"you're So Delulu" "#schizoposting" "narc Abuse" "the Intrusive Thoughts Won" "microdosing On Delusion"

"you're so delulu" "#schizoposting" "narc abuse" "the intrusive thoughts won" "microdosing on delusion" "when the voices tell me to" "she's definitely dissociating" oh my god please shut up please shut the fuck up

Autistics:

"God I'm such an attention whore I'm definitely only doing this for attention" I say, alone, by myself, as I take every possible precaution to hide my relapse from every single person who will see me.

Wild to think some people never question their own sanity. Like they don’t have to worry about memories being distorted or erased bc of trauma, don’t question if a good day is actually a manic day, don’t wonder if someone is mad at them or if it’s paranoia, don’t feel haunted by the notion that their own internal experience is an elaborately fabricated lie they’ve convinced themselves and everyone else of in a bid for attention and special treatment… like imagine just having thoughts without a peanut gallery of demons heckling you all the time

growing up undiagnosed autistic is like 'huh. i wonder why i feel almost like an alien compared to everyone else and why i have this feeling that i'm fundamentally different from everyone else in a way that i can't really comprehend. how peculiar that it feels like everyone just gets these things i cant possibly wrap my head around. its awfully strange how despite also being mocked and ridiculed for being different, people will also tell me that i'm overthinking and i'm just 'normal like everyone else''. and then time passes and then you have The Realization.

oh how beautiful it must be to feel loved.