Bubblegum-flavored-highlighter - Your Favorite Neighborhood Rat

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normalize my 12th grade English teacher, who admitted that his favorite TV show was Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and when a male student suggested that it was because Buffy/Sarah Michelle Gellar was hot, wrinkled his face like he’d bitten into something rotten and dead, and said, “At my age (he was 53), there is nothing less sexy than a teenager. You’re all disgusting messes.” It was 1999, I was 17, and I’d grown up in conservative Christian schools and churches. In my life I’d heard heard dozens of sermons from male preachers and teachers and even some older students, whining about how hard it was to be a dude and not commit the sin of thinking sexual thoughts, and how they needed women to wear long skirts and cover their bodies to not objectify them

and my bitter, misanthropic, atheist Brit Lit teacher, who hated my class because he was obsessed with teaching Tom Sawyer but got stuck with Shakespeare and Jane Austen, was the first, and this day the last man I have ever heard articulate a rebuttal from the depths of his soul to the idea that it was normal for teenage girls to be desirable to middle aged men

some of my favorite dipper outfits ^_^

i need to see aiden get mad at ashlyn. not just slight disappointment i mean straight up yelling and upset because she did something stupid. she already blames herself for everything that’s happened so i wouldn’t be surprised if she makes some rash decision that puts herself in danger so she could protect everyone else. and that makes him snap because it reminds him of himself. him seeing himself in ashlyn scares him because we’ve already seen how much he wants to keep her safe (take that romantically or platonically idc) i need to see them have a huge argument that’s NOT one sided like in episode 31. it could either help build their relationship to understand each other better or cause them to stop talking for like 20 episodes straight until they make up.

and THEN i need to see ashlyn be in absolute shock over this. she’s been confronted by people in the group before but when it comes to aiden it unsettles her. it feels uncanny because he’s never acted like that towards her before and it FREAKS. HER. OUT. having someone close to you suddenly act completely different than normal is such a bad feeling and you would know what i mean if its happened to you. it’s like the happy, joking one finally snaps at you than you know you did something wrong. and that’s exactly how she feels.

and in their heated argument that i mentioned earlier i need ashlyn to mention how hypocritical he is as well. talking about how she keeps taking all these risks when he’s been doing the exact same thing. i need to see them LIVID.

cats don’t understand what it means when you give them kisses ):

people really mean it when they say healing takes time it's like 3 years later. why am I only just able to do stuff now. suddenly back to a normal amount of energy and surprisingly unusual lack of negative thinking and also I've actually been able to sit and do something I wanted to for like 3 hours. and like. my brain didn't avoid doing it because it was a thing similar to badtimes activities. Wowzers?????????? Functioning again is a win ig lesgoooooooooo