ataraxiaspainting - i just want your love, so don't waste my time...
i just want your love, so don't waste my time...

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Hi, Thanks For Sending Te Rules ^^. For The Request, Can I Please Have Yan Mermaid Ruan Mei X Fem Human

Hi, thanks for sending te rules ^^. For the request, can I please have yan mermaid Ruan Mei x fem human reader one shot? Basically, Ruan Mei meets a human and she find them interesting, but later discovers that the reader is dating. So Ruan Mei decides why not to kidnap her future darling.

please ruan mei is so pretty...... I CAN FIX HER GUYS!!

Birth of Venus.

Yan (Mermaid) Ruan Mei x F Reader.

Synopsis: Legends say the ocean’s waters are salty because of the tears of mermaids.

Warnings: Yandere themes and kidnapping.

Word Count: 700.

*~*~*~*

Upon catching sight of you for the first time, she finds herself at a loss for thoughts and emotions.

For her to lose sight of the former is as rare as her finding something not covered in rust and fading away with age on the bottom of the ocean floor. But, like those priceless moments, with her fingers gliding above and beneath a small mountain of gold coins in a treasure chest she spent more than a day trying to unlock, she could not bear herself to let go, to let something so precious go to waste. Time is of the essence though, because as much as she wants to simply take you beneath the waters with her hands, the scales on them never scarred with the color purer than that of the sky above you both, she has to wait for the right time, for everything to be set up accordingly. It is what she does best, after all, planning and soon discarding everything that provides little value to her, and perhaps soon to you, because, in the end, it is not uncommon for her to lose her emotions. They hold no significance at present or in the future, and she will release them once more in her quest for everything she desires. Thus, she patiently waits, concealed beneath the water, listening to the gentle sound of your footsteps on the sand and the joyful exclamations that escape your lips whenever you discover another seashell she intentionally left on the shoreline for you.

Everything and everyone she encounters, regardless of whether they are from the sea or the land above, bow down to her and her radiance, even creatures similar to her both in physique and intellectual prowess. She hopes the same will be what you do too, but she does not. Despite how ironic it sounds, you are the breath of fresh air she never had. She desires for you to remain unchanged, even if she resorts to preserving you as ice submerged deep beneath the ocean, thus ensuring your eternal presence. Nevertheless, she sincerely hopes this extreme measure will never be necessary.

She will try her best to ensure such.

Despite her emotions being minuscule, barely the size of a single caviar bead, she finds herself unable to articulate this indescribable sensation that threatens to overwhelm all logic she has.

Because when she caught sight of you for what felt like the hundredth time, she saw you kiss someone else by the shoreline, next to the special shell she obtained after hours upon hours of searching just for you.

For what felt like the first time in all her life, she felt sorrow, then anger, and hate. Her emotions finally gave way after all these months of observing you from afar, and tears gave way. But she doesn't know what to do now. All planning, what she has always been good at, along with her logic, which she also has been exemplary at, has all been washed away by the tides of fear, envy, and sadness. After what felt like an eternity of weeping over her loss, making the seawater get even saltier because of her tears, she concluded. She must act now, or you will be forever out of her grasp. She needs to take immediate action to regain her rationality and control her emotions once more. Despite her love for you, Ruan Mei will always be self-centered, and this fundamental aspect of her character is unlikely to change, even if she desires it. It is simply a matter of time until everything reverts to its previous state.

So, as you venture near the coast, captivated by the enchanting melodies emerging from the sea, she springs into action. With astonishing speed, so swift that you won't perceive it until it's too late, she delivers a powerful blow and drags you under the waters, where you will stay forevermore.

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1 year ago

I just wanted to say I love your writing and I hope you have a wonderful day.

I Just Wanted To Say I Love Your Writing And I Hope You Have A Wonderful Day.

