FUCK OFF OK I WROTE THIS LITERALLY NONE OF MY FOLLOWERS PROBABLY WATCHED THIS BUT I WANTED TO WRITE IT

FUCK OFF OK I WROTE THIS LITERALLY NONE OF MY FOLLOWERS PROBABLY WATCHED THIS BUT I WANTED TO WRITE IT IM SORRRYYY

once again thinking about how i am caught between wanting to b special insane singular literally batshit bonkers and wanting someone to tell me how i am is normal is just how humans are sometimes but also wanting someone to let me know that this isn’t who i am or will b this isn’t my personality at all it’s just an act bc i am nothing if not performative in all aspects of my life

Some things never change…

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

HÉLOÏSE: I’ll remember the first time I wanted to kiss you. MARIANNE: When was that? HÉLOÏSE: You didn’t notice? MARIANNE: At the fête around the bonfire. HÉLOÏSE: I wanted to, yes. But that wasn’t the first time.

PORTRAIT OF A LADY ON FIRE (2019) dir. Celine Sciamma

Joanne Kyger, from A Book of Luminous Things: An International Anthology of Poetry, “And with March a Decade in Bolinas”