yourself from the sheets and stumble into the bathroom. That moment, the one of shortened breaths and a weak whimper, is the one to incite the inferno that will wake Gojo Satoru in an hour or so.Â
Youâve been awake for hours. Sleep was a stubborn thing; an obstinate, pig-headed bastard that wouldnât allow you the mercy of relief even hours after youâve been awake clutching your stomach and trying desperately not to cry.Â
Itâs agony. Beginning in your left side and rippling through the entirety of your stomach and down your legs, the cramping sensation seizes you with another tight fist and squeezes. Itâs agony, and itâs been keeping you awake for hours.Â
Your period is merciless.Â
Youâve always had terrible cramps. That was a notion you had grown used to when you were young. Painkillers could only do so much, and you hated to have to take as many as you did just to function near normally. The first day of shark week was always terrible, but this? This was pure agony, and you were nearing your breaking point.Â
It festered for hours in your stomach, sending cramps through your form in catastrophic waves and pushing against your belly until you thought you were truly going to die. The urge to use the restroom is horrible, but each time you drag yourself to the ensuite bathroom, you sit there as another wave of agony nearly pulls you to your knees. Youâre sweaty and tired, figure quivering as another rippling cramp seizes your legs, and youâve never wanted anything more than the sweet relief of slumber.Â
Nothing seems to help.Â
A hot water bottle is pressed against your stomach, the liquid inside near boiling as you clutch it against your bare skin â a bad idea, you know, but the sensation of the burn is nowhere near as terrible as the cramps. Youâve downed three painkillers a few hours ago, probably another bad idea, but youâre desperate now.Â
You donât want to wake Suguru or Satoru. Itâs a Sunday night, and you know they both have work early tomorrow morning. They have to get the kids to school too. The four of your children always pile into one of your husbandâs nice cars just a few hours past dawn. The kids get dropped off at primary school on their way to work, since itâs just around the corner from Jujutsu High.Â
You canât tear their few precious hours of sleep away from them.Â
Not for this.Â
Thereâs nothing they can do â nothing you can do but sit and try to ride out the waves of crippling agony until they finally stop.Â
Youâve done this before. These cramps arenât new. You can deal with them on your own.Â
Canât you?
But as you repress a broken sob, pulling yourself away from the silk of your sheets and into the bathroom once more, youâre not quite sure.Â
When you reach the ensuite bathroom, another cramp surges through you and the tears youâve been desperately withholding finally burst forth. Pressing your weight into the wall as the door slides shut, you click the lock and finally allow yourself to crumple. Your head pushes into your knees as you sob, trying to keep your cries quiet and muffled against your hand as the other clutches the hot water bottle against the throb of your stomach.Â
Youâre tired. Youâre tired and youâre in so much pain that your fingers tremble and your legs shake. Itâs awful, and you just want to sleep.Â
But your uterus must hate you, because your stomach lurches and you scramble to lean over the toilet as you dry heave. Youâve never vomited on your period, but it sure does feel like you will.Â
Your skin itches. From the sweat or the general grime, you donât know, but you hate it. Your chest shakes with another sob and your fists squeeze tight as you whine out a horrible sound of agony. Itâs too much and you wish it would just stop. Leaning back against the wall, you sigh out a choked sound as you curl into yourself.Â
âStop,â you whine brokenly, too defeated to even understand who youâre pleading to. âPlease stop.âÂ
Geto Suguru wakes up a few moments later.Â
He doesnât know what pulls him from slumber at first. His brow furrows as consciousness returns, a deep breath leaving his nose as he sighs and takes in the feeling of body weight pressed into his chest. Itâs a muscular figure, long and tall, so it must be Satoru. Heâs pressed into Suguruâs stomach, body curled small in a near comical way as he attempts to tuck himself beneath Suguruâs chin. The long-haired man nearly huffs a chuckle as he pries open his tired eyes to see his partner.Â
Suguru runs a loving hand over the mess of pale white strands that fall into Satoruâs eyes, his lips quirking upwards softly as he smiles. Satoru nuzzles closer in his sleep, letting out a happy sigh as Suguru runs his nails through the otherâs undercut. Then Suguru shifts, turning over his shoulder slowly to find you as his hand reaches out to pull you closer.
But youâre not there.Â
Suguru startles. Jolting silently as his heart skips a frightened beat, the sorcererâs eyes rip open as they dilate. His hand finds an empty bed, the sheets cold and the imprint of your figure long lost. Suguru carefully untangles himself from his loverâs long limbs, his long, dark hair falling into his eyes as he sits upright.Â
âBaby?â his deep, tired voice rumbles in question. Where are you? He nearly asks, heart pounding in his chest. Are the kids okay?Â
Suguru knew it was weird you had chosen to sleep on the edge of the bed tonight. Youâre usually more than happy to bury yourself in between them, cuddling close and nuzzling into their chests as you try to pull yourself even tighter into their embrace.Â
But last night, you gently pushed Suguru into your place, offering him a wave of your hand and a lame excuse as to why you wanted to sleep on the outside. Something about not wanting to sleep yet, he remembers.Â
He waits a moment, hoping youâve just gotten up to use the restroom and youâll return to them soon. The sound of Satoruâs quiet breaths echo through the space, and has to fill the long seconds by tracing his fingers over his loverâs back. Tracing gentle lines over the defined muscles, Suguru sighs softly and tries to calm his racing pulse.Â
A minute passes. Then another. And one more â until Suguru isnât sure how long heâs been waiting.Â
Then Suguru cannot resist the swell of panic that ripples through his stomach.Â
His heart lurches in his chest as he swings his legs over the side of the bed, too panicked to offer Satoru more than a hushed sound and a stroke over his back when he tiredly mumbles in protest.Â
ââM just gettinâ up for a sec,ââ he mumbles quietly, swallowing back the lump in his throat when he sees the light in the bathroom on. âIâll be back, love.âÂ
Satoru grumbles something else, but is soothed when Suguru presses a gentle kiss to his brow.Â
âMâkay,â Satoru sighs, easily falling back asleep as he snuggles into the warmth Suguru left behind on the bed. If he wasnât so worried, Suguru would smile, his heart clenching tight in his chest as he watches Satoru curl into his spot with a soft sound.Â
When Suguru stands, adjusting his sweats as he quietly makes his way to the bathroom, he pulls his hair from his eyes. Brushing the strands over his bare shoulder, he sighs as he fiddles for a hair tie in his pocket. He doesn't find one, so he simply pushes the dark strands back from his brow, letting them fall behind him and settle against his bare back.Â
Youâve always liked it when his hair is loose anyway.Â
Suguru knocks on the bathroom door first. Itâs quiet, but you should be able to hear it. When you donât respond, Suguru frowns and tries again. Knocking gently once more, he swallows as another wave of panic curls in his stomach.Â
âSweetheart?â he tries quietly, voice still rumbling deeply from the slumber he was pulled from. âYouâve been in there a while, honey. Are you alright?âÂ
Still, you donât respond.Â
You want to. Of course you want to. Itâs Suguru, and you donât want to worry him.Â
But the waves of agonizing cramps have stolen your voice. All you can do is sit still and breathe. You feel utterly useless. Thereâs nothing you can do but control the slow pace of your breaths in a desperate attempt to distract yourself from the crippling sensation radiating from your stomach.Â
You want to respond â tell him youâre alright, tell him something, but the agony seals your lips shut. Itâs horrible and another wave of tears spill from your tired eyes. You hate it. You wish you would stop crying; itâs not helping and it only makes you feel weak.Â
âBaby? Iâm gettinâ worried.âÂ
All you can manage is a sad, weak sound in response. It leaves your lips in more a sob than a hum, and you muffle the tears that shiver through you after.Â
âHoney!â Suguru murmurs worriedly, trying to twist the handle of the door, only to curse when he discovers itâs locked. âWhatâs going on? Are you okay?âÂ
He shifts on his feet, lifting a hand to pull on the strands on his hair to soothe some of his panic. The sound you manage in response is another broken hum, and it only worsens the thundering pulse of Suguruâs heart. His gut twists as he tries the knob again, as if a few seconds will have changed the status of the lock.Â
