Give Me Convenience Or Give Me Death!

Give me convenience or give me death!

Behold

had some interesting hallucinations the other day from not taking my meds for a while (not purposely, I am simply struggling to remember lately)

generally my visual hallucinations play into a phobia that will not be mentioned here and involve images superimposed onto my vision (which I never knew was possible until I experienced it, I don't ever look into what schizotypal personality disorder entails so I just sort of experience it and assume what is and isn't part of it later) but the other day I saw things physically in my room. To be honest, if I hadn't already known about my diagnosis and experienced way worse I'd have been a little shocked but it was chill since I knew what was up and they weren't particularly scary to look at. I saw a light person move in my peripheral view, not at the very edge, just not exactly in front. then later that day I saw a butterfly, the large kind with big wings, again completely white, it was by my side and just sort of flapped its wings until i looked at it and it was gone. Again, it would have been concerning if I didn't already know i was schizotypal and off my meds at that moment but since i know i was just like damn, oh well, and moved on.

it was an interesting experience since their bodies were far more real than anything I've ever hallucinated, they were very much physically there in my eyes.

PLEASE ASSIGN NO MEANING TO MY HALLUCINATIONS

IF YOU ARE ALSO SCHIZOTYPAL PLEASE DON'T GET OFF YOUR MEDS JUST TO HALLUCINATE, I PROMISE THE PSYCHOSIS IS NOT WORTH IT, I AM NOT ENDORSING IT BY SHARING MY EXPERIENCE

my Vampire: The Masquerade OC, Esmee she's an old vampire trans woman. she didn't realise she was trans until modern day so she's very early into her transition.

although I am not trans I did get help from a trans girl friend of mine to make her so she would reflect actual trans experiences better. I want to be informed before I do something like this after all.

I made her for a roleplay that has yet to start but I will probably draw her more as it happens, as well as said friend's character.

Ho, Traveller!

how do you people deal with people shouting insults at you for dressing alt?