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My parents playing soccer in Australia in 1992

Ok wait let her speak

do you think it'll all be okay?

yeah. even if it won’t i’ve got people to love in the meantime

A.S. Byatt, from Possession

Tonight I am Searching for An Image that May Very Well Change My Life

i believe you can always get back to yourself. you can always soften into being again. no matter how long you might be stuck in a pattern of unhappiness, of being jaded, of feeling guarded from the world in some way. there is always a path back. give yourself a chance to find it.

The amount of time and trial and error that happens between when you realize you need to change and when you actually start digging your heels in and making those changes is often literal years which is so crazy cause we can know something for so long and refuse to let it sink in when we know it will deeply disrupt our lifestyles and comforts/crutches so it just prevails for so much longer than we could ever imagine even when we realized so long ago what was wrong we just back pedal when we are scared until something just cracks and we feel ready

stop freaking out about getting old and start planning out what kind of old person you're gonna be

ok well im going to build a good future for myself whether i like it or not

I must not mock Gen Alpha. Mocking Gen Alpha is the mind killer. Mocking Gen Alpha is the little-death that brings total generational solidarity obliteration. I will engage with Gen Alpha lovingly. I will permit them to be cringe. And when they grow up I will turn my eye to their accomplishments. Where mocking has gone there will be nothing. Only generational solidarity remains

— Rainer Maria Rilke, from “I am praying again, Awesome One.”

I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*

Columbia University students at the Gaza solidarity encampment reading Wisam Rafeedie's The Trinity of Fundamentals and Ghassan Kanafani's The Revolution of 1936–1939 in Palestine (ph. Ian Bartlett).

I hate work I should be at the (remembers I don't want to go to the club) the imagination

I need to (remembers to not make casual suicide jokes in order to encourage a more outwardly positive mindset and healthy conversational environment in my day to day life) kill myself

Night Walk, Franz Wright | Calvin and Hobbes | Tuesday, Alex Dimitrov

now that i am a real adult i am starting to realise. media lied to me about the availability of rooftops to go hang out on. every day i wish i could be hanging out on a rooftop somewhere looking cool as fuck

Line of rocks, made by a neighborhood child, spotted on my walk home

i miss when actors all had normal human teeth

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

"Stay at home girlfriend" You are a human pet to him, a cat he can fuck, I never see tiktok/youtube stay at home girlfriends writing novel, traveling and playing video games or any fun exciting leisure activities you can do without a job. They aren't taking advantage of these rich loser men, they are all cooking instagramable green meals, cleaning, exercising on treadmills like hamsters and performing lengthy boring beauty rituals. Girl you have a wealthy benefactor and you are unemployed, become obsessed with videogames, make a indie film on his dime, write a genius manifesto, and gain 50 pounds and see if he won't kick you out. He wants your life empty and curated around him. Soon you'll started being driven mad by that pesky yellow wallpaper.