You whine and Suguru swears his heart cracks. His head presses against the door as his eyes squeeze shut, fist still closed around the handle.Â
âCan you open the door fâme, sweetheart?â he murmurs desperately. ââM really worried about you.âÂ
Your eyes close, the watery burn rendering them useless as you sniffle. You huff around another breath of pain, pushing your head further into your knees. Trembling softly as your skin flushes, you battle against the waves of agony and the flash of heat that makes you feel sickly. Another wave of nausea ripples in your gut, and you remember how awful you must look.Â
Your hair is plastered against your head and your neck and you must look a mess. Wearing a pair of oversized sweats and one of Suguruâs shirts, you feel utterly gross. More than anything you want to open the door and let Suguru take you in his arms. Cuddling into his firm chest and feeling his big arms wrap around you would probably feel nice, but youâre all too aware of how sickly you must look.Â
You donât want him to see you like this: sweaty, messy and sick as you curl in on yourself as you weep through another terrible cramp. You just want to sleep â you want it to stop, everything needs to stop.Â
Suguru hums out another question, but you donât really hear it. Itâs not until you hear the lilt of panic in his voice and his voice fiddling with the handle of the door do you manage to find your voice.Â
âSuguâŚâÂ
He startles. Head darting up to the door in front of him, Suguru breathes a sigh of relief and chokes out your name.Â
âOpen the door, darling,â he whispers softly. âPleaseâŚâÂ
You shake your head even though you know he canât see it. Frowning as you sniffle, you lick your lips to taste salt and the disgusting hint of snot. Youâre a mess, and you donât want him to see you.Â
âNo, Sugu,â you manage to mutter, head knocking back to rest against the wall as you continue to focus on breathing through your mouth. You visibly shiver through another cramp, this time seizing and whining as it echoes through your legs.Â
Suguru bites down on his lip, feeling another sliver of his heart crack at the broken sound of your voice. It pains him, your defeated sigh. He desperately wants to comfort you, to bring you into his chest and kiss your tears away. His hands ache to touch your skin, to feel the warmth he knows by heart. Closing his eyes as he rests his forehead against the wood of the door, Suguru sighs and swallows as he speaks again.Â
âWhy not?â he murmurs worriedly, voice clipping words from fatigue pulling at his figure. âI need tâknow youâre alright, my love.âÂ
âDonât wanâ you tâsee me.â
Suguruâs head tilts and the lump in his throat swells. Heart clenching sadly, one of his hands lifts to rest on the door, as if he can reach you on the other side if he tries hard enough. He knows he can get through this door if he really wanted. It would be too easy for him to splinter the frame with his strength alone, and he has more than one curse at his disposal that could pick a lock smoothly.Â
Itâs the sound of your voice that holds him back.Â
Youâre so⌠tired. Youâre broken whisper echoes through the wooden door with a sad coo, and it makes Suguruâs chest ache.Â
âMy sweet girlâŚâ Suguru whispers, fingers trailing across the wood like theyâre desperate to stroke across your cheek. âWhy donât you want me to see you?âÂ
You frustratedly sigh, cursing the tears that continue to track down your cheeks. No matter what you do, they keep dripping over your skin in tiny rivulets, staining your face with tracks of dried salt. You wipe them away but theyâre quickly replaced by another stream.Â
You just want to sleep.Â
âI donât feel good, Sugu,â you sigh tiredly, voice quivering around tears. Itâs pathetic â how watery you sound. You wish you were stronger. âI look bad and I donât want wanâ tâkeep you anâ Toru awake.âÂ
You donât feel good? He nearly questions. Why didnât you wake me?Â
But all he does is sigh softly, fists clenching against the door. For a moment he contemplates waking Satoru, knowing you probably wonât be able to resist them both. Though, when he turns over his shoulder, Suguru sees the bags beneath his loverâs eyes and the tired slump of his form in their sheets.Â
Satoru needs his sleep. Itâs difficult enough for him to find slumber when the Six Eyes strains him dry.Â
Suguru lets him rest.Â
He murmurs your name again, his eyes closing as he continues to rest against the door.Â
âIâm in love with you, you know?â Suguru sighs sweetly, his lips lifting slightly to reveal a fond smile. âYou could never âlook badâ to me, my darling.âÂ
Shifting on his feet and looking up at the ceiling, his shoulders sag as he worries. What if you donât open the door? Heâs considering settling on the floor with his back against the door when he whispers again.Â
âAnd you donât need tâworry about keepinâ me awake, alright? I want you tâcome to me when youâre not feeling good.âÂ
He pauses once, dropping his hand from the knob as he breathes.Â
âI worry about you, honey,â he finishes. âI just need to know youâre okay.âÂ
You sniffle, feeling the cramp finally seep away to nothing. Theyâre not over, you can feel another wave rising from beneath the last, but at least they offer you a single moment to reach up and twist the lock.Â
Itâs too much for you to handle alone.Â
You want to bury yourself in Suguruâs strong arms and weep as the pain shivers through you. If thereâs nothing you can do to soothe the agony, then at least you wonât be alone.Â
âOkay.â
Suguru hears the lock click.Â
Gasping softly, he pulls himself upright and reaches down to grip the handle of the door with a skip of his heart. He was pondering waiting outside the door in the fading light of the moon when you whispered the tired word. His chest aches when he twists the knob, pulling the door open to reveal your figure.
Youâre curled on the floor, calves crossed and legs pulled into your chest as you bury your head into your knees. Your arms wrap around yourself, one hand clutching the hot water bottle pressed tightly to your stomach.Â
Suguru frowns, his heart thumping sadly as you weep out another broken sound. His entire body aches in a way he cannot describe, physically pained at the choked sounds of agony leaving your lips. Heâs already on his knees at your side when you lift your head, looking up at him through your tears and your lip quivering in a way he knows you cannot control.Â
Heâs never seen you look so hurt.Â
âOh, sweetheartâŚâ he coos quietly, putting the pieces together as you shiver through another wave of crippling cramps, hand squeezing tight around your leg â your period. âYouâre not alright.âÂ
âNo,â you weep, shaking your head with watery eyes leaking salty droplets down your cheeks, and you suck in a shaking breath as your fists clench. Your brow furrows as your eyelids squeeze shut, unable to mask the pain as it ripples through you. Suguruâs face softens into an expression of pain, frowning sadly. You have a high pain tolerance for your period cramps â he knows that. Youâve had painful periods your whole life, and he and Satoru have seen you conceal the agony in your features for years.Â
This is a knife to his heart.Â
You canât conceal the sweat on your brow, nor the tremble of your fingers and the painful gasp of breath you suck in when the pain returns tenfold.Â
âIt hurts, SuguâŚâÂ
âI know, Iâm sorry,â he whispers sadly, desperately wishing thereâs something he can do to stall the agony. âCâmere, honey.â
Suguruâs mouth twists into an expression of pain, and he carefully wraps an arm around your shoulders. Pulling you away from the wall, the dark-haired man maneuvers you into his chest as he sits onto the floor. You twist into his embrace, wrapping your arms around his frame as you weep softly into his bare chest, caring little for the tears that stain his skin. Suguru could care less. Heâs far too worried about the expression plastered onto your features and the shiver that trembles through you.Â
âHow long have you been up?â he whispers as he cradles you in his lap, hand stroking over your hair and strong arm wrapping around you.Â
You shake your head and Suguruâs frown deepens â if itâs even possible.Â
âHavenât slept yet.âÂ
Suguruâs hair falls into his eyes as he leans down to press a gentle kiss between your brows. He stays there, breathing through his noses as he continues to lay tiny kisses to your forehead. His eyes screw shut, hand stroking over your cheek as you bury yourself deeper into his embrace.Â
Your skin is warm, flushed with heat and your hair sticks to your forehead in a way Suguru knows must make you feel sickly. He carefully strokes the strands away and kisses the skin beneath with a soft sigh.Â
âHave you been awake all night?â he finally whispers, voice deep and quietly sad. âWith cramps like this?â
