I Didn't Knew That To Fill The Empty Feeling And Void In Myself I Needed To Watch A Show With Girl Soccer

I didn't knew that to fill the empty feeling and void in myself I needed to watch a show with girl soccer team stranded in a jungle, plane crash, woman in love with woman, love as in that consuming feeling for the other person may they be your lover or best friends, you dont know where they end and you begin, mystical jungle force with creepy signs, schizophrenic visions, cults, sever long lasting mental trauma, cannibalism but in a explainable way, antler queen.

Did i menationed girls surviving together? Girls loving girls? 🖤🖤🖤

I'm struggling

like i don’t think that we discuss how thoroughly wrecked poor jeyne westerling must be enough. because this poor girl grew up in a decaying noble family with an ambitious, lowborn mother trying to marry her to one of kevan lannister’s sons and the lannisters were like eh not really interested. you have zero money and tainted blood so we’ll pass. 

and then after all these years of rejection this beautiful boy about her age rides into her broken down keep and he’s this gallant king all the singers have been talking about and well, he’s the enemy but he’s so damn nice about it, right? and he’s my age and he’s cute and he’s sweet and really this is like something out of a song. 

and then robb’s just holding the castle for a while and they’re probably a flirt flirting and it’s cute and sweet, but then robb gets the news about bran and rickon and she tries to comfort him and WELL HERE WE GO THERE’S A SEX NOW and there has to be this fear that nothing will come of it, right? she’s jeyne westerling. literally everyone has turned her down because she’s not good enough. but this beautiful boy, a king already promised to someone else says “no i like you maybe love you and i don’t want to dishonor you will you please be my wife and my queen. please” and jeyne’s like, uh hell fucking yeah 

and it’s this sweet little teen love where they’re giggly and infatuated and maybe they would have ended up tearing each other’s eyes out later down the line, but right now they’re just in love and everything’s fine. right now jeyne’s giggling while talking to catelyn and blushing because she just told her good mother how much sex they’re having. it’s sweet. it’s good. there’s a crown and everything. 

but then robb’s murdered, and she finds out that all this time her own mother has been conspiring against her husband, discretely feeding her moontea without her knowledge and entirely without her constent, and is in part responsible for his MURDER, all so that the westerlings can ally with the iron throne and acquire more status. and then after all of this, ALL OF THIS, she even has jeyne’s crown taken away. this beautiful thing that this boy she was in love with who saw her as worthy and important made for her and her mother who plotted to have him killed couldn’t even let her keep that. not even just that one keepsake from the time when she was so happy and loved. 

あの日の自分を越えてゆく

カカシ、お誕生日おめでとう。あなたと9/15に愛を込めて。

to anyone who might care

i have made a tough decision. A really really tough decision to forever erase and delete something which I created. The only thing which got most kudos and most comments and i know many people out there loved it.

This is about the fic I wrote called 'Born to Die' which had an si/oc in HoTD/dance era fire and blood. The problem is this one of my worst written thing. I myself cringe and it is endorsing but I just don't like it. I don't like the way I have written it and so many things could have been done better in it. Especially the other characters who definitely should not only revolve around one character, this was such a disaster! Agghhhh! And the dialogues and the details, I just don't like it.

I know we shouldn't be perfectionist in art but atleast there should be satisfaction. And that satisfaction for an artist is perfection.

so I have come up with a solution. It is not as simple as to just delete it. Nor as complex as to edit and rewrite everything.

I am going to start another story because I want to do something with this idea. I want to write it and this time I want to execute it better.

I have more ideas to make it better like The starting chapter itself should have more depth and give us how and who Vittoria Cirraulo is. And I don't think in this story she is going to end up marrying Aegon again. They definitely are main pair but not married to each other (this is so new to me). Also I want to write the politics in the court better which seemed non existent in Born to Die.

So this will be a updated premium version of that story and I will delte the previous one. I will also give it a new title.

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