NO! STOP! OMG!

you’re gonna make me cry /positive! 🥺

there’s a lot of good things i plan to do this friday + weekend, so hopefully you have blessed me, sweet anon, with the ability to have a wonderful time! i’m probably gonna cuddle up with my dog and cats while watching the sopranos, psychology/video game essays, bake maybe….. i also may play more pokemon pearl and nintendogs on my 3ds, along with playing more pokemon scarlet!

i may also draw my queen, my goddess, the one and only arlecchino…. i’ve been wanting to draw her for quite a while now so i may do that! she’ll kinda match the silver wolf and imbibitor lunae drawings i have on my desk.

i’m framing this ask….. THANK YOU SO MUCH! i hope you have a fabulous day too!!!! <3333


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1 year ago

pretending to be dead in front of hxh yans. because why the hell not?

Pretending To Be Dead In Front Of Hxh Yans. Because Why The Hell Not?

Warnings: Yandere themes, kidnapping, and implied violence.

Word Count: 900. (this was only supposed to be 400 😭)

*~*~*~*

Chrollo

Chrollo will know right away. There is no doubt about that. Even if he was in another room and just happened to walk in through the doorway as you flopped on the floor like a fish.

He will probably hit you up with a "Darling, get up or we won't go to the museum tonight" or something like that. He likes using this carrot and stick technique quite a lot, but with his own spin on it using his manipulation tactics. He will lure you in with a reward for behaving yourself or take something away when you are bad.

If you continue this charade despite his threats, he will attempt to entertain you for a bit. Maybe he pokes you with the end of an umbrella or something, or mockingly weeps your supposed death. Eventually this will annoy you so much you will surrender.

His response is directly proportional to why you did this. Did you do it for attention? He will gladly give it to you, with reading to you and handfeeding you your favorite food, still warm from its takeout box, or maybe he even attempted to make it himself (though, if the dish doesn't come out as planned, as his perfectionism is a huge part of him, he will throw it out before you even find out he cooked something in the first place).

Did you do it so he would actually think you are dead so you could sneak off to freedom? Well, expect him to tease you about it from this point forward, but nothing serious happens. Unless you attempt to attack him and actually prevail, usually his punishments are bare to none.

Nobunaga

Nobunaga is many things. Being in touch with reality is definitely not one of them. He already sees you as a fragile little baby, so trying to play dead in front of him will cause him to have a panic attack of sorts.

He believes your entire act, as bad as you were doing it. He cries and caresses you in his arms. His crusty, dry lips, unholy body odor, and his utterly disgusting breath will be the only reasons you will ever reveal your cover.

He reacts to you being alive as horribly as you expect. He will start yelling at you, scolding you like a toddler who snuck into the cookie jar and not a captive trying to get back to society once more. If he was already in a somewhat bad mood, like you rejected his advances for the umpteenth time, and he got annoyed at you playing "hard to get" again, expect to even be sent to bed without dinner or dessert. Horrifying, right?

But, then again, dinner is always raw or burnt. You are sometimes convinced Nobunaga is trying to poison you to further immobile you, so you won't attempt to escape further. Maybe this whole playing dead thing was successful, in its own way? You would rather eat pebbles than the halfway cooked rice Nobunaga puts in your pink plastic plate.

Feitan

Feitan just stares at you, not blinking. He already knows what you are trying to do. He already has a staring problem, observing everything you do, from drawing to looking outside the small, barred window in your room, so his reaction, in all honesty, does not surprise you one bit.

He will just go about his day. Feitan is an expert on the human body, being the Troupe's lead torturer and all, so he knows the difference from when you are faking being sick (or in this case dead) from when you are actually sick (a possibility from both the escape attempts and the fact that Feitan's little cabin in the middle of the woods has no heat or air conditioner. He says he does not need it, so he does not recognize it as a problem).

As always, he says nothing. He only sees this as a little bit of a tantrum you're having, and lets you have your way for once. When you eventually give up or when he has had enough of watching you, he'll leave the room to do something else.

But nothing bad happens to you, shockingly. But there is major emphasis on to you. If you have refused to admit defeat, he'll torture yet another poor unfortunate soul in his basement, their screams much louder than usual, and you will break at one point or another, either asking Feitan to stop or going to your room to put your pillow (which can also be a weapon with how hard it is) over your ears.

Machi

Machi, similar to two of the three assfarts, knows exactly what you are doing. But, like Nobunaga, she still worries, although she does not show it, and she also scolds you.

But, unlike the rest of them, she tries to listen to you after she shakes you into revealing yourself. She wants to know why you did that. If you say to try to escape from her, her heart will be broken once again.

