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im hungry and lazy and bored what do i do

2% im stealing my sisters fucking charger ill be back in like 10m ig to let this charge

i jsut wnan be a cat

head empty purr purr meow meow

do wtvr

Pov: You are a cat

how me n my sister hug after she tells on my dad that i tried to throw a chair at her

They’re having a moment

yes

i have no life i finished my notes now im draining my phone lets go

Art by theother.s.i.d.e

no this was me fr dragging my dad around the snack aisles in the grocery

(via)

on sept 1st filos like me have our christmas lights up while blasting jose mari chan

WHY. WHY.

HWY EHWYWHYWNWUEHEYWHGDJSHWJW NWHYYY WHYYYYY

WHY OF ALL FUKCING SUBJECTS DO I HAVE TO START THE UFCKING DAY WITH FUCKING MATHHHHH

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also pls theres indoor sportsday with thurs i dont ufkcong know how to play chess

i could watch this all day

cleaning my drafts and i don’t even remember when i wrote this orhow long i had this saved

i should be speedrunnig my notes why the fuck am i procrastinatign on tumblr

got class in 8hrs and im not fukcing sleeping 💪💪💪

GIRL FRIEND - CHOI SOOBIN

bf!soobin x fem!reader

in which your relationship with your boyfriend starts breaking into pieces as his girl best friend tries to get between the two of you, and for the first time in your relationship with Soobin, you start feeling insecure.

wc 4.1k

warnings angst, pet names, established relationship, featuring an oc Amy as Yeonjun's girlfriend and oc Dae as Beomgyu's girlfriend, soobin has a female friend called Micha, Soobin does mess up a lot, kinda misunderstanding ig(??), there's a few (a lot) texting parts but I was too lazy to make an actual fake text so hopefully it's not unreadable

↪ izzy speaks... rewrote one of my old fics again so if you feel like you've seen this before on a different app, it's from my wattpad acc. I wanted to give you guys something to read while I work on other stories so you don't have to wait too long, so here it is :))

You had been sitting in the restaurant for more than twenty minutes already, trying to decide if you should leave and cry yourself to sleep or call him. Honestly, the first option sounded better. You didn’t even want to hear from him anymore. 

Still, you found the courage and unlocked your phone, opening your contacts. You called once. No response. You called for the second time, letting it ring longer. Still, no response. You could feel the anxiety building up as the phone call went into the mailbox, your boyfriend’s voice echoing in your ear as the pre-recorded line told you to leave a message, promising something about him trying to reach back to you soon. 

Your mind was a mess. Did something happen to him? Was he okay? Should you call the hospital and ask if he wasn’t there? Or was he completely okay and just decided to ignore you? 

While your mind was full of thoughts, your phone buzzed with a few new messages, making you come back to reality. 

Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 19:46 ]

Soobie boobie luvie <3 Hii baby, what’s up??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am sorry, I can’t pick up the phone rn  [ you ] Oh  [ you ] What are you doing?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am with Mi  you Micha?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Mhmm  Soobie boobie luvie <3 She and her boyfriend had an argument  Soobie boobie luvie <3 So she asked if she could come hang out for a bit  Soobie boobie luvie <3 We’re rewatching jjk  [ you ] Oh Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love are u okay?  [ you ] Yeah sure  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You don’t sound too fine  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Do you want to come here too?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You could sleep over Soobie boobie luvie <3 I have cookies  [ you ] No, I'm good [ you ] Have fun :))  [ you ] I think I might ask Yeonjun or Beomgyu to hang out  [ you ] Maybe they could come to my fav onigiri place with me Soobie boobie luvie <3 Sure <3  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Call me later?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I love you lots    [ you ] Mhmm

bestiesss <3  [ 20:12 ]

[ you ] Is anyone free rn? [ you ] Please [ you ] Or I might cry [ you ] For the plot ofc ✌️😙 Jjunnie Girl are you good?? Kaikai What’s going on?? Ams Babes why are we crying Jjunnie Where are you?  Jjunnie At least turn on your location so I can come pick u up with Amy [ you ] You don’t need to pick me up [ you ] I just want to hang out withsomeone  Gyu (rat) Can’t text Soobin??  [ you ] He might or might not be the reason why I want to cry so no  Ams What did he do Imma beat him up [ you ] You don’t need to haha [ you ] Enjoy your night with Yeonjun :)) [ you ] Kai, are you free?? Kaikai Yeah sure I can be whenever soon Gyu (rat) I am coming too 😙😙 Gyu (rat) To annoy the shit out of you and makeyou laugh <3 [ you ] Love you guys <333

It took less than ten minutes for the two boys to come into the onigiri place. Good thing they were open until nine. You smiled, moving your stuff away from the chair beside you so they could sit down comfortably. 

