My Random Analysis About Muteki Song Meaning (Part 3)

My Random Analysis about Muteki Song Meaning (Part 3)

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Finally it's finish... and sorry for the long wait...

Warning : MANGA SPOILERS, My grammar is bad, My Japanese is also bad, don't trust my analysis perfectly, typos

“I can’t even notice beautiful things”

“The clown monster that I was forced to know will try to tame me”

“I’m sure it will gently bare its fangs”

“My heart began to shrink, with an ambivalent sense of justice and evil”

“With love even in the despair that there is no eternity”

Sakura didn’t realize that his friends were all trusting him, the beautiful things that Sakura can’t even notice because of Sakura's distrust and fear of rejection. ‘The clown monster’ is symbolized as Sakura's fear of rejection that always haunts him, that ‘the clown monster’ will surely someday bare its fangs to Sakura. We can see this from chapter 60, Sakura believes that the only path that will allow him to accept who he is just as wide as a tightrope. 

“My heart began to shrink, with an ambivalent sense of justice and evil”

“With love even in the despair that there is no eternity”

First, we need to know what this word are talking about : 

Shrink, ambivalent, and eternity. Okay, so english is not my native language, and I need to search the meaning from google first, and I got this conclusion.

Shrink as a verb is to become smaller, or to make something smaller, meanwhile as a noun is a clinical psychiatrist or psychologist. called also headshrinker. And, I think you guys know what I mean.

Ambivalent : having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone.

Eternity : time without end, or infinity.  

Sakura knew that he had to trust his friends more, and rely on them more. But, he is scared people will leave him because of what he views as ‘weak’, he refuses to admit it, this is why Sakura’s heart began to ‘shrink’, and ambivalence began to emerge in his heart. We can take reference from chapter 58 of the manga. 

Kaji gave a really good explanation for Sakura, if you guys forgot. Kaji uses a coffee bottle as an example, when Kaji changed the labels on the coffee bottle to Green Tea, Kaji still viewed this as a coffee bottle. The Green Tea label is a metaphor as the outer side of Sakura, where Sakura insists that he can do anything alone, he refuses to believe that.

And, the Coffee inside it, it’s a metaphor as what Sakura understands. Sakura understands that he can’t do this alone, he can’t do much on his own, and he has to rely on his friends more. 

“... How much you insist that this is Green Tea… to me, the inside is still coffee. Just changing the label… doesn’t mean that what’s inside changes. So, when you can’t do something and you refuse to admit it… then, it’s the same… as faking and insisting that this is Green Tea… when the inside is coffee.” Kaji to Sakura at chapter 58.

So, when Sakura confronted all of his friends, all of his classmates. That’s when Sakura begins to trust all his classmates, he begins to ‘love’ the place where he can stand so easily. Like, look at him, he laughing, and smiling for the first time in the manga. 

But, He knew that there’s no eternity in this place, everything is going to change, and what Sakura fears is that Makochi, and Furin are going to suffer because of him. Literally this part reminds me of chapter 145, and chapter 146, where Sakura almost falls into despair. Look at Sakura eyes at the beginning chapter 146, and the end of chapter 146. He looked so down, he almost fell into despair, but glady Suo, Nirei, and Tsugishita helped him. This can be seen in chapter 146 cover chapter.  

“Wobbly and tattered, I still wanted to stand”

“If only I could meet you with bare love”

“Taking unders and heaving dead, because it’s worse than that, I’m invincible”

“An outsider full of traumas, even it it’s devilish”

Aaaaaaaaaa I've always wanted to cry at these lyrics, my heart… okey, let’s get back to the point.

Even after what happened in the past, Sakura still wanted to understand people more, he still didn't want to give up yet. He said, he already gave up on being accepted, being judged, and he doesn’t care about what others think of him now. So, why is Sakura still thinking about the others leaving him alone? Well, that’s because he still wanted to ‘stand’, he still wanted to face the others.

Of course, it’s not only that, Sakura still wanted to stand and protect Furin, even though he was wobbly and tattered, and this brings us to the next lyrics. If only Sakura can love Furin with all his heart, maybe he can face them without hesitation. He can see the others as who they are, no more the feeling of being scared of being rejected, and he can trust them on what he can see. He… can stand freely.

 “Taking unders and heaving dead, because it’s worse than that, I’m invincible” 

For the sake of God… time to brainrot my brain again.

Oh, wait… nevermind, now I remember Umemiya said to Sakura that he will never lose to reach the top. Now, you see what I see.

Remember, when the Shishitoren arc finish, the geng plus Choji and Togame having a picnic, yeah that’s what I’m talking about. ‘Taking unders and heaving dead’ also can be seen as ‘give up’. For reaching the top, Umemiya told Sakura, that no matter how difficult the path, no matter how unreasonable the climb is, and no matter how absurd it gets, he will never lose. 

And, because of that, giving up became something that is worse, because if sakura gave up now (fighting Endo), he couldn’t reach the top. And, so once again “I’m invincible” has another meaning, this has become more than just a sentence, but it’s become a declaration, and promise. A declaration that Sakura will never give up again, and a promise to reach the top.

“An outsider full of traumas, even it it’s devilish”

Before, Sakura is just some random outsider that comes into the town, bringing full of traumas on his shoulders alone. Viewed as someone who is ‘devilish’, we can see this as problematic, or even troublesome. Sakura, and the society view Sakura as problematic, and troublesome to deal with, and we can see that clearly in the first eps of the anime, and the entire series of the manga.