Machi may not be the most emotionally understanding, but she does in fact try, although what she does after this incident is largely the opposite of what you wanted to happen. Even though her intentions are good, in her opinion. She will become more present in your life, bringing home more gifts for you and trying to hug you whenever you ask, although she will never initiate it herself.

She hopes you won't do that again. She'll tell you as such. She was not trying to manipulate you with the increase in gifts and consensual touches, but you will feel so bad you won't attempt such a thing from that point forward.


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1 year ago

Never Let Me Down Again.

Yan Nanami x GN Reader.

Synopsis: You have been acting well, and therefore are now treated well. Kento was proud, then, before he found something under the bed that shattered everything he thought of you, everything he thought of the progress you two were making.

Warnings: Yandere themes, kidnapping, some infantilization, and implied violence.

Word Count: 600.

*~*~*~*

Kento finally found out where his old satchel went, after hours of looking for it.

It was under the bed frame, behind hastily and messily put shoes, your shoes to be precise. You rarely use them because Kento never takes you outside, even though he promises he will, those vows always break. Just like how his satchel was never worn, which was cheap and only meant to serve as a bag if there was an emergency where he only could pack a few essentials before running off from danger. He often tells both himself and you that it is too dangerous, with curses around every corner whose population seems to be growing more and more each coming day. 

You’re asleep now, just above the crime that you committed. If Kento was not able to hold his anger, his sorrow at this betrayal, he would have shaken you awake already, screamed at you, because he knows that whatever could possibly be the contents of the near-forgotten pouch is not good, especially for the progress Kento thought you two were making.

Like Pandora and the Pithos Zeus had given her, he could not resist the temptation to see what was within.

What came first was packs of dried fruit and nuts. The small ones that Kento gave you for snacking, when dinner time or lunchtime was not too far away, by an hour or so. There seemed to be at least ten, so at the very least there were ten days you pretended to be hungry so you could put them in the satchel when Kento was not looking. After all, you were not allowed to go into the pantry by yourself, Kento always said that he did not want you to mess up the little organized society he made up of cans and other nonperishable foods. What came next was some cartons of sugar-free fruit juice, which made sense as Kento never has plastic disposable water bottles, preferring to use a water purifier that he keeps near the sink for both him and you to use. Both the food and the drinks you kept in hiding when Kento gave them to you as either a treat for a good job with whatever chores he gave you to do or as a snack when you got hungry when Kento was starting to make dinner or lunch or whatever other meal you two ate together. Despite thinking that you two were making progress, Kento now sees that you have lied to him, and that hurts more than the insults that you hurled his way along with the biting and scratches you gave him when he first stole you away.

Kento has always said how he despises liars, and such values are still held up tightly even when it comes down to you and the rotten words that came out of your mouth. He should wash them out with soap, until you are crying and have the urge to vomit, maybe even use the other tools at his disposal to prove that he is not just brains, but brawn too. Due to your actions, the bond between you and Kento has regressed to its initial stage. It is solely your responsibility for this setback, isn't it?

Upon discovering the concealed knife in the bag amidst everything else, Kento resolves to act according to his fury and animosity, aiming to make you regret every transgression and even regret the very day you were born.


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1 year ago

Hi!!! In my opinion you deserve more followers and I hope you achieve that in the near future! Your writing is amazing and I hope you know that! Also, if you don’t mind of course do you plan on more Childe content? Continuation perhaps of the one before? I found it very unique and I want to know what happens next.😊💕

Hi!!! In My Opinion You Deserve More Followers And I Hope You Achieve That In The Near Future! Your Writing

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

thank you so much!!!!! i literally can’t, people in the yan fanfic community (both writers and readers) especially i feel like are the sweetest people around!

i actually have so much stuff trapped in google docs hell…… it’s genuinely kinda embarrassing. or scary. whichever way the ball rolls.

honestly, for mr. childe, i don’t really have anything… aside from like two things!

-> pray for me (serial killer au inspired by yandere-daydream’s serial killer au!)

