Why Does Everything Make Me Think Of Them?

Why does everything make me think of them?

I’ve always liked little reminders of Jikook here and there. Seeing the moon in the sky the same time as the sun ect. But lately it’s causing me so much pain and anger.

I went to a really renown aquarium today with my sister and of course, they had cute sea otters swimming around and it made me think of Jikook.

Last night, I went to a concert also with my sister featuring different artists. A kpop boy group was there and they were fine… but they weren’t BTS. They weren’t Jimin dancing. Their choreo didn’t feel like it was apart of the music. It felt tacked on. They didn’t have immaculate group chemistry like BTS. Sure some of their songs were okay and they could sing live just fine, but I couldn’t help be angry. Angry that I was seeing them instead. Angry that my boys were pulled from what they love and were born to do. I know every male kpop has to serve too, but I’m talking about BTS here. And I think there is a considerable difference. I can have that opinion since I’ve seen another boy group perform live.

I wonder when this feeling will go away or if it ever will for the next 18 months. Maybe this is the next stage of grief. I’m just angry. And if you are angry too, it’s okay. It’s a valid emotion. Sit with it and honor it.

lmao I’m sure Tae got permission to post that pic of JK on his IG, but can you remember the hate JM got for posting that back pic for JKs birthday, so many tkkrs saying “jk didn’t consent to that!” “He doesn’t even have instagram why would you post that?” … not hearing that right now….. even though JK said he would reveal his hair himself hmm🤨

Oh of course not. Because one thing tkks are going to do is do whatever fits their narrative. Nothing more and nothing less. Zero critical thinking and deductive reasoning skills involved. They can switch up their explanations as much as they want as long as they always get the exact same conclusion, the one that they want. As a scientist, I could never be a TKK. Sometimes you do an experiment, perform a reaction, and if the data suggests that the reaction didn’t work, you can’t twist it to say that it did. The facts are the facts. Tkk is what happens when you don’t live in a land of facts but a land of conspiracy theories. Their wants and feelings are the only things that matter to them. Hence the ability to paint anyone in a bad light which is always Jimin and a lot of the times JK too. They never make sense, and they always go unchecked. I personally believe that there must be a better way to deal with them than what we have been doing, but I can’t even get jkks to agree that some of their methods counterproductive so I just expect tkks to cry and pitch fits in their echo chambers for the next 18 months at the expense of harming others ie Jimin. Good that Tae gave them some crumbs though before he dipped out, I guess.

Happy birthday Tae bear...

You whacky dishwasher, you handsome saxa-phonist, you lovely alien, you charming man.

Bangtan Sonyeondan wouldn't be the same without you.

We adore you!

사랑해!

Oh, Jimin.

Thank you for being 100% you.

Hoping, wishing and praying your service time is uneventful, drama-free, that you stay safe and healthy. I hope you meet a lot of amazing people who will learn just how very amazing YOU are.

I hope that if you do have to deal with stressful and shitty situations or people, that you can take it in, work through them, learn from them and move on.

Knowing you will be together with Jungkook, helping each other through it all, is one of the most reassuring things for us to know.

What you two have chosen to do won't be the easiest route through this required time but knowing a little bit about both of your personalities, you will both meet the challenges, work hard and go above and beyond, setting standards for the rest of those around you (heh heh, sorry for those guys, right? they better learn to keep up).

Be yourself unapologetically. Don't worry about what anyone thinks... IF YOU ARE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE, that's all that matters.

When it's time, when you can, take a look on your phone and you will see us still here cheering you on. We're right here, all the time.

Take care, be real, be safe, be assured we will all be here when you get back.

I love you, Jimin.

I feel like I'm sending off my family/my first love/my best friend/my significant other/my lifeline/my favorite people in the world... my heart goes out to their families and dear close friends.

I love them so much and I hate everything. I want to burn it all down. I hate that they are going. I know they were always going to, I know they chose to, but I want to annihilate everything and everybody responsible for taking them away from me.

I've read their letters, smiled at their photo dumps, raged at their Wlives. It's not okay. All of this is fucked up.

I know that in the middle of all of this they'll be fine.

But man...

I love them so fucking much it kills me. Also, I'm thankful. So thankful that for the last 10 years I've been part of their journey, and I intend to be for the several more decades of it. I will be here seated and cashed up for the rest of it. I'm thankful that Namjoon, Seokjin, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin, Taehyung, and Jung Kook exist and are the sort of people they are. I hope they learn more about themselves, grow in resilience, intelligence and kindness. I hope their experiences there enrich their lives somehow, inspire them to express themselves creatively again, as BTS and solo artists.

I hope they work hard, stay healthy, and stay happy.

But fuck.

I'm so angry.

So fucking pissed.

It already hurts like hell to miss them this bad.

It’s moments like this that really reinforce Jikook to me! He was having his breakfast facing the front like everybody else, but immediately Jimin walked into the room, he changed his position so he’d face him! He opened his whole body to Jimin!

JK’S BODY LANGUAGE WILL FOREVER SNITCH ON HIM ISTG!!!!!!!!!!!!