I Am Confused But I Am Here

I am confused but I am here

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Neurodivervent people confuse me.

Like I love y'all and it's very interesting to read about your experiences and sight on things and so on - but it makes me question myself.

Does someone else have that weird feel of "hmm why is this so relatable?" when reading about neurodiversity?¿ And I'm desperately trying not to self diagnose because you can't do that based on a few relatable posts and it's just wrong but HHHhhHhh

Another Voltron rant!

This time theres no specific Episode or Season, but it is at the beginning of Voltron!

When the Show starts and it goes off off into the unknown, they're all rather shocked and or exited. Thats normal, thats something to be expected. Then they meet this fancy Alien princess and her advisor, who seem to be the last of their species. Rather sad, still pretty interesting. They get a bunch of things to do from her and they do it, because she holds herself very confidently and she seems to know more than they do. They're, essentially, still pretty shocked. After a bit of this and that, it all settles in and woah. We have to train to form Voltron huh? We have to be able to wake up through an alarm and be ready to fight within seconds, huh?

And they struggle with that. They struggle with waking up ready. They struggle with Training. They struggle with bonding. They struggle with really understanding what tf is going on. Thats valid!

What, or better who, I question here is Allura. Allura has been sleeping for 10000 years, all she knew is gone, of course she'd want to do everything possible as fast as possible. Thats understandable. But,,she doesn't even let them catch a break? Doesn't sit them down to tell em a bit more? Like Allura, darling, sweetheart, these people did not know your species or your enemy species existed. They have never before traveled this far into outter space. This is new to them.

Like I know time is simply something they do not have, but she's very aggressive with it all? She 'forces' them into roles they do not understand fully yet - they don't fully understand the role OR the time they will have to play that role - and then she's surprised when Pidge would rather find her family and Hunk would rather return to earth? The only one understanding the full problem is Shiro - who has had to deal with Zarkon.

Like I know that you do not have time. I know you feel like you have to free all of outter space and thats a good thing to work towards but,,, if you want people to give their life for a role they have only now heard abt, at least like approach it differently?

Allura like goes into it with the thought of "You are the paladins!" As if there was never a different possibility. Like sure Lance flew a lion so thats that, but theres 4 more People to think abt here???

I'd like to believe that the Archons always know whats going on with the people they gave their Vision to. Like not in depth, it would be creepy if idk Venti could pin point the time Jean woke up or sumn but,,

To me its nice to imagine that maybe he [all the archons] knows around where the people he chose to give Visions to are or if they are in need of his help. Same goes for their respective 'Nations'. Maybe they know when something is wrong with Mondstadt/Liyue/Inazuma etc and their people are in need of help.

Also I don't know if thats canon but it would be pretty cool if Venti still had wings and if they all like actually still had elemental markings on their body that glow when they use their Power or like change to be 'more Archon like'.

Has anyone Tips for me on how to start a fanfiction? I have dozens of ideas that I believe could turn out to be at least decent, sometimes better sometimes worse, but what stops me is the start. Damn how Ironic.

Sure 7/10 what stops me is the Lack of Motivation, I'll admit that much, but when I have the Motivation I just - can't start? Is that a me Problem or does that happen to others? Do y'all have Tips?

A lil painting thingie I did with acryl paint