-> psycho (modern au yan childe who is a detective with a reader who IS a serial killer)

who knows when those will be out though! i still have a lot of other things to write so….

in related to other genshin works though:

-> a scaramouche x reader fic in the works (set to be 12k at the moment….)

-> a yan zhongli x reader fic (set to be 10k….)

-> and a yan diluc and yan kaeya x reader fic where the reader is an opera singer from fontaine who ran to mondstadt to have more autonomy from their controlling fans and managers! i feel like that would be very interesting! :3 sorta has perfect blue vibes from what i’ve written so far, so that’s fun!

Hi!!! In My Opinion You Deserve More Followers And I Hope You Achieve That In The Near Future! Your Writing

this your man, anon? this your man? 🤨

joking aside, if you want to request a part two you’re welcome to do so! requests are open rn until february 2nd! :D


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1 year ago

" you're just in reach. "

" You're Just In Reach. "

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about me (for funsies) ₊✧⋆⭒˚。⋆

( aya ) ♡ ( she / her ) ♡ ( 18 ) ♡ ( panromantic asexual ) ♡ ( egyptian / puerto rican / native american ) ♡ ( infj 2w1 297 sanguine ) ♡ ( scorpio )

( classic ghost stories complied by vic parker ) ♡ ( conversations with a killer: the ted bundy tapes ) ♡ ( they cloned tyrone ) ♡ ( animal by sir chloe ) ♡ ( fields of mistria ) ( anything goes podcast ) ♡ ( video essays ) ♡ ( history ) ♡ ( pumpkin fields ) ♡ ( skeletons )

main fandoms (ask if i do one not listed!) ₊✧⋆⭒˚。⋆

( hsr / genshin ) ♡ ( jjk ) ♡ ( hunter x hunter ) ♡ ( horror in general ) ♡ ( folklore humanoid creatures ) ♡ ( jojo's bizarre adventure ) ♡ ( bnha )

fav characters at the moment ; chrollo, feitan, childe, capitano, gojo, geto, kafka, aventurine, giorno, dr. ratio

important things to know before requesting!!! ( rules/disclaimer ) ( ao3 ) ( faq )

upcoming works this month (hopefully!) ₊✧⋆⭒˚。⋆

(i'll try to be on top of due dates but depending on word count it may vary!)

cloudbusting (yan chrollo + amnesiac reader) (2k) (8/10/24) dreaming of orgonon (cloudbusting follow up) (2k) (12/10/24) greener grass awaits (yan fatui harbingers) (3k) (33% done) (???) bumblebees are out (yan giorno) (500) (???) roc (yan vampire alhaitham) (500) (???) lacrimosa (yan sunday + ipc reader) (1k) (???) inside god crawls the devil (yan demon chrollo) (5k) love letters (yan college au chrollo) (non-con) (2k) black and blue (yan blade) (500ish) (complete) (7/10/24) magia (yan albedo) (1k) artistic contributions (yan phinks + yan feitan) (3k) holiness consumes rising flames (yan fake god scaramouche) (3k) a sinning savior (yan geto + yan gojo) (5k) solace in you (yan nobunaga) (1k)

events ₊✧⋆⭒˚。⋆

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pfp: machi (hunter x hunter)

header: lust for a vampyr

last updated: 5/10/24

more about me info down below!!

" You're Just In Reach. "

characters people that i have been told are me: makima, angel dust, gojo, stolas, arlecchino, ashley graves, furina, hero, kel, blitzo, moxxie, jinx, sailor moon, verosika mayday, charlie morningstar, hu tao, yoimiya, kaveh, navia, kazuha, firefly, nick nelson, monika, sayori, mirabel madrigal, mari, basil (i don't see most of them, i just find them funny ngl) also apparently i'm normal villager (animal crossing) coded?

string instrument/singing enjoyer. i'm trying to get better at both!!

local chocolate hater

according to some fellow yandere writers chrollo, feitan, shalnark, arlecchino, and hannibal lecter (for some fucking reason??) would love me. i think they may as well have given me the death sentence.

have been told i am the standard sweet/shy girl love interest in dating sims. not sure how to feel.

dostoevsky fan

classical/k-pop/indie music fan

bilingual!! (english, spanish, some arabic/korean)

wannabe cottagecore gay :>


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