“Okay, girl, give me the gossip,” Beomgyu proclaimed immediately as he slid into the chair next to you. Kai simply sat on the opposite side, his eyes as curious as Beomgyu’s. You sighed, taking out your phone again. “Just look at it. I’m going to order another piece to make myself at least a little happy,” you proclaimed, trying to sound as jokingly as possible, but you knew you weren’t doing the best job. You opened the chat for them before standing up from your chair, smiling at them once more to assure them you were fine when you saw the look on their faces. “Wait, put it on my card,” Huening proclaimed, reaching into his pocket for his wallet. “You don’t need to,” you shook your head, but before you could even blink, you had his card in front of you. 

“Aww, you love me!” Beomgyu exclaimed as if he were alone in the shop. You hit his shoulder immediately. “That’s what you got from the conversation?” 

“Well, I just saw that you want to hang out with me, so of course,” he grinned proudly, making you roll your eyes. “I am sorry,” Kai said, pity in his voice. “It’s all good. You guys are here now instead,” you smiled, trying to make it as genuine as possible. 

“Okay, but on a serious note–” Beomgyu started again, making you raise your eyebrow. Those were words you couldn't ever imagine coming from his mouth. “Shut up,” he glared at you before you could say anything about it. He knew exactly what you were thinking. “I knew he was an idiot, but this is another level of idiot. You even mentioned this place in the texts. He could have figured it out. I don’t know. I wouldn’t ditch my girl for a different hoe,” he said proudly. 

“You don’t need to talk about how great of a boyfriend Dae has again,” Kai stopped him before he could open his mouth again. “Just saying,” Gyu shrugged. 

“Yeah, I wouldn’t ditch him either,” you mumbled, taking a bite of your new onigiri. “Why don’t you just text him you had plans? Maybe he would come after all,” Huening suggested, but Beomgyu simply shook his head, deciding to answer instead. “Why would she want a boy who needs to hear he shouldn’t hang out with a different girl when they have plans.” 

“Exactly,” you nodded. “And he is already with her. What would he do? Kick her out? I don’t think so.” 

“I am going to text him,” Beomgyu stated suddenly, making both you and Kai look his way, your eyes widening. “Don’t, oh my fucking god.” 

“No, trust me. I’ll either prove that he is an absolute asshole or you’ll get your date.” 

“I don’t think that’s a good idea–” Huening tried to stop him, but when he saw Beomgyu already taking out his phone, he just sighed, exchanging a glance with you. 

Soob :]   [ 20:37 ]

Gyu :] Dude what are you doing  Gyu :] And omfg you better not bring up fucking Micha again   Soob :] Okay hello to you too??  Soob :] Since when do you have a problem with her??  Gyu :] Since like now  Gyu :] Why am I the one hanging out with your GIRLFRIEND instead of you?? Soob :] She said she wanted to hang out with you what are you talking about  Soob :] I told her she could come to my place and sleep here  Gyu :] Just stop talking and come here  Gyu :] shared location Soob :] I am with Micha rn tho  Gyu :] Is she more important than your girlfriend??  Soob :] No??  Gyu :] Then get your ass here  Soob :] I can’t just leave her here  Soob :] And you’re with her right now  Soob :] You can still drop her off at mine when you guys are done talking though??  Gyu :] Omfg you really are an ass  Soob :] What did I do??? 

“Okay so we came to the conclusion that he is an ass,” Gyu sighed, dropping his phone on the table, getting a headache from him. It didn’t matter to him that Soobin was his best friend. If he was being stupid, Beomgyu wasn’t going to be on his side. Especially when he knew his girlfriend didn’t deserve it at all. 

“Whatever,” you sighed, not even daring to raise your head and face any of the two. “Do you want to go buy a chocolate? Or ice cream?” Kai suggested, feeling sorry for you. “No, I'm good. Can anyone drop me off, though? I took a taxi here because I thought he would take me back later.” 

“I got it,” Beomgyu proclaimed, glancing over at Kai. “Want me to drop you off at Amy’s?” 

“No, no, I am just going to go home. She’s with Yeonjun anyway.” 

The three of you sat in silence the whole car ride. Even Beomgyu, who went there with the thought of cheering you up, was too scared to say anything. He was worried his jokes could make you feel even worse. 

