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Blue Strawberry System

Welcome to our main tumblr blog! We are the Blue Strawberry System!Our most active alters on this blog are shown above. From left to right: šŸ”¦, šŸž, šŸ“–, šŸ“, šŸ§”šŸ, šŸ’€, šŸ’», šŸ“ŗ, and šŸ„

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Made a stimboard for SimonšŸ“–!

Idk I think it fits him pretty well. BluešŸ“ also helped out with choosing the gifs.

-šŸ§”šŸ

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1 year ago

Not us trauma dumping on tumblr.com and refusing to name drop because weā€™re just here to vent not start drama.

-šŸ¹

1 year ago

Well, now Iā€™m absolutely pissed.

Just learned that our ex-abuser had told BluešŸ“ (our host for those who donā€™t know and the one who suffered the most from the past abuse) that they shouldnā€™t trust their headmates.

Our ex-abuser had said not to trust our headmates. Said it was to take ā€œsystem-responsibility.ā€ Said it was because ā€œno headmate should ever be fully trusted.ā€

To that ex-abuser, I say fuck you. Because we are all literally here to keep the system safe no matter what. Yes, persecutors go about it the wrong way, donā€™t get me wrong. But what the absolute fuck?

We are all literally here because of the trauma we have endured and because there was this little girl, sad and alone, who had no support system. So the brain made up its own. And thatā€™s where everyone else in the system comes in.

BluešŸ“ knows itā€™s ok the trust us, because weā€™re all here for them and each other. Weā€™re the support for everyone else that we desperately needed growing up. We are the loving parents (no matter how hard our parents tried to be so, they sadly failed but we care for them anyway), we are the older siblings, the friends, the ones who never leave due to just naturally growing apart. Weā€™re the ones that will always have the backs of our headmates because no one has ever had our backs. When it came to our past abusers, our friends always chose them over us because our past abusers are always more ā€œtraumatizedā€ and more ā€œbrokenā€ than us.

And to everyone who believes that shit about comparing trauma, fuck right off because trauma is trauma and you seriously should not compare trauma you mfs. Just because an abuser is traumatized does not mean they are excused from that abuse. Just because an abuse victim lashes out and pushes back at one point or another does not mean they werenā€™t abused.

So for fucks sake, I hope everyone who has blocked us because they know about the drama that happened with our ex-abuser and took our abuserā€™s side rots in hell no matter how nice they are because they are comparing trauma and ignoring the abuse another person inflicted on another because they deem them to be ā€œmore traumatized.ā€

Weā€™ve moved on from the aftermath of the abuse, weā€™re getting better, weā€™re living life and absolutely having a blast about it (currently on vacation, got a tattoo, hot tub soaks, ocean waves, so many gluten-free restaurants with some bomb ass food). But I am still pissed that people are supporting our abuser in all of this. Thatā€™s the only thing pissing me off. That there are people who compare our traumas and decide that the abuser is the victim here.

Also a note: our abuser was younger than us. Yes that can happen. Abusers can be any age. If anyone thinks someone younger canā€™t abuse someone older, you are very much wrong. Abuse is abuse.

Ok. Thatā€™s my internet ramble over.

-šŸŽ³


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1 year ago

Donā€™t care that this is a public conservation now because I got something to say to you:

Donā€™t ever be sorry for how you are acting, Blue. You are still learning. I am so fucking proud of the progress youā€™ve made. Even if it takes 100 years for you to let go of the front due to that anxiety, itā€™ll be ok. You are amazing, kind, a little too selfless for your own good, and a caring person. You always care so much about others. Iā€™m sorry that two people used that kindness against you and used it to make you dependent on them while they gave you nothing in return.

You are the best person I know. Donā€™t ever be sorry for healing. It takes time. We will all gladly wait for you and be here to help you as you go through this.

I will be here every step of the way, and I will wait for you throughout this entire healing process, because it wonā€™t happen over night. Your healing takes time. Donā€™t ever apologize for that.

I love you šŸ„°

-šŸ“–

Ok: as a host with control issues due to the past abuse this system has gone through, blacking out and allowing others to front is taking a lot of time to process for me.

Because I finally allowed someone else to front for a bit, if only for a few minutes. And I panicked when I got back because I didnā€™t know where the coffee cup was. Needless to say Iā€™m very sorry to my headmates for being a controlling bitch šŸ˜”

-šŸ“


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1 year ago

is there a system term out there for like ... when youre a brainmade but youre also kind of an introject? i dont know how to explain this properly so bare with me here ... i am a brainmade alter but i am very closely modeled after two other alters , both of which are introjects. i hope that makes sense? i identify with both terms but i dont want to ... well ... use both terms , as it could confuse other people. does that make sense? looking for a proper term here , but if there isn't one , i guess i can coin one myself? i will see ...


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1 year ago

Wanna tag onto this: Iā€™ve been afraid to write characters who are trans because of this idea of there being a right and wrong way to be trans. Which is especially sad because I AM TRANS. Iā€™m trans and am afraid to write trans characters because of this idea of a right and wrong way and what if Iā€™m being trans the wrong way? Especially since Iā€™m nonbinary. (Every trans activist I meet IRL has literally said that nonbinary people donā€™t exist and that I donā€™t count as trans)

But there are definitely many ways to be trans. You could know from a young age or discover it later in life. I use afab. I still use she/her pronouns despite being nonbinary. Let people live their lives if itā€™s not actually causing harm. And if you need to block things you find offensive, do it.

don't use "ftm" it's outdated and offensive. it implies that the trans person was their agab, which we never were. i was always a boy, never a girl who became a boy.

i'm 35 years old. i've been IDing as trans or something similar to trans for nearly 20 years. i was probably calling myself FTM while you were playing tag during recess, anon.

i WAS a girl. i IDed as a girl early in my life. i recognized myself as a girl, called myself a girl, lived as a girl, and was a girl. who then IDed as a man. hence, F t M.

spend more time worrying about yourself instead of strangers on the internet, anon.

sorry not sorry if this comes off as needlessly hostile, but i've been getting a lot of shit from a lot of teenage trans kids about the language i use to describe my own goddamn experience, and i'm growing real fuckin weary of it.

i have elder trans friends who call themselves transsexuals and transvestites and trannies. are you going to seriously go to a 60-year-old trans person who survived the reagan years and tell her she's not allowed to use certain language to describe herself because it might offend the delicate sensibilities of some teenager on the internet?

do yourself a favor and log off, find some real-life trans people who are over the age of 20 or 25, and spend time talking to them instead of getting all holier-than-thou at random strangers on tumblr.


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