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hello everyone. very unfortunately, and unexpectedly, my mom passed away from covid on december 20th. because of this, my younger brother and myself are currently having to depend on other relatives that we aren’t all that close to and that don’t always necessarily have our best interest, for food, shelter, etc.

me, my brother and my mother had been living in an apartment in arizona, but for whatever reason, i guess since i am under the age of 21, after my mom passed at the hospital, the county told me that if we did not go to stay with family, that my younger brother would be placed in foster care. either way, we didn’t want to stay in the apartment that we had so many memories with our mother in and then had to resuscitate her at until paramedics arrived, so we left the apartment to stay with one of my uncles ex wife’s in las vegas, which i now regret because i am receiving no help from family with arranging my mother’s funeral or getting the things i need such as clothing. my “aunt” has gotten us food stamps which i appreciate, but they are on her terms, meaning she is keeping the food stamp card because she thinks we will misuse the food money??

anyway, i have two weeks to get back to arizona so that i can clear our things out of the apartment, throw things out and/ or place them in storage before the landlord removes our things herself and i will have to get them through the court system which would be a great inconvenience at this time as i am busy dealing with trying to bury my mother. my family here in nevada knows this and has not offered to help get me back there to handle this.

i have no money of my own and have not yet began working because i am dealing with my mother’s arrangements and also looking after my brother. if anyone out of the kindness of their heart would be willing to help my brother and i out even a little during this time, it would be so greatly appreciated!!

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thank you so much🤍

reflecting on the unofficial result of the presidential elections…

misogyny, internalized self-hatred (as a filipino) and misinformation (and the lack of clarity) are three major factors that affect the divide between the citizens of this country (and possibly in other countries too).

misogyny: because when a woman who has credentials and the right skills to accomplish a task, it is mostly seen as a threat. if not, it is seen as an act of vanity and self-righteousness. it doesn't help that most filipinos are on hellsites like facebook and tiktok ー where a lot of extreme opinions circulate. i genuinely think that filipinos who use these sites are more vulnerable to cyber threats now that the data collecting technologies are improving.

internalized self-hatred: because of the marcos regime, which was a byproduct of the three foreign occupations, history was erased and rewritten numerous times. filipinos eventually lost sight of who they are, their heritage and their values. this led on to make us succumb to colonialism, which appeases the ego of foreign nations (especially the western societies). we seek relief from foreign countries because of this and eventually, a toxic trait of crab mentality became prevalent in our society.

misinformation: to reiterate what i wrote in the former, fake news is a relatively new social issue that we all face but you can see it more in the philippines. mockery, discrimination and humiliation can be seen within our government and among our fellow citizens. we are only a few generations close to losing our heritage because of the repeated abuse historically and politically, and yet through capitalistic schemes and again, vanity ー we are indifferent. most filipinos are either illiterate or ignorant. it's simple psychology: majority rules out. the minority will have to carry the consequences of the result whether they like it or not.

i'm not one to take sides. i admit i don't know much about all the candidates. but i side with the ones who value humanitarian causes, and leni was one of them.

regardless of the expertise (and the lack of it) of the different candidates, we cannot guarantee that the Philippines will instantly flourish in the next 6 years. we cannot guarantee what will happen in the future since a lot of countries are either in conflict or have struggling economies right now. whatever these candidates promised won't exactly be accomplished like how they planned because of these major factors:

the $232B debt that the country has accumulated

poor usage of land and pollution

the existence of the internet allowing almost every single thing that you do be tracked and seen by everyone else (aka investors and advertisers)

illiteracy, ignorance and indifference among filipinos (how many times will i have to say this)

OFWs and their varying situations abroad

the threat of China in the conflict with the South China/West Philippine sea

and many other things like shitty laws around women and laborers

no matter how you look at it, the Philippines is an ill-equipped country in many areas. economy, military ー even down to our education systems, we are victims of industrialization and solving these issues will NOT be possible without seeking help from the UN or developed countries.

this makes it even more challenging, since we're quite literally crushed and we are barely holding on ever since the pandemic ー no actually, ever since THE WAR. we are also suffering from overpopulation and that makes us vulnerable to the effects of climate change and world hunger.

not to mention the annual storms, we can't just leave it absolutely destroying us every single year.

i probably forgot so many other things but it's just not an easy task to run a whole country unless you want to destroy it and its people. you have to think hard what to prioritize and make difficult decisions.

man, the world is high on ads

this is a messy post but to be honest we are all in need of some love and care right now. people are just so petty and weird these days. i don't understand the collective narcissism but maybe that's on the Leo side of the Aquarius age (shush that astrology right now). im not saying that im not weird or im above everyone since i can literally have questionable beliefs too and i make mistakes too

but i think we need to be able to speak our opinions without going to extremes and be able to change them because opinions are not facts. they will never be proven correct. it's uniquely catered to how a person views something. you can either disagree with it or not.

however there is a difference between a pure opinion and an educated opinion. i think this is what our country lacks.

i just realized that prejudice becomes potent the more freedom a society has. at least that's how i see my country. feel free to correct me on this.

pride and prejudice… yeah, that's the two things that define the philippines' toxic side. people would rather choose their pride, their ego rather than choose to be educated.

i think people need to understand the concept that being wrong does not equate to being humiliated/being lowclass.

you cannot convince yourself that you're growing as a person while not admitting your mistakes and changing your bad habits. it's a fundamental advice for everyone and it's easier said than done.

alright im getting tired

this is it for now.

i'm scared for my country's future.

but i have faith.

🦋 edit: just some minor typos

When I tell you I went FERAL, HE WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME

Cross your fingers for Disney losing full Avengers rights

kazuha being drunk 💀 u get the context right