You hugged Kai goodbye as you stepped out of the car, smiling at them and thanking them for coming to see you. But your smile dropped the second you heard the car driving off, feeling your eyes watering. You didn’t want to cry. It was just a stupid date, after all. But you couldn’t stop your tears, no matter how much you tried. 

You quickly wiped your tears off, looking at your phone again, deciding to call him. 

“Hey, love,” he greeted you immediately, and you could hear the smile on his face as he said it. You smiled a bit, too, greeting him back. “Are you still with Micha?” You asked, unlocking the front door of your apartment. “She left a few minutes ago,” he answered. “Are you coming home now? Can I come by? I want to see you.” 

You thought for a while, closing the door behind yourself. “I am kinda tired. Maybe tomorrow?” You suggested, dropping off your coat in the hallway and going straight into your room. “Ah, sorry, I already promised Micha we would hang out, and before that, I have work. I can come sometime after dinner, though? We could watch something.” 

“Right,” you mumbled, putting the phone on speaker and throwing it onto your bed so you could get changed into your pajamas. “We’ll see, I guess.” 

“Hey, Soobin,” you started again, making him freeze for a moment when he heard his first name. It might have been the first time he heard you call him Soobin since the day he asked you to be his girlfriend. He was always Soob, or Soobie, not Soobin. “I’m going to sleep now, but can you check our shared calendar later?” 

“Mhm, of course,” he nodded, still trying to figure out what he did for you to call him Soobin. “Good night, baby. I love you.” 

“I love you too,” you said, hanging up right after. You jumped into your bed, staring at the ceiling for a while, sorting all your thoughts. Eventually, when you saw Soobin blowing up your phone, you turned it off, getting up again to do your hygiene before going to bed. 

Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 21:24 ]

Soobie boobie luvie <3 BABY I AM SO SORRY  Soobie boobie luvie <3 PLEASE  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I know I fucked up Soobie boobie luvie <3 I should have remembered  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Oh god I should have come right away when you called me  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am so so so sorry  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please answer :(  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll come over, what do you think? Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please love  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I swear I didn’t mean to  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I can tell Micha we can’t hang out tomorrow and take you out instead

Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 07:56 ]

Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love :((  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please answer me  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I want to talk to you  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I can come on my lunch break  [ you ] Soobie it’s fine  [ you ] I made plans with Amy after our call last night so you don’t have to cancel any of your plans  [ you ] We can just see each other later :)  Soobie boobie luvie <3 It’s not fine at all though  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll come by on my lunch break, yea?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll get you flowers  Soobie boobie luvie <3 And something good to eat too Soobie boobie luvie <3 I swear I am never going to forget about our date again alright?  [ you ] Okay :))  [ you ] I love you soob <3  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I love you too my love

♡⸝⸝

bestiesss <3  [ 17:45 ]

Ams Never  Ams And I mean NEVER  Ams Trust a man  Jjunnie HEY  Ams You’re a liar too so shush  Jjunnie :(((  [ you ] I just don’t get it [ you ] Am I not enough anymore?? Ams That’s it I am coming to beat his ass  Gyu (rat) Can I watch  Dae<3 Boi  Gyu (rat) Yes my love 😍  [ you ] Fuck you :((  Gyu (rat) Hey I didn’t do anything  [ you ] You don’t act like that with her when I am not around [ you ] You just want to rub it in my face :(  Dae<3 Actually he does act like that nonstop  Dae<3 But hey that’s just because he is a weirdo so don’t mind him  [ you ] Okay great now she’s on his story  Jjunnie Wtfff  Jjunnie I should kick his ass too  Jjunnie Why the hell is he with her again

unknown  [ 17:54 ]

unknown Heyy girlieee  unknown Micha here :))  unknown I am with Soob right now and I saw him trying to call you so I am just reaching out because he looks really sad  unknown I don’t know exactly what you did to him but maybe next time think about him too yeah?  unknown He wanted to ask you to join us but I don’t think that’s a good idea  unknown After you’ve been so bitchy and you know  unknown He told me before that he couldn’t see me because of you?? Like that’s some mad controlling behavior  unknown Good thing I can just cry a bit and he comes running to me  unknown Anyway, there is no need to come here  unknown We are having a great time without you

bestiesss <3  [ 17:58 ]

[ you ] Okay stop she is texting me now Gyu (rat) Hope she khs 😙  Dae<3 GYU  Gyu (rat) I wish her the worst <3  Ams Give me her number ASAP  Jjunnie Alright now she pissed of Amy Jjunnie she really is getting the worst

Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 18:04 ]

[ you ] Soobin I can’t anymore Soobie boobie luvie <3 Wdym??  [ you ] This  [ you ] You can’t even type it out anymore??  [ you ] And her  [ you ] Why are you bowling with Micha when we were supposed to go out today??  [ you ] When you texted me it was an emergency and that you couldn’t make it today I thought something bad happened but turns out you just want to be with a different girl  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love it’s not like that  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You know she is just a friend  [ you ] Is she??  [ you ] Why does she get to see you more often than I do then??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Come on you’re overreacting now  [ you ] Am I??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Baby just… Soobie boobie luvie <3 Wait a bit  Soobie boobie luvie <3 We’ll be done soon and I'll come to see you so we can talk about this okay?  [ you ] No not okay  [ you ] Remember when you told me you felt insecure about my relationship with Ryan before you found out he is gay?? I feel the exact same way  [ you ] But you don’t listen to me at all  [ you ] Last week I asked you not to go to lunch with her but you went anyway  [ you ] Then I wanted to come over  [ you ] But you were too busy listening to her troubles  [ you ] And now you are ditching me for her again  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Baby it’s different  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You would listen to Amy too if she got into an argument with Yeonjun  [ you ] I wouldn’t lie to you about it tho??  [ you ] And definitely wouldn’t go if I knew it made you uncomfy  [ you ] Soobin this is not the first time I’m bringing it up to you  [ you ] And respectfully tell her to stop fucking texting me or I’ll be rude  [ you ] She has no right to talk to me about my relationship 

Soobin glanced over from his phone at the girl in front of him. She was laughing at how badly she threw the bowling ball before she looked at him again, telling him it was his turn. “Did you text my girlfriend?” He asked, her smile suddenly dropping. “Well, yeah,” she shrugged. “You’ve been looking like someone died this whole time, so I just let her know you called. And that if she doesn’t want to show up, it’s fine, too, since we are having so much fun.” 

“Mi, this is none of your business,” he proclaimed, his voice suddenly stronger than she ever felt, angrier. She gulped, her whole body tensing from nervousness. “I’ve been sad the whole day because I miss my girlfriend. Which, by the way, is kind of your fault.” 

“I’m…sorry?” 

“Whatever,” he sighed, his fingers running through his hair. “You feel all better now, no? I need to go see her now.” 

“Wait– but what about–” she tried to stop him, even grabbing the hem of his shirt, but he just shook her off. “We are not like that, Micha. Do not touch me ever again.” 

“But I thought…” she started, letting go of his shirt when she saw the look in his eyes. She fucked up. “You were so nice to me. And that night when my boyfriend broke up with me, you–” 

“I hugged you. Like any friend would. It was nothing more than that and never will,” he interrupted her. “For fucks sake, I have a girl who I love with my whole heart, what were you even thinking??” 

“I don’t know! Maybe that you were having a hard time too when you were with me so much! I thought you liked me!” 

“Well, I don’t.” 

She stared at him for a while, trying to reach for his hand but he dodged her, not even looking back and walked away, leaving the bowling alley soon after when he grabbed his stuff. 

“You should not be calling me right now. I am on your girlfriend’s side in this,” Yeonjun proclaimed when he picked up Soobin’s call. “I know, I know, I’m team girlfriend, too. Always. So please, help me not lose her while I can still save it.” Yeonjun sighed. “Alright, what is your plan?” 

♡⸝⸝ 

It might have been the worst night you ever had. Tightly holding onto your pillow, your back against the wooden headboard, with a box of ice cream on your night table as you let tears run down your face, you couldn’t even think properly. Your mind was full of the happy moments you had spent with your boyfriend, making you smile, until you remembered how he laughed with Micha. You felt terrible. Terrible for not seeing it sooner, and for being so delusional and thinking his eyes were on you only. 

You didn’t even notice the night turn into another day as you sat on your bed. But as you saw the light peeking through your window, you knew it was time to come back to the real world. You had work to attend. You still had your daily life to live. 

So, in order to concentrate and do that, you decided it was for the best to ignore all his calls. 

You never hung up on him. You waited till it stopped ringing, watching his contact name disappear again as a new voicemail popped up on your screen. You didn’t open any of his messages, turning your phone off for the rest of the day when he started spamming you with texts during your meeting. 

It was for the best to ignore him. 

You tried to convince yourself, but every time you had a free minute at work, your eyes wandered to your phone, wishing for his name to pop up on your screen again. 