You nod into his chest, wincing again and closing your eyes as you sob through another agonizing cramp. Your legs shake as you tuck them into yourself together, trying desperately to push the hot water bottle deeper into your skin.Â
âOh, babyâŚâ he sighs, leaning back to rest against the wall and pull you back into him. He strokes another hand across your face, thumbing the space between your brows when he sees the way theyâre scrunched. âWhy didnât you wake me?âÂ
You sigh and breathe a few times to steady yourself, slowly loosening your fists when Suguru pries your fingers open to intertwine his own around yours. He pulls your hands into his chest, tucking them by his heart so you can feel the pulse of his heart. He hopes you donât notice how quick itâs beating. Heâs still worried. Suguru cannot help the way his heart lurches when you wince. As if each throb of agony is his own, Suguru buries his face closer to your own, clutching onto your hand and not faltering when you tighten your grip to counter the waves of pain echoing through you.Â
âYouâve got work in the morning,â you pant quietly, voice still watery and weak. âAnd you anâ Toru gottaâ take the kids.âÂ
âHoneyâŚâ he sighs sweetly. âYouâre in pain⌠I want you tâwake me if youâre in pain, sweetheart. No amount of sleep could soothe me if youâre hurt and alone.âÂ
You manage a hum in response, face still screwed shut and Suguru frowns when you muffle another sob as a cramp seizes you once more.Â
âOkay, baby⌠Okay,â he whispers, rocking you into him a little in an attempt to distract you. Now is not the time for a lecture, he supposes.âYouâre alright, darling. Youâre gonna be alright.âÂ
He hates the sound of your tears.Â
When you shudder through another agonizing sound, Suguruâs face crumples. Heâs never felt so useless. Youâre in agony, and he can do nothing to fix it.Â
âYou took your painkillers?âÂ
You nod again, weeping into his chest and squeezing his hand tight.Â
âThree,â you mumble tiredly, focusing on the feeling of Suguruâs warm, bare chest pressed against your skin. Itâs grounding and you donât want to move. âThey arenât working.â
âHow long ago?âÂ
He doesn't want to pester you with questions, but heâs desperately pulling at strings, hoping one will grant him the solution to your pain.Â
âMidnight,â you manage. You wince again, and Suguru peppers kisses along your hairline, gently hushing you. You curl tighter into yourself, desperately huffing as the pain continues to swell higher. It feels like it will break at any moment, but it just⌠doesnât. The agony continues to rise, as if there is no limit to its torment. The cramping sensation just comes back again and again, until youâre sure that thereâs something wrong. How can a period be so painful?Â
âIt hurts so bad, Sugu,â you cry, reaching the end of your tether. Youâre desperate for the ache to stop, but it feels like thereâs no point of end in sight. âI just want it to stopâŚâÂ
Suguru feels his stomach twist, heart crying out in a pattern of your name. He pulls you tighter, a wave of his own tears swelling behind his eyes. Your cries chip at his heart, pieces of his soul falling apart in your agony. He wishes he could do something â use some kind of technique to null the pain, to soothe you, anything.Â
âI know, honey,â he soothes, cradling you closer and rubbing his finger over your cheek as he murmurs into your hairline. âIâm sorry I canât do anything more. Iâm sorry I canât take this from you.âÂ
You shake your head, clutching him tight as you attempt to focus on your breaths again. Hand wrapped tightly around his own, you try to use his touch as a grounding sensation. Eventually, the lulling motion of his finger over your cheek and his lips at your hairline soothe some of the tension beneath your skin. You relax into his touch despite the continuous waves of cramps still panging through your stomach.Â
âJust stay,â you weep, lifting your other hand from your stomach to clutch behind Suguruâs head. You hold onto his neck, burying your fingers in his soft hair and desperately inhale his familiar scent. Suguru is familiar â heâs safe. âPleaseâŚâ
You donât have to worry about anything as long as Suguru and Satoru are around.Â
âAlways, sweetheart,â he whispers against you, dropping the hand at your cheek to press your hot water bottle into your stomach for you. âAlways. You donât have tâask.âÂ
 His large hand keeps your bottle in place, spreading across your stomach and rubbing soothing circles into your waist with his thumb. His hand is big enough to settle on your stomach and the fabric of your hot water bottle.Â
Suguru hates this. He hates seeing you in pain. He hates that all he can do is sit and press delicate kisses to your hairline as you writhe in agony. It physically pains him to be unable to help â to have to watch as one of the loves of his life suffers.Â
Suguru buries his nose into your hair and kisses you once more, whispering sweet words of encouragement and humming in an attempt to distract you. He loves you so much, and he hopes you know that.Â
âYouâre doing so well, my darling.â Â
Eventually, the wave passes, and you limply release your intense grip on his fingers and relax into his hold. Itâs a slow process. Finally succumbing to some brief glimpse of exhaustion, you slip loosely into Suguruâs hold and trust him to catch you. There will be another cramp soon, but at least this one is over. You breathe out a sigh and look up at Suguru with tears on your lashes.Â
Strands of his dark hair fall into his eyes, and Suguru has never looked more beautiful to you. Sitting on the bathroom floor with you three hours past midnight, no shirt and a loose pair of sweats on his hips (ones heâs not sure are his own), and Suguru has never looked so endearing. The way he looks down at you, bangs dangling in front of his dark eyes and full lips leaning down to kiss your face gently; heâs princely.Â
Your heart finally slows to an acceptable pace as Suguru leans down, and you close your eyes as he lays a soft kiss to one of your eyelids. His full lips peck sweetly against one, then he leans away to kiss the other. Your eyes well with tears again, but this time you think theyâre for a different reason.Â
âHi,â he whispers sweetly, lips lifting to show you that tiny smile of his that makes your heart do funny things. Youâre too tired to offer much more than a sigh and a quirk of your lips, but Suguru is grateful for the expression all the same.Â
âHi, Sugu.âÂ
âAre you feeling any better?âÂ
You shake your head, sighing quietly as you shift.
âNot really.â
Suguru frowns again, and youâre tempted to lift your thumbs to pull his lips upwards again. Suguru looks so much prettier when he smiles.Â
âIâm sorry, honey,â he whispers. âDo you wanna get off the floor, at least? The bedâs much more comfortable and Toruâs gonna start worrying soon.â
You figure now is the best time to try moving, so you nod. Thereâs probably only a few minutes between these waves of terrible cramps, so youâll take the moment you have to get back into bed.Â
âMâkay,â you sigh tiredly. Suguru's expression softens for a reason you donât understand, but the sorcerer fondly smiles as he thinks of the same sound Satoru had made just minutes before.Â
âAlright, love. Letâs get you up, alright?â
You nod again, allowing Suguru to unwind his limbs from yours. He softly chuckles when you whine as his fingers unlace from your own, but readjusts his grip to carefully pull you to stand. He holds his other hand out, tenderly helping you stand.Â
âCarefulâŚâ he whispers. âGo slow, baby.âÂ
Your head spins as you stand and you lift a hand to press against your temple. The rolling tide of nausea in your stomach had quelled for the time being, but the tremble of your legs is still too apparent. You step forward shakily, reaching out to grasp Suguruâs outstretched hand with a grateful smile. He returns the look with soft eyes and nods sweetly as he allows you to step out of the bathroom first.Â
When heâs certain you can stand on your own, Suguru turns over his shoulder to turn off the bathroom light and shut the door.Â
But he only gets so far.Â
Suddenly, you inhale sharply. Freezing in place, your body curls inwards on itself as a blinding swell of cramps overtakes your form. This one is sharp and crippling, radiating down your legs until even your calves feel weak. Your body is suddenly too hot, and the air is far too cold. Shivers trickle down your spine and you feel that all too familiar bolt of stifling panic strike through your chest. It runs through the entirety of your figure, sizzling beneath your skin and striking each nerve it passes. You feel that terrible curl of your stomach and the waves of oncoming panic filter through you.
You sway on your feet.Â
Somethingâs wrong. And itâs making you panic.Â
You open your mouth, lip quivering as you attempt to croak out a plea of Suguruâs name, but nothing comes. Some tired, broken whine leaves your lips instead â a desperate cry for help, for Suguru.
