I Have Been Having Such A Crisis Of Confidence About My Writing Recently And It's Hard To Dig Myself

some foods smell funny some foods too chewy or not chewy enough some too sweet too bitter too salty and depending on the day i might need a specific type of food to stimulate or regulate myself my best friend is the best person in my life about my weird thing with food we travelled together recently and i ate the same meal like three dinners in a row cause i knew it was safe and since we got home i have also been making it (in batches) because i know its safe and im in a period where all i can stomach is safe but also she creates a good safe space for me to try new things and say no when i was a kid i got laughed at when i tried a new food and didnt like kt my mom would tease me or trick me into eating it by telling me it was something else and then laugh at me when i had a meltdown because the food i put in my mouth tasted wrong texture was off anyway just respect people and their relationship to food it can be complex and often were doing our best i want to have a broad pallette and try new things but i can only do that when i feel safe to do it ranting in the tags cause im sleed deprived and depressed