Halfway Through The Day And I'm Absolutely Exhausted By My Own Existence..

Halfway through the day and I'm absolutely exhausted by my own existence..

Mentally I'm being tossed around the room like a fucking ragdoll and I can't seem to do shit to get the feelings and emotions under control.

I've really, really tried to avoid it but I might have to consider getting on antipsychotics again or something cause fuck me, this is a disaster.. and it's not getting any better. 💀

Sleeping habits have been *chef's kiss* terrible lately.. 💀

Channelling my inner househusband for laundry day.. lol 💀

[A lil tip of silent communication to my anxious peeps out there..]

Was standing in the supermarket earlier today and whilst trying to not let my social anxiety take over completely I got reminded of something that might be helpful for someone else struggling with that, panic attacks or getting overwhelmed in general while out and about..

I have a hard time with shit like that and have on many occations fully blacked out and kissed the floor when trying to keep it together.

Me and my former partner [both of us aspies, both with social anxiety and neither very talkative, expecially when we started to shut down mentally] had this silent communication for alerting the other that we were about to freak out in crowded/tight/noisy places. We'd hold hands and give each other morse code like signals by squeezing the other persons hand with a couple different patterns. For example two fast sqeezes and one long meant "this is starting to get overwhelming" and three fast ones x2 meant "we need to get out of here right now" whereto the person receiving the signal would drag the other away from the situation.

Not really anything mindblowing, but it did help us both a lot in situations were we couldn't/didn't want to say anything out loud..

Today's anthem:

Fya Bryte - Where the weed is