When Suguru turns around, head whipping over his shoulder sharply, he expects to see you headed towards his side of the bed. Instead, heâs met with your body swaying slightly as you pant and shiver. Suguru thinks his heart stops.Â
Then your body stills, and you crumple.Â
âBaby!âÂ
Suguru throws himself forward, just managing to grab your figure as it goes limp. He sways, shifting your weight into his arms and panicking as you continue to sink into the floor. Your body is dead weight in his hands, still shivering but cold and unmoving.Â
Heâs going to be sick.Â
His stomach curls as bile spills onto the back of his tongue, and Suguru can hear his heart pound in his ears. The lump is back in his throat, swelling until he can barely suck in a desperate breath to calm his panicked heart. Fuck, heâs never been so scared.Â
âBaby, oh fuck!â he cries, voice no longer quiet and delicate. Suguru openly shouts, desperately trying to carefully maneuver you to the floor, but his mind is screaming thousands of things at him at once. All he can hear is the roaring in his eardrums. His eyes scan over your limp figure and Suguru swears his heart cracks. He can feel it; deep within his chest, a splinter finally cleaves open.Â
âOh my god, okay,â Suguru chokes out, carefully cradling you as he sinks to his knees. âYouâre alright, okay? Iâve got you, honey.â
He doesnât know what to do. His heart is pounding and his soul is openly weeping. There are tears welling in his eyes and dragging down the pristine skin of his cheeks.Â
Suguru doesn't know what to do.Â
âOkay,â he whispers frightfully. âOkayâŚâ
Youâre laying on your back, facing the ceiling, and the way your blank expression stares back at him makes him nauseous.Â
âSweetheart?â he calls carefully, brushing a hand over your cheek to push hair away from your face. âBaby, câmonâŚâÂ
You donât respond. Thereâs not even a twitch in your brow or a flick of your fingers. Youâre unconscious. Suguruâs heart accelerates again, pounding until he thinks it might burst from his bony rib cage. He turns over his shoulder with a broken cry, calling for the one person he so urgently needs.Â
âSatoru!âÂ
His voice is panicked, shouted with a guttural cry and he thinks it might echo through the house, but Suguru vaguely hopes he doesn't wake the kids.Â
âSatoru, wake up!â
But Satoru is already awake.Â
Lurching forward in the bed, the Six Eyes user is already throwing the sheets away from his legs as he scans the room. His technique is activated, and Suguru can feel the familiar curtain of Infinity wrap around his body.Â
âSuguru?â Satoru calls as he stands, his body tense and prepared to fight. âWhat happened? Are you alright?âÂ
Suguru doesnât have the chance to respond, because Satoru steps forward and his crystalline eyes find his loverâs hunched figure crouched in the doorway of the bathroom, bent over the body of their wife. Youâre limp on the floor, hair sprawled out beneath you as Suguru cradles your head and glances up at his partner with desperate, fearful eyes.Â
Satoru thinks heâs dying.Â
Itâs the only possible explanation for the lack of oxygen in his lungs and the stuttered pulse of his heart. His legs wane at his knees, nearly propelling him into the floor, but Satoru manages to keep himself upright as he throws his hands forward to brace himself on the bathroom doorway.Â
âWhatâŚ?â Satoru whispers breathily, voice uncharacteristically quiet â uncharacteristically weak. âWhat happened?âÂ
His Six Eyes are activated, flickering over every crevice of your form. Theyâre urgent, desperate to find the source of your pain. When they find nothing, Satoru swallows back a sound of desperation.Â
âShe passed out,â Suguru whispers plainly, panic evident in the quiver of his voice. âShe started her period early, Toru. Sheâs in so much painâŚâ
Satoru feels his knees wane again. His heart canât take much more of this. Sheâs in pain? His soul cries.Â
âSheâs been laying on the bathroom floor crying,â his lover mumbles, stroking a hand over your cheekbone as a tear drips into his mouth. âI shouldnât have asked her tâget up â she was weak and I didnât think ââ
âSuguru.âÂ
The dark-haired sorcerer stops. Lifting his head to stare up at Satoru, Suguru frowns.Â
âThis isnât your fault, Suguru,â Satoru whispers, trying desperately to keep himself calm. His heart is in his throat and his pulse roars, but he cannot allow himself to weaken. Suguru needs him â you need him.Â
âSheâs not waking upâŚâ
Satoru sucks in a breath, his hands curling into the doorframe and gripping the wood until he thinks it will splinter beneath his grip. And it might. Satoru has to be mindful of the strength he uses.Â
âSheâs not waking up.â The phrase echoes through his head until itâs the only thing he can process. Youâre not waking up. His wife isnât waking up.Â
âIs sheâŚâ Satoru doesn't even know if he can say what he wants to know â what he needs to know. The words make him ill. âIs she breathing?âÂ
Suguru chokes out a desperate sound. He hadnât even consideredâŚ
And he doesn't want to.Â
His hand seizes one of yours, wrapping tightly around your fingers as he pulls it into his chest as he did before. He pleads for you to wake up and feel his heart pulse against your fingers again, just as you had minutes ago. He delicately thumbs over your pulse point, hand sliding down your neck where he cradles your cheek.Â
Suguru openly weeps when the thumping beat of your heart races beneath his fingers in greeting.Â
âYeahâŚâ he sobs out weakly, pushing his forehead into your chest. âYeah, sheâs breathing.âÂ
Satoru sags in relief.
âOkay,â he covers his mouth with one of his palms, trying to suppress the broken sound that nearly leaves him. âOkay, thatâs good.âÂ
Before either man can ascertain what to do, there's rustling at the doorway. Itâs a quiet sound, just a soft coo and the creak of the door as it slides open. Satoruâs head whips around, his fingers twitching to activate his technique when he falters.Â
Because seven year old Fushiguro Megumi stands in the doorway: his son.Â
Megumiâs clutching a plush dog, one that looks remarkably familiar to his Divine Dogs. The soft, dark fur is cradled in his hands as he hugs the stuffed animal to his chest. The plush nearly conceals him entirely, and his dark, spiky hair pokes out over the red mark on the dogâs forehead. Itâs a matching toy â the dark one was a gift from Suguru while the white counterpart came from Satoru. They were presents (custom-made plushies) ordered by his fathers when Megumi successfully summoned his Divine Dogs for the first time.Â
Satoru still whines when Megumi prefers the dark stuffed animal to the white one. But Satoru doesn't know that Megumi snuggles the alabaster-coated dog when heâs gone on long missions. The boy barely goes anywhere without it until his father comes home.Â
âWhatâs goinâ on?â Megumi tiredly mumbles, one of his hands lifting to rub at his eyes as he yawns. His too big shirt, one of Satoruâs shirts from their youth, hangs over his frame and covers his knees. You were the one to tuck your son into bed last night, and Satoru doesnât have the moment to fondly think of his boy asking to wear one of his dadâs shirts to bed.Â
Satoru sucks in a quiet breath, quickly glancing over his shoulder at Suguru. His husband is still on the bathroom floor, bent over your unconscious figure, but he looks up at Satoru with a silent nod. Heâs alright. Youâre alright.Â
Satoru sighs and turns back to Megumi, suddenly glad the ensuite bathroom is hidden from the doorway to their bedroom. He doesn't want Megumi to see his mother unconscious, or his fathersâ panic. He doesnât want Megumi to see him scared. Satoru is his father â he needs to show his son that everything is going to be alright.Â
Swallowing down his tempered fear, Satoru tries to conceal the quiver of his voice when he responds to his son.Â
âItâs ââ Satoru stops. He canât say âitâs nothing.â Because itâs not nothing; and he wonât lie to his son. âItâs alright, Megumi.â
Thatâs what he decides to say instead. Satoru breathes through his nose deeply as he tries not to turn back over his shoulder to check on you again.Â
âMamaâs just having some cramps, sheâll be okay.âÂ
Megumi nods. He knows what Satoru means, because Geto Suguru would be damned before he raised a son that thinks menstruation was âgross.â Megumi doesnât know everything â heâs still a kid, afterall. He does know, however, that his mother is plagued with terrible pain once a month, and that itâs completely natural to talk about it.Â
Megumi toddles on his feet, the fatigue of the early morning hour making him uncharacteristically soft. Heâs usually quite stoic for a kid, exhibiting the same, blank sort of look impassively. But no matter how quiet, you and the boys are well-adept at deciphering your kidâs feelings by now.Â
With sleep tugging at his eyes, Megumi paws at his tired lids and yawns sweetly. Shifting his balance again, the boy looks up at Satoru with a tiny, sweet frown.
âMamaâs hurting?â he pouts, bottom lip sticking out slightly. His fists tighten around his stuffed dog, eyes shifting around Satoru to try to get a glimpse of you. Fortunately, Suguru has already readjusted you in his arms and youâre both hidden in the ensuite bathroom.Â
âYeahâŚâ Satoru coughs to conceal the tremor of his voice. âYeah, Mamaâs hurting a little. But sheâs strong, remember? Sheâll be alright, her cramps will go away soon.âÂ
He doesnât know if his words are an attempt to convince Megumi or himself.Â
 From behind Satoru, Suguru strokes another thumb over your cheekbone. He inhales a shaking breath as he feels the frightful warmth of your skin.Â
âCâmonâŚâ he whispers in the tiny space that separates you. âWake up, sweetheart. Let me see those pretty eyes again.âÂ
Swallowing thickly, Suguruâs throat bobs as a tear begins to leak down his cheek.Â
âPlease.âÂ
Heâs lost. Suguru doesnât know what to do other than count the seconds since youâve gone still in his arms. Each one feels longer than the last, but Suguru continues to count them. He doesnât know why he does it. Perhaps some part of him thinks there is a certain point at which heâll need to call for help. Is there a distinct period of time that has to pass before you need medical attention?Â
Suguru curses himself for not paying enough attention to Shokoâs basic first-aid lessons.Â
Satoruâs head flicks over his shoulder, crystalline-blue eyes finding your face as his heart clenches again. Heâs conflicted. More than anything, he wants to drop to his knees at your side, just as Suguru has. He wants to clutch your remaining hand and feel the pulse of your heart as a reminder that youâre still there â still breathing. His heart hurts; torn between lingering at your side and comforting his son.
