Okay So I Already Made A Semi Serious Post Before But I Went To The Dentist Today And Im Gonna Have To

Okay so I already made a semi serious post before but I went to the dentist today and I’m gonna have to pay like $3000 to get a root canal among other things plus I still need to figure out how I’m gonna pay for school by the end of this semester

I know that’s a crazy amount to ask for but anything anyone can donate helps

My cash app is $meedraya

Seriously any money you can spare helps me out a ton!!!

And if not, helping to signal boost this helps too!!

@a-common-haitian-name @visibilityofcolor @harriyanna @headcanonsandmore @overmelted @gary-coopers-only-fans @bubblepunk99s @lady-byleth @beanerbrujx

I love Gordon Ramsay so much.

He comes from a very poor family. His father was an alcoholic who beat him and his mother (he once poured hot tea over her and put her in hospital several times), his brother is a drug addict, he literally built an empire out of nothing.

He credits his mother as his biggest inspiration and often has her cooking in his shows.

When he left his first restaurant he pulled a successful Jerry Maguire - the entire kitchen staff went with him. That tells you what he’s like to work with.

He was one of the first to give a restaurant to a female chef.

He went to prison (Gordon Behind Bars) and taught inmates to bake and they opened a bakery (Bad Boys Bakery) that is still running. He hired one of them when he got out.

He did documentaries about the cruelty of shark hunting and cocaine. (when he discovered cocaine was used by his staff he didn’t fire anyone but made sure they are offered treatment)

His kids are a treasure.

He is always ALWAYS kind to servers.

When one of his partners (Marcus Wareing) wanted to leave they got into a fight and settled it in court, they no longer speak to each other but this is what Marcus said about him after the fight: 

I feel bad that the first association to him for a lot of people is this shouty TV chef when he’s truly a wonderful person. 

Oh and then there’s this:

this entire episode 

Real talk though I got a dentist appointment May 5th. I need $3700 to get my teeth fixed. I am beggjng at this point but I can not look like this. I have no idea how to make myself more visible I would be so thankful if this would get funds to fix my busted grill. I feel so damn ugly right now I cant take it. Please boost this if you see this, reblog, copy the link and share on your twitter or facebook. Please, even a $1.00 help. Anything helps.

I am honestly so embarrassed and ashamed of myself right now asking, but at this point i’m more ashamed looking like I do.

I tried crowdfunding before but gave up, but now i’m determined just look at this

Cashapp:$falulu209

Venmo: mistressfalulu

Paypal/zelle fguillory300@yahoo.com

Gofundme: https://gofund.me/a6d136a3

Currently I have $720.00 towards them

Some very beautiful and very underrated anime that you should totally watch:

Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu

Hourou Musuko

Miss Hokusai (movie)

Kids on the Slope

Princess Jellyfish

Doukyuusei (movie)

91 days

No.6

Colourful (movie)

I think an extremely important part of mental health awareness and intervention is acknowledging that no, help isn't actually always available. Or the "help" that is, isn't actually helpful.

When I was 22 I hit a wall. I called the suicide hotline from my car so my roommates wouldn't hear me crying. I explained that I could barely shower, feed, or dress myself. I needed immediate intervention.

They asked me if they could send an ambulance for me. They wanted to hospitalize me. I explained that I was a week away from finals. And graduation. If I were hospitalized, I couldn't graduate. The inpatient program also didn't allow phones or visitors, and I knew how disastrous it would be for me to lose contact with my family support system.

I didn't need to be hospitalized. I needed daily solutions. Simple ones, even. I needed a few precooked meals in my fridge so I could use my menial energy to keep my body going. I needed a doctor to contact my school and ask if I could have some extensions on my class assignments. I neededna few excused absences so I could catch up on my lost sleep.

They told me there was an intensive program that allowed residents to live in an inpatient care facility and get daily help with tasks like eating, therapy, medication, and showering, while still leaving for work and school, but it cost $30,000. I told them half the reason I was calling them was because of my financial pressures and fear.

In about 10 minutes of back-and-forth, it became clear that they had no true solution for me. I could go into the hospital and an inpatient program which would interrupt my entire life, and which I knew did not create very good results and had traumatized some of my own friends, or, well, I couldn't even go into debt for the other program. They didn't accept any new patients without half of the cost upfront. So it wasn't even an option.

No therapist or psychiatrists or social workers could fit me in for 3-8 weeks.

So I said thank you and hung up, emotionally spent. I felt utterly empty.

Sitting in my car I realized I had a choice, to live or to stop. Nobody was going to save me. Nobody was going to help.

So I went inside, and I cried myself to sleep, and when I woke up I still hadn't made a choice. So then I did. I chose to live no matter how terrible, just in case things turned around down the road.

It was unspeakably difficult. I didn't shower. I barely ate. I either slept too much or not enough.

But I did survive, and a year later I got with a therapist who started to make things a little lighter for me.

I still struggle now, but things are usually much better, and I'm glad I'm still here.

I just think it's important to acknowledge that for many people, especially in rural areas, and for people without money, which is most people, that the "help is always available" line feels hollow. Because often times it isn't, actually.

But that doesn't mean there will never be.

Overall, we need to build an entirely new system for mental health support in this world.

But for now, ask yourself or your friend in crisis what might make things a little more bearable until help actually is available.

A meal? Emailing a professor? Clean laundry? What might make things a little lighter?

I know that on the very brink, things like this may seem totally pointlessnor trivial. But if you can't stop yourself or someone from falling, sometimes the only way to save someone is with a softer landing.