Genuinely Fucked Up That If I Want To Interact With Someone Online I Have To Say Words And Have A Conversation

genuinely fucked up that if i want to interact with someone online i have to say words and have a conversation instead of just mashing my face against them like a cat

🍐📁 Paraphile Emoji Code

I’m a sucker for onomatopoeias (words/phrases that sound like what they’re describing i.e. meow, bam, kapow, shwoosh, bark, etc.) so I am proposing that 🍐📁 should be used for paraphiles generally because it sounds like the word; pear-(a)-file. There is no deep meaning or rules* to this, it’s just a fun idea.

*= half-lie, the only rule would be this is inclusive of the big 3 & others alike, but I don’t really see I as a rule because I can’t own the emoji combo

i need positive attention and praise all the time just for existing, or else i feel small and insignificant. i need to stop basing my worth off of the attention i receive, but i don’t know how. i don’t know how to exist if i don’t exist to others.

MEEEOOOOWWWW

MEOWW /⁠ᐠ⁠｡⁠ꞈ⁠｡⁠ᐟ⁠\

Actually you know what. Since I brought it up somewhat recently, here's some average + common polyfrag experiences we've experienced and heard about from other polyfrag systems:

Gaining new members really easily or often

Co-fronting most or all of the time

Some headmates taking a very long time to front again after finally switching out, but without going dormant in the time that they're "away"

Complicated system structure; sidesystems, subsystems, layers, structure in general...

Experiencing blurriness or other identity confusion more often compared to other systems

Very expansive innerworlds

Complexity of their system + dissociation meaning that – if they're disordered – their disorder appears more as a crossover or mix of several dissociative disorders than only one (really wish there was more discussion about this one)

It's fine to not relate to typical system narratives as a polyfrag system (or large + complicated system in general); our systems tend to work differently than what's considered an "average" or "typical" system. Really, it's perfectly fine to just be yourself/ves. You don't need to stress about it.

Girls be like "I want a loser bf waah waaah" but then when they get a bf who panics when they don't reply immediately, who spams them with I love yous, who wakes them at three am asking for kisses, who skips showering to talk to them, who has no one but them because he's so awful with making friends, who makes them the center of his world, they're like "He was kinda clingy :/" make it make sense (I love my loser bf)

Same goes for girlfriends.. u want a crazy gf but as soon as she cries because you called her pretty, freaks out because you spoke to someone that isn't her, would rather die than be without you, cuts for you and begs you to kill her, you end up freaking out and she becomes the "crazy ex" make it make seeeense