But then Satoru remembers the way you look at your kids. He recalls the fond crease of your eyes when you beam down at them, smiles shining and hands drawing them into you for an embrace. You love your kids more than anything, even though youâve only had them for a few years now. Even though theyâre not your biological kids, even though theyâre not babies, and despite not even wanting children before them; theyâre your pride and joy.Â
Satoru finds the strength within him to smile fondly. He knows you would be pushing him in Megumiâs direction if you had any semblance of consciousness right now.Â
Satoru tries not to frown at the reminder of your state.Â
Turning on his feet, Satoru steps away from the door, even as his heart cries out for him to return to your side. The remainder of his heart calls for his son â his boy, who is beginning to worry about his mother. Itâs evident in the way Megumi shifts on his feet, fiddling with the soft fur of his stuffed pup.Â
When Satoru drops to his knees in front of Megumi, he spreads his arms wide in an invitation. He doesnât expect Megumi to accept; he rarely does. Satoru is affectionate, itâs a sentiment clear as day, and Megumi usually prefers to avoid physical touch. Heâs shy that way.Â
So Satoru is fondly surprised when Megumi toddles tiredly on his feet as he leans into his fatherâs embrace. Wrapping his arms tight around his son, Satoru stands from the floor with his heart beginning to return to a normal pace. Having Megumi in his arms is a comfort that soothes some of his rampaging nerves. The knowledge that the rest of his family is safe is a notion that eases some of the tension in his shoulders. Satoru knows he wonât find sleep for the rest of the night if he doesnât peek into the girlâs room later to ensure theyâre sleeping peacefully.Â
âItâs alright, Gumi,â Satoru whispers softly, stroking a hand through the spiky strands of the boyâs hair. Megumi rests his head on Satoruâs shoulder with a sigh. âWhy did you wake up so early, bud?âÂ
Megumi wraps an arm around Satoruâs neck, the other still cradling his pup between them. He closes his eyes and sighs sleepily once more as he mumbles in response.Â
âHeard Dad yell,â he tiredly whispers. He fiddles with a strand of Satoruâs white hair before he sheepishly continues. âI was scaredâŚâ
Satoru tries his hardest not to tease the boy. He knows itâs in his nature to make light of situations with humor, but Satoru also understands that this, perhaps, is not the time. Despite wanting to make Megumi feel better by laughing off the problem, Satoru also remembers the horrible strike of panic that had bolted through him when he heard Suguru yell.Â
Waking up to Suguru crying out for you as you collapsed was horrifying, and Satoru can only imagine how frightening it was for Megumi.Â
âOh Gumi, Iâm sorry,â Satoru whispers, rocking on his feet in an attempt to comfort the boy. Even though Megumi isnât a baby, Satoru cannot help the instinctive sway of his feet as he runs a hand through his hair. âDad didnât mean to shout, pup. He was just worried about Mom.âÂ
Megumi nods softly, snuggling closer to Satoruâs chest in a way that makes the fatherâs heart ache.Â
âCan I⌠Can I help?â Megumi quietly questions, words spoken only for his father to hear. âMom always makes me feel better when Iâm sick.âÂ
Megumi mumbles something else; something that sounds like âdonât wanâ mom tâfeel bad,â but itâs muffled into Satoruâs neck and he barely catches it.Â
Satoru smiles despite the panic still roaring in his chest. The way Megumi calls you âmomâ and Suguru âdadâ has always made him a little emotional. It took more than a year for Megumi to truly grow comfortable in your makeshift family, but eventually the boyâs cautious exterior melted away into what he really was: a kid looking for a home â a family. He was abandoned for Godâs sake, Satoru knows the kid was guarded when he found him. And he had every right to be.Â
But in just a few short years, Megumi has begun to call Tsumiki and the twins his sisters and on rare occasions, heâll call Satoru his father. However, he knows those nights will always end in Satoru smothering him with affections and playful teases so he refrains from doing it often. Satoru does not take offense; he knows Megumi is shy.Â
âYeah, she takes good care of us, huh?â Satoru murmurs fondly as he rubs a hand over his sonâs back.Â
Before Satoru can reassure Megumi further, heâs interrupted when Suguru lets out a relieved sound over his shoulder. Itâs a strange sort of combination of a sob and a gasp, but Satoru hears it all the same.Â
âSweetheartâŚ?â Satoru hears Suguru call, voice brighter but still wavering through the short syllables.Â
Thereâs a muffled sound of shuffling, then a groan and a cough before Suguru is concealing his tears in your neck.Â
Satoru exhales with relief, shoulders sagging as his eyes slide shut. He rubs a hand over Megumiâs back in the hopes the boy doesnât see the fear slowly seeping from his father.Â
Inside the bathroom, Suguru clutches your hand tight to his chest, squeezing it thankfully and burying his face in your neck as he bends over you. Blinking slowly, you huff a choked breath and shakily reach upwards to lay your palm over Suguruâs head. Tangling your fingers in the mess of loose, dark hair you sigh deeply through your mouth. Itâs a relief to feel Suguru bent over you; his weight presses into your chest and grounds you as you come back to consciousness. Though youâre still dizzy and a bit panicked, the feeling is beginning to leech from your limbs like poison from a wound.Â
Waking up was startling, and thereâs a lingering sense of fear buzzing beneath your skin. It frightens you, and you clutch tightly onto Suguru with a tremble. The pain still twists in your stomach, but itâs nothing compared to how you felt before you passed out.Â
âSuguruâŚâÂ
His name comes out in a sort of pleading cry, not unlike a frightened child, but you cannot help the way you long for his comfort. Tears leak from your eyes, another wave of salt that you find you cannot control.Â
Suguru responds to your call with a sweet coo, pressing a wet kiss to the skin of your throat and rumbling deep within his chest to reassure you that heâs still there. Brushing your hair from your eyes, Suguru leans away to peck your temple and stare down at you with relief painted across his features.Â
âYouâre alright, honey. âS okay,â he whispers warmly, soothing the tension in your brow and brushing your tears away. When your eyes crack open, staring up at him with waning fear and confusion, Suguru huffs a laugh and smiles widely. âHey, pretty girl.âÂ
 Your lips quiver upwards into a sort of sad smile, but Suguru is happy to see it despite the exhaustion in your features. Squeezing his hand, you look up at the dark-haired sorcerer as his hair falls into his eyes.Â
âWhaâ happened?âÂ
Suguru looks over his shoulder, mouthing something you canât hear, but you know he must be talking to Satoru. The muffled sound of his voice barely reaches your ears as you wade through the stream of your consciousness. You fight to keep Suguru in focus, and fortunately manage to cling to the waking world as sounds finally return to your senses. Something that sounds like âsheâs alright, Toru,â rings through the bathroom, and then thereâs the sound of Satoru replying but you canât hear it. Your heart calls out for your other husband, and you squeeze Suguruâs hand in question.Â
âYou passed out, darling,â Suguru looks back down at you with a sad smile. He hushes you when you wiggle, trying to sit upright. âCareful, love, careful. You scared the shit out of me, you know?âÂ
Shooting him a sorry glance, you allow Suguru to gently lift you to a seated position every so slowly. He leans you against him, his thick thighs on either side of your hips as he lets you rest against his chest. You nod slowly as he delicately pulls your hair from your face and wraps his arms around you.Â
âSorry.â
Suguru shakes his head with a hum.Â
âDonât apologize, baby,â he whispers. âIâm just glad youâre awake. Are you feeling alright? Howâs the pain?â
You slouch into his chest, wrapping your arms around your waist and nodding as your eyes slide shut.Â
ââS not so bad. Whereâs Toru?â
Suguruâs heart clenches sweetly, feeling warmed by your desire for Satoru. He adores the two of you with his entire being, and watching both of you always strikes a fond chord within his chest.
âHeâs taking care of Gumi,â Suguru murmurs, looking down at you with a lovesick expression you cannot see. When you sit up straighter, Suguru accommodates your position with a scooch of his hips and his arm falling into your lap.Â
âGumiâs awake?â
âYeah,â your husband responds quietly. âI think he heard me shout when you fell. He came in a few minutes ago, and Satoruâs comforting him.â
Suguru sounds a little guilty when he mentions his outburst. Heâs not embarrassed by any means; it was a cry shouted in overwhelming fear, so he feels no bashfulness for the tone of his voice. He does, however, feel guilty that he managed to wake his son in the process.Â
âHeâs worried about you, I think.â
We all are, he almost finishes.Â
You sag into Suguruâs chest, weight sinking into the warmth of his bare skin as you slide your hand over the arm that is wrapped around you. Just as you begin to speak, Satoru peeks his head through the doorway. His body is twisted, obscuring Megumiâs view inside the bathroom. When he finds your gaze, Satoru visibly softens.Â
âHey, sweet girl,â Satoru rumbles, a fond smile spreading across his features. âYou feeling alright?â
You nod tiredly, resting your head against Suguruâs clavicle.