“I want to protect you, I want to love you, my heartbeat makes me cry”

“The smell of blood sweetly wafts, malice stretches out”

“I want to hold you tight for the last time to the point of breaking”

But, he wanted to protect, and love with all his heart the place where he belonged to, the place where he cherished, and open up his heart. “my heartbeat” can be seen as Sakura without any hesitation went to Shishitoren teritory, Roppo-Ichiza, and Gravel, all of this just for the sake of Furin, his friends, and the place where he belongs. 

“makes me cry” because Sakura doesn’t want to lose all of this, he realizes how precious Furin and Makochi are for him, so it’s okay for him to cry, and begging the other team to help him, because the important thing is that Furin is still safe. 

“The smell of blood sweetly wafts, malice stretches out”

Time to remind you guys that english is not my native language… so it’s time to google again…

Malice : the intention or desire to cause harm (as death, bodily injury, or property damage) to another through an unlawful or wrongful act without justification or excuse.

I… okey this reminds me of Endo…idk, because the next lyrics is literally about Sakura wanting to hold tight on his friends. Okay, let’s talk about that later. 

Idk why, but maybe this lyrics is talking about the Noroshi arc (yeah, I know it’s not the arc name but idk I'm too lazy to read the whole manga again).

The malice this lyrics is talking about, is about Noroshi. Noroshi is the ‘malice’, but mainly it’s about Endo, and ‘the smell of blood sweetly wafts’ is talking about Sakura. From the beginning of the arc, Sakura is already being targeted by Endo itself. 

Wafts : The scent of climbing roses wafts through the window.

For Endo, Sakura has the same spark as Takiishi, because of that these lyrics make more sense (I think?), and Endo wanted to have Sakura on his side. Like we see in the manga. So, the next lyrics make more sense, Sakura wanted to hold on with his own two hands, he wanted to hold tight his friends. Even if it means he almost went broke. 

Because…

“I won’t look away from your eyes anymore”

He won’t look away from his friends anymore, this time he won’t fall to the abyss for the second time, because his friends are there to hold his hand tight. 

So, Sakura will face it, he won’t look away anymore. Let’s take chapter 1 and chapter 146 as examples of it. At first Sakura is scared to look at Kotoha and the people in town, he looks at them, but he gets scared, then glances away.

But, then at chapter 146, Sakura is facing Sugishita. No more fear in his eyes, he stood there with confidence. You guys can see the parallels of chapter 1 and chapter 146,  btw there are some Tumblr users who realize this before me, so I’m gonna copy the link for you guys. 

Anyway, in the ending scene, there’s Umemiya. You know, the fact that the animator showing Umemiya at the beginning and the end of the scene is literally perfect. Umemiya tells Sakura that he was given the status, he doesn't take it, he can’t become the top alone. And that is why the opening shows Umemiya, that’s because Umemiya teaches, Umemiya becomes the mentor itself.

There is also one Tumblr user who has the theory that Umemiya chose Sakura to be the next leader, and that is a good theory.

This also happened at chapter 55 and chapter 59, Umemiya told Sakura that he liked all of his friends, and at chapter 59 Umemiya encouraged Sakura to trust his friends more. 

“Sakura. The reason why you couldn’t move… was probably because you saw your friends all beat up. Don’t ya think? If that’s the case… then there’s only one reason why that happened. It’s because… you like them.” Umemiya to Sakura at chapter 55.

“Trust Kaji. Trust your friends. And jump right out there… with everything you’ve got!” Umemiya to Sakura at chapter 59.

Conclusion : 

I love this song, Young Kee did a really good job of explaining Sakura's feelings with the song. 

Sakura is really one of the complexes I love, well not really complex if you compare it with Monster characters.But if it’s Shounen we’re talking about, then yes. Like bro, I really like how Satoru nii-sensei portrayed Sakura struggles with drawing, and how he is learning to accept who he is, learning to see his friends based on what he sees, the struggles and the anxiety that make me move.

Anyway thank you to Jamong for the lyrics translation on youtube,

Lyrical-Nonsense , and

MatchLyric

People who liked and read this nonsense paragraph. Like, I type this analysis in Google docs, and it’s almost 12 pages. Like wtf men, this is pure blabbering nonsense I say.

But, anyway, thank you, and see you guys on my next fanart then :333

PS :

I think it's time for me to go back at Twisted Wonderland fandom, and I'm still grinding for Floyd card... help...

Suooooo

I'm sorry Suo fans... this one (the art) is kinda... idk...

And I don't have a fucking clue what I'm doing... with this art...

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I don't know what to draw... soo, eyes...

My New (Remake) TWST OC

Meet Ell, the very tired perfect :)

Don't be deceive from this little one apperence... because Ell is actually a girl. Yeah no joke here.

Quite expressive (or not) depending on the situation at hand.

Some little trivia here :

Her real name is Elysia, but people at NRC call her Ell because she don't trust people at Twisted Wonderland from the start. Plus NRC is a all boys school soo...

Ell is not a picky eater, she eat whatever is is as long it's edible. She likes sweets, like candy, ice cream, or some cookies.

Ell doesn't really care about her apperence, but she keep pretending to be a boy.

She already tired becoming therapist for NRC boys, and still find a way to go home to the real world.

Her birthday is 1 November, her height is 160 cm (same a Riddle) and her age is 15.

She doesn't trust Crowley from the start, and later Ell wanted to burn Crowley down to death (with Grim fire of course!)

Quite pessimistic about Crowley, and the way for her to go back home.

Ell rarely talk about herself in front of Adeuce.

She hate become 'weak' and be a burden, so she put a guard of around everyone.

She can fight 🙃

People in the real world scared of her eyes, and in her view her parents doesn't really care about her.

Ps : Ell parents is really busy because of there work at the goverment, so Ell doesn't really know about her parents that much, and rarely get parental love.

Ell favorite subject is History Of Magic, and from the start Ell like history.

She don't like to be alone.