My Brother Said Apollo In 'song Of Achilles' Is A Homophobe And He Hated Him. Then He Reread Trials Of

my brother said apollo in 'song of achilles' is a homophobe and he hated him. then he reread trials of apollo series for like, a way to cope with patrochilles or smth and after that, he and me had a conversation about if both of us had immortality and invincibility (gods stuff)

like how we would be permanent and forever. but then we wouldn't know death, we wouldn't afraid about being hurted and we wouldn't care. we would be here for too long and then we would do stupid shits like apollo did and sometimes we wouldn't care about everything. how we wouldn't always keep our morals, keep our loves, trusts, how we absolutely would change and change and everything would always be different whether we want it or not.

like, he doesn't understand why but he's starting to think about it, why would apollo mess with mortals, throw patroclus off just to spite him, for he will never save helen, for he will lose, he will die. why tho, why are gods so exasperating, so proud, why are they so interesting with humans, wars should never be interested with and nobody should even think about it in the first place. its cruel, gods are cruel, gods are assholes, he said.

but if he is a god, he would do that, he would interested in people's businesses, in normal living being's businesses, how could he not, he would live forever, he could kill a guy and people would notice it but then what? they would be far gone compared to him, they would forget it, they wouldn't dare to mess with him, if they did, he could literally wipe them out from existence and make it the third or millennial's ago disaster and eventually, people would believe it

even if achilles defeated a god, he's still a human, he's still succumbed to madness bc of his lover's death, and it's beautiful like that, it will end. gods can not experience it, they wished to be achilles, to have a love life, an actual love life that even though it ends tragically, it starts like magic.

so when my little brother reread rick's books he's very conflicted about the truth about gods. immortality and invincibility are scary, what's the great in that, in the end, it's just something far too gods-like, and you know how're gods. and not to mention, if humans have go and choose one of those, whether to be the strongest or live the longest, they will go insane, he couldn't even bet on that, they're facts.

so he pitied the demigods and conflicted about other gods in rick's books greatly, rick portrayed the characters, developments and world-buildings so well. mixes it with the song of achilles and he will literally going to become an atheist.

so he asked me if things would be different when gods didn't meddling with mortals or anything in particular or never existed at all, how would that be? and i said everything would be normal and depressed, even worse if not the worst and patrochilles would never happen and there wouldn't be percy jackson at all and it would be peter johnson for real and people would overly analyze some random guy in his weird imagination or smth and then my brother ugly cried

Solangelo Heaven Official's Blessing/TGCF AU where Will Solace as Xie Lian and Nico di Angelo as Hua Cheng.

everything about thalia and jason is so tragic to me. jason, a little kid, a sacrifice to the gods by a maniac of a mother. thalia, the big sister that watches her little brother given away to death or worse. she wanders the ruins, too small and too little to be so scared, and sobs until she falls down. he’s not there. he’s not there.

she grows up rebelling against her mother until she dies, she changes her style and changes herself, cuts her hair and does her make up all fucked up. she finds luke and annabeth and adopts herself into a new family, one that she’s willing to sacrifice herself for, because god, she couldn’t do it for her little brother. she needs this redemption. annabeth is seven, and luke is the assurance that she never had when she grew up

she wakes up disoriented. there were dreams, and the same boy with green eyes is there, holding her, shaking her, yelling and demanding. she gets better, she grows tougher and stronger and she can fight properly, and then she learns that luke poisoned her.

luke. the assurance that she never had when she grew up. 

of course she wants to turn against the gods too. does he not understand that the gods took her little brother, the gods drove her mother to insanity, the gods turned her into leaf and bark because she can’t even die in peace? and she hates him for it. she’s lost more than he ever has, and yet he storms around like he owns the world, like he knows better. 

thalia sees his knife at annabeth’s throat and doesn’t recognize anything she ever saw good in him

she joins the hunters, a new family, maybe one that won’t die. she serves artemis because at least she is kind, at least she does not laugh at the curses of romance, and because the hunters have never neglected her like everyone else. 

and then she finds jason.

oh, in so many ways he’s the same: blonde hair and blue eyes that match the ones in the mirror and the scar on his lip. her chest heaves. her hands shake. she can’t look at him and she can’t look away from him. her little brother, older than her now, is alive.

and just as she finds this out, suddenly he’s dead again. speared through the shoulders, beautiful jason, her brother, her only, lovely, foolish brother, bloody and broken and dead. permanently dead. not just a what if; a corpse.

she goes to camp half-blood and destroys the zeus cabin. she shatters it, blasts the statue of her father to ruins, screams until her throat is so raw she can’t talk. she punches the marble until it dents and her knuckles bleed, she sets fires and chars the ground.

she never stops asking why him? why not me? but she knows why

jason was never meant to happen. jason was always just a sacrifice to the gods. he was never a person to them

and thalia is never allowed to have a brother. thalia is never allowed to have a family that is not tragic.

thalia is never allowed to love in the same way annabeth is, or percy, or grover. thalia comes from a monument of grief and the king of the gods.

she wishes it was her, and then maybe she wouldn’t be so angry all the time

i will not die until i get a whole series of percy jackson office au ao3 fanfic

headcanon nico sits on will's shoulder like a mascot.

literally on his shoulder, saying the wisest things ever and will's just struggling, trying to keep his bf on there, but nico's a gremlin and he sometimes annoyingly pounces up and down to mess with will.

this gonna be my whole story arc now

I lied. I actually don’t like sex. Put your clothes back on, I’m going to tell you why PatroChilles is canon.