âThatâs good. We were really worried, honey.âÂ
Your sigh through your nose, trying to give him an apologetic look, but the fatigue is beginning to pull your eyelids downwards. Satoruâs gaze softens even further, if at all possible, and he continues.Â
âCan Megumi come in? Heâs worried about you,â Satoru reiterates his partnerâs words, clearly holding the boy against his chest as he speaks.Â
Youâre about to nod, more than happy to cuddle with your son, when Suguru interrupts. Stroking a hand over your hip, the long-haired sorcerer hums.Â
âLet us come out, love,â he responds, already beginning to shift you in his lap. âWe can talk about this in bed. I think everyoneâs a little tired right now.âÂ
You nod in agreement, feeling the ache of your muscles cry out for rest. Your arm trembles weakly when you lift your hand, and you frown at the lack of strength in your limbs. Suguru hushes you sweetly as he shifts you to sit upright as he stands.Â
âYouâre exhausted, baby. Itâs normal.âÂ
Satoru murmurs his agreement on the other side of the doorway, already beginning to step away to set Megumi in the middle of your massive bed. He ensures the boy is comfortable as he stands upright, stretching his shoulders and turning to watch as Suguru hoists you up onto his hips slowly. Satoru figured he wasnât going to let you walk after what happened the first time you tried.Â
Suguruâs hand is carefully cradling your head and the other wraps beneath your hips, keeping you stable and pressed against his big frame. The sorcerer is incredibly strong from the years of exorcizing curses and teaching students, so carrying you to the bed, despite your muffled protests, is an easy venture.Â
Setting you on the bed gently, you shift quickly to face Megumi as you lay back against the sheets. You nestle quickly into Suguruâs previous place in bed, already reaching out for your son as he nuzzles forward to latch onto your front.Â
âHey, hun,â you whisper kindly, brushing dark strands from Megumiâs eyes. âWhatâs going on, Gumi?â
The boy looks up at you, still clutching his Divine Dog plush, and frowns. Your head tilts in confusion, and you watch as Megumi makes himself comfortable in your arms, cuddling close to your stomach and closing his eyes. You donât protest, heart warming sweetly as the boy snuggles close. He doesnât usually cuddle like this, so youâll take every opportunity to hug him as you can.Â
âDad said youâre feeling bad,â he mumbles into the stuffed dog now pressed between you. ââM gonna make you feel better. Like you do when Iâm sick.âÂ
You smile. Heart full, your eyes slide shut as you lean forward to press a gentle kiss to the tired boyâs forehead. He mumbles something else, but heâs fading fast. Soon heâs lost to slumber, and he snoozes peacefully in your embrace.Â
âThank you, Megumi,â you whisper as you press another soft kiss to your sonâs forehead. Looking up at Satoru with tears brimming in your eyes, you find the white-haired sorcerer is already looking at you. Thereâs fondness spilling from his smile and a sweet gentleness in his expression, and he looks utterly lovesick.Â
âHey,â Satoru murmurs.Â
âHi.âÂ
The Six Eyes user steps away for a moment, nodding at Suguru who whispers that heâs going to step out to get you water and your medicine. Satoru knows heâs also going to check in on the girls, so he gives Suguru a smile and a peck on the cheek as he slides around the bed to your back.Â
When Satoru climbs into the silken sheets, he immediately presses his bare chest into your back and wraps his strong arms around you and his son. Pressing his soft lips to the nape of your neck, he pulls you and Megumi into his chest as he relaxes. You feel the familiar tingle of Infinity wrap around you and smile tiredly. Satoru is always protecting you and your family. The technique easily wraps around you and Megumi in addition to Satoru, and you know the sorcerer will easily adapt it to cover Suguru soon too.Â
Thatâs just Satoru; heâs always looking out for his family.Â
When you sigh deeply and snuggle back into your husband, Satoru presses another gentle kiss to your neck and you feel him shake.Â
âToru?â
The man shivers again, and when you shift, turning slightly to see his face, your face crumples as you find tears leaking from Satoruâs eyes. He looks utterly relieved, but his mouth still twitches in a sad sort of way and his sky-blue eyes shimmer with salty tears. For all his silly teasing and childlike humor, Satoru rarely looks so⌠scared. Heâs always so strong â the strongest. But there are truly rare circumstances in which Gojo Satoru is confronted with true fear.Â
Circumstances in which he remembers how vulnerable his family can be.Â
âOh, SatoruâŚâ
Satoru buries his face in your neck again, concealing his tears as he calms down.Â
âI was so worried, baby. Oh my God,â he mutters into your skin. âI woke up and you were on the floor and Sugu was cryingâŚâÂ
You pull his hands tighter around you, careful not to wake Megumi. Stroking gentle circles into the muscle of his forearms, you coo a soft sound to soothe him.Â
ââM alright now. Just a little bit of pain, itâs mostly gone.â
Satoru nods, clinging to your back as he finally grounds himself through the gentle touch of your fingers on his skin. He pulls you closer, seeming as though heâs trying to fuse his body to yours with how tight he binds himself to you. Itâs the soft contact of your skin against his that soothes the beat of his heart and loosens the tension of his muscles. The tingly feeling that lingers on his skin where you press into him leaves trails of prickled nerves in their wake, as if physical contact between your bare skin incites a biological reaction beneath his flesh.Â
With you in his arms, tightly wrapped in his embrace where he can feel the pulse of your heart against his chest, Satoru finds serenity.Â
Youâre here. And youâre safe.Â
Satoru chews on his lip as he sighs.Â
âIâm sorry, baby,â he whispers, tucking his chin into your neck and dropping a hand to rub his palm over the side of your stomach. Itâs uncanny, you think, that he already knows exactly where it hurts without you mentioning it. Satoru pays far more attention than people give him credit for. âIâm sorry I canât do anything more to take it away.âÂ
You shake your head, fatigued eyes closing as you focus on the feeling of Satoruâs big hands and the gentle circles he massages into you.Â
Satoru continues in a voice uncharacteristically weak for the Strongest.Â
âYou were⌠alone and in pain,â he mumbles, guilt seeping into his tone as he frowns. âAnd I didnât even know â we didnât.âÂ
Satoru carefully pulls your hair away from your neck to press a kiss to your bare shoulder and then one more against the skin of your throat. He inhales a wave of your familiar scent and flutters his eyes closed as he sinks into your back.Â
âI donât want you to suffer alone, my love.âÂ
You stroke a contemplative finger over his arm, humming quietly as you shift Megumi in your arms.Â
âOkay, Toru,â you whisper as you find the mirth in your exhausted figure to tease him. âYou want me to wake you up at the ass crack of dawn when Iâve got cramps?âÂ
Satoru muffles a small chuckle into your neck and you enjoy the feeling of his chest shaking with the feeling.Â
âYeah, baby. Even then. Especially then.âÂ
You huff a breath of laughter through your nose, only stopping when you swiftly inhale as another cramp seizes your abdomen. Itâs strong, but nothing like the ones you were having earlier. You can manage these. Satoru leans up on his elbow when you stiffen, lifting his other hand to check the hot water bottle Suguru had returned to your stomach.Â
When Satoru pulls the bottle away, his brow furrows and he hisses when he finds faint hints of inflamed skin where youâve pressed it too tight to your belly. Itâs too hot and too close, he realizes. Itâs burning you.Â
Satoru nearly sits upright quickly, his frame leaning over yours as he gasps faintly.Â
âHoneyâŚâ Heâs on the verge of scolding you, but he sees the way you wince through another cramp and decides against it. Satoru looks back down at the hot water bottle and the way you clutch it tightly to combat the waves of throbbing in your belly.Â
âThis is burning you,â he states it obviously.Â
âHmm,â you respond in agreement. âFeels nice.âÂ
Satory looks down at you with pain in his features, face twisted into a frown and his crystalline eyes a shade duller.Â
âBaby, itâs hurting you â How canâŚ?âÂ
Satoru trails off. He thinks about how terribly you must have been aching to continue pressing something that was burning you into your skin. How agonizing were your cramps that the pain of the burn was comforting?Â
Satoru lays back down, a frown on his lips as he wraps his arm back around you and lays his palm over the hot water bottle. If youâre going to keep it pressed into your skin, then he can make sure it doesnât get too warm by leaving his hand against it.
