Colbyyyyyyyy Merry Christmas!

Colbyyyyyyyy♡ merry Christmas! ♡

Aaaaaaaah, Merry Christmas to you too Ina!

Alright, so, my youngest cousin is 8 years old. Every year she does some sort of little craft thing for gifts. This year she drew on wine glasses for all the women in the family.

Most of these glasses would get something like a heart, happy faces, with little ‘I love you’ messages.

Except the one she made for me.

It’s a ghost.

A ghost holding a knife. There is also a message written on it that says “love you lots”.

I love it and shall treasure it always.

Everyone deserves happiness, especially awesome new friends!

reblog if the person you reblogged this from deserves to be happy this 2017 (or forever)

Good news and bad news. Good news, the next comic is done! Bad news is my laptop shut off and the charger is broken. So I shall return we the new cable comes in. Sorry everyone!

Something else that works: Staring at the area just over a person’s head. Great for if you have to give a speech to a group or something. 

Keep passing on the social survival skills friends.

real life hack for autistic peeps who have trouble with eye contact. if you stare at someones nose they literally cant tell the difference. i had an employer tell me that they could tell i was confident because i made such strong eye contact and i probably looked at their actual eyes twice the whole time. allistics are wild.

Christmas Shoutout!

Alright, it has been a crazy week and I am half awake and tired from spending time with my awesome family so this might be a lot of nonsensical rambling but here goes something!

Getting pulled into the Undertale fandom is the best dang thing that has ever happened to me.

Before I start I will say that I am a social mess, social anxiety and autism and even the idea of approaching people online was more often than not too much for me to consider. My circle of friends was very tiny, with maybe one person outside of family who I’d talk to on any sort of regular basis. 

(note that there are NSFW blogs about to be tagged, so click with caution and please don’t get these awesome people in trouble.)

I got drawn into the fandom by all the amazing fanart, comics, fanfiction. I gradually found myself deeper and deeper in the fandom, lurking and not talking to anyone as was usually the case.

I saw @soloshikigami streaming a game of undertale one night, and it was a rare night the anxiety wasn’t to bad and I figured “hey, why not, I’m not doing anything else tonight” The plan was, again, to just lurk silently. I ended up chiming in on the conversation, and... everyone- EVERYONE there was kind and welcoming. It was a small group, but that helped because frankly if it had been larger I would have likely been too shy to approach. 

In time I met more and more people by joining in various streams. The more we talked, the more I realized that... there was never anything to be afraid of. It’s kinda, I dunno, seeing the amazing things a person can do makes it hard to remember they’re ordinary people who would welcome a random hello? 

Shoutouts to @famoussmuggler and @queenofbiscuits, I believe the two of you were some of those amazing people I met in stream and you are both always a joy to chat with! Smug, I love your art and fanfics and the ideas for not-yet-started projects and Rosa I have to thank you for putting the idea for Angel UF sans in my head (I’m pretty sure it was you- I do not trust my own memory to keep these facts straight).

And next- @purrfecktlysinful. You are an amazing writer! I found Solo’s blog through yours, but I also absolutely fell in love with your Reborntale fic. It’s thanks to you and Solo that I started really doing fanart, and...I forgot what else I was going to say on this but you’re both awesome and inspirational and I can really picture the scenes vividly from the way the two of you write. And Purr I am so happy I got to know you because you are an amazingly sweet and kind person and wonderful friend and thanks to you I’ve met even more amazing people! 

@nsfwsinningsans, Ganzy you are aggressively nice and I love that about you. (also your art is awesome and you are adorable <3) @accidentalfeelfest, I don’t care what you say you’re writing is good and I hope you keep at it! @inayuri, it has been wonderful getting to know you in Discord along with everyone else there and goodness my mind is scrambled eggs and I know I’m gonna miss tagging a ton of people but

I just, everyone, I cannot begin to say how happy I am to have met so many wonderful people and made so many amazing friends. I was a very lonely person, I’m thinking I didn’t even realize how much I used to isolate and distance myself from people before. I’ve actually noticed a difference, hanging out with family for the holidays this year. I’m actually talking to people, I’m actually interacting

I’ve initiated hugs and physical contact. It might not sound like much but for me, I’m autistic, I’m touch-sensitive, I have to be a certain level of comfortable with a person and situation in order to be okay with touch. I was never a touchy feely person even with family. But now... I hugged my sister, my cousin, and my uncle today, and I’m just... I’m so happy. Because here’s the thing- I’ve always wanted hugs, I was just always too... intimidated by the idea of them?

What I’m trying to say is y’all have helped me to build social skills that I sorely lacked and I am very grateful for that. 

ALSO HOLY COW ALL YOU FOLLOWERS how are there so many of you I’m used to sitting in my dark little corner being unnoticed on the internet how can there be so many people liking my silly little doodles. (on that note those of you waiting for the comic to update- it’s delayed this week due to the Christmas rush but it’s close to being done. Thank you to everyone who has commented saying they like it and asking for it to continue- such things fill me with determination!)