That's My Interpretation..

That's my interpretation..

I'll talk about spoilers so read at your own discretion.

To start:

I had forgotten completely that RM already performed it at one of the D-Day last shows.

So I got the experience of hearing it for the first time twice.

I consider that a bonus!

But let's get to the important part:

The day it was released I barely woke up and rushed to watch the video.

We knew it was in Letterbox (it's a movie rating platform, really cool) so the cinematography wasn't really a surprise.

I just checked and they took it out of letterbox 😭

What caught me off guard was the total absence of rapping.

I always rooted for RM to find his singing voice, but that certain part just HITS the spot.

Wow.

And the GENRE?? I wasn't expecting it at all.

It has a bit of folk with the whistle and the talking-singing, along with the chorus sounds very R&B.

Not only he is singing a whole song by himself for the first time, but he is experimenting with the genre too!!!

Hallelujah.

Major indie vibes.

And the lyrics hit me so hard too.

I forgot the hour. I don't wanna know 'bout the hour. I forgot to shower. Even washing my face seems like a waste of time.

In case you don't know, this is depression.

It was very bold and brave of him to talk so openly about it like this, thank you Joonie.

You keep making us proud.

If I ever doubted about the members ability to grow artistically, now I'm a believer.

And the cherry in this amazing cake:

The MV:

It's cinematic, it's moody, it's confusing, it's DIFFERENT.

We see RM going through different scenes where he's role changes with the room he enters.

The colors change, the light changes, the clothes change.

In the beginning we see him in a party looking apathetic.

Disconnected.

A drunk man offers him a cigarette twice and he refuses (which reminds me of that one picture that was posted on Instagram).

We see him walk in and out of rooms looking confused.

In one of the rooms, he is even in a baby bed! Probably my favorite part.

Do you see something familiar?

Eventually he comes across a young woman that seems to be another version of him.

From then on, he looks changed, at ease.

He looks like he's finally the

right person in the right place

A friend having fun at the party.

A husband brushing teeth with his family.

A baby playing with his parents

And a boyfriend talking to a girlfriend.

I think this MV could have a lot of different meanings.

But the feeling like an outsider and running around, the apathetic look, the being misunderstood (in the fight with his girl) and then finally smiling and going back at peace....

It seems like making peace with the past, making peace with the old self.

It's ok to disappoint people sometimes.

The scene as a baby in the crib with the parents, the scene with the angry girlfriend made me think about that. Read expectations and disappointment.

"My kid will be this, my kid will do that"

"You promised this, you lied about that"

It might take time for us to understand life and ourselves, but when we are finally ready for it is liberating.

You don't have to be, you don't have to be the anything you see

He was free to simply be a baby for his parents.

The present is the party, he's thinking about his childhood and past (and future?) relationship but he's not living in the moment, at least he wasn't in the beginning.

I am rewatching Suchwita and RM says that his dream is to live more in the moment:

While interviewing Jin, Suga also brought back a conversation between him and Jin that happened while they were recording the first In The Soup:

Those are obvious things, in theory it's easy to understand. But when it comes to real life it's just different.

Without being careful we get caught up in moments, regrets, feeling overwhelmed.

The girl he meets in the end could represent many things: himself, his inner peace, happiness, army or spring.

As he mentions in the lyrics:

spring always been here, I will sleep in her eyes

That scene represents meeting a good friend, having a laugh, letting the weight off your shoulders.

And I just noticed the sunlight moving in the room representing the passage of time, interesting. That could mean how we lose track of time when with the right people, but it could also mean something else that I don't know.

He might be referencing Army, as spring day is such a loved song in the fandom.

What makes me think he might be talking about army is the lyrics too.

You are my pain, divine.

We know this life, although very beautiful, isn't always easy to BTS.

Along with all the prizes and support comes expectations.

I like to think this could be Namjoon making peace with his love for music, army and fame.

I see you come back to me.

That's what I could think on my own.

The references

I saw armys pointing there were references to the other members in the video:

The video starts in a party with people drinking - Jimin (Like Crazy)

Namjoon is sitting beside a couple kissing - V (Friends)

He enters a room where his girlfriend is mad at him - JK (Seven)

He is in a crib with a snoop plushie - Jhope

And the tangerine - Suga

? -Jin

There was also this theme of doors representing a different reality, and I guess this is very on brand with BTS as their logo represents a door. Yoongi also used a door in his Amygdala MV. The final door he passes also has a purple shine for a second.

All in all, I love the MV.

Once again RM is flexing his sexy brain in his art for our delight.

Stay happy and healthy, Joonie.

Love ya.

day 133/547 until joon returns

these two are responsible for me

My gender bias is...

JIN-JIN-JIN-JIN

JINNIE-AH!

He is just so confident, and in the best way possible.

Jin is not afraid of showing his sensible, delicate, pretty, caring side.

Jin strikes me as someone that lives through freedom.

You don't have to justify yourself; you don't have to explain why if it makes you happy.

If it looks random, silly, nonsensical, childish it does not matter as long as you gain happiness.

I want to apply more of his philosophy into my life.

Who is your gender bias?

Alongside the concept of an 'ult bias', i think we should also celebrate our 'gender bias'.

Jimin is my gender bias.

I know we've talked about this A LOT but i need to say it again today.

Jimin is a fucking hero.

He had to work incredibly hard, challenging himself and his own beliefs and the accepted wisdom of society while directly in the public eye.

Its hard enough to go through this without an audience.

He is watched from every angle, at every moment and because he challenges their viewpoint, plenty of people love to find fault with him. He had to tread a careful path.

He had to make choices and it cost him, but ultimately it freed him.

Hurry up and be me soon...

Jimin has come a long way since 2014.

These days he looks comfortable in his skin.

He has a remarkable ability to adorn himself with any accessory or item of clothing and make it his.

He presents masculine with femme energy just as comfortably as he adopts a soft femme look while still being in his 'boy zone'. And he does it all so effortlessly and unselfconsciously.

He's also a pro at adopting any look - be it sexy minx or androgenous cool - and taking it out of the gender conversation completely.

He is beyond gender.

He is, simply, Jimin.

I aspire to that level of comfort in my own body and with my gender identity.

It brings joy to my life, seeing him flex his own self as gender.

Bravo, Jimin, you are my absolute gender hero.

And just for laughs... (but its all true)

YES I WANT 2SEOK SUBUNIT

I HAVE COMPLETELY OVERLOOKED THE FACT THAT JHOPE HAS A WHOLE BOW AND ARROW IN THIS ???????? FOR YEARS!

blood, sweat & tears x myth