I Know Your Requests Are Closed And I'm So Sorry If I'm Bothering You Bit I'm Not Feeling The Best Mentally

I know your requests are closed and I'm so sorry if I'm bothering you bit I'm not feeling the best mentally right and your writing is a big comfort for me. Again if you don't want too I understand, but could you write Dazai with a suicidal/depressed reader, he's a really big comfort to me, thank you!!!

Don't worry baby, you're not bothering me, and I'm so honored you feel comfortable enough too ask for something like this. My inbox and DMs are always open if you or anyone wants too talk, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way love, I completely understand, and I really do hope that you feel better soon.

TW- Suicidal Ideation, Mention of Self-Harm, Depressive Episode

-He knew. He knew when you woke up that morning not as affectionate or loving. He knew, when the past couple of days seemed extremely hard for you too get out of bed. He knew when he looked in your eyes and he saw the same yearning for death that stared back at him in his reflection.

-You didn't have too tell him, but when he asked you if you were okay and you just broke in his arms, he knew. He called out of work that day, not even letting Kunikida get a word in as he hung up the call and laid you down in bed, where he proceeded too spend hours with you.

-He wouldn't make you talk about it, he'd ask if you wanted too talk, and he'd listen to everything that you said, wiping your tears away as he pushed the wet sticky strands of hair that were glued to your cheeks behind your ear.

-If you did wanna talk about how you're feeling and how everything just felt so meaningless, like you were doing so much for nothing. He'd listen, he'd listen to every word that left your lips as he nodded and would give his imput or ask a question every so often.

-If you didn't wanna talk about it, he'd understand, he doesn't really talk about his feelings either so he'll just let you lay on him and cry into his chest as much as you need. Softly running his hands through your hair as he pressed soft kisses to the crown of your head.

-He'd keep an eye on you for a while. A couple months if he had too, even if he could tell that you were happy and were no longer having those thoughts and feelings. He can't afford too lose you, you're everything to him. So even if he has too stop going to work for a while, he will. If he needs too take days off work for you and comfort you, he will, if being around him makes you happy, just ask, he doesn't really care that much for paperwork anyway, he'll just ask Atsushi and he really could careless for the consequences. There's a lot of people at the ADA, other people could work cases. You need him and that's all that matters.

-He understands the ugliness of depression, so he understands how you feel, maybe not completely but he can relate quite heavily to the topic, so if you need him too wash your hair as you sit in the bathtub, he will. If you haven't eaten, he'll order something for you, if you're not hungry, he understands but you'll have too eat even if it's a little bit. Just a couple bites and he'll be satisfied.

-If you're someone who likes too, or prefers too be left alone, he understands, because he's the same way. He'll let you be, but he won't leave you alone, he's not comfortable with that. He'll check on you quite a lot, even if it's just an, "are you okay" or a, "do you need anything" that he asks through the door. He's satisfied because he knows you're alive and he can hear you.

-He doesn't mind when the room gets dirty, if you don't have the will too do laundry or too even get up too brush your teeth, he gets it. Especially if he's also in a similar headspace at the time and he doesn't have the mental strength too get up and clean. It'll be dealt with when you both feel better, that's the last thing on his mind as he lays with you in bed, in the quiet room enjoying your soft breath against his neck as he feels your chest rise and fall.

-If you're someone who self-harms and you partake in self-destructive behavior, he'll be more on you. He will not leave your side. He will take everything that could hurt you and he'll hide it. Now, he knows you're an adult and you're capable of making your own decisions, but he can't take any chances, one wrong... move and you could kill yourself, and like I said, he can't take any chances.

-If you take any medications, he'll be the one too give them to you, he doesn't want too make you feel like a child but he understands that when people are in that head-space, they make bad decisions and they're desperate for even the smallest bit of mental release so they'll make themselves feel physical pain, but he can't let you do that.

-If you become actively suicidal and try too attempt on your own life, he will hold you hostage of sorts. He won't tie you up or anything, but he will keep you with him at all points of the day, he'd go days without sleep just too watch you and make sure you're safe. You are no longer allowed too be on your own, he doesn't want you too feel worse by making you think he doesn't trust you, because all he wants is too make sure you're safe. You can cuss and yell at him- even hit him if you need too, but he can't and he won't take those chances.. not with you he won't- he can't.

I will not be posting today, because unfortunately there's a horrible storm and I have no power... there should be a multitude of posts by tomorrow, sorry for the delay.

hello there! just want to drop by and tell you that I enjoy reading your writings, especially those Mikey posts :) if you don't mind, can you do some headcanons about Mikeys with a scientist s/o? Like s/o spends a little more time conducting experiments instead of being with him?

don't forget to take good care of yourself 💕 stay hydrated and have plenty of sleep 👀✨

Thank you baby, that's so sweet of you but my requests are closed right now.

Hi tini beloved!! I’ve been busy but I wanted to stop by and check on you! I see you’ve been writing so how’s your hand doing? And how are you in general? Rememeber to eat and drink water, and take any meds you need to take, and get plenty of rest! 🫶🫶🫶

Hi baby, my hand is good, just slight bruising. I really just want too get these requests out for you guys, although after my requests are done, I want too open my inbox because I've literally read all the yandere Dazai content on here 😠. Plus, Mikeys birthday is the 20th, and I want too get stuff out for that.

What would happen to reader after Manila Mikeys death? Also happy birthday!!!

This is a very interesting question and thank you baby~

I could see this going two different ways, the first would be Manila!Mikey letting you go or he kills you. I'll elaborate don't worry.

If he lets you go, it's because he doesn't have that deep of an attachment to you. In the Manila timeline, Mikey had stated that he wanted too die and when he sent that letter to Takemichi, it's because he wanted Takemichi too end his life, Mikeys life, as said by Mikey himself, has been nothing but suffering for him, he's already killed his friends and a lot of his family is dead, so at this point in his life, he literally has no one. So, he sees no point in living, because for Mikey, there is no reason. His life revolves heavily around his friends and family.. and now they're gone. So, if Manila!Mikey actively wants too die, which he does, he sees no point in keeping you, especially, like I said, if he wasn't even attached to you, because he's not coming back and he knows that, he's known since he sent that letter out.

If he kills you though, there's a very high chance it's because he's in love with you, or at the very least, he's developed a very deep connection with you and he can't stand the thought of letting you go. As I've said before, Mikey is a very possessive person and has a pretty twisted view on relationships, he looks at his friends as possessions almost. Sure, Mikey knows that they're their own people, with their own lives and morals, but Mikey doesn't care. Mikey sees the people around him as an extension of himself. A couple examples being, when Pah lost that fight to Osani. Mikey said that Toman belonged to him and as long as he had it's back, none of them were ever gonna lose. Another example would be with Kazutora, Mikey told Kazutora that he belonged to him and that all of Kazutoras pain was Mikeys too take on. Now, while that can be sweet in a different context, I think Mikey means it in an ownership type of way, and if you are so deeply bonded with Manila!Mikey, then you're not gonna leave him, even in death, you're his.

when you’re reading fanfiction and you get so involved in the story you start imagining different scenarios in that same universe and then it’s fanfiction fanfiction