âMy god, baby⌠Iâm so sorry,â he whispers. He canât even comprehend how agonizing this must be for you. Satoru kisses your nape again. He apologizes again, and you almost miss the silly Satoru who would typically be teasing you right now. âIâm sorry I canât do anything.âÂ
You yawn, finally feeling exhaustion begin to drag you beneath the slow, rocking waves of slumber. Pushing yourself deeper into your husbandâs embrace and squeezing your son tight once more, you sigh out a few more words before you finally sink into sleepâs warm hands.Â
âYou are doing something,â you murmur, pulling his hand up to your mouth to kiss it tiredly. âYouâre here, Satoru. I donât think I can do this alone anymore.âÂ
When Suguru climbs back into bed on Megumiâs other side, he kisses the fond smile on Satoruâs lips and teases his partner about the stars in his eyes. The crystalline-eyed sorcerer refutes Suguruâs quip by reaching out to gently slap his bicep, but itâs all in mirthful adoration. Suguru leans over to press a tender kiss to your sleeping brow and then one to his sonâs, before he settles behind Megumi and sighs contentedly.Â
âSheâs sleeping?â Suguru whispers, voice barely carried through the quiet night. He stares down at your face, the peaceful expression on your lips far more comforting than the limp, placid look of unconsciousness he remembers. Satoru watches his husband watch you, adoration swelling in his heart like an ebbing tide. Unbound by all but the moon, Satoru swears his heart only grows fonder each time he truly takes in his partners.Â
âSheâs sleeping,â he confirms sleepily, still staring up at Suguru with warmth in his chest.Â
âGood.âÂ
Suguruâs response is sighed out thankfully, his shoulders deflating with the tension easing away from his muscle. He wraps his arms around Megumi and pulls himself closer to the boy, smiling when he easily cuddles into his father. Not often does Suguru have the opportunity to snuggle his son, so he eagerly grins as Megumiâs sleeping form curls near.Â
âSheâs early,â Satoru mentions plainly from across Suguru. âShe wasnât supposed to start until next week.â
The dark-haired sorcerer nods, recalling the date he marked in his phone. He and Satoru both kept track; it was easier that way. At this point, though, Suguru is certain he doesn't need his calendar to know these things. Your anniversary is ingrained in his memory, as is every one of your important dates. The three of you have spent more than a decade together, this kind of instinct was certain to develop at some point or another.Â
âYeah,â Suguru sighs. He twists slowly to glance tiredly at the clock on his bedside. âShe took some painkillers at midnight, can you write that down? If she wakes again she can take some more.âÂ
Satoru nods, a hand already reaching for his phone on the nightstand behind him. It was second-nature to jot down the time you took medication. You always tried to keep track yourself, but sometimes noting the time slipped your mind, and you were left trying to recall the last time you took them. Satoru easily adds the time to his notes, and marks the date in his calendar to adjust your future schedule later. He checks that thereâs still a bottle of your preferred painkiller in his nightstand drawer and a granola bar to eat when you take them.Â
When he sets the phone down, he looks back over at Suguru, who sleepily stares down at your sleeping face. Nothing seems out of the ordinary, but Satoru can see where Suguru has slid his around yours, pressing two of his fingers into the pulse point of your wrist.Â
Heâs counting your heartbeats â making sure youâre still breathing. Because Suguru remembers the way you crumpled all too clearly.Â
Sighing a shaking breath as he familiarizes himself with the gentle thump of your lifeline, Satoru slides a hand around you and his son, and he lays it across his lover with a sad smile. Suguru looks up with tired eyes, the dark bags beneath his lashes barely visible in the night hour. They match the ones beneath your eyes and probably Satoruâs too.Â
âHey,â Satoru mumbles. âSheâs alright, Sugu.âÂ
Suguru nods, finally sinking into the mattress and pressing a final kiss to Megumiâs hair as he makes himself comfortable. Satoru does the same, delicately squeezing the hand still wrapped around yours and cradled sweetly at your chest.Â
âWeâre alright,â Suguru confirms, eyes finally sinking closed as he falls back asleep with part of his family in his embrace. âWeâre alright.âÂ

In the morning, you awake to two Divine Dogs guarding the foot of your bed. The white one sits with its side pressed against the dark one, and both face the bedroom door. You awake alone in bed, but you can hear distant voices quietly chatting in the hall. The little pupsâ ears are perked upwards, diligently listening to the conversation outside.Â
When you sit up, the white one flips his head over his shoulder, happily sticking his tongue out in a joyful expression. He pants and his tail thumps against the floor as you beckon him closer.Â
âGood morning, pup,â you laugh as it wiggles excitedly when you scratch behind his ears. The dark-coated one quickly follows soon after, eagerly joining his brother for scratches. âWhat are you two doinâ here?âÂ
The pups tilt their heads with that silly, tongue-out expression, as if communicating their eagerness. You stifle your laughter and carefully stand from the sheets, making your way into the kitchen with the dogs on your heels.Â
When you enter the living space, you find Suguru on the couch with the twins on either side of his lap. Theyâre eagerly leaning over one of Suguruâs books, excitedly murmuring amongst themselves as their father reads aloud. Itâs one of his novels, and you chuckle knowing that the girls were probably the ones to pick it out for him to read.Â
Tsumiki is at the table, leaning over some kind of puzzle, and her brother is at her side. She looks up as you come in, offering you a gentle smile and a nod before she goes back to her puzzle. Megumi sits on his knees in the chair, spiky hair unkempt as always and a look of concentration on his face.Â
Before you can speak, Satoru is pressed against your back, greeting you with a gentle hum.
âGâmorning, sweetheart,â he coos, pecking your cheek and sliding a croissant into your hands and holding a glass of water in his other. âEat up. You can take some medicine when youâre done.âÂ
He always makes sure you eat before you take your medicine. Your heart thumps happily beneath your ribs, and you smile in return, pressing a sweet kiss to his lips and thanking him.Â
âThanks, love.âÂ
Satoru hums and slides his free hand over your waist to squeeze your hip. He opens his mouth to say something, but the twins interrupt him. They gasp, standing from Suguruâs lap and eagerly racing over to greet you.Â
Suguru chuckles, but still gently chides them as they race into the kitchen.Â
âCareful!âÂ
Nanako and Mimiko crash into your hips with eager sounds, each grabbing you around the waist and crying out.
âMama!â They cry worriedly, scrambling to hug you as they bury their faces in your legs. They start pushing you towards the couch with little hands, earnestly murmuring things you cannot make out. You look up at Satoru with a confused furrow of your brow, and your husband only chuckles and holds his hands up in a gesture of âiâve got nothing to do with this.âÂ
When you reach the couch, the girls scramble to make you sit beside Suguru, who is all too eager to wrap an arm around your shoulders to accommodate your arrival.Â
âGood morning,â he hums as he pecks your temple.Â
Nanako is already sliding a blanket into your lap as Mimiko climbs onto the couch, depositing herself at your side and snuggling into you.Â
âGood morning,â you respond, watching with a fond smile as the girls make themselves comfortable in your lap. âWhatâs all this?âÂ
Suguru chuckles, reaching out to gently ruffle Nanakoâs hair as she smiles. The girl looks up at her father with a beaming grin and snuggles closer to you when you wrap an arm around her to keep her stable. Your husband leans closer with a smile, murmuring quietly for only you to hear.Â
âMegumi told them you were sick last night,â he fondly whispers. âI think it worried them.âÂ
Your head tilts in an expression of tenderness, and you give Suguru a knowing look before you lean down to kiss both your girls on the forehead.Â
âGood morning, girls,â you rumble happily. âIâm alright, sweethearts. Megumi and your dads took very good care of me.â
Mimiko wiggles closer, snuggling into you and her sister with big, worried eyes.Â
âReally?â her tiny voice murmurs. âMegumi-nii said you were hurting.âÂ
You can almost hear the pout in her voice without looking down at her. Giggling happily, you stroke a hand over her head and squeeze her close.Â
âHe even brought out his puppies!â Nanako quickly adds, squirming as he attempts to find the two Divine Dogs. âHe said we couldnât come in to see you because you needed to rest.âÂ
The two Shikigami have already returned to their owner, sitting on either side of Megumiâs chair with wagging tails and their tongues still sticking out. The boy is absentmindedly petting one while he focuses on the puzzle, shyly avoiding your gaze as if embarrassed.Â
Your heart clenches sweetly again, and you turn to look at Satoru with a knowing smile. The sorcerer returns the look as he steps into the kitchen for your painkillers, ruffling Megumiâs hair as he goes. The boy lets out a muffled sound of discontent, but he doesnât fix his messy strands.Â
âDid he? Thatâs very sweet of him.âÂ
You and Suguru do not mention the faint pinkness of Megumiâs round cheeks.Â
When you lean into Suguruâs side, the croissant in your hand warm like your loverâs body heat, you sigh happily. The cramps are a faint memory now, even though you know theyâll return soon. For now, you can savor the warmth of your family.Â
âYouâre taking the day off then, I suppose,â you look up at Suguru with an arched brow. Suguru smiles, leaning his head into yours to rest there.Â
âYeah,â he sighs, cuddling close to you and the twins. âWe all are.âÂ
You suppose you can deal with the consequences of their unscheduled departure from work and school later⌠Youâre far too warm and content now. When Satoru returns, sliding a glass of water into your empty hand and two painkillers into your other, he patiently waits as you take the pills. Then he sets the glass on the side table beside the mug of raspberry leaf tea he brewed for your cramps, and then he eagerly dives into the limited space left on the couch.Â
Scrambling into the twinsâ space, Nanako and Mimiko giggle happily as Satoru presses kisses over their faces and squirms onto the couch. He plops Mimiko into his lap so he can sit at your side, laughing when the girls squeal happily. As you settle, you see Megumi look up from the table, shyly glancing away from his sister. Tsumiki gives him a knowing look as she climbs from her chair and eagerly walks over to Suguru.Â
Suguru is too happy to allow her the tiny portion of space on his other side, and Tsumiki slides onto the couch, her side pressed tight to Suguruâs. She offers you a good morning and laughs when the twins attempt to squirm away from Satoruâs tickling fingers.Â
Eventually Megumi stands from his place at the table, looking over at the couch as he debates something internally. A moment later, he stands in front of Suguru, shyly shifting on his feet as he looks at the only empty space on the couch.Â
Megumi doesnât need to say anything, because Suguru is already lifting the boy into his lap with a smile. Saving his son the embarrassment of shyly asking for the affection he usually avoids, Suguru chuckles as he deposits the last member of his family into his lap.Â
âWe could all use a day off,â he murmurs into your temple as he kisses you sweetly.Â
You sigh happily, soaking in the warmth of the morning sun and the laughter of your family.Â
âYeah, that sounds nice.âÂ
The moment is only interrupted when Megumiâs Divine Dogs, only pups at this age, launch themselves onto the couch, eager to join the snuggles. The seven of you dissolve into laughter as you try to maneuver the excited puppies, and you canât ask for anything else.Â
âMegumi!â You laugh, trying to brush white dog hair from your face. âControl your summons!âÂ
The boy only laughs happily as the dark-coated puppy wiggles into his lap.Â
No, he doesnât think he will.Â

bonus:
gojo, looking down at reader and geto: you're so cute and pretty
reader, sleepily: I could beat the shit out of you
geto, nodding along: she could
gojo, lovingly: I know
a/n: no I am not back to writing just yet :')) I wrote this in a pain induced haze while having some terrible cramps so if you have terrible periods like me, this one is for you! this is purely based on my experience with cramps, and everyone is different, but I just wanted to write something for me :") I've never passed out but I've felt like it and I know it's super scary so I hope this can provide some comfort for you if you need it <3
ALSO this was written as comfort for jjk 236 :'))) bc everyone in this fic deserved better and I refuse to acknowledge canon

Watch your back : Chapter 9

Once you donât value what you have someone else learns how to take care of what used to be yours
Synopsis : 8 men supposed to give her all the love they promised end up leaving her behind without a valid reason
Pairing : girlfriend Reader x PolyAteez !