You needed to do something. Yell at him, cry, or even just hug him. 

But it felt like it was too late for that now. 

As if you had fucked up everything you could. 

♡⸝⸝ 

You sat on your bed again, scrolling through e-shops while waiting for Yeonjun to come over. He called you not so long ago, saying he was taking you out. You tried to refuse at first, but he wasn’t giving up, so it was eventually you who gave in. You haven't heard anything from Soobin since the afternoon, and honestly, it was stressing you out. You really needed Yeonjun to come and get your mind somewhere else. Somewhere where you wouldn’t need to think about the handsome giant Soobin was. 

But Yeonjun thought differently. 

“Where are we going?” You wondered, looking out of the car’s window. “Coffee shop,” he finally admitted, stopping at the red light in front of him. Your eyes widened as you looked at him. “You’re taking me to get coffee? Stop, I love you.” He laughed, shaking his head at you. 

Yeonjun parked his car in front of his favorite café, getting out of the car first so he could help you out. You simply smiled at him when he opened the door for you, jumping out of the car and looking around the place. You thought you tried out every café shop possible already, but turns out this one was still an exception. 

“Thank you. For everything,” you smiled at him as he locked the car’s door. “No need,” he shook his head. “Go inside and order something nice. I am going to call Amy real quick, okay?” You nodded to him, not saying anything else, and simply walked into the café. 

That was when you saw him in the corner, a cup of coffee already in front of him. You sighed, glancing outside at Yeonjun, who was mounting for you to join him there. You took a deep breath before turning around again and walking towards the table of two the black-haired boy occupied. 

“Hey,” you smiled a bit, catching his attention immediately. 

“Hey, love,” he smiled, his smile making you melt almost immediately. He moved the cup of iced coffee closer to you as you sat down before glancing at Yeonjun outside, exchanging some looks with him. 

“What’s this?” You asked, taking the cup of coffee and taking a sip right away. 

“I needed to see you,” he proclaimed. “Soobin,” you breathed out, the nervousness in him building up with each second. “Wait, let me talk first, please.” You calmly nodded to him, shifting in your place to sit more comfortably. “You can scream at me all you want after or do whatever you feel like in the moment, but let me just say a few things first.” 

“So, first of all, I blocked her. Everywhere. And I know it doesn’t apologize for anything I did until now, but I wanted you to know. She said something about thinking we were more than just friends earlier, so I turned her down immediately. I told her not to get close to me again and that I love you. I am so sorry for not seeing it before and doing things I shouldn’t. I wish I could change everything. I never wanted to make you uncomfortable and make you feel like I did. I just…, I don’t know,” he breathed out. 

“I don’t have any excuses. I know I behaved like an absolute asshole, and you have all rights to be mad at me and even break up with me if that’s what you want to do, but I hope you don’t because I have no idea what I’d do without you,” Soobin started talking faster and faster, making it almost impossible for you to understand what he was saying. Yet, you found your lips curving into a smile as you listened to his chaotic yap. 

You sat silently during his speech and even a bit after he finished, eventually reaching for his hand on the table. “I don’t want to break up with you,” you assured him. “I just…I don’t know either, if I am honest,” you sighed. “I am glad you cut her off, though. I don’t want to sound like I don’t want you to have friends. That’s not it at all, but I simply… felt so insecure when I saw you two together,” you admitted. “I felt like I wasn’t enough,” you whispered. 

“Love, you are more than I deserve,” he assured you. “I promise I won't ever make you feel like that again. And if I do, for whatever reason, tell me immediately, and I will do everything I can to change it. Nothing is more important to me than making you comfortable.” 

“Okay,” you nodded, smiling. “Let’s just go home now, please,” he said, squeezing your hand in his. “Let’s do that,” you agreed, standing up from your place and leaning towards him. 

In that moment, with your hands intertwined and your lips gently pressed on his, you felt like the whole world stopped spinning for a moment. As if it was just the two of you in the café, both nineteen again, as you kissed for the first time, confessing your love to each other. His kiss made you forget about everything bad that ever happened between you, leaving only the happy memories. 

“Let’s go home, Soobie,” you mumbled against his lips, smiling as he breathed out in relief. Only then did you realize it was always you and your boyfriend against the world until the very end.

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a kiss from soobin would literally cure me i fear

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some kid passed by my table and pointed at the box and laughed "hahaha mom dad look they made a smiley face" I FUCKIGN BALWED WHEN THEY LEFT THE STORE