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soulmates!jin+9 [sounds like angst lmao] thanks, hun!! ^^

au: soulmates!auword count: 751prompt: “I wish I had never met you.”

The mark on the inside of your wrist stings as Seokjin’s fingers graze it. He’s reaching out to you—you know that much—desperate hands and desperate eyes and desperate words. Quickly, you jerk your hand out of his reach, crossing your arms over your chest in anger, frustration, hurt.

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flicker.

pairing: namjoon x female reader

word count: a small 1,045

summary: pining idiots who pine.

a/n: thanks to everyone who sent in member suggestions earlier! I went with the first response I got 😘

"It's not gonna work out," Namjoon sighs.

The restaurant is bustling so he's not too worried about his voice carrying or causing any sort of scene. He just lets his shoulders sag as he stares off to the space behind you. His disappointment is evident, but fleeting.

The finality of Namjoon's tone is more than a little heartbreaking and you honestly can't understand how he can mean that. How he can say such a thing without giving any sort of explanation.

"What makes you say that?" you ask as you whip your head around to take a peek for yourself.

There you see Jungkook, your adorable, big hearted friend, rocking the most radiant of smiles. He looks all kinds of smitten staring at his pretty date from across the table. Again, you wonder about Namjoon's logic sometimes. How he can see anything but a sweet couple having a nice time is beyond you.

With a cocked brow, Namjoon refocuses his attention on the menu in front of him before bursting the cute little love bubble you've inflated around the pair.

"Her body language is closed off, while Jungkook's is open. He's trying to engage with little reciprocation from her and she keeps checking her phone like she'd rather be talking to someone else. He's too eager and she's not that interested. I want a margarita, let's split a pitcher."

He speaks so quickly, so matter-of-factly that it makes your head spin a little. How he's able to pick up on so many subtle, nonverbal cues is beyond you. But that must be what makes him good at his job and what makes you the still-single, hopeless romantic. Regardless, you hate how cynical it all sounds, you hate how he's able to brush off the heartbreak your mutual friend is sure to face if Namjoon's actually right. (He always is.) And so you aim to scold him.

"Namjoon."

"Jungkook will probably want to drink too, once his date ditches him. The pitcher is the economical choice."

"Namjoon," you try again, irritation building behind your tone. "You've taken one look at them and have already written them off as a failure. People aren't that simple, you know? Love is a complex thing."

Vexed as always, he sets his menu down and levels you with an unimpressed glare.

"Except they are, and it's not," he counters. "People are simple. They're easy enough to read if you know what you're looking for and I know, _____. Jungkook likes her. She isn't into him and that is the shitty reality of dating. It either works out, or it doesn't. There is no in-between. And there's no use in giving him false hope when I know what I see and I know what it means. He'll get over it."

Jaded. Namjoon's job as a relationship consultant has made him so jaded and it breaks your heart to know he wasn't always like this. He used to believe in whirlwind romances. He used to make your heart beat heavy in your chest with the way he spoke about the kind of love he wanted to find.

There was a time you foolishly hoped he'd find that love in you, but as the days have continued to drag on, that hope is nothing more than a flickering speck in the distance. Really, you're not sure if he even believes in love anymore, let alone wants to pursue it with you.

Crestfallen, yet unable to give up on that dimming glimmer of hope, you reach across the table. Your hand slips in his and squeezes tightly, calling, no pleading to bring him back to love. Back to you.

"But that's where it's not so simple, Joon – wanting someone who doesn't want you. Just because you know it, doesn't make it hurt any less. Doesn't make those feelings go away."

Namjoon sighs, looking down at where your hands meet. For a moment, he allows his thumb to smooth over your knuckles in what you can only assume is pity. You're sure he must find you so pathetic, so naive.

"I know that, ____. I deal with unrequited emotions every single day."

You know he means in his work. He must see situations like this all the time. But living it, being stuck in the middle of all that impossible yearning is a different hell in itself. Namjoon couldn't know how this feels. How Jungkook is going to feel. How you feel. It's all too easy for him to disengage.

It hurts too much to linger in this. To feel the weight of his palm in yours and want for something more. A more tender circumstance where he'd touch you in this way. It hurts too much to know he won't.

In an effort to save yourself further embarrassment, you reclaim your hand and look back towards Jungkook. At least there you might see a happier scene, despite Namjoon's grim predictions.

What you don't see, however, is the longing that sets in the second you turn away from him. No longer is the warmth of your touch on his skin. No longer is he able to bask in it, to pretend it might mean something more than a friendly gesture.

He understands more than most just how Jungkook is going to feel. The only difference is that at least his friend is brave enough to put himself out there to be rejected. At least he has a chance at finding something special.

Namjoon, on the other hand, is a coward. He helps people open themselves up to being vulnerable, to loving and allowing that love to come back to them. But Namjoon finds it hard to be open when he knows the person he wants doesn't, no couldn't feel the same. He is unable, or maybe unwilling, to practice what he preaches and so he resigns himself to ache for you. To live in this loneliness and hope that one day you might realize you want him too.

What is left of that hope is little more than a dying ember in what once was a raging fire, but he clings to it to carry him through. He hopes you can feel its warmth. He hopes it’s enough to light a path to him and his open heart.

LOVE OR IN LOVE.

“the one where taehyung asks you an important question, laying out very questionable factors too.”

━ taehyung x reader ━ 1k words. ━ pg-13 ━ fluff, implied friends to lovers au, medical au (taehyung screams pediatric surgeon bc of how he’s ambidextrous and good with kids to me so that’s where we’re going with this lmao) ━ warning/s: none

The rain continues to pour hard as you and Taehyung run as fast as you could towards the telephone booth, squishing yourselves in inside the small enclosed space with loud snickers and silly side comments on how out of all the instances the both of you could possibly forget bringing an umbrella with you, doing a quick visit to the convenience store near the hospital when you knew there was a high chance of rain just had to be it.

Taehyung closes the door and hisses playfully at how his scrubs and coat feel absolutely wet on him. His hair is damp too, with strands of it falling on his forehead that he had to push back in order to look at you in front of him who’s grinning amusedly to yourself, getting a handkerchief from your pocket to wipe some droplets of water away from your cheeks before you abruptly reach up and do the same to him without a second thought.

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