Warning : this chapter contains mentions of Ateez being careless , lots of crying , jumping off a cliff etc Please reminding me if I forgot something
Tag list : @legbouk , @scarfac3 , @m4rsluv , @hcyaa , @jackinmyarea , @layzfeelit , @loverlele , @mulletjoonsupremacy , @veneziamadness , @belle643 , @gugggu6gvai , @atinytinaa , @voidcupidz , @atinyreads , @baguette-atiny , @parkthothwa8 , @hwadump , @owjohny , @miaatiny , @honeyymon
Word count: 1,5k

" Im so exhausted and my feet hurt "
Wooyoung sighed out as he plopped on the couch massaging his feet groaning
" It took a lot longer than expected "
Yeosang laughed and removed his suit
" I was scared your mom was not going to like me to be honest "
Rin sat beside Wooyoung who chuckled and held her softly planting a kiss on her temple
" My mom is cautious, but she'll grow to like you so don't worry about it "
Yunho who's hair was now messy scratched his chest as he came into the kitchen looking around
" Do we still have those mini crackers? "
He looked inside the cupboards humming
" Don't open them it's from Y/n "
Seonghwa came into the kitchen stressed
" Where is she even? wasn't she supposed to be with us earlier? "
" Yeah but you and Jongho forgot to add her "
" When was I even supposed to ? "
Yunho opened the crackers anyways eating them as Seonghwa looked at him in disbelief
" We clearly talked about this last week ? how could you forget? "
" Gosh Seonghwa chill can't someone forget stuff? And why didn't you add her ? "
The younger walked out the kitchen leaving the elder to himself
" Hwa just go to bed , she's a grown woman "
Mingi yawned coming into the kitchen
"I'm just worried a little since it's really late and her phone is going straight to voicemail "
" Maybe she's on her way home let's just go to sleep she's grown and capable of knowing her way home stop stressing over nothing "
Seonghwa looked at the younger as he sighed , he just couldn't go to sleep like that his heart told him something was wrong and it put a huge weight on him
But at the end he just locked the door and turned the lights off hoping for her to return home by the time he woke up
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The cold water embracing her body slowly numbed every part of her making it unable to move even if she wanted too
The struggling with breathing wasn't kicking in yet much to her liking
All her thoughts ran out freely as she just let herself sink further into the water
Was this really the right choice?
Or stupid to give up everything she fought for to be here in the first place?
It felt like an eternity as Y/n continued to sink but what scared her was when something grabbed her making her struggle against whatever it was
The muffled underwater screams didn't seem to do anything against the mysterious thing that kept pulling her upwards towards the light coming from the surface
Y/n kept fighting against the mysterious thing that kept swimming upward
She gasped and coughed as she was held against something rock hard
" Are you insane ? You could've died ! "
The person yelled at her as he panted in fear looking at her
" Why didn't you let me sink ! Nobody would have cared if I disappeared for once "
She cried coughing
" Wait Y/n ? Why the heck would you do such a dangerous thing ?! do you know how much you scared me to death when I saw you jump ? "
It took her a good moment to notice that the person who basically saved her was one of Rowoons friends
" D-Dawon , I- "
" Look we'll talk about this later let's just get out of here before we get sick "
He sighed and started swimming towards the dry part with her on his back
" I'm sorry you had to save someone like me "
" Let's not do this now , I just want you to go home safely with me so we can talk "
He shook his head trying to get the water out his ears before he took her hand and walked up towards the place he dropped his bag when he jumped in
" I'm just glad you're safe "
The boy sighed out trying to calm down since he was still under shock
" I don't want to go home "
" Don't worry I'm not taking you there "
She stood there shivering as she looked at her bare feet while he fished into his gym bag For his towel
" Did you eat anything? "
Dawon dried her hair as she just stood there not responding
" It's ok if you don't want to talk , let's just call a taxi to our dorm since you don't want to go home and I won't force you "
He pulled out his phone called a taxi
" Yes we are near the Han river, yeah exactly there thank you "
She looked at him with tears extremely ashamed and feeling pathetic since she couldn't even succeed in this one thing
" Why did you jump in ? It would've been better if I was gone "
Dawon looked at her as he closed his eyes sighing before hugging her
" I'd never let someone die before my eyes, even if I didn't know you and I'm so glad I did because you're so young and you have so much to achieve, and Rowoon would be so devastated if I hadn't saved you and I'm sure other people as well would be broken "
â I canât do this anymore , Iâm a failure I canât even defend myself anymore â
The girl cried on his wet shirt ,it was a lot of weight on her shoulders and how could she forget about that one person who cared about her the most , who was willing to love her like nobody else ever loved her
" I'm so sorry, I don't know why I did this in the first place I'm so ungrateful "
" Y/n please , it must have been hard if it drove you to do this "
He grabbed her face and wiped her tears away with his thumb before guiding her towards the taxi that just arrived
" Please don't tell Rowoon about this I don't want to worry him more than I have by ignoring his texts lately "
Dawon nodded and shut the taxi door as they drove in silence
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Both of them entered the dorm quietly careful not to make any noise
" But I don't have any clothes "
Y/n shivered as she hugged herself as Dawon went into his room and came back with some clothes and a towel
" These are new boxers that I just bought recently you can wear them "
She took them and went to change after taking a hot shower , but most of the time found herself shedding tears or starring at herself at the mirror the boys had in their bathroom
Were did she fail ? , was it really a blessing to still be breathing after her selfish act ?
After drying herself and blow drying her hair she stepped out of the bathroom and ran into one of the boys that was waiting so they could go to the toilet
" Oh I didn't know you were here "
" I myself didn't expect it either but it's good to see you again Jaeyoon "
He smiled and rubbed her head before dismissing himself to go to the toilet
" Hey you finished? "
Y/n nodded and looked around before fiddling with her fingers nervously
" Can you tell me were Rowoon's room is ? "
" He's probably asleep but go ahead it's the second door down the hall "
He smiled and said good night leaving her to herself in the semi dark hallway
Walking towards her best friends room she carefully opened the door and went inside , the room smelled so good it made her feel like home but yet so distant from it
She carefully went unter the covers but held her distance, it's like she felt it kinda being inappropriate being so close to him even thought they had watched films together in her room as he cuddled her
The moon made his face look so perfect and adorable as he slept soundless
How could someone as handsome like him like her let alone love her more than the best friend stage ? It was still a mystery to her
" Y/n is that you ? "
He asked without opening his eyes
" No it's not Y/n "
She changed her voice on purpose stiffening her laugh with tears
" Don't lie to me , it's smells like you "
He pulled the girl closer to him opening his eyes yawning
"Do I smell that good to be recognized ? "
" You always smell good and even from miles away I could tell that it's you "
She smiled softly letting him hold her , her worries long forgotten
â Iâm not even gonna ask you why youâre in my room this late at night , Iâm just glad youâre alright and by my presence again â
He smiled and softly yawned once again
â Rowoon? â
The boy hummed and kept yawning
â Do you still love me ? â
Rowoon opened his eyes meeting her glossy ones that stared back at him
âI do love you , but why are you asking me this ? Is everything alright? â
â How can you love someone as broken and insecure as me ? â
She looked at him with lips in between her teeth due to her nerves playing with her
â Because you deserve more , and you stole my heart with how sweet and caring not to forget how beautiful you are â
The boy took her by the waist and smiled softly kissing her forehead
âThese fools donât know what they are missing out by not appreciating you enough and I just want a chance to show you how much you